I grew up fighting. I fought myself internally because I knew my power from a young age and needed to keep myself controlled. I fought physically because my sister had some anger issues and instability (as an adult diagnosed bipolar) so attacked me regularly and I had to defend myself very often. Also, we grew up my single digit years in a trailer park and there were a mess of people who liked to mess with you and pick fights. For myself, I just defended or avoided but if a bully was picking on someone else, I was instantly in attack mode. And to boot, my daddy was a marine and taught boxing so he taught me how to fight well. And like any boxer, I never have lost a fight. And I am going to share my secret. Prayer and faith. That is it. There were times I did not realize that is what it was and there were times I in my pride took credit for it as if my strength was so great. Ha! What it was is that I live my life in an attitude of prayer and humility. See, I have from birth been gifted by God with the tool of faith. I have unconditional faith in God, unwavering belief that every word He says is absolutely and unquestioning true and I memorized from a young age Philippians 4:13. I took that literally. I still do. And now I realize that God had granted my heart’s prayers to win the fights I saw as justice against bullies because I believed with God, there is winning. And as a bonus gift, God grated me wisdom to know which battles were worth fighting. For instance, my ex’s wife was in the cat when they dropped my son off upon returning him, and she was acting very hostile and picking a fight with me. I was watering the grass and plants at the time. And she wanted to fight me (probably because I had revealed to my ex that she was abusive to my son when he wasn’t there, and she is). And I would have accommodate her had I not been taking care of something far more important in my life, watering the grass. I had no impulse to meet a fight, despite the fact that I exposed the truth and I am never going to lose against a liar because God is on the aide of truth. But I was not drawn by God to the battle field. See, it would have made me look guilty and she was deflecting from her own guilt and trying to draw me in. It is what the liberals are doing to America and our President Trump now. They are not worth the fight or attention either. The thing is, when there is a moral reason for a fight, not a selfish one, but you have a spirit of humble prayer and a heart to stand up for God and what is right, God will accept your faith and fight for you. Let me be clear, this must be in line with God’s will and peace must be pursued first. And how you fight is also important, only stopping the wrong and not angry vengeance or punishment. And there you go: humble prayer and faith and God helps. That is the answer to winning every fight. Willingness to fight for God and His truth and His weaker souls is honored by God. It would be lovely and will be lovely in heaven someday where there is no sin or bullies but until then, we must stand for the right causes for God. Not that He needs us to but that He wants us to be willing to. A contrite heart is always endearing to God and mix faith with that and that is an amazing combination. Because of God and His love for us, it is so. I sure do love Him!! ❤
Driving home from doing a consultation today, I passed many aggressive drivers, seemingly mad/bonkers/angry or on something and passed two accidents, which inconvenienced many. I yried to catch up on news and half of it was fake and the rest was bad. And I thought to myself, is the entire world mad now? Madness is everywhere. Serious turmoil you can feel is all around us on every side. But I have a secret. I want to tell you because I believe you would want to know. This secret is where I have found that madness ceases and peace and joy and love reign supreme and are not even touched by the madness. You ready for my secret, my fortress of solitude? It is somewhere you can carry with you. It is Jesus. His name is sweet to say and powerful to use. It is like a powerful sword that is really made of solidified honey. Speaking to God in prayer with Jesus’ name is my secret spot. No one can ever take it away, no one even knows you go there unless you tell them and absolutely anything may be discussed there, the throne of God, my Heavenly Father. That is it. My secret is now your secret. Madness ceases in God’s presence for He outguns it. Anger melts away, mourning hearts are comforted. He is coming soon and I am ready and want everyone to be ready. ❤
They say that God speaks in a gentle breeze. While that is true, He certainly speaks however He wants to. He is God, after all. That is a big word and an infinitely bigger person. And for me personally, He can speak through a gentle whisper of a tornado. It has happened in my life, maybe because my pride or stubbornness or maybe I am denser and just more plain determined to get my way than I envisioned but I firmly believe when He has done this, it was out of loving necessity. See, He has never given up on me. And this world is all the generous grace we get. Once we die, our decisions of whether to obey/worship or not are our final decisions. We only have this brief time on earth to decide how our eternity after will be, wonderful or horrifying. And I would rather go through an eye opening tornado of a wake up call now than throw away that loving grace and opportunity to be humble and live happy forever. God is everything. He made us, this is all about Him and He is so very good/perfect/loving/holy!! How stupid was I and would I be again to pick up anything else to worship than Him?? What temporary pleasure (and everything but Him is temporary at best) is worth chasing where it is more important than my heavenly Father?? Is any amount of temporary pleasure worth eternal separation from God?? Uh, no. No person, no thing, no drug, no porn, no power, no lie, no agends, no meager success, nothing. Not one thing. So a tornado of life woke me up, thank God for it. I am awake. And thanks to His grace, I am forgiven and holy and saved. Oh how I love Him!!!
