My Mom

My mom and I have had a lot of great moments and a lot of very strained moments all my life. When Daddy died, our relationship began to mend, mostly because we shared a mourning process. And I knew we are her only family here. And God has been working on my heart. Altogether, our relationship has become much more docile and close. And I am thankful for my mom. I know most people are thankful for their mom but I had abuses to overcome, to forgive. And with God’s help, we are healing. And I tell you all this because it is never too late to mend a heart. Never. God does not ever do “never”. I believe he sees the word as a dare. Lol But remember that our God is eternal and time means little to Him. So your “never” is comical and my “never” was just me lacking faith and believing lies and very comical. And God opened my eyes and allowed His love to pour into my heart and soul and mend its broken places. Again. It never gets old to Him and there is never too much attention to detail He heaps upon us in showing us personal love and healing for every layer of it. Do not give up. Give up your “never”.❤

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Ode to Health!

How amazing to be healthy, the body again strong.

God’s healing is a smile and a blessing and a song.

Ode to health and wellness in this body of mine,

To not be devastated by congestion, pain and tired.

So thank you, God, for good health, all good comes from You.

And may I never take for granted, my body was made for You.❤

Sad Christmas Advice

Last year, I had recently lost the best man in the world, the only one who has ever loved me without conditions and my greatest supportive force of my life, my daddy. And two other important, loved people to me also died then. I was sad, I did not even want to celebrate. I did not know how to. It was a monumental loss I had never experienced. So last Christmas was going through the motions, trying to be happy for the kids and my husband, doing my best so they were not traumatized as I was. 

So here is my thought. You are never alone, as you feel. You are never unloved, as you feel. God is our Heavenly Father and loves us so much. So the advice is to remember that, get out and do something (socialize or exercise or serve somewhere), even if you don’t feel like it. Just do it. Read your Bible. Spend time with God. Do something. You will not feel like it. But from experience, time and God heal faster when we do something. The bed is a consuming blackness and brooding makes it worse. So chin up, my love. God will bless your efforts and love you stronger in time. It ends so much quicker when you do something. You can. ❤

Planting Presents

This year, I am a different creature than last year. Last year, I was mourning the loss of my daddy, a band brother, and a dear friend. I was sad. I tried to be happy, but it was beyond me. Now, with the help of God and walk with Him- physically, mentally and spiritually- I am remade and happy again. I survived that difficulty by God’s grace and the peace and deep joy He kept giving me and comfort as I cried. Now, I am remade, new, loving life differently. Things matter more. People matter more. Family matters more. And this Christmas with my little family I am focusing on planting presents rather than flippant giving them. I want them to be encouraging and helpful, useful and fun but something to use and grow with. So, different eyes and different focus and I am liking the change. It feels more like purposeful love. That is always the right choice.❤

Today I Touched the Past

Today I touched the past, I played the song and it did not harm me. The flow of music from times past wafted over my soul and yet I walk on unscathed. I walked beneath the fountain of its ancient flow and am uncrippled. I saw that which had been left in the past and restored and basked in its current value and allowed the remainder to stay behind. I have moved on but some people and friendships are worth the effort to sustain. There comes a time when walking forward when one heals enough to return for what was valuable and leave the damage alone. Some friendships are not worth that effort but some certainly are. Today I reclaimed my friend. She is worth it. My heart is content and happy and peace and joy remain intact. God is so good.❤

Once Upon an October

Once upon an October,

We celebrated three birthdays.

We had 4 parties also then

And deepened our relationship.

We feasted and went to the beach

And somehow still did school

But these very busy October’s

Are really very cool.

I miss those who are gone from life

I wish they partied too

But I know the party up in heaven

Is really hopping too.

So here upon this October,

With all its busy charm.

We celebrate our family with God

And He blesses us all month long.❤

How to Help Anyone

1. Be observant. Wait a minute before you offer anything and see what they really need. Don’t ask outright or you will get a want and not a need and that only lasts momentarily, but see for yourself what is needed. Often this involves prayer and asking the Holy Spirit for guidance. Remember: providing a want lasts for a day but filling a need is much deeper and longer lasting.

2. Don’t answer their need by filling your own. This is huge. My mom always used to tell me “Men always comfort with sex”. I am not sure about always, but it certainly is tried often. But when someone needs a hug and to share space and tears with someone, sex is really not what they want or need and is getting something for you out of it. Just an example but as a same sex help, if you give chocolate when they need company, you are treating them with what would benefit you and not what they need or want. In essence, either scenario above is a distraction and the problem remains. Remember: to help someone, you must consider their needs and not yours.

3. God is invaluable in helping anyone. To help anyone without praying with them is futile and shallow and unwise and plain ridiculous. As if you have unlimited strength to give them. As if you are all knowing to see into their soul and determine who they need to forgive. God is. God does. Call on His help before you help at all with them. They will how closer to God when He helps them. They will know that all good things come from God, our Savior and Healer. Remember: Do not forger God as Healer, Wisdom, Love and Truth.

4. Touch them. I don’t mean touch them inappropriately but we are Jesus’ hands and feet and people need hugs and reassuring touches. Some more than others, but everyone needs some level of the security and reassurance that comes with touches and hugs. Remember: We are Jesus’ hands and feet.

5. Put them first and just love. The people who comforted me most when Daddy died and my best friend died to me and another friend died all at the same time were the friends and family who had plenty of other things to do but took time out to just not say anything but be in the room with me. My cousin Nicky gave us a place to stay and just loved on us. That meant the world to me. My best friend texted with me support when her van would not allow her to come over. Another friend far away phoned me. Friends here came over. I was in no condition to talk but they coexistence with me and just let me know I was loved and not alone in the world. That is huge when you lose three from a very small circle of loved ones. Just that someone still exists who loves you. You don’t usually have to say a word. Just exist with them. That is healing in of itself. Remember: just be with them and love them.❤