The Advantage of Surrender

Those of us who learn and run the hard way into addiction have an advantage over everyone else once in recovery. The advantage is surrender. Humility. Our addiction was winning, killing us, the hold a demon had on us was vivid and real. There was no doubt of our sins, they were obvious to all around us. We can’t pretend to be perfect, to not need Jesus. We can’t. But at some point, God showed mercy on us and pulled us up from death to life, like new birth, being born again. All from us laying our addiction down and surrendering to God for help. And because we surrendered ourselves and had this new birth, we are humble enough to receive salvation. Surrender is the key, the advantage. And after surrender, God’s love floods in and strength keeps us close to Him. Closer relationship with Christ is the reward for surrender. And that trust we can have in Him is sacred, the most important thing. Surrender is the best thing we can do.😃❤️

The Reluctant Walk to Jesus

So many people love talking about God but won’t talk about Jesus Christ (in Greek) aka Yehoshua- shortened to Yeshua- Hamashiach (in Hebrew). Jesus the Messiah is who saves us. The Bible says Jesus Christ is the Way, the Truth and the Life and no one comes to the Father God but through Him. Why? Because Jesus Christ came down to die and on the third day be resurrected for our sins. It is He who covers us and all our sins with Himself so Father God sees us as holy to be redeemed to Heaven with Him. We need to believe and have a relationship wiyh Jesus Christ to be saved. People are reluctant because you first have to humbly admit you need a Savior and the enemy we all have does not want you to drop our pride so puffs it up and distracts us and tempts us to temporary pleasing things. But the way to Jesus is the right way and comes with eternal rewards as well as peace and joy and grace and mercy now. 😃❤️

Shaking a Fist at God

This imagery has been brought into my head lately. Whenever we insist on doing what we want- and for years as an addict I did this so I speak from experience- we are pridefully shaking our fist at God. We are saying we want what we want and don’t want to hear what our loving Creator wants from or for us. We are praying our will be done rather than God’s will be done. We are screaming that we know better than almighty God, who made us.

God brought me, loved me, into recovery, into humble submission to His plan. Jesus bought with His own blood and cleaned me up inside and out. I am not who I was and I am free now and joyful, I have peace. All this because I have accepted His plan for me and humbled myself to accept love and grace. It is so very beautiful! I am so thankful! Praise God!😃❤️


I am a weirdo. I embrace it. I love it. I admire myself for being my authentic, God-created-different-self and maybe that makes me even weirder. I am secure in my Maker which makes me secure in me. That has always made me weird. And even weirder is that my main spiritual gift is faith in God so I have a fearlessness (I only fear God) I rarely see in others and a sense of security I also rarely see. None of this is to brag but to show how weird I am.

People try to reassure me I am normal but the weirdness of me does not want to be normal. I am good with hoe God made me. I embrace it because I embrace Him. I am good with different. Moreso, I am a stranger and alien because of belonging to Christ and a resident of heaven. Also, I am very cool with weird and different. And I, though a girl, was born a leader. Also weird. Also embraced.

God deserves my thankfulness at how He made me more than He wants me to not want to be how He made me and try to be like other people He made to be different in some way. Conformity is a slap in His face, a shaking the fist at Him. No, I embrace weird. I am happy to be who God wants and made me to be. And I particularly love other peoples’ God-designed weird. Is good. It celebrates God’s creative greatness.😃❤️