Finally Forgiven, Mostly Forgotten

Hard to do, forget. Not sure we always should as it warns not to do things that way again. So probably for the best, but sometimes we can forget a while and choose to decide not to remember. We can actively push it away until it becomes automatic. Of course there are triggers but we can choose to keep obsessing over it or send it packing. We choose this. Emotional people have more trouble getting to their choice through their emotion but the choice is there somewhere… dig til ya find it.

But today, I realized that I have finally forgiven a person and all persons involved in a past incident in my life. I am 100% at peace with it all, with them all. And the funny thing is that I really thought I was there already a couple of times before. I was not. I had said the words, thought the right thoughts but too much thinking about it remained, a desire to see what happened next, a will to know, a want to understand, a wish to see. Ever so faint but present nonetheless. And today, watching the grandbaby, seeing my kids in our home, hearing my husband practice guitar, thanking God for the blessings of my life, I thought nothing of this past experience. It would have been a passing caveat, a slight distraction of thought now and again, moreso after contemplation. My mind was finally quiet on the matter. Later, still quiet.

God works in different paces for different depths of pain. But if you keep humble and remain praying, especially if you can fast also, read your Bible, do what you know you should, don’t do what you shouldn’t, draw close to God, He will get you where you want to go in His timing and for your good.

All that being said, I am more ready today than ever for whatever God wants me to do. I am beyond the distraction. I am fully His. And my outlook is more His than it has ever been. And I praise God for doing what I could not do alone, as He has so many times. I owe Him everything and it is all His. I am so thankful. Praise God!!😄❤❤❤

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Fasting Prayers

I will be praying and fasting tomorrow (on Wednesdays). I implore any of you friends who really love the Lord to join me. And if you cannot fast for some reason, please pray with me during meal times. So we are on the same page, my prayers will be:

1. Please purify my soul and my family’s soul and wash us clean by the blood of the Lamb Jesus Christ. Please forgive our sins and renew our strength and purity with the Holy Spirit so we may be in your presence and pray and fast today.

2. The Lord’s Prayer (Matthew 6), with emphasis on “Please, dear Lord, may your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.”

3. Please may God’s prayer warriors be strengthened and focused to pray and fast for your good to triumph over the enemies’ evil.

4. Please protect and strengthen our President Trump and all those officials doing good and please give them wisdom, knowledge, understanding and favor with You and man. May those who have done evil to be caught and prosecuted and be found guilty and punished to the fullest extent of the law. Please allow this to change their hearts to repentance and salvation.

5. Please help our country defund and abolish abortion and injustice so you will forgive and bless our country as a whole.

6. Please allow people to be released from their addictions to tech and social media/phones and pleasure addictions which have become their idols. Please release and help them so they are ready when you come soon for your church.

7. Please purify your church and strengthen her to prayer and fasting and worship together. Destroy the evil within her and cast out demons who have infiltrated. Help your church to remember her job of missions, winning souls for your kingdom, worshipping You. Please help and strengthen and bless Your persecuted church around the world.

8. Please save as many as you can from the clutches of Satan and soften their hearts to Jesus Christ as their Lord for their eternal soul’s sake.

9. Please strengthen and heal my friends and family for prayer and prepare their hearts and souls for your coming.

10. Please keep the demons and evil ones who have chosen to worship them from being effective in the evil they want to do. Stop their plans, dear Lord, and protect us. May all the evil plans come to ruin and be hindered and useless and may You, Lord, and Your angels win every battle.

11. We love and pray for Israel. We pray for her peace and that the Jews will realize that Jesus is their Messiah and be saved. Praise be the God of Israel. Please bless her.

12. We worship you, dear Jesus. We give you praise, honor due you and adore your glory. You are worthy of all our love and adoration and worship. You are holy and true.

In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, amen.❤❤❤

Why I Have Become Anti-Meditation

I used to like the idea of meditation, calming your mind, freeing your thoughts from the calamity around. And I realized one day (or God showed me one day, rather) that it doesn’t work that way and is really quite narcissistic and ego – inflating truly. And momentary calm and a temporary ego boost/pep talk is a poor substitute for inner peace only God n provides. So instead of meditation, and far more meaningful and beautiful, I pray and fast and read the Bible. And I find this dosage of truth and God – mindedness is truly rewarding and peace-giving. And peace is always there with me now, even in calamity. I can weather any storm with God. When I focus on Him, everything is as it should be and wonderful. When I focus on me, I get back a weak, flawed albeit really nice lol person. I choose God. Meditation is distraction and a negative one. I would rather study the truth of the Bible. Far more beneficial and proper.❤

A Bit Spoiled

In life, we can count our woes and regrets or we can count our joys and blessings. This is our choice. Always, this choice is our freedom to make. Right now even. And we are always being pushed to the first option by an enemy that wants us dead. We are presented with many other grumblers, more bad things, gossips with other people’s bad stuff, etc. While this remains, it is still truth that we choose what to focus on, what lens we will choose to see life through. We can be coerced but it stands always that the final decision how life is going is ours alone. My decision is mine. Yours is yours. And I choose to see myself as a bit spoiled by God, living in America the free and brave, able to go to church, able to play piano, living in an air conditioned home with my family, having a car to drive, playing baseball with my kids, teaching them school, having a doctorate, mist importantly being saved from my sins by Jesus Christ my Savior, etc. I am more than a bit spoiled. And I choose to be blessed and see the truth of every blessing and joy God has lovingly seen fit to provide me. Everyone has a different lot in life. I could have been born to an impoverished large third world family with no Bible, a cardboard home and little opportunity to improve. Many possible positions and situations for me to live in were possible. Yet, He smiled on me with filtered running water, electeicity, a yard to plant a garden in, a dog, sewing skills, etc. I am so very blessed! I am spoiled by my Heavenly Father. And this is how we need to see the world.😄❤

Impossible Not to Trip When Looking Behind

It is impossible not to trip when looking behind you. Just a reminder, focus on the present and goal ahead. You will get there. Don’t let the wrong focus make you fumble. God is worth more than a half-hearted journey.❤❤❤

New Age Crap

New Age crap sounds good. It will even temporarily make you feel good, great even. The truth about it is that it focuses you on yourself, the opposite focus we should have, which is on God. It is directly opposing God. It is in fact replacing Him OR putting Him in a box inside us, as in we are powerful, we are gods, we are worthy of all our attention and pampering.

Let me be clear, we should love and care for ourselves and work to improve, but that is what we should do for others too AND God should always get center stage, top billing, all the praise, adoration and honor.

God lovingly and with great care and thought and wisdom created every single thing, animal, person we know of in this universe. He is the boss of it. That is true no matter what you believe, feel, want, campaign for, like, love, whatever.

So instead of all that narcissistic self-improvement crap and blather, try some reading your Bible and praying to and worshipping God. He is worthy, we are not.❤❤❤

Driving Through Life

Think of living life in Christ as driving down the road. If you focus on the destination ahead, you will get there. If you keep staring at the myriad of buildings, pedestrians, bikes, lakes, trails, etc. (the distractions), you are much more likely to crash and at the least not be as efficient at driving. Drive through life focused on the eternal destination ahead. And God remains your Power Source, Companion, Comforter, Guide, etc. So cool!❤