Comfort Levels

It is fascinating how people differ so much in their comfort levels doing different. Some people are right at home on stage. Some would rather drink poison. Some people are very comfortable working hard outside, some people prefer quiet work in the air conditioning. It is usually guided by our giftedness f t om God. And the beauty of the kingdom of God is that the here is no right answer. Everyone has a role an DC everyone is equally important. Equally. In fact, to me personally, an on-stage, public speaker/worship leader type person, those taking care of the background details seem much more important because it allows us all to function in our giftedness smoothly and if I had to sit down and do tedious work, my spirit would very quickly go from thriving to surviving and struggling very quickly. We have to operate within our comfort level ( within reason, I mean we can’t always do our jobs from soaking in a hottub Lol). We ate generally operating in our giftedness when we are comfortable. I am uncomfortable sitting in the congregation during worship. I just am. I worship alone in quiet but around other people, I need to be leading. That is what I am designed for. We need to do what we are designed to do to be comfortable and content in our work for God. ❤ 

Oh the Delight of Dusk

My favorite time of the day is dusk in summer. I love the beauty of it, the rich colors of the sunset, the luxurious tranquility, the nature coming alive again, the serenity of swinging on the porch swing and be accepted with it all, one of God’s fellow creations. I have had some very hard days lately (don’t usually try to focus on that) and have cried more than my fair share of loved ones gone. I miss them very much. 💔 But drying my tears, I swing at dusk and here are the remnants of color, birds twittering, the blessings g of a hummingbird, a tree frog emerges from behing the wall sun decoration to eat, flowers are blooming, herbs are growing, talking to God I am calm again. I am thankful and blessed. My tears are dry. I am content that God is with me even if no one else is, which happens. God is all I need and the world He made is incredible! There are so many nuggets of perfection of beauty to feast on. The quilt is coming along. My daughter is in bed. My son is visiting his Grandparents for 2 weeks. Friends gave me a fresh bottle of red wine which go n perfectly with the chocolate cookies I just made. Life is pretty amazing just as it is. All is well. The rest will wait for heaven. Until then, I love you. Get outside. ❤

Never Underestimate Thread

Quilting is my current art form and is a patience building exercise. I am working on the return of Christ and that is a complex picture to paint on fabric, but never underestimate thread, strategically placed. It is like inky from a painter n in the right hands. And God is masterful at His art and is helping me. I was never this good, and God is the master. He weaves brilliant quilts a trend tapestries into our lives. He takes blocks of experiences and threads them together with love and care to create within us a masterpiece. God does this as we cannot because He is a master with thread. Do not ever worry that your life is tattered and ripped, for God can make those shreds into a magnificent, beautiful masterpiece. You are worthy in His loving eyes of His time and skill. Do not underestimate Him. He is not finished with you yet, beautiful friend. ❤❤❤

Beauty in Scent

My one real luxury and the only thing I splurge on for myself is good perfume. I love to smell good, it gives me a boost and happy feelings. I am known for it. I don’t knock people down like that lady at church last week (I could barely breathe for an hour!), but I smell good. Even if I work hard, I smell good doing it. We all have to have one thing, in my opinion. Today, it is not about me, however, for my whole house is richly wafting with the lovely scent of beautiful bacon. The family loves bacon, and we happened to have some from a lovely buy one get one (thank you, Winn Dixie lol), and now the scent is making everyone happy. And making them salivate. There is something about a beautiful scent that helps with perspective somehow. When living at the farm in Michigan, we had enormous lilac bushes outside the kitchen and front door. You walked in or out or through open windows the smell poured in and bathed you. You couldn’t help be smile and be comforted. No doubt life is much more complex than that but we all could use a boost anywhere we can get one. ☺ Hope you run into beautiful scents today. God did a great job with them and I am sure heaven will smell amazing too. ❤❤❤

The Truth About Gender

Life is very difficult. Life is very very difficult for children. The main reason is this: parents. We have a generation of parents with enough knowledge to have a firm opinion/bias but not enough to have an informed decision and certainly not enough to be sacrificial in their parenting to allow a child to blossom in love and care into their own individual. Children pushed into an identity will accept it often because they are children who need to be taught and who know little without proper training. Children (and I have a couple, taught many, and babysat even more in my life, so I am basing this on life) are born boys or girls. They, without any coaching, will act like boys or girls. They may be confused about how to open containers but never naturally confused about being a boy or girl. Unless their parents or teachers or important adults or peers in their lives confuse them and inflict a life of confusion on them. And I believe this is a spirit of confusion, an evil spirit that wants to destroy that person or as many as possible, a destructive spirit, not God. I believe this is a spiritual matter and not a physical or mental one. It seeks to take lives. These beautiful children are being attacked and those who truly love them will love them and encourage them in truth and love and more truth to see the amazing person God made them to be with amazing, unique gifts and talents. They are indeed born boys or girls and that is the gender they are, but gender is really just that. Men or women can live up to their full potential and and are made lovingly by God who loves them and wants to have a relationship with them and hold them through any storms of life and celebrate through every victory. This is the beautiful truth. How glorious the truth really is. God is truth. ❤❤❤

New Chapter for Zach

So, my pre-teen son has been struggling lately with normal hormone issues plus his dad’s drama with his psychotic wife and two of her three boys’ meanness and his stepdad’s often acute critical attacks on him. So we thought it best to enroll him in the US Naval Sea Cadets (a Sea Bee battalion for his age group). This allows him to develop leadership skills and train him for many various skills and leadership and service rolls, as well as foster his growth and development in allows positive way. So today, I dropped him off for his first mini boot camp. Not only did I not have to wake him at 6am, but he was ready to go at 6am, having gotten himself up at 5:30am. We left early and were the first ones there. And the sunrise in was spectacular and affirming, with sunset pink colors and a heavy mist on the grassy fields we passed. I am excited for this new phase of his journey toward manhood. I am so proud of him. And the I got back and walked my mile and a half, talking to God the whole way, and am now sitting contentedly on the porch swing looking at this:

And I know God is in control and good and beautiful and I am so very appreciative for all His blessings and opportunities to serve. Oh how I love Him! God is sooooo good! ❤❤❤

The Hardness of Life

You get to a spot where you are feeling good physically ascend spiritually and then someone you love attacks you and your son emotionally the next minute then blames you. What do you do? Here is the problem with this temporary world. It is full of evil, even in your personal life around you. Evil is everywhere preying on you. Even after great celebrations with friends, even during or on car rides to and from. It seems hopeless and horrible. And so it is an endless cycle on this rock and we move to humbly waving the white flag and praying for help and wisdom. And God always provides, I just have to change my thinking and remember that our fights are very personal but that people are sometimes unassuming pawns of evil spirits trying always to seek and destroy and ruin everything. I have to write that down and put it on my mirror and fridge. God is bigger than this and has already won this battle. I need to find shelter AGAIN in His capable arms. God is good!❤❤❤