Sometimes I’m Discouraged

There have been a lot of issues with my husband coming down unrealistically hard on my son and myself, quite frankly, while he is easy and very loving to my daughter. And my son rarely sees his dad because his controlling wife is even more abusive and is not allowed anywhere near my son. And he is growing despondent and moody, as his hormones are kicking in at 12 years of age. So I am almost in physical pain for him. He can do no right in my husband’s eyes, even if he does exactly what he wants. And I am a close second to doing nothing right. So I am also becoming depressed and discouraged. And ours is far from the only story like this. So tonight, I prayed with my son and after he went to sleep I prayed and prayed. And sometimes this is all you can do, friends. It and reading the Bible is all we got. Often lately. So use these tools. At least do something. Pray. Read Truth. Pray more. And God will reveal what to say and the right time or He will work on the situation. Come, Lord Jesus!❤

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Standing Up for Children & the Elderly

Children and the elderly need us to defend them, support them. Hopefully the elderly have family to care for them but I have seen plenty who don’t. Hopefully children have loving parents to look out for them but often they don’t either. And sometimes the caregivers are there but are so narcissistic and lost in their own cares and addictions and agenda that children or elderly are not heard or cared for properly. We have a huge problem with end times “lovers of self and lovers of pleasure”. And in order to care for someone else properly, we need to love them which requires a certain amount of self-sacrifice. So, it is of great value to remember that the God who made us is also the God who knows what good or evil we do, who we serve, who we value and will reward or punish us based on those findings, for all eternity. And we have a finite opportunity to produce for ourselves infinite consequences, for better or worse. And children and the elderly who need us is our primary focus and objective. They cannot get through life successfully without our help. We must put them first.❤

Serving Together

My answer to the selfishness that attempt to sneak into us all is service. I force myself and now my kids (my peroggative) into a position of being humble enough to serve someone else. This forces focus onto someone else and you reap the internal rewards of joy God gives you for it. We just started delivering food and commodities to the needy elderly through a wonderful local organization. We drove to very beat down areas of town and some smelly situations and destitute people and gave them needed things and warm hugs and smiles. Immediate gratification: we felt good for having helped and loved and were honored by being Jesus for them in that moment. Also, my kids felt genuinely amazing for having helped and us doing it together. They also were able to appreciate our seeming riches in contrast to the humble we saw. We were humbled at ever grumbling or wishing for more than we had for it was obvious that in the scheme of things, we are so so very blessed already. I challenge you to serve the community somehow as a family if you can and aren’t already. When you help anyone, you help God. There is nothing like it and no beauty so clearly true than doing so. ❤

Rebuilding Bridges

I am not one for burning bridges on purpose. There have been bridges burned unintentionally by ignorance or lack of communication, however, and I am sorry for those and have forgiven myself and worked harder at not doing so again. There have been plenty of bridges burned by others and I have long since forgiven them, of course (forgiveness is an offering to God). And there have been plenty of bridges I have rebuilt. It seems in life that God has blessed me with restoring these bridges of connection  to people I did not like much the first go round and He calls me to rebuild the bridge I would rather have walked away from and it became a beautiful thing. And here is the thing. We are all God’s children and every good Father (as God is the best) wants His children to love each other and get along and work well together. All have something beautiful or seemingly uneventful to bring to the household and together, God sees the possibility of immense greatness of His beautiful glory shining brightly through and from it. When people do right and maintain or rebuild connection, nothing on earth compares to it. Rebuild a bridge in your life today. It is worth the effort. ❤

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly


The good: Our band family had a great family gig today at the mall’s food court. There was singing, dancing, congo lines, great stuff. And my kids could come to it and have a blast and participate. They knew all the songs and played Morocco and egg shakers. It was a blast and I killed those congo songs, just saying. Pays to have gone through a reggae phase. Lol

The bad: Missed my friend today a lot and band family no longer with us. I wish there was a way for me to turn that off but for now, I feel it hard and do the best I can with God’s help.

The ugly: Got a bit lost on the way home and ended up very tired through Winter Haven. Oy. Must to printout my own directions and not rely on following someone. Lol 

But all in all, a tired but great day and gig. Glad to be home. Headed to the shower and then bed. Church tomorrow with my kids!!! I have a lot now… my two and the big bunch from church. Momma first and foremost. 😄❤

Amazing Gigs

Our band had another great gig tonight. We pulled off a bunch of new songs and it was so much fun! Two Saturdays in a row we giggled and more gigs coming up soon. Love this busy gig time of the year. It is so fun to play either my band family. Of course, we always talk and wonder about those of our band family who have chosen to leave us for whatever reason. Everyone in the band asks about our past drummer and how he is and old bass player and so on. It is sad and we miss them. Thank God, though, that we can rock on and still live making beautiful music together in the purest sense. 😄 I love what we do and also love the extra money. Bonus! 😄 Thank you, God, for our band family and being able to play out. All good things come from God! ❤

Well Over a Year Apart

I still miss my Daddy. Don’t get me wrong, I am celebrating that he is whole and happy and in charge of the choir or farming in heaven or something he loves. I know he is happy and carefree now and full of life and basking in the rewards he accumulated doing great things on this earth. No doubt in my mind at all. But in this shell, I still miss him. I am depressed no more, God healed me of that, but I still get very quiet now and again. He always had my back. He was one of a very few. He loved me unconditionally. I was his little girl and still am. So, I have taken on his oxe-like strength and greater humbleness and asked God to retain these reminders of him and it has been granted. I also sing better now and I think that was also a gift passed down, a blessing. I remember his eyes dancing every time I walked in the room and his enormous smile. God is my Daddy now and I am content most days and only when I am weak is it not enough. That is dumb though, because God loves me perfectly. I guess that imperfect love that is real is ok to miss sometimes too, though. It is ok. I am ok with still missing him. But I know I will see him, probably sooner than later, the way the world is pushing things along. I am ready. Be ready too.❤