Wake Up Call

God scheduled my neighbor to visit us today to practice taking blood pressures for her training to be a nurse. Gladly willing to help, I was surprised at the result. High blood pressure! I checked it myself and sure enough, it was very crazy high (168/132), like about to have a heart attack high. You must understand that for me, with normally very low blood pressure (90/70), it is more significant than someone who runs a bit high or even normal. It was a shocking wake up call.

With the dog’s heartworm treatment and us having to keep his heart rate down, I have been walking very little. Also, having achieved my weight goal of losing 50 pounds, I had started cheating lately a lot and eating unhealthy and salty food, like fast food grilled chicken (which I had just eaten before she checked me) etc. and chocolate.

So I confess and now see the immediate repercussions of such gluttony on my part. And if I don’t do something about it, I will regain the weight but more importantly be disobedient in maintaining my health for the Lord and the work He has me doing.

So, I repent from those horrible and irresponsible decisions and will be eating strictly Paleo nutrition and exercising at least once per day alone- until Blue’s heartworm treatments are finished- or with my kids and with Blue when it is safe to do so. And I will continue fasting and praying on Wednesdays. So here I go… awake, obedient and proactive.

And thank you, God, for the wake up call before I did have a heart attack!❤❤❤

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Why I Have Become Anti-Meditation

I used to like the idea of meditation, calming your mind, freeing your thoughts from the calamity around. And I realized one day (or God showed me one day, rather) that it doesn’t work that way and is really quite narcissistic and ego – inflating truly. And momentary calm and a temporary ego boost/pep talk is a poor substitute for inner peace only God n provides. So instead of meditation, and far more meaningful and beautiful, I pray and fast and read the Bible. And I find this dosage of truth and God – mindedness is truly rewarding and peace-giving. And peace is always there with me now, even in calamity. I can weather any storm with God. When I focus on Him, everything is as it should be and wonderful. When I focus on me, I get back a weak, flawed albeit really nice lol person. I choose God. Meditation is distraction and a negative one. I would rather study the truth of the Bible. Far more beneficial and proper.❤

About Perfection

No one is perfect.

Except God.

You and I are not God.

So stop demanding perfection of yourself or others.

Stop allowing anyone to demand it of you.

If they need perfection, point them to God.

He is perfect and can handle it.

If they keep on you, you go to God. He is perfect and can handle it.

Review:

We are not/cannot be perfect.

Only God is perfect.

Point others to Him.

Go to Him.❤

True Freedom

I had a profound thought. And I am fully prepared to say that probably I am quite late on this particular thought wave, and maybe you would think me simple for just getting it, but I just fully realized it. It has to do with true freedom. Here it is.

God provides true freedom and truth. He provided a plan of salvation but always leaves the choice to follow it or not entirely up to us. He freely gives free will to every person He lovingly created. Freedom. To go to heaven or he’ll is entirely up to us. I can choose to have a relationship with the Almighty God through Jesus. I can choose to be with truth and goodness of God and love for all eternity.

In stark contrast, Satan operates by controlling in fear and lies, lies, lies. He promises freedom to sin as much as you want and promises power in return. He actually does not have the authority to provide this so it is one of his many lies. Control is the name of the game. Guilt and shame ilicit fears when doing the sins you want to do. How he works is opposite of God. He is defeated so him providing you anything good is a lie in of itself.

So, I fully realized this today while doing dishes. And I get fully that I prefer love, truth and freedom to control, fear and lies. I choose God. I want peace and love and joy and eternal life with God. People fall for Satan because they want to sin. I would want to sin now and again and do unfortunately sometimes, but you and I are lying if we do not admit there are negative consequences to all sins that hurt us. Jesus saves. Satan condemns. Jesus clarifies. Satan confuses. Jesus helps. Satan destroys. It is a no brainer. God is best!!❤❤❤

The Blowing of the Wind

Wind is powerful force. It tests your resolve. It weathers you. It breaches the inner fibers of your soul to determine its worth. The Blowing of the Wind can shake us to the core. And sometimes that is the test. To whine and live in a past that no longer exists and a thinking too much of oneself is a failing of that test. Self-pity is a failing of the test. Internal struggle is sometimes even a failing of that test. The wind erodes the unimportant and weak and leaves behind the valuable and strong. Wind is a blessing. Nothing grows us faster than the wind as it blows. Of course it shows true colors, blows away hot air, reveals truth. I do not fear the wind anymore. I know full well that my Father God is stronger than any wind we can face. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is my rock, refuge, fortress, my everything. And He commands the wind. It obeys Him without question. Cling to Jesus. Let the wind blow where it will. ❤

When We Get What We Don’t Want

I know and understand now from my own life and experience why Jesus calls us sheep and not co-shepherds with Him. Sheep are really dumb, hard-headed creatures. They follow blindly, even to fall off a cliff. They bleed and whine and beg even if what they want is horrible for them. They fall for wolves in sheep’s clothing. Sheep need direction. They will literally eat their grass roots and all until there is no grass to propogate and they starve, so have to be moved around conatantly.

I digress, the bigger story is this. Job. I get Job. His story is our story but with a great man who made right decisions but still had to be put straight by God in thr end. He got more than what he wanted. He got everything then nothing then more than he had with everything. And it was to prove a point.

Job started with good decisions and God blessed him for it. The devil wanted to put him down to size, jealous of him and how much God had given him or something or just wanted to bring down and destroy a good man because he’s evil. Regardless, God allow the test, first with all his stuff and then his body illness. He left him with 4 well-meaning but incorrect friends and one nagging fish wife. And Job said the one thing that proved his worth as a righteous man. He said (my paraphrase), “Can I rejoice in only the good things God gives and not the bad?” And that attitude is epic and contrite and amazing. He also wished for God to tell him if he sinned somehow to deserve this. So God did. He told Job what’s up and how enormous He is and that we cannot comprehend why He does what He does. And God of course is always right. So to show Job who n is n really in charge through it all, God gives him health and double what he had before materially and 10 more kids.

God is in charge. He is huge and we cannot comprehend why He does what He does and hoe much is His design versus our bad choices or sins. We take the good with the bad. That is our act of contrition to the Lord. It is our salvation. We are contrite of heart and so can accept Jesus’ forgiveness and sacrifice for our sins. Then we accept a permanent (Lord willing and with His help) state of contrition to accept whatever comes our way. And God rewards this obedience and praise and thanks by blessing us, either now or in and with heaven. We have eternal liven in luxury for bowing low.

And if we consider this story in light of our own, it is very clear why Job is a book in the Bible and why Jesus considers us sheep and the importance of contrition and trust in God for every little thing.❤

Thrust into Temptation AKA Morality Pushups

I have recently been thrust into temptation. After being very close to the Lord, and I still am, I was hit by a barrage of attacks on my moral character. And I did not fall for it. But this is how the enemy works, friends, and I am thankful because it means I am doing well. The enemy does not attack to this extent someone he owns. So I am happy to have been through a rough spot and am still strong, even stronger for putting my trust in God for help and strength. And I can attest that when you go through the fire, pull up your trust in God and thus do some morality pushups and humble your spirit and you will come out ahead. Praise God!❤❤❤