Thank You, Abusers

I had an abuser in my home. A couple actually. One abused physically and emotionally/mentally and one abused with neglect. And this would normally be a cause to be upset or sad or angry or disappointed. But as I have drawn up closely to Jesus, I am grateful. I would not be who I am to do what I do without this abuse in my past. I would not appreciate Jesus’ rescuing me nearly as much if I had not needed Him so badly. I would never have been pushed to know the reality and not just the theory that “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” I would not know my strength with Jesus. I would not know the ecstacy of being loved unconditionally by Jesus without years of bad treatment. I am grateful and thankful to my abusers from the bottom of my heart. I forgave long ago but today I am truly thankful. Jesus made me for the best through it. I know I can be content in nothing and in much, on pain and plenty, in abuse and luxury. I join with Paul in that “I have learned to be content in all circumstances.” Jesus be praised! I am so thankful!😄❤❤❤

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An Inch

My son grew an inch overnight. Seriously. And don’t get me started on his shoe size. I should have invested in Nike- shoes, cleats, ugh!

I realize my son is becoming a man. He sounds like a frog when he talks. I will only hear the voice I knew as my son’s from recordings I had taken. He pays attention to his appearance. He has girls interested in him. He is growing up.

But I am not sad that I am losing my little boy who I wanted my whole life since high school graduation. I am hopeful that I have a young man who will be and is a good man, a good friend, a good husband, a good father, a good American and most of all a good Christian. This was always my goal, not to keep him forever but to give him to God to become a man God loves and blesses. And after many conversations with my son, we are definitely headed the right direction. I am so thankful!!❤

Old Town Gig Tonight with Blue

We had a gig tonight and my son’s dad messed up our weekends again so Blue (our dog) had to come with us to the gig. The gig was 7pm-11pm in Kissimmee, so was a late night for all of us, especially when the kids and Blue are in bed by 9pm. So I had no idea how it would all work out. And Blue was great, and after much prayer that he would not try to eat any tiny dogs, he was fine all night. And he got a bunch of attention and love also… so glad we got him bathed before we went. A great night and I am thankful. God is good at helping with huge things and these little tiny details. Praise God!😄❤

So Very Thankful

I am so very thankful for so many blessings in my life.

Some blessings at the time were disguised as curses. But God knew what He was doing.

Some of the biggest wounds of my life became the greatest blessings.

So many blessings were taken for granted and left unacknowledged and unnoticed.

Yet blessings they were and I look back on them and appreciate God’s consistent love.

He has remained the most faithful Person of my life and only true lover of my soul.

Better late than never at thanking God for everything…the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful.

All those things were there on purpose and made you the precious gift you are.

Such is the love of God. Thank you, God!!!♥

Wake Up Call

God scheduled my neighbor to visit us today to practice taking blood pressures for her training to be a nurse. Gladly willing to help, I was surprised at the result. High blood pressure! I checked it myself and sure enough, it was very crazy high (168/132), like about to have a heart attack high. You must understand that for me, with normally very low blood pressure (90/70), it is more significant than someone who runs a bit high or even normal. It was a shocking wake up call.

With the dog’s heartworm treatment and us having to keep his heart rate down, I have been walking very little. Also, having achieved my weight goal of losing 50 pounds, I had started cheating lately a lot and eating unhealthy and salty food, like fast food grilled chicken (which I had just eaten before she checked me) etc. and chocolate.

So I confess and now see the immediate repercussions of such gluttony on my part. And if I don’t do something about it, I will regain the weight but more importantly be disobedient in maintaining my health for the Lord and the work He has me doing.

So, I repent from those horrible and irresponsible decisions and will be eating strictly Paleo nutrition and exercising at least once per day alone- until Blue’s heartworm treatments are finished- or with my kids and with Blue when it is safe to do so. And I will continue fasting and praying on Wednesdays. So here I go… awake, obedient and proactive.

And thank you, God, for the wake up call before I did have a heart attack!❤❤❤

Cleaning Day

Today I got bit by the cleaning bug. I swept and mopped, vacuumed, neatened, cleaned bathrooms, and even found time to grocery shop and watch a movie with my daughter. It is amazing how much I get accomplished when it is just my daughter and I. And I am thankful. Love a clean house but it is hard to keep it so on such a busy schedule. It will be better come May but I am very grateful for this catch up day. Thank you, Lord!!😄❤

God Answered Yet Another Prayer

God never ceases being faithful. God always answers prayer and always knows how best to do that for everyone and His kingdom. Today, He answered yet another prayer for the church. The pastor was having to retire due to severe health issues and decided if he had to retire, no one would have his congregation and would destroy it. It is woundedness, sin sickness, grief all rolled into one. And I saw this almost instantly and started praying and fasting over it for the purity of the church and truth to come out. And God allowed the preacher to be dumb enough to send the truth and proof in hard evidence and was caught and will retire early with truth as the reason. And my next prayer is that He confesses to the congregation for his sake and the sake of the integrity of the church. We are very very forgiving. It is (or very well should be) our M.O. we forgive so Jesus will forgive us (see the Lord’s prayer in Matthew 6). So praise God for answering yet another prayer!!!! God is worthy of all praise!❤❤❤