Once Upon an October

Once upon an October,

We celebrated three birthdays.

We had 4 parties also then

And deepened our relationship.

We feasted and went to the beach

And somehow still did school

But these very busy October’s

Are really very cool.

I miss those who are gone from life

I wish they partied too

But I know the party up in heaven

Is really hopping too.

So here upon this October,

With all its busy charm.

We celebrate our family with God

And He blesses us all month long.❤


Celebrating Life

It is funny how different my kids are. My son, bless his big heart and I am working so hard on this, has to have everything match what is in his mind to be happy. He still has joy but easily blocks it when things don’t match what he’s thinking. We are so working on this, I cannot stress that enough. But this is his natural weakness, his bent that he will have to fight and heal from much of his life if we don’t get an amazingly strong God-support system roots under him now. So, working on it. Then there is my daughter, who is so very easily seeing the bright side of everything with her enormous heart on her sleeve and fun in her eyes. Her birthday is today. We are so aremazingly blessed to have this optimistic, encouraging cuddle bunny in our lives, so full of love. Both kids love Jesus with their whole hearts, though, and I celebrate that more than just their lives. So different but both so greatly embossed in my heart aremazingly all of us in God’s. We are so very blessed and that is always reason to celebrate. We just do so a bit louder and with cake today. 😄❤

Birthdays Galore

Last week was my mom’s birthday. Today is my husband’s birthday. Tomorrow, my daughter’s birthday, on the 9th, my sister’s, and in two weeks, my sons. October is birthday month. I am the only exception, being way over in February. It is busy. It is expensive. Most impotantly, it is a celebration of life of most who matter most in my tiny circle. And I thank God for each and every one of them and pray God blesses them richly ands they seek to honor and serve Him. Busy but beautiful is this month and I will make each one as special and possible. Viva October! 😄❤

Happy Birthday, Wil Sepulveda

A very special shout out to our great friend and amazing drummer from long ago, a ghost from the past we love and miss, a family member lost to us. We are thinking of you, miss you still, are still here, and love you. Happy birthday, Wil. Hope it is amazing.

The Lost Birthday

So my very good very loved friend and band brother that abandoned us for a psychotic, controlling female lacking music interest (horrific!), has a birthday in two days. We miss him. Makes me remember all the gigs, the great times, dinners, years of making beautiful music together. All a wash. This is the birthday in 2 days that is now lost, a wash, we cannot even talk yo him to wish him aw happy birthday, much less take him to dinner or give a gift. Well, just realized I still have one female creature to forgive and I thought I had gotten everyone. Lol Ah well, people make their own bad choices in life like I do sometimes, I guess. It affects everyone, so please take care and slow into decisions that devastate so many. And when you do have something great going on, please treasure it emphatically for you never know when a psychotic creature (I will forgive in a minute, don’t worry) will change everything. Love you. Hugs! ❤ 

The Day of My Birth

So, I was born today 43 years ago. That makes me pretty old, definitely pretty old to have an 11 and 6 year old. However, having lived and traveled, loved and lost, hurried and relaxed, worked and rested a lot during those years, 43 years both took forever and flew by, depending on the moment. The fabulous moments seem to have gone by the fastest. That I should have put my genius into preventing somehow were I to be able to do a reset. But as Megamind said “The science is impossible”. I am stubborn though, but in a good way. I stick to my guns for what is right and my God and country and family. I love full in, more than most can I think because of my fearlessness. I also can break like thin chocolate when thrown away by someone I invested ao much love in. I am resilient and bounce back stronger and wiser and am deeply in love now with my man. And maybe I have slept alone for eight years now, it has strengthened my reliance on God. And I can honestly say that God is the only reason I am who I am, the One constant now that my Daddy ran up to heaven in my arms, the purpose of me, promise of forever, hope for the world He made and its people. And if I only have God, I have everything I need. And if I have my husband and kids, I am blessed even more. And if I have music, wow, I am just spoiled rotten. Life is a serious of body slams and ballet throws, but who comes out and in what condition is all from God, baby. He made this little girl strong as an ox, no one stronger on the planet, but never ever because of me or something I did. God allowed me the gift of being humble and a Grandmother, also in heaven, who taught me faith and prayer to our loving God/Daddy. He took pain in me, a whole mess of it, and gently molded it into wisdom and power and understanding. He did it all and I repeatedly fell broken into His arms. And here I am. Still alive miraculously. Still here to serve my God, my family, my band family and my church. God is so good and I am living proof of that. So be blessed on this fun day we celebrate my popping out, my twin brother’s trip to heaven as he didn’t make it here and another beautiful blessing of a day from the God who loves us so much! Love you!! ❤

The Holiest of Corners

When bad things happen, I am no longer surprised. I see them as learning or purification tools. They are valuable tools to grow and improve with. But I have a new habit of late. I consider it my holiness corner. When hit again with a new pain or a rerun of an old one, I no sit in my little corner of my bedroom in my comfy chair and pray, asking God what I need to learn. He has brought my maturity to a point where I know that every problem, every hardship, trial, pain, and even fabulous experience is an opportunity from Him to be more holy and grow and always appreciate Him more. A time ago I did not have such maturity and was really really raw. But God used that rawness to show me His healing salve is sufficient. He was saving me from separation from Himself. He gets our attention and brings us back to Himself because of His love for us. He knows pain is temporary and humbles us to listen and learn and then He heals and restores to greater than before and prayer is the vehicle for that exchange. It is beautiful. It is proactive work for our long term eternal benefit and I am truly honored to be humbled. Feeding my dad a cupcake today on his 80th Birthday, as dementia and stories have robbed him of himself, I was humbled and honored. My Heavenly Father is taking over as my earthly father also, filling both rolls. It is beautiful.