Fighting for Control is Stupid

Ok, here me out, control freaks. I was one of y’all. I was probably amazingly good at it, compared to most. I could bend and manipulate things in my desired direction, always with the best of intentions for the common good (my basis for justification). I wanted things to work out best for those I loved. I made it happen. Boy, was I stupid. Why stupid? Because it always bombed later because (and here is the crux of the matter) I AM NOT GOD. I never will be. It is stupid to play God and stupid to believe we ever have a handle on control of anything except ourselves, and we even need His help for that.

Now, good thing for us God is loving and gives us this free will thing so we can choose for ourselves whether to be stupid or smart and come to Him for help with this life thing He gave us.

The perception of control is a construct of lies based on an enlarged ego/pride problem. So being humble and contrite is the way to break it and be smart. And being smart is always better than being stupid, even always. So stop fighting for control except of yourself and meet up with God. This is where wisdom begins. 😄❤

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Finally Forgiven, Mostly Forgotten

Hard to do, forget. Not sure we always should as it warns not to do things that way again. So probably for the best, but sometimes we can forget a while and choose to decide not to remember. We can actively push it away until it becomes automatic. Of course there are triggers but we can choose to keep obsessing over it or send it packing. We choose this. Emotional people have more trouble getting to their choice through their emotion but the choice is there somewhere… dig til ya find it.

But today, I realized that I have finally forgiven a person and all persons involved in a past incident in my life. I am 100% at peace with it all, with them all. And the funny thing is that I really thought I was there already a couple of times before. I was not. I had said the words, thought the right thoughts but too much thinking about it remained, a desire to see what happened next, a will to know, a want to understand, a wish to see. Ever so faint but present nonetheless. And today, watching the grandbaby, seeing my kids in our home, hearing my husband practice guitar, thanking God for the blessings of my life, I thought nothing of this past experience. It would have been a passing caveat, a slight distraction of thought now and again, moreso after contemplation. My mind was finally quiet on the matter. Later, still quiet.

God works in different paces for different depths of pain. But if you keep humble and remain praying, especially if you can fast also, read your Bible, do what you know you should, don’t do what you shouldn’t, draw close to God, He will get you where you want to go in His timing and for your good.

All that being said, I am more ready today than ever for whatever God wants me to do. I am beyond the distraction. I am fully His. And my outlook is more His than it has ever been. And I praise God for doing what I could not do alone, as He has so many times. I owe Him everything and it is all His. I am so thankful. Praise God!!😄❤❤❤

Battling a Grizzly

I would say humbly that I am like a Grizzly bear in many ways. I am smart, strong, resilient, will destroy anyone who messes with my kids, cuddly looking but maintains a distance, so on. This is humble knowing who I am, not bragging.

I watched a documentary on wolves taking down a grizzly. They were no match individually but together ganged up and kept at it little bit by little bit.

This is what I think is going on here in my life and many other Christians I know and know of. Those of us in close loving relationship with Jesus Christ know full well that nothing on this planet is too hard for us with God’s help. So the enemy does not boldly come against us. Oh no, he is a coward as all bullies are, and worse a coward that is already defeated. So instead of straight on, we get ganged up on and nipped at by this distraction or this little attack on a close friend, this attack on a family member, this task to do, this mission to take on, this person to care for, this spousal attack, this extra work at your job, etc. Until you are worn out to the point of ineffectiveness.

And now that I realized the game, with the power of the Holy Spirit, I can start getting out of it. I can say no to this, give that burden to God to carry, pray about then leave this situation, read more of the Word, sing and play worship songs until I am effective for Christ. Yes, we are called to act, but we also must encourage others to pick up their slack too so one person isn’t doing all the work. That was never God’s plan or will for us. God bless us everyone.❤

Prosperity & Success Promise Falicy

Yes, God wants to bless you.

Yes, God loves you so dearly.

The truth is that sometimes we have to go through some stuff.

Why? Has God abandoned you? Are you sinning? Are you being punished?

Maybe, maybe not. Consider Job. His suffering (far worse than a good portion of us have been through) was to test him. That is it. Turns out he needed it because God had to straighten out some flaws in his thinking.

And the truth is “Thr Lord disciplines those He loves” and when you turn humbly to Him for help through it, your faith will grow, you will mature, learns some stuff and be better for it.

Now, what if, instead of humbly asking God to help and be with you, you harden up, pride up and try to solve it yourself or pout or whine or blame everyone, etc. You would have blown a teaching moment for spiritual riches and remained lacking.

So God cuts you a break and gives you another opportunity to humble up and ask Him for help and company. You can either humble up or pride up each and every time. And you then choose to be spiritually rich or poor. No one is to blame but you.

