Thank You

I wanted to thank those who prayed for my little family. We have been blessed by your prayers today. I testify that God answers prayers. I am ill so was low energy with the same work and I was dreading this day and I know many of you prayed for us. I know because things were much much better today. Thank you so much for praying. Please continue if the Spirit moves you. Also, publicly I thank you, God and praise You for hearing us and wisely helping. What an amazing God we serve!!! I love you!❤

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Past Clarity

Many can relate, I have spoken with many who get it, who feel me when I say I grew up neglected and criticized. My dad was my strongest supporter but he was rarely home. My grandmas loved me but one I did not see anywhere near enough and one was too busy and clean for me as a kid. My Aunt supported me but was married to a control freak and started her own family. I would have given anything for regular encouragement. So I got straight “A’s” for a pat on the back from school and volunteered for everything at church to feel valuable there. I cleaned the entire house, mowed the lawn, played the piano brilliantly, searched and searched for encouragement and attention, both of which I lacked. Instead I received criticism from my mom and abuse and verbal attacks from my lazy sister. And God gave me the grace to move forward. I decided at age 9 to be a doctor and poured into that goal. I wrote songs, played piano and sang. All searching for encouragement and attention. When looking for a husband, I wanted encouragement and attention and ended up with attention man who criticized and ignored me. God kept moving me forward. After divorcing him and remarrying, my current husband was great at first and now is criticizing me. And now my son is being raised with criticism. So now I know I am the problem. I must be unable to be encouraged. I must do everything wrong. I must be weird. But God keeps moving me forward. You see, I realize that God is the Maker of me. He made me strong to get this far. He made me smart to become that doctor. He made me musical to play for Him. Whether or not any other human being appreciates me or encourages me ever, I know Whose I am. I am God’s little girl. I am the girl He has forgiven and loves and has gifted to worship Him. I am God’s and He keeps moving me forward as encouragement. And if He is the only One I have, He is the only One I need and that is enough. I am content. I trust no human but I trust God. And heaven is not far off, for He will come soon for us. Then none of this unfair life will matter, it will all be forgotten, so long as we keep moving forward with God and saved by Jesus. ❤

Keep Praying

The requests grow linger every day, just keep praying.

Your mountains rise from molehill made, just keep praying.

Drama arises to attack, just keep praying.

No more energy to fight back, just keep praying.

It may seem a worthless tool, but please remember God saith

A prayer will only be answered with humbleness and faith.

Combine those and present them high and keep your eyes upon the sky

And just keep praying.❤

Standing Up for Children & the Elderly

Children and the elderly need us to defend them, support them. Hopefully the elderly have family to care for them but I have seen plenty who don’t. Hopefully children have loving parents to look out for them but often they don’t either. And sometimes the caregivers are there but are so narcissistic and lost in their own cares and addictions and agenda that children or elderly are not heard or cared for properly. We have a huge problem with end times “lovers of self and lovers of pleasure”. And in order to care for someone else properly, we need to love them which requires a certain amount of self-sacrifice. So, it is of great value to remember that the God who made us is also the God who knows what good or evil we do, who we serve, who we value and will reward or punish us based on those findings, for all eternity. And we have a finite opportunity to produce for ourselves infinite consequences, for better or worse. And children and the elderly who need us is our primary focus and objective. They cannot get through life successfully without our help. We must put them first.❤

Serving Together

My answer to the selfishness that attempt to sneak into us all is service. I force myself and now my kids (my peroggative) into a position of being humble enough to serve someone else. This forces focus onto someone else and you reap the internal rewards of joy God gives you for it. We just started delivering food and commodities to the needy elderly through a wonderful local organization. We drove to very beat down areas of town and some smelly situations and destitute people and gave them needed things and warm hugs and smiles. Immediate gratification: we felt good for having helped and loved and were honored by being Jesus for them in that moment. Also, my kids felt genuinely amazing for having helped and us doing it together. They also were able to appreciate our seeming riches in contrast to the humble we saw. We were humbled at ever grumbling or wishing for more than we had for it was obvious that in the scheme of things, we are so so very blessed already. I challenge you to serve the community somehow as a family if you can and aren’t already. When you help anyone, you help God. There is nothing like it and no beauty so clearly true than doing so. ❤

Kids Choir

So, we have been practicing our two Christmas songs for about a month and a half a capella because of not having a piano or keyboard in the room with us. I was going to play keys later. But I made an executive decision tonight. We have practiced all this time without music, just our voices, and the kids are doing great. So we are going to present the song the same way. I want them to be successfull and adding something now will only confuse them and potentially set them up for failure. So there you go. And I tell you all this for two reasons. 1. If something is working, support it by keeping it as is. If it needs changing, change it, but do not add a variable last minute that may throw a wrench in the system. Provide what your people need for their best result. 2. You be the flexible one. The leader must be flexible in order to lead most effectively sometimes. Asking the led to be flexible is silly. You be flexible. Remember, the success of the team/project/choir is the goal, not fulfilling what the little narcissist in you expected or demanded to happen. Lol. I find it easier to ask myself whether my decision is for the good of the goal or the good of my ego and adjust accordingly. This strategy has never failed me when applied. Hope this helps someone. God bless you as you lead! ❤

Maturity=Acceptance

I think maturity is acceptance. I think we who strive to mature wisely (and I have found it is a purposeful decision) must push toward acceptance of all things. Yes, we may want to change things and yes, when asked (for that is the only time it is ever accepted) we must speak truth and wisdom learned from life to others headed toward wrong/detrimental decisions. But we strive for acceptance. Acceptance that we are not in control oft anything but ourselves and we need God for even that. Acceptance that others have every right in the world to ignore all wisdom and logic. Acceptance that we may be alone with God for long periods of time and that is ok. Acceptance that when walking with God, we will be attacked more than those from other religions even because God is alive and so is His enemy (and His enemy can’t hurt God so tries to hurt His children). Acceptance that I must walk in humble prayer all the time, constantly. Acceptance that there is always a new lesson and annul ways something to do but rest is a part of that too. Acceptance that nothing is perfect or fair until Heaven.❤