I have always been a traveller. I have always felt like a foreigner. I have always been weird, out of the loop, never popular and never wanting to be, always well known and a leader naturally but never feeling like I really belong or am accepted as I am fully- except with God, with my best friend, with my Daddy, with my Aunt Rosie and my Grandmas. I guess that is more than most but the only living ones left are God, of course, Aunt Rosie and Shawny and God is the only one less than a day’s drive away. So I would be terribly lonely without the Lord. Yes, I teach and kids, old people and animals love me, but that is it. I am.not sure most of the time my husband likes me. I am just a weird cut. Don’t get me wrong, I am ok with that most of the time. But right now, I am lonely.
So, when lonely and homesick for my hometown and family, I pray and God, who has always been there loving me, comforts me. To Him I go and love Him so much! And He brings me joy and peace and love. And someday soon I will be caught up and delivered to Heaven. And that I am looking forward to and can call home. It will be good to finally be home.😄❤
Well, God knew I needed rest much more than I needed to get caught up on homework and housework. So, God provided for this little girl of His yet again and blessed me with a phone call resulting in a day at a resort. No, not the whole day, but several sorely needed hours of rest by a pool catching up with my spiritual parents. The kids and I packed up our suits and drove to Celebration to spend the day relaxing with them and basking in their peace and encouragement. What a day! We got back dehydrated and physically drained but uplifted and encouraged with peace and joy at the exact same time. How beautiful are the blessings of the Lord! I am overwhelmed with luxury of having such a loving God that meets my needs and even blessing me with comfort. Yes, I work very hard, but God always rewards me with more than I started with. Praise Yahweh!❤❤❤
Most nights now, I sleep like a baby.
Tonight I am still awake at 2:30am with my thoughts and songs.
And I made peace with my past yet again.
And I realize that without the devastation, I would not know myself so well. I would not be so strong and realize it fully.
So much more importantly, without the horrible, I never would have known the enor ity of the love of God. I would never have known the vast depth of His comfort. I would have never fully comprehended that if all I ever had in this world was Jesus Christ, I would be perfectly complete.
So, having completed that very precious truth in my brain, I will now go to sleep. Peaceful and full of joy.
God is everything. All is well. No worries. Ever.♥
God blessed us with a rain day, a day off of PE. I am happy because my sinuses around my eyes are going nuts right now and I needed some time alone with God to just breathe. I had to reset. My mind has played some reruns and wrong channels lately and it was really getting me weighed down and feeling far from my Savior. So He gave me this morning off to get my heart into contrite mode and give everything to Him, confess and just repent. I told a friend about it. And God forgave me (as evidenced by the feeling of a smile and burden lifted) and we are back. And God is so precious and so good and loves us so much. I feel Him close and am so thankful and want to give Him glory for His love and grace and just compassion on us. He may be the only one in the world that loves me and that would be enough, all I ever need. He loves that well. 😄❤❤❤