Prayer Follow Up

I had mentioned in a previous blog that my consulting work for a day before Christmas fell through on their end. And is being rescheduled for “after Christmas sometime when schedules are less hectic.” I had been counting on that money for Christmas presents and without it would be scraping by. So I prayed. I want to give gifts to my family on Christmas. It makes me happy to help them celebrate the greatest gift of all, the birth into human form of our God in the Savior Jesus Christ. It is nice to be able to present gifts during this collective celebration.

I wanted to update you on God’s answer to my prayer. God gave me one consult at a different office and then gave me a gig I just did the other night. Then He surprised me greatly by my husband saying yesterday, we are ahead on the bills because of my prudence and God’s provision and he would be able to contribute to gifts this year. And my son also, on top of it all, told me quite maturely that he was 14 now and was perfectly happy to wait for any gift until after my “after Christmas” consults, the real celebration being the Christmas birthday party (we do every year with cake for Jesus) and family time.

So wow! God generally does not answer prayer as we expect, but infinitely better. Oh how I love Him!! Praise God!! 😄❤

Change in Circumstance Requires Change in Mind

Today, the $500 I was expecting from work was cancelled. I was going to use that money for Christmas presents. Now, not so much.

I have to admit that this saddened me for a hot minute. I really wanted a memorable Christmas for everyone, just loving on everyone and enjoying the celebration of Christ’s earth birth together, more for missions to boot. All those plans up in smoke.

Then, the Holy Spirit whispered in my soul during devotions. So quietly. So I obeyed and prayed about it and asked God to provide either money for presents or an equally enjoyable Christmas. “Ask and it will be given you.” I do not ask for myself but to bless my family. I am eager to see how God provides and will let you all know. God is so good!😄❤

Call to Fast/Fasting Prayers

Tomorrow (Wednesdays), I will be fasting. I am again imploring all Christians to join me in prayer (all) and fasting if able. I generally post my usual fasting prayers so we are all on the same page. My heart has been heavy lately and I implore you all to pray with me as I will be praying these prayers:

1. Dear Heavenly Daddy, may your name be praised and revered in all the earth! May Your kingdom come and may Your will be done on Earth as it always is in Heaven. Please give us what we need today. Please forgive our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. Please do not lead us into temptation and deliver us from the evil one. For everything good is Yours and from You.

2. Please forgive any sins I have committed, either knowingly or unknowingly. I freely and gladly forgive anyone who has sinned against me. Please also forgive my family’s sins and strengthen their faith.

3. We Christians need to humble ourselves and pray and seek Your face and turn from our wicked ways. Please help us to do these things right now so that You will hear us from Heaven and will forgive our sins and heal our land. I know we as a church have become too much like the world and we repent. We wish to please You more than we wish to please ourselves, and only You can satisfy our every longing anyway. We relent and resign to worship You.

4. Please bless and revive Your precious church all over the world. Hold us in Your precious loving arms. Draw us to You. Wash us clean by the blood of the Lamb and power of His resurrection and fill us fresh with the Holy Spirit.

5. Please unite our country under You and give our leaders wisdom, knowledge and understanding and lead them in Your truth and righteousness. Thank you for President Trump and other good leadership You have blessed us with- keep them safe and help them succeed. May those against You, Lord, be found out and punished and their plans not succeed. Bless our armies and forces for upholding justice and freedom and love to all. May we protect life and defund and stop abortion and all murder so you can bless us even more. Thank You that we support Israel, may it ever be so.

6. Please help our unsaved loved ones. Please soften their hearts toward You and help them to be humble and be saved. We know it is not Your will that any be lost and we are in agreement.

7. Please be with Israel also and may peace be fluent in Israel. Protect and save them from their enemies and guide their leaders. Help them to realize Jesus Christ is their Messiah. We love these people You love.

8. Thank You, dearest Lord, for all the blessings You provide us all the time. They are so many- You are so generous and I love You and praise Your great name! You alone are worthy of praise and worship and deserve every bit of it. I love You so much and put my will under Your will.

In Jesus Christ’s holy name we pray, Amen.❤

Fancy Flea and Change

I am stepping out soon to go with some lady friends to the Fancy Flea, a flea market annual event in Plant City. This is stepping put of my comfort zone by socializing with women (I get along better with guys in general), leaving the kids at home (I always have them) and shopping (which I hate- no, detest). Why? Because I was asked by a friend and am seeing the need to be more sacrificial in my friendships. I have used the mostly valid excuse that my husband wants or needs me home, I have to take care of the kids, have to walk the dog, have a hundred things to do to maintain the house and garden, need to stay home and teach, run the kids all over, etc. I have done little to nothing with my