Sometimes, as has happened in my life and so many others I know of, a separation occurs. A betrayal or abandonment or broken promise. Sometimes it is in a marriage where one decides to up and leave, sometimes a close friend drops you unexpectedly like a bad habit, sometimes you are fired all of a sudden. I believe it is worse where emotional attachments and history together have accumulated. But whatever the betrayal, it is very common in our out for me kind of culture we are finding ourselves in. And when confronted with such a deep wound and heavy heartache, which you feel will literally kill you from the brokenness, you want to say or scream or cry different messages to the offender at different times. You really want to have kept things as they were or stayed in the relationship or what have you and that one-sidedness is what hurt the most maybe. It is a blatant rejection, and you question yourself and everyone and nothing makes sense anymore for a while, it was about a year for me. At a year, I reflected and learned this… there is a beauty in separation you can sometimes obtain in no other way. When someone was removed from your life, quite often God knew something that you did not, maybe about their moral character or your unhealthy over-attachment or their financial insufficiencies or your struggle with them to be who you were meant to be or what have you. There are a myriad of reasons we may not even be aware of. For instance, a man God saved me from that at the time I believed was perfect for me I later ended up finding out he had been a wife beater and cheater and dead beat dad and lived off of women. Yuck! I was young and naive and blindly in deep love but God saved me despite my protests and saved me again and then comforted me and brought me close to Himself. That would never have happened had the painful at the time separation never occurred. So my point is that God knows full well what is best for you and you can trust Him explicitely. He’s got your back. You cannot see what is in another person’s heart but God can and does. And if your heart must be broken to make something much more beautiful from it, it is well worth the pain and God comforts and gives peace and joy as He heals you. God can be trusted. Take what is dealt you where separation is the case. Often it is for your best and with God, He always makes beauty from the deepest of wounds.❤
Sometimes things go well
Sometimes it’s eggshells
You never know which it will be.
Trying to balance it
With unknown ups and downs
Is a very bleak reality.
So I pray and read the Word
It never changes, not a word
And God gives me peace no eye can see.
And that is all I can do
Until this life is all through
And with my God forever I will be.❤
A futile endeavor is the wrestling of tides.
I gain the upper hand just to lose it again.
It pushes and pulls me and draws me deep.
This is life with its ebbs and flows.
This is romance with its comes and goes.
And it exhausts and you arrive on the beach
Drained of energy, soaked through with stress sweat.
And I watch this in others, remembering the game once played,
Thr wrestling of tides I once did too,
Now so glad God granted me favor and closeness with Him
So now I am above the waters, looking on.
I am no longer in the water, now in the heavenlies.
I rise above the tide and wrestle it no more.
Why more do not decide this, I know not,
But I am grateful for the renewed energy.
I thank God.❤
Motivation for living is always God, the promoter and source of life. He who made life encourages it to thrive. That is the truth. And for me, I am also motivated by remembering that our enemy is very real also and is almost as adamant about destroying life as God is about promoting it. Almost. And with significantly less power. God is omnipotent and all powerful and absolutely brimming with Love, the greatest Force in the universe. The enemy is a fallen angel, a created one who wanted the glory and power, a jealous prideful one, therefore brimming with hate, the weakest force in the universe, held together by lie upon lie upon lie, a created one. He has no great power withing except that which God had originally given him and so has to cover that up with a myriad of lies, smoke and mirrors, deceptions, and cheap parlor tricks. So this motivates. Moreso than the enemy’s weakness is the Truth of God. And knowing that every battle we have on this earth is a spiritual battle for our souls, allows forgiveness to happen. We forgive the people for they are quite ignorant that they are pawns in a game. They operate on belief in a lie. They chose ignorance over truth. They are duped suckers and so easy to forgive. Closeness to God promotes life, truth, love, all the fruits of the Holy Spirit and drawing close to Him is life and motivation to live. He is near, present wherever we are. He holds nothing back when we humbly pray, wanting us to live the purpose we were designed to live and longing with great love to be close to us. Love is then the motivation to live, for God is love. Nothing else persists past the time it takes you to get that and forgive and humbly pray. And that, beautiful friend, is the deep truth. And the Truth always sets you free. ❤
I often feel agitated. I am content and have peace and joy in God. But things vex me. I think those things go hand in hand. I believe you cannot be close to the Lord and not start to see evil as evil and be bothered that more people are not paying attention to God. That is insanity! See… agitation. So, as I am always seeking ways to improve, I realize the agitation welling up in me. My cure for this agitation is humbly praying and reading my Bible. That is it. Super simple. But knowing and keeping from the enemy’s evil distractions are two very different things. And I need to focus on those simple things. They seem to be the cure and answer to most things, truly. And people often sincerely under-estimate the immense power in humility. It is the key to purity and closeness to Christ. It is invaluable from a present earthly and an eternal perspective. Hope it helps you too. God bless and keep you, loved friend.❤
As tears flow generously down the afore stained cheek, he mourns.
For loss of complete family and years of criticism, he breaks.
For neglect and demands and no free space, he wishes more.
While seeking meaning and purpose, he is scoffed.
In deep hormonal imbalance of teen season, he is insecure.
For him, I write love. I write courage. I write understanding. I write meaning. I write purpose. I write eternal security. I write truth. I am his Bible.❤
I am convinced within myself that a person without a relationship with God cannot achieve pure, lasting, unconditional contentment. It is not lethargy I am speaking of but an intrinsic force in our God-seeking, God-fingerprinted hole He built into eachnof us. This force of contentment is unleashed and grown once a higher level of relationship is developed between Creator and created one. Then it does not matter what environment or outside forces are present or pressing in, even most harshly, we are good, resting in the arms of God Almighty who loves us and is way bigger than anything rising up against us. Ah contentment. Without God, it is unattainable, and with God, it is perfectly natural and automatic. Walk with God and what else can possibly be that important other than Him? ❤