And that is a whole lotta truth I felt led to share. God sometimes allow us to fail because we are lacking and He is trying to train us because He loves us so much. And people learn far more by failing than success. ❤

So I Lost a Car

I was sad that we lost a car. It was sold out from under us as we were getting financed. This saddened me, it was the one I wanted with the best price, little mileage, etc. And this saddened me that we lost it. And I was correct and accurate when I also blogged that God is in control and I trust Him to n provide what we need when we need it. But I was recently convicted. Many really saddening things are.going on, people are dying, people are seriously depressed, people are lost to an eternity in hell if we cannot get them to understand how dearly God loves them and sent Jesus to save them. My little loss of something new to drive, especially when my car is still driveable, is shameful. I am sorry for it and totally over it. I say it all the time and it is still true… “people are more important than things”. Always, hands down this is true. And people’s souls are their most important asset because it is their only eternal belonging. The thing is, we all each get to choose whether our souls will live eternally with God in heaven or in hell created for demons. We choose this. As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord Jesus Christ, our God Yahweh. Please help others you love to see that they make the choice for their eternal soul’s destination, whether knowingly or unknowingly. Make sure they know. God bless us and save us, everyone.❤

Oh What a Difference a Choice and a Night Makes

So, we begin our story on a busy day yesterday. So busy, I barely stopped moving all day. We tried to do homeschool while watching our 9 month old grandson who was ill, with meals and dishes and she decided to go get gas and shop at Target before picking up her sick baby and so without dinner or anytime to change we raced over to my son’s baseball game, got home late and got to bed late. And I was anticipated the same craziness today but with band practice instead of baseball and PE in the morning. Crazy, right?

Instead, I am just headed to sleep and I get a “Mom!” from my son. Unusual and never good, I get in there and I will not gross you out but I had a lot of cleaning up to do. He was suddenly sick. He is hardly ever sick but he had saved up. He must have eaten something awful from the canteen at baseball. It cleared his entire digestive system. Water wouldn’t stay down. All night long it was clean up, try to sleep, awoken up in a couple hours to clean up and nurse the boy.

I made an executive decision and texted to cancel PE and the babysitting today. And I slept a few hours before the next bout. And here we are. Sleep deprived but at least able to sleep a couple hours at a time between nursing the gut along toward healing and cleaning. Lord help us moms!

So “oh what a night” is explained. Next explains the choice.

My son had, in the morning when he was supposed to be doing school and up to now has been, decided to play hooky and watch a Netflix movie that happened to be a horror flick. What possessed him, I know not, but I believe it opened a door to an evil spirit to come in. He confessed to me at night when everything that could go wrong n in a day did go wrong. Because as soon as he had finished that movie around noon, the baby who had been well was suddenly sick, the game went poorly and my son played like he had never played a game in his life, my husband was very aggitated and grumpy, my daughter was an emotional wreck, I was suddenly overwhelmed and tired, and then the illness.

Upon seeing the demonic activity allowed in and hearing the confession, we joined hands and rebuked the demon in Jesus’ powerful name and Zac rede dictated his life to Jesus and was baptized in the Holy Spirit and rejected his choice and evil that was pressing on him. I prayed over the house and loudly commanded the evil to leave in Jesus’ name and pleaded God’s Holy Spirit to live here and bring us the fruits of the Spirit in abundance to reside here.

He did. All was immediately made right. My daughter had peace and fell into a deep, restful sleep she stayed n in through the night’s ups and downs. My husband relaxed and had peace and even joy. I received energy and peace. Zac had peace even though he had to undergo a reminder purging of his system. And the baby is not here today but is doing better.

The devil will come in any way he can and is allowed- be it horror movies, pornography, personal choices of pride, sexual misconduct, gluttony, idolatry, whatever it is- even to Christian homes. He must be sent packing by the authority we have with the Holy Spirit. And we must make it right by humbly choosing Jesus again. Please learn this lesson with us. Be encouraged that we have the cure through the Great Physician Jesus Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit. Praise God!!❤❤❤

Denomination Nonsense

People ask me, knowing I am a Christian, what denomination I am. I say I am a Christian and I get the same question repeated, as if I was a moron and did not understand the question.

Here is the thing. I believe the Bible is truth, inspired by God and written by men He wrote through because He is Spirit. I believe every Word is true and it is all about our Savior Jesus Christ.

People who believed in Jesus for salvation in thr early church were called “Followers of thr Way” because Jesus is the way, the truth and the life and no man comes to the Father God in Heaven but through Jesus Christ. Later they were called “Christians”. Way later when Satan started weaseling his way in to divide the church, other denominations answered the enemy’s call, all with a different focus or tiny change, this one for tongues, this one for prophecy, this one for dogma, this one for rules and regulations, this for baptism as salvation, this one for missions,this one for grace, this one for predetermination. All of them are nonBiblical and not one mention of any big church building other than the synagogue in Jerusalem was ever in the Bible. People met in homes, shared everything, spread the good news, helped the church then the community. People read the Bible, had communion, worshipped and ate together, prayed and fasted together. It was cool, it was real. That is my denomination… a Christian follower of the Way and the Bible. And that is the truth even if it doesn’t roll off the tongue.❤