Living With vs. Approving Of

Just because I tolerate a bad behavior does not mean I applaud it. Or does it? I have things I work on and so does he. If I let some things slide, am I admitting none of us are perfect and saying I love you anyway? Or am I condoning a sin that keeps him in bonage to it and thus being guilty of it as well? This moral dilemma, I believe, requires God’s wisdom and truth and God’s power and direction in order to know. Basically, I will do what I believe is best and listen all the while to the Holy Spirit to direct me to what God wants me to do. What else can any of us do? Only God knows how to save a person and only He can share what little we might be able to do to help. ❤

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Busy Days & Bad News

When we are busiest, it seems we are made busier with bad news. My friend’s son was in a car accident, nothing broken and not critical but sore and hospitalized for observation. And of course I want to be there for her and would were my commitments not so pressing today and tomorrow. But this is how the devil worka, y’all. When working hard, he attacks. So please pray for special comfort for her and healing for him and I place them soundly in God’s hands and must keep moving. God bless us all. ❤ 

Hope Beyond Lazy for the Addict

I read a post by a fellow blogger. He wrote that exercise can help people coming out of addictions. And I agree with him. And I am thankful for his insight because it did not occur to me that addictions in some way or another only arise in the lazy. It is lazy to choose to create a temporary high to handle pain or avoid life rather than have the courage and energy to face and handle it. And in reality, it is much more pain and effort and guilt in the “quick fix” than thr short-lived painful process of healing and the peace and joy returns after the pain so there is hope. There is no long term hope in the “quick fix” and in fact it compounds the original problem that took you there. Life is in the healing. God blesses the humble prayer and effort into healing. He breathes into it. He gives love and energy to it. He promotes it. It is always a choice and at any time anyone can choose to face and deal and not withdraw and cover it up. And anyone who needs help, God will provide that help. Because He longs for and loving, sober relationship with any addict and me and you. We are so very special and important to Him and oh so loved.❤  

“The Best Defense is a Good Offense”

Daddy and I used to watch football together growing up. It was my favorite team sport to watch with him. (Boxing was my favorite sport of to watch with him but that is for another blog.) And if you watch football for any length of time and in any depth of strategic plays, you will find that the best teams have a great offense. And even if their defense is rather eh?, they can still turn out well by having an exceptional offense. And truly in life as well, I won many battles by offense focus, whether a threat from a bully heading my way, a difficulty brewing, a weird statement from a collegue, a lying attack against your character, whatever it might be. And when I saw the threat, I ran to meet it head on. Most threats are made by bullies of some sort, which are all cowards, and facing them makes them run off crying or frustrated and they leave you alone. Demonic attacks are the same. However, we work our offense on our knees in humble prayer and active Bible study. In this way, the weaker we seem, the stronger we are for God can work. And He is definitely in charge and over everything and everyone. God is bigger than any hurricane, as we experienced firsthand. He just is. Praise God! ❤ ❤ ❤ 

Black Friday

I have never shopped ever on Black Friday. I have gone out people watching because seiously it is more contact fouls than a college football game. But lately it is more mean than funny and I think that is because of the rise in selfishness and my, ahem, “maturity”. Ok, I am feeling older now. But I ahem ways laughed ahemlwayst the marketing geniuses who got so many to buy into the “get it now for the cheapest price but hurry or you’ll miss it and never get it again” ploy. I am reminded of my husband’s quote, “It’s always on sale.” So true. And if you risk injury to get the perfect gift for that special someone, maybe their or your expectations are a wee bit high. Lol. But all that noise is nor my cup of tea anymore. I prefer peace. I really dig peace in my life and I am at a point where it characterizes me. Mostly, still a bit of a struggle sometimes, I am such a fighter, but I reserve the fight for the real battles and fight mostly on my knees in prayer now. (Love “War Room”!!!) So, peace to you today. And please pare down the gifts this year so we aren’t distracted by the fantastic birthday we are celebrating. If we are peaceful and quiet, maybe we can hear him cooing in the manger. Maybe we can remember the sweet momma and baby and stepdad that birthed and raised our precious Savior. Yes, I can hear it and smell the livestock smells and hear them talking about their sweet little baby. Much better than a grab race, eh? 😄❤

Past Clarity

Many can relate, I have spoken with many who get it, who feel me when I say I grew up neglected and criticized. My dad was my strongest supporter but he was rarely home. My grandmas loved me but one I did not see anywhere near enough and one was too busy and clean for me as a kid. My Aunt supported me but was married to a control freak and started her own family. I would have given anything for regular encouragement. So I got straight “A’s” for a pat on the back from school and volunteered for everything at church to feel valuable there. I cleaned the entire house, mowed the lawn, played the piano brilliantly, searched and searched for encouragement and attention, both of which I lacked. Instead I received criticism from my mom and abuse and verbal attacks from my lazy sister. And God gave me the grace to move forward. I decided at age 9 to be a doctor and poured into that goal. I wrote songs, played piano and sang. All searching for encouragement and attention. When looking for a husband, I wanted encouragement and attention and ended up with attention man who criticized and ignored me. God kept moving me forward. After divorcing him and remarrying, my current husband was great at first and now is criticizing me. And now my son is being raised with criticism. So now I know I am the problem. I must be unable to be encouraged. I must do everything wrong. I must be weird. But God keeps moving me forward. You see, I realize that God is the Maker of me. He made me strong to get this far. He made me smart to become that doctor. He made me musical to play for Him. Whether or not any other human being appreciates me or encourages me ever, I know Whose I am. I am God’s little girl. I am the girl He has forgiven and loves and has gifted to worship Him. I am God’s and He keeps moving me forward as encouragement. And if He is the only One I have, He is the only One I need and that is enough. I am content. I trust no human but I trust God. And heaven is not far off, for He will come soon for us. Then none of this unfair life will matter, it will all be forgotten, so long as we keep moving forward with God and saved by Jesus. ❤

Sometimes I’m Discouraged

There have been a lot of issues with my husband coming down unrealistically hard on my son and myself, quite frankly, while he is easy and very loving to my daughter. And my son rarely sees his dad because his controlling wife is even more abusive and is not allowed anywhere near my son. And he is growing despondent and moody, as his hormones are kicking in at 12 years of age. So I am almost in physical pain for him. He can do no right in my husband’s eyes, even if he does exactly what he wants. And I am a close second to doing nothing right. So I am also becoming depressed and discouraged. And ours is far from the only story like this. So tonight, I prayed with my son and after he went to sleep I prayed and prayed. And sometimes this is all you can do, friends. It and reading the Bible is all we got. Often lately. So use these tools. At least do something. Pray. Read Truth. Pray more. And God will reveal what to say and the right time or He will work on the situation. Come, Lord Jesus!❤