We had more ups and downs today than you can imagine. I have a pre-teen, a teenager and a husband, all whose moods shift and flow like the tides. Happy one minute, angry the next, all looking to me for their happiness and needs to be met. I get phone calls out of nowhere to hire me. I get a dog attack me at the dog park as I walk in. I get yelled at for not having the kids ready for bed a full half hour before bedtime. I have attacks of my intelligence because someone forgot we are going to visit and help my Great Aunts tomorrow. I have a Sam’s Club run, which is exhausting and time consuming, and put things away. I am proud of having school done despite all these things in addition successfully with the dog park and an early 1.7 mile run and then be told I was a bad mother.
And yes, for once I was on a bit of a pity party and overwhelmed today. My usual steady peace and joy was stirred but not shaken. And all the way to my shower right before bed, I was tempted to run off to live in the woods somewhere.
Then something “no duh” happened to me that changed all that andbrough back my normal peace and joy at easy state. Was it a magic duck? Was it a special chocolate pie? Did I win a luxury cruise for one? Did a masseuse knock on my door? No, none of that. It was simpler and far more important.
I read my Bible and prayed. In doing so, I realized I had allowed in distraction and discouragemnt. It was my choice. I did not stand against it but allowed it in so in it came in droves. I forgot the most important thing is the most important thing… my constant line of communication and closeness to Jesus Christ. I dropped that precious ball onto my heart and it hurt.
So tomorrow, I start with my prayer run and Bible reading and keep the conversation with Jesus going all day. Tomorrow, I stand. Glad I figured it out before more days like this. Truth be told, I thank God for reminding me.😄❤
There is an unwritten stupidity in many of our heads that prefers to stew and mull things over and brood rather than having a potentially uncomfortable conversation. However, quite often the other party is not even bothered by the matter or at the least most often not to the same extent. Yet we brood and suffer and pity ourselves and fester in a darkness of our own making.
So, I have opted from now on to have those potentially difficult conversations here and now rather than decrease the years of my life over them when it may be avoided. Better a moment’s discomfort than a long drawn out death over it. Tired of that. Tired of keeping it in. I was not like that as a kid, and by golly I am tired of eggshells. I will walk rightly in the fruits of the Spirit so as not to harm anyone but I will not puss foot around anymore when a conversation needs to happen. Now that is proactive for everyone’s good. So much negativity and energy can be saved if real eye to eye conversations happen. So much good is done that way. And here is my new manifesto… Keep moving forward wisely but with fruit (of the Spirit). I will do the right thing as often as I can, every time if possible.😄❤
My physical/emotional self is tired. Tired of selfishness, tired of games people play, tired of drama, tired of caring and not being cared for back, tired of pride unchecked, tired of the weight on my shoulders all the time, tired of stress. So true. So true. But…
The mental self can still be moved, can be tintilated by puzzles, can be engaged in enigmas. Can still co-create and write, can still be energized and awakened and thrilled. But…
My main focus I have decided is on my spiritual self, for that will remain into eternity. Here is where the Holy Spirit (who dwells there) reminds me to keep praying, keep doing what is right, keep worshipping. And here He gives me energy when I humbly ask and finally put the tired physical/emotional down. I am reminded that when I feel tired all over and overwhelmed is when I have not humbled myself to prayer and spirit where renewal generously flows over me and rest is sweet and burdens light. Joy and peace are there. For there I meet with my Savior. Sweet relief.
This post is a reminder to myself and a reminder to whoever needs it to humble up, put the physical down, and just keep praying. And peace and joy flow there. Praise God! 😄❤
The enemy of us all and God will not stop. It will be over for him very soon and he is trying hard to destroy as many as possible now. He will not let up. However, we are not without recourse. We are never powerless and never defeated. See, Jesus Christ already won. It is finished. So if we stop and humbly pray, Jesus fight for us through the power of the Holy Spirit by command of the Father. God, the Holy Trinity, fights for us. We only need to stay grounded in the Bible and humbly pray and God takes care of it. Pray. Pray. Pray. The power of prayer still always amazes me.
Stop and pray. God will make it ok.❤
The evil one wants our homes broken up and people confused, hence the agenda to confuse and divide. This is because the family is the idea of God and strongest unit and building block for God’s kingdom and work and our country. So agendists throw out confusion generators to the masses through marketing and entertainment and media, throw out porn at everybody, throw out confusing topics to kids in school and ram all this down everyone’s throats every chance they can. They are pawns in denial of the enemy of God. They are agents of evil. And Godly parents must avoid all this crap. They must solidify their homes and pray together, study truth together, hold tightly to each other, cling to God together. And if our children show signs of confusion, teach them the clear truth yourself and withdraw them from that class or school entirely and teach them. Our jobs as parents is primarily to raise up our children in the Lord. We own that position. It is ours. We have to be more concerned about doing that job and holding our families together in the Lord than any discomfort we face in doing said job. God will provide but we need to do our part.❤
On the topic of “giving up”,
Don’t do it. Ever. Never give up.
On why not to give up,…
Because you are loved by God and never out of His reach. You are held tight as soon as you choose to be.
You are loved. Always. Forever.
So, to recap,…
Never give up. You are loved dearly by God. Reach to Him. Always. Forever.❤
There is something special about just laying all your random things that come up that can get to you down into God’s more than capable hands and just letting go of them. I visualize myself placing them into His enormous hands and stepping back with a lifted step and grateful heart. That is such a beautiful moment. Yesterday at the pool, I met a nice lady who said she worries and I told her she didn’t have to and she looked at me as if it never occurred to her. Carrying burdens is a choice. We can lay every burden or load down in God’s hands and that leaves us free to worship and love and work free. How peaceful and joyous and beautiful is that! What a mighty and loving God we serve.❤