Compelled to Pray

Several times this month, I have been compelled to wake up or stay up and pray for my husband. I believe there is a strong spiritual war waged against him mostly but through him the family. Tonight I am still up and just finished praying for him at 3am, so I believe this counts as a sleep fast. I am giving up precious sleep because my husband needs prayer. I believe the enemy attacks men most, as they are the head of the family. I will not go down without a fight and I fight the very best way… humble, fervent prayer. I pray this way for my family and country and lost souls. But lately Satan is going for the jugular and attacking families left and right and focusing on the man. It is horrible and I will not have it. Every time I am awaken by the Holy Spirit that my husband is under attack or willingly putting himself in harm’s way, I will continue to rise up and do a sleep fast and pray. I will trust God for energy tomorrow or rest in heaven when I get there. A woman’s gotta do what and woman’s gotta do. And this woman will pray.❤

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Really super long but a big picture insight on why the rapture and tribulation ate very near. The big picture is that evil is gaining ground and we need to hold to our faith no matter what and our eternity will be secure in Jesus Christ. God is still in untimate control. Hold on tight to Him and pray. God, the amazing One, the Lover of our souls, the Maker of everything we know of, the Great One is our Heavenly Father if we choose Him. We have to choose Him and stay close to Him. The reward is eternity with Him and His joy and peace and hope now. Pretty amazing reward, if you ask me. Worth everything. ❤❤❤

Unexpected Separations

So our grown son (from my husband’s previous marriage), the Marine and all around really great guy (maybe a tad biased), gave us the wham banger news that his wife of 4-ish years just left him for her ex-fiance of ancient past, the one who wouldn’t commit. Yep. We were going to visit them this week. Now, instead, he is moving alone out west to room with a Marine brother and a fresh start because he loves her sincerely and everything there is her. And I got to thinking. I had that happen in my ancient past… dumped for an unworthy ex after years of commitment and mutual love. And some people are a blessing in your life when they are there and some are are greater blessing when they go. It is impossible to say and realize that for about are year and that is are fact. Before a year is up, you only say it through clenched jaw. But how much worse to end up in many years with someone who hates you and has run you into the ground or stolen your freedom and identity and taken all your purpose to suit them and then threw you out or selfishly cheated. And like I was, he is blessed to start afresh and have us praying for him and encouraging him, and whatever God had for Him can be more apparent without someone half there and unsupportive. Nonetheless, as horrible as divorce is, sometimes you are forced to face it and change everything and that is never easy. So if you think of it, please pray for our son to find the path God wants Him now. God is the healer of hearts and Maker and Lifter of our heads. Thank you and God bless us, everyone!❤

Practicing Joy and Peace

In marriage, you have a lot of time to practice joy and peace. Happiness is direct reaction to circumstances so joy and peace are quite different as they are deep enough to keep you soundly whether or not your circumstances are favorable or heavy. And marriage is the constant bending of my will and bowing of my head in compromise. Ideally both are doing so but my responsibility is what I am doing. So bad day for spouse often would be bad day for me but as my relationship with God has deepened and grown and ripened, my joy and peace have sunk in to depths impenetrable by surface tremors. It is tested though some days, like today. It seems like the happier I come in from my devotion walk, the more the enemy will try through my husband to discourage me. And I have to remember that my fight is not against flesh and blood and certainly not against my husband who I am bonded with. And the more the attacks, the greater the joy and peace. And that boggles the mind but is because Jesus endured so much for us, for me too, out of His sheer love for us, so amazingly. And to have difficulty and yet not sin in it and go to Him with it and pray and give it to Him who is capable of understanding and powerful enough to dissolve it is to honor Him. And I want everything I do and say you honor Him. He is everything. So I practice my joy and peace and feel exceedingly blessed to be so greatly loved by my Heavenly Father, who happens to be the Creator of the universe and me and you.❤❤❤

The Truth About God and Eternity

Our holy, perfect, beautiful, loving God lives. He always has been. He always will be. He certainly can handle everything we have before us to face. God certainly deserves our worship and praise. God definitely is the only One who deserves anything good. Marketing agencies selling things based on people’s horrible inclination to pride and selfishness and “You deserve this” and “You deserve that” garbage have served only themselves at the risk of all of us by feeding everyone’s dangerously prideful ego and creating an atmosphere of entitlement rather than service. They will be punished. God is the only One who deserves anything good. We do not. Let me be clear and speak that truth again. Only God deserves all good things. That He chooses to generously share them with us is further proof of why He deserves good. 

