I have always been a traveller. I have always felt like a foreigner. I have always been weird, out of the loop, never popular and never wanting to be, always well known and a leader naturally but never feeling like I really belong or am accepted as I am fully- except with God, with my best friend, with my Daddy, with my Aunt Rosie and my Grandmas. I guess that is more than most but the only living ones left are God, of course, Aunt Rosie and Shawny and God is the only one less than a day’s drive away. So I would be terribly lonely without the Lord. Yes, I teach and kids, old people and animals love me, but that is it. I am.not sure most of the time my husband likes me. I am just a weird cut. Don’t get me wrong, I am ok with that most of the time. But right now, I am lonely.
So, when lonely and homesick for my hometown and family, I pray and God, who has always been there loving me, comforts me. To Him I go and love Him so much! And He brings me joy and peace and love. And someday soon I will be caught up and delivered to Heaven. And that I am looking forward to and can call home. It will be good to finally be home.😄❤
Well, God knew I needed rest much more than I needed to get caught up on homework and housework. So, God provided for this little girl of His yet again and blessed me with a phone call resulting in a day at a resort. No, not the whole day, but several sorely needed hours of rest by a pool catching up with my spiritual parents. The kids and I packed up our suits and drove to Celebration to spend the day relaxing with them and basking in their peace and encouragement. What a day! We got back dehydrated and physically drained but uplifted and encouraged with peace and joy at the exact same time. How beautiful are the blessings of the Lord! I am overwhelmed with luxury of having such a loving God that meets my needs and even blessing me with comfort. Yes, I work very hard, but God always rewards me with more than I started with. Praise Yahweh!❤❤❤
Most nights now, I sleep like a baby.
Tonight I am still awake at 2:30am with my thoughts and songs.
And I made peace with my past yet again.
And I realize that without the devastation, I would not know myself so well. I would not be so strong and realize it fully.
So much more importantly, without the horrible, I never would have known the enor ity of the love of God. I would never have known the vast depth of His comfort. I would have never fully comprehended that if all I ever had in this world was Jesus Christ, I would be perfectly complete.
So, having completed that very precious truth in my brain, I will now go to sleep. Peaceful and full of joy.
God is everything. All is well. No worries. Ever.♥
God blessed us with a rain day, a day off of PE. I am happy because my sinuses around my eyes are going nuts right now and I needed some time alone with God to just breathe. I had to reset. My mind has played some reruns and wrong channels lately and it was really getting me weighed down and feeling far from my Savior. So He gave me this morning off to get my heart into contrite mode and give everything to Him, confess and just repent. I told a friend about it. And God forgave me (as evidenced by the feeling of a smile and burden lifted) and we are back. And God is so precious and so good and loves us so much. I feel Him close and am so thankful and want to give Him glory for His love and grace and just compassion on us. He may be the only one in the world that loves me and that would be enough, all I ever need. He loves that well. 😄❤❤❤
People say they want to truth. Deep down that is true but most really don’t want to let go of their wants and self-pampering comfort to seek it out, settling for their carnal nature feeding and stroking and pride puffing words teeming with lies. Truth is far easier and healthier but people want their cravings fed. What we need is the truth of Christ Jesus. He is the Way, Truth and Life. No one comes to God without Him. Never be content with comfort unless you have the eternal security of the truth of the Bible as a foundation first. True comfort is eternal security. That shallow comfort is temporary at best and never really that good anyway. Put in the effort and God will reward you forever in Heaven. Never give up your temporary for your eternity. Eternity is longer than you think and temporary is shorter than you can imagine.❤
Weird thing to say. Especially as I say that you have arrived and matured spiritually in life when you are content in any and every circumstance, trusting God with the details.
No, this is more of a comfort matter. I can be content and not be comfortable. In fact, this is my M.O., my credo, my life story. I can name on one hand the times I have been truly comfortable AND content being myself naturally. Most of the time I was trying to fit some mold or obey parents or obey teachers or please parents or fit in at church or not seem crazy despite my being so often. I don’t think like anyone I know… I am naturally a nature girl, pianist, singer/songwriter, artist, writer/author, sports girl, leader, seamstress, fashion designer, machine tinkerer, carpenter, mechanic loving, farming, mommy, wife, animal and children and elderly-loving, mission-minded Christian. Tell me where I can ever be myself. Does all that seem to fit together cohesively? Does it fit any person in church maybe? Work? Who can handle all that? No, I have always had to tone me down to some standard of social normalcy.
That being said, there is wisdom and greatness involved and resulting from not getting too comfortable. I believe if we choose to act, serve, do, be, love rather than sit around being comfortable, we please God. I have yet to find the verse some people live by that God is pleased by those who sit around in comfort and please themselves. It is not n in the Bible, does not exist. It is a device of the devil. An idiot believes God expects nothing of us but our comfort. Like Jesus dies for our sins so we can hang out watching TV and feeding our faces or be in social media all day making sure we do nothing to be censored by their demonic agenda (why I quit facebook and all social media over a year ago). No, God says to live out our faith, serve, love, help. We are not in existence to pamper our own behinds. We are here for God, to demonstrate and worship His glory and encourage each other in home and church.❤
As I gain, ahem, maturity, I am not sure which comforts me more. Either it is that nothing surprises God ever at all OR it is that everything He does is motivated by His unfathomable reckless love.❤❤❤