Elbow Grease

Step 10 of the pantry going in was scraping the popcorn off the ceiling (and tomorrow I paint it white). And the top cabinets are in and can be painted white tomorrow and then installed for steps 13-20. Lol Then we put up the tile backsplash (super excited about that) and hardware and all that’s left is the sink and faucet installation and we are done!!!! This is so much work but we are doing most of it ourselves so are saving money and it is beautiful!! I love projects that are beneficial for our family! Such a good feeling! Thank you, God, for the work, the change, the benefit and family time. God is so good!!

Stuck In Between

More of life than I ever imagined is stuck in between the cracks of life. More of a big picture person with a selective eye for detail and vision and art/beauty and empathy, I lived most of my life rather bored with the details. With a psychologist for a mom who preferred to psychoanalyze rather than converse, I learned little of small talk, which suited my personality just fine. I prefer zooming out, I gravitate to it. Seeing too many details to me has always grated, always left me why we were still talking about that little tidbit when the real story was so much bigger. It was tedious, unnatural, majoring on the minors, there were much bigger fish to fry. Sounds awful to many, no doubt, but we have to start with what we’re dealt and there is a place for big picture thinking. A huge place up in the clouds. Where I sat. Not because I was better than anyone at all but because that is where my eyes could focus. So please as that. My teachers would be the first to say that I was daydreaming as often as I was listening and doodling or writing or in motion the rest of it. I heard the detail oriented words school necessarily focuses on and learned the facts, the words, but my mind did not come to life truly to remember it and put it all together in a meaningful relevant way unless I had a teacher who zoomed out with me and then drew me back in. I had some of these teachers, some I am still friends with. I digress, the point is that big picture people are more comfortable speaking big picture but are generally awkward in society where the majority of folks are not big picture people. Big picture keeps you in the clouds. Until. Until you learn, as my loved ones are teaching me, that details are where real life happens. I am even learning small talk and found it amazing that I could carry on a conversation people weren’t freaked out or perplexed or amazed by or made to feel uncomfortable with. Big picture people can be silent and feel cozy where detail people will interpret silence as something awkward or uncomortable. I am learning this and am trying to speak, fill in between the spaces. I am realizing that the details are here and now and important things happen there and are worth discussion. I am learning that I am a better artist if the details are focused on more. I am learning that the more you focus on details, the more you can see the flaws and am understanding perfectionists a little better and not seeing them simply as evil or prideful warlords of things that don’t matter (just being honest with what I had to think). I am seeing the draw to critique the details and scrutinize them in order to do things better next time. I will still not do that with people though because I still think that is mean but I am understanding why more. If we see things from other people’s perspective, we can love people better and understand them better too. We grow in maturity by branching out away from our natural bent. And there are beautiful things in the here and now details I realize I was missing out on before. Big things matter and tiny things matter. Look at the extraordinary detail and care God put into the tiniest wild flower. If details were not important t, He would not have gone to such great lengths for them. Life is lived in the big picture but breathes in the in between spaces, the details.