A quote tribute to Lion King, or something like that. I had trouble, so many often have trouble letting go of something holding you back, whether someone’s negative statement in your head or an old flame or a past temptation or a desire to go back to simpler times or a grasp on people who have passed. There is something in most people’s life that is present but has past a while ago. And these things are generally comfort zones for us or good excuses to be lazy or not try harder or not enjoy life now because you would dishonor this or that person or memory. These things, good or bad things, need to go behind us on our journey. They, again good or bad, are an extra burden to carry on your present journey of life, with life as a hiking trip to heaven. I love Pilgrim’s Progress for that reason. It is true. There are so many things to stop us and deter us from our quest, good and bad. And here we are carrying this extra baggage. It is heavy. God gives us every day what we need for the journey for that day and that barrage of trials. The extra weight needs to be unloaded. How do we do that? There is an obvious emotional attachment to these things/people. There is a heart connection or we would not still have it now right? Well, God is our loving Heavenly Father as well as the most powerful being in the universe, and when we humbly ask Him to help us and mean it for the purpose of God being more important than what we are clinging to (the Bible calls them idols), God answers that sincere prayer. How do I know? Because He did it for me. And I am just a little girl. If He can do it for me, He can do it for you. Then keep praying every day not to pick it back up again. God and you have this!!!
Psalm 140:1. “Rescue me, Lord, from evildoers; protect me from the violent, 2. who devise evil plans in their hearts and stir up war every day. 3. They make their tongues as sharp as a serpent’s; the poison of vipers is on their lips. 4. Keep me safe, Lord, from the hands of the wicked; protect me from the violent, who devise ways to trip my feet. 5. The arrogant have hidden a snare for me; they have spread out the cords of their net and have set traps for me along my path. 6. I say to the Lord, “You are my God.” Hear, Lord, my cry for mercy. 7. Sovereign Lord, my strong deliverer, you shield my head in the day of battle. 8. Do not grant the wicked their desires, Lord; do not let their plans succeed. 9. Those who surround me proudly rear their heads; may the mischief of their lips engulf them. 10. May burning coals fall on them; may they be thrown into the fire, into miry pits, never to rise. 11. May slanderers not be established in the land; may disaster hunt down the violent. 12. I know that the Lord secures justice for the poor and upholds the cause of the needy. 13. Surely the righteous will praise your name, and the upright will live in your presence.”
- Ok, so one tool. Today, my hubby bought me a luxury to help make my work a little easier. He bought me a power sander! And it had a bag to catch the dust so I am not inhaling that and it is velcro to put a new sandpaper disc on!! So the pantry cabinets were sanded so much faster and with so much less effort than if I were sanding by hand. And I got a new power toy!! It worked so well!!! Still painted the cabinets and doors with a brush by hand but baby steps, people. And I had power in my hands, baby! Raw harnessed power sanding to perfection. And it felt good and was fun. Ok, so I am easily amused but that was sheer pleasure using that thing. I see why guys like their power tools so much! Like a kid in a candy shop. Anyway, I digress. Get ya a power tool and enjoy on your next job. 🙂 ❤ And thank you, hubby, for the new experience and fun and thank you, God, because all good things come from you and I give you the glory! Yay! 😄
With a new pantry comes something welcome, a reprieve from the doldrums. I was itching for a change. I am wildly ambitious internally and have trouble sitting still without doing something productive and I have been a tad stir crazy. I guess as I am more myself again, I am more energetic like I used to be and need to do something. So the new pantry allows me change, doing something, rearranging the kitchen, working on making it more productive and work for us best. It is a little challenge. It is a blessing. God always, in His wisdom, provides for us what we need, especially when we need movement. When we want to work, God loves providing opportunities to work. So thank you, God, for this new pantry! I am so glad for the change I needed so badly!! God is so good!!!