The Weather Inside

I try to keep my inner climate steady and calm and God helps with that. It is like being indoors in a controlled, steady environment regardless of what storms rage outside or troops waging war or occasionally evenall is serene and the same state and temperature so I can temporarily open the windows and let in some fresh air. And that is what being a Christian is like inside. Now, if we do not properly maintain the air handler, we get an influx of the weather outside, so we must maintain our relationship with Jesus to keep everything functioning as it should be. And when we have that focus and all works right, it does not matter one iota what the heck is going on outside our skin or even to it. Our peace runs deeper. Our joy flows higher. Our understanding is sweeter. Praise God!❤❤❤

Hebrews 10:30-39

Hebrews 10:30. “For we know him who said, “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” and again, “The Lord will judge his people.” 31. It is a dreadful thing to fall into the hands of the living God. 32. Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you endured in a great conflict full of suffering. 33. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. 34. You suffered along with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions. 35. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. 36. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. 37. For, “In just a little while, he who is coming will come and will not delay.” 38. And, “But my righteous one will live by faith. And I take no pleasure in the one who shrinks back.” 39. But we do not belong to those who shrink back and are destroyed, but to those who have faith and are saved.”

Heaven Will Be Wonderful!

This is my new catch phrase now. It keeps my mind right. Q:”How’s it going, Tonya?” A:”Heaven will be wonderful!” Q:”You have so much to do.” A:”Heaven will be wonderful!” You get the point. Keeps my mind fixed on the preciousness of evil – free eternity with Jesus. It is easier to focus on the present when daydreaming of a brilliant future. ☺❤❤❤

Focusing on God

The worst thing that can happen to us is being distracted to the point of building your own little partition between you and God. It is like each distraction is a brick or several bricks, depending upon its demand for your attention. And what takes down a brick wall is always effort. Now if we provide that effort, it is a slow tedious process. But if God steps in and provides the effort, instantly gone! So, the way to get Him involved is to stop what you are doing and humble your heart and pray. Bam! Done! Then keep clearing away the rubble by eliminating one distraction are are time. Bye, Facebook. Bye, computer. Bye, excess entertainment. Bye, unforgiveness. Bye, addiction. Bye, judging others. And so on. Better to lose one thing (or everything temporary) than everything eternal. ❤

Opposition in the Home

I live in a home where we walk on eggshells. We are scrutinized, criticized, accused, critiqued and unless we do what is expected or approved of ahead of time, we could be shamed and put down or at the least washed in angry sarcasm by my husband. No one in the family can breathe freely. Me either most of the time. And this weighs on me. It is abusive. It hurts. It is not comfortable. And I stay. Why? Because I am married and will stay. Marriage is not a walk in the park, especially when one believes they are the only smart or worthy one in the family. This is excrutiating at times, especially with the kids, specifically my son who gets the brunt of it. Why tell this? Because it seems like now when people encounter opposition in marriage, they don’t stay, they leave. It is what I did before. And I drug my son through a divorce that broke his heart. I will never do that to a child again. And I pray and trust God. My relationship with the Lord has deepened and I love Him deeper than I ever have because I rely on Him alone. I rely on God for comfort, for assurance, for the hope of heaven, for gentleness, for love. And I am teaching my kids to rely on God too. And it is working, they are. That is an amazing gift to give, the most important ever. So there are always reasons to stay and pray and work through it and do the best you can. And there is much good also, just the negative is on my mind because I was just yelled at. But the good also exists, he pays the bills, is bettering the house, does teach the kids also, plays great guitar, takes us out to eat, etc. So I am also demonstrating how to find and remember the good, even when the bad is obvious. The truth is bad and good are never exclusive. One always is present with the other because God is everywhere and the devil/evil lives on earth. So you can focus on the badness or the goodness. And I choose to focus on the goodness. I have to, Jesus commanded it. So it is good. Life is what you make of it. So is marriage. ❤

Mounting Misery

Now, I believe this mounting misery I and so many of my friends/family are experiencing are spiritual attacks in origin. I believe the enemy is grasping to destroy as many people as possible because his time is short and Jesus’ return and reign is soon. So bad guys are ramping up their game, the enemy is attacking harder, people’s spiritual decisions become more apparent. The problem with this is that we feel it. It is very real for us, not some intangible idea but a very real things are horrible sometimes kind of thing. Sometimes seems unbearable and I cry a lot. Yes, this tower of encouragement and strength weeps like a little girl at the despair, loneliness, attacks, ugliness around me, problems other people are having. It is very hard. So I wanted to encourage you to remember that things are real yes but are guided and orchestrated by a demon or principality of darkness and evil. Willing people are often used by these evil beings as pawns but our fight is truly a spiritual one. So we must fight together and help and lift each other up and band together using our most powerful spiritual weapons: contrition, salvation, prayer, worship, drawing close to God, Bible reading and fellowship. That is it. Problem is the same as the day of the first sin just is more escalated now. Message and solution are the same simple message and solution as ever also. We got this. Do not lose hope or stop fighting. Be strong andolutionnd courageous. Do not be afraid. God has overcome already. Remember that and cling to Him and His promises. I am right here with you and God sure is too. Love you! God is good!!❤❤❤

Picking the Wrong Battles to Fight

My daddy was a boxing instructor in the Marines, so we watched a lot of boxing back in the day. So I love boxing analogies. Lol And in general, the key to never losing a fight is to pick the right fight. Yeah, sometimes people will surprise you and get in a good hit anyway, but you have done your best to minimize damage and be victorious. So in life, we need to conserve our energy and pick the right fight. There are many out there. Many. Any number of fights to be had. And what someone’s outer appearance is or whether they know proper etiquette or what translation of Bible they read (despiteth howest thou likest the perfecteth KJV, becauseth everyone talkest thusly) or what the name is on the church. These things do not matter at all. Not one bit. There are real issues no one is talking about. There is a sin problem, an avoiding church problem, a my kids can beat a video game in 2 days straight but don’t know a Bible verse problem, an abortion problem, and here’s the biggest one of all, a problem of people choosing sin and eternal hell to humble repentance (contrition) and eternal heaven. This is a huge problem. This is a good fight to take on. Because Jesus already won this one for them, they just need truth and prayer to open their hearts and accept it. As a big picture person, I rarely get hung up majoring on the minors, but I am not always fighting what I should be fighting. But way too much attention is being put on inconsequential matters and not enough people are fighting for people’s eternal soul destination. There attention only two options: heaven or hell and I don’t and God doesn’t want anyone to go there because of His great love for us. I love because He loves. Fight that fight. Help them if you can, win their hearts for God who longs for more children to adopt. I don’t want anyone going to hell. I will fight that fight. ❤