Now, herein lies the bent of being beaten down. We tend to focus on the beating. We tend to get despondent and morose, maybe even melancholy or depressed. We see the problem, the thorn in our side, the evil of the situation and we often succumb to the ugliness of it.
I offer a solution. Focus on God. He is the positive, the light of life. We can’t sit and stew in the dark when we could turn the light on and have joy and peace in any situation. God is that source of goodness. And He is enough. He is the only One. And often, the only supportive encouragement on earth comes from Him.❤
Any addiction you choose to put first in your life you chose. It is an illness that help is needed for, but it becomes an addiction to begin with by choice. The addict wants to escape the responsibility of reality by purposefully escaping into pornography, alcohol, drugs, overeating, overworking, not eating, whatever the drug of choice is. They choose this as their savior, their idol to enslave them. In doing so, they unwittingly choose a slavery lifestyle, to be dominated and controlled by the addiction, to life in perpetual guilt/conviction and shame, to be in hiding and lie continuously to cover it up.
This does not have to be the reality. God is way stronger than the ties that bind you to a false idol slavemaster. God is freedom. He only needs a humble, sincere prayer for help and He can and will provide a way out. There is a lot of help out there and with God as your helper, no slavemaster can rob you of His joy and peace and truth, which is the strength to rebuild and love you back to life.❤
Good things and bad things happen to everyone. This is one fair thing that occurs in life. Of course, these good and bad things don’t happen at the same time, it is random. But I no longer believe any of these are consequences or chance. Nor are they fate or destiny. They are hidden messages from God. He cannot talk to us directly because of the sin so He does whisper to us when we confess and repent in humble prayer, especially with fasting. Otherwise, He speaks through situation, action, opportunities, etc. But while He is speaking to us, thr enemy sends us distractions to try to keep us from getting the message, so it gables with his lies and looks like misfortune or wrongs against us or chaos or injustice if we buy that garbage. And God still speaks. And if you free yourself from the distractions and lies and humbly pray for answers, God will clarify. He always will. Trust Him. Ask Him. Go to the source of the conversation.❤
No matter how your mind travels or how far you wander away from God, He is always just one step back. That step is a humble prayer.
Today, I am not going to lie, I was exhausted. My mind was wondering all over the place and it was really hard to focus on God. A lot of running and rehearsals and two back to back gigs, kids things, so on. I was whooped and still had two consults today. But standing at the end of the day after the kids were asleep looking up at the stars in the back yard, I finally could humbly just praise God. And He was right there hearing me. This is how beautiful our God is. His mercy and grace and love for us is enormous. We fail Him and screw up again and He is never more than one step back, one humble prayer. Praise God!!❤❤❤
I am far from perfect. I strive for being purified by God. I am way too realistic to strive for perfection. I understand full well that is impossible with me. Not because I am bad but because I am human. I strive to live to please God and be purified by Jesus. That is it. That makes me look not perfect but restored. I still have the scuffs and dings and scars but I am a restored, refurbished work of God.
Today, I blew it and again need restoration. Thankfully, God is in the business of detail work. I became angry at a leader in the church, an intern, actually. I said true but inappropriate things about him to a coworker in the kids ministry. I should not have. My anger was just and things are not being handled appropriately, but that is no excuse for me to vent and blow my cool, which I certainly did. True or not, gossip is wrong. Very wrong. I blew it. I saddened my God and I am fully sorry. I said my apologies and prayed my confession and apology and am now in the restoration shop of God again for some detail work.
The thing is, none of us is perfect. I handle my screw ups/sins way better than I used to, however, and I am thankful to God for that. He helped me meet my imperfections with humility rather than pride. The imperfections almost always originate from pride, so to meet them with humility is the cure. It is the step of repentence back. Humility is beautiful. And anyone who says humility is for sissies has never tried it. It requires far more bravery and strength and energy than base pride. But the results are restorative and glorious.
So I wanted to share that and maybe it can help someone too. God is so very good and full of grace and generous with forgiveness. Praise be the Lord!!!❤❤❤
All things are possible with God. When you feel like giving up, give up the right things. Give up pride, control, refusing to forgive, give up anger, sorrow. Give up all these thing and humbly pray. Then anything in the world is possible because you have the audience of the God who made the world.❤
There has been to now this heavy air pressing in on my soul. Hard to describe it any other way. My mind has cast out negative thoughts, evil and crude thoughts, accusations, and I know these are last minute attempts from the enemy to steal, kill and destroy what belongs to Jesus. And I have had to keep on it, stay focused in prayer, read the Word and verbally send those thoughts and accusations packing. The devils are liars. Just that simple. They are defeated and are putting out a last ditch effort to take as many people to hell with them as possible.
Stand strong in God’s truth. Stand firm. Pray. Read your Bible. Tell the evil thoughts and accusations to leave in the name of Jesus Christ. And some day soon, God will take us out of here and we will breathe heavenly air and never have to worry about lies and evil again. Praise God!!! Be ready!❤