God loves us so much, and that amazes me. We who let Him down over and over He cherishes and keeps pouring love and grace out to us to win us over. God is trying so hard to get our attention to the urgency of things, the valuable importance of knowing that you are actively choosing either Him or the damned (quite literally) enemy and not choosing a side is in fact choosing the enemy. There is an urgency to call everyone choose to be saved by Jesus by calling on the name of Jesus for eternal salvation. It is imperitive that you do this now. We don’t know how much time we have left on this planet but it is not long…. could be seconds, years, minutes, hours. God only knows, don’t believe false prophets who say otherwise. God is everything. It is all about Him.

God made us lovingly on purpose for Himself, to tend to His world, to serve and worship Him. And now we decide whether to be with Him or to be separated from Him in torment and anguish forever. It is our own choice, not His… He wants us all and arranged salvation for anyone who humbly asks and call on the name of Jesus to be saved. Decide and put your energy into that decision. Read the Bible more and pray more and fast more if you are already saved and help save someone else. Time is short. I am not in the least privy to how short but the Holy Spirit living in my heart says it is short and He speaks truth. 

Please know that you are deciding to be on the side of good or evil. You are deciding your eternal fate actively. God is not deciding, YOU are. He does not want anyone to go to hell. Hell was made for the fallen angels/demons who rebelled against Him and have caused so much harm and destruction to what He made and loves. But He won’t force you to love Him, He loves you too much for that. Know that you are actively deciding to accept or reject the God who made you in love every minute of every day. It is YOUR decision. Every moment of the day you decide again. Do not decide to be away from God when this world comes to a screeching halt, and it will. The train will stop and you will get off in eternity and face judgment. God will decide who goes to heaven or hell based on YOUR decision to be saved by JESUS, the only name we are saved by. And there is no excuse that you are “not religious” or “didn’t know”. God gives ample opportunity and your choice is informed and purposeful. You ARE religious, you worship something. Just because you choose to worship yourself or some addiction or idol or other God of a demon’s making or another person rather than God is really you saying “I don’t want anyone telling me what to do. I want to do what I want to do.” Not wanting to be bothered is still deciding you and your comfort are more important than God and Jesus’ sacrifice of dying so you can be saved if you humbly ask Him. It is still YOUR eternal decision to follow God or His enemy, good or bad, right or wrong. And not choosing IS choosing wrong. You always are actively choosing so please choose wisely.

This is a lot of truth but I must speak it boldly and bluntly for time is short and many will be lost or left behind if they do not humbly pray to accept Jesus as their Savior. He so longs for us to. Do it today while you can. Be saved. Get in His lifeboat. Get an eternal reservation in a heavenly mansion. You will be eternally glad you did!!! He loves you so much! I do too.❤❤❤

Being Accidentally Wrong vs Being Intentionally Wrong

There is a huge difference between being intentionally wrong and being accidentally wrong. It is truly a huge difference but sometimes the result is the same. For instance, my husband attacks me for both. He treats them exactly the same. In fact, he will stack them up with other past wrongs. There is no white out or eraser. And I am feeling miserable right now because, human that I am, I screwed up yet again and made an accidental mistake (which I am quite sorry for and humbled at having made) and am in the doghouse. I am made to feel like a criminal, foolish, stupid, disposable almost. Every mistake bears the a came fruit. Criticism at imperfection is always awaiting me. I can do little right, it seems. And I have this one joy in the midst of such blatant disregard for my apologetic and humbled disposition. God is generous with forgiveness. I have a heavenly Father who holds my often clumsy and awkward outgoing nature in His hands and forgives me of my flaws. He understands them. God loves me more than judges me. God cares for me and my well being more than He wants to prove I am flawed and in need of Him. He wants to give me joy not steal it, give me peace not damage it, love me not wound me. I have this amazing Heavenly Father God who loves me awkwardness I am and motivates me by love to want to be better. God is not critically picking apart every wrong move or word but is gently guiding me to the write moves and words. It is a comforting reminder that I am unconditionally loved. You know what, so are you. Thank God! ❤

Send Me A Postcard From Wherever It Is You’ve Gone

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So, in my past was this experience also and she captured it. The loss, the confusion, the senselessness of it, the realization that you finally found your soulmate and turns out he’s an idiot. All that wrapped up in a short poem. That is skill. And here is the rest of the story. God heals. God fulfills. God saves us from stupidity, ours and other’s. God loves deeper than the deepest human love. And time does not erase some deep wounds like this but time with God allows His amazing love to come in more and more until that wound you still have if you focus on it or in odd moments every day for the rest of your life becomes less painful, less significant. More of a bad thing that happened i stead of the worst thing I am going through now. God heals and restores. He makes better than new. And the humbling is a blessing because you have a shorter distance to bow from. God is the solution. Doesn’t matter the problem or hurt.❤❤❤