The Advantage of Surrender

Those of us who learn and run the hard way into addiction have an advantage over everyone else once in recovery. The advantage is surrender. Humility. Our addiction was winning, killing us, the hold a demon had on us was vivid and real. There was no doubt of our sins, they were obvious to all around us. We can’t pretend to be perfect, to not need Jesus. We can’t. But at some point, God showed mercy on us and pulled us up from death to life, like new birth, being born again. All from us laying our addiction down and surrendering to God for help. And because we surrendered ourselves and had this new birth, we are humble enough to receive salvation. Surrender is the key, the advantage. And after surrender, God’s love floods in and strength keeps us close to Him. Closer relationship with Christ is the reward for surrender. And that trust we can have in Him is sacred, the most important thing. Surrender is the best thing we can do.😃❤️

Final Chapter of a Crazy Breakup

We returned, in a public location, the last of the belongings of my son’s ex-girlfriend’s family. Whew. This chapter is over. I hope. Breakups happen, usually for the best because not everything is properly aligned at the right time or with the wrong person under God’s plan for us. My son matured enough to realize they had no spiritual views or life goals in common. You would have thought he tried to kill her how her mom over-reacted and defamed us both, even to my work and all my son’s friends. Be very careful these days, people are crazy. But if she had not been crazy, perhaps they would have kept trying to make it work but she (the mom) solidified the breakup solidly. So you never know how God will answer your prayer, but He will. Keep praying.

I feel blessed he is on the right track and happily single and doing schoolwork and catching up with friends and I praise God we are on to a brighter future and now with the Lord. Praise God for this crazy breakup and may we no longer need the family lawyer we retained! Praise God for answered prayer!😃❤️


My mom is a professional on grief. She is a family counsellor and social worker, with a Master of Science in both, and spend a great deal of time kind of specializing on grief. She has taught me a lot about grief though the years, but actually losing people I loved, especially losing my daddy, taught me more. And I have a brother and sister in Christ who are actively grieving. (My mom will be starting a grief support group at our church soon.)

One thing I know is that grief hits hard at the weirdest times. And you will grieve, whether you want to or not. Also, if you don’t work through the grief, you and those closest to you will suffer for way linger than if you work through it.

Most of my working through grief actually happened with intense Bible reading and study and memorization and deep prayers and the Holy Spirit comforting me as I cried out and for me made a quilt. I imagine everyone has to find their own way and God helps. Maybe it was not professionally done, but I personally believe God is the Great Physician and heals better than anyone else and would rather invest in Him than anyone else.

What I would share is that there is hope! There is hope you will get through it with God with you. But know that you do have to bite the bullet and work through grief or your body and soul will grieve in ugly ways for a very long time. Better to have a say in it for your sake and tgose close to you. It is a process and looks different on everyone. 😃❤️

I am SO Thankful!

I am thankful right now, just overflowing, because God had answered at least two huge years-long-term prayers I have been praying for my son. One was that an older male mentor very strong in the Christian faith would be there for and take my son under his wing. God has provided this man in our church, married to thr youth worker he has known the longest and also loved. Praise God who provides! And secondly, he and Delilah (not her real name but definitely her role) have broken up for good and he realizes they could never have anything deep in common because she refused any attempt to be won for Christ and his faith is growing enormously. And he is not heart-broken, he is spiritually free as dating her was an act of disobedience amd now he is obeying. A weight has been lifted of our whole family’s shoulders. Praise God!!! Two answered prayer requests answered just about my son alone. Praise God!! I am so thankful and want to tell everyone what He has done. God is so good!!😃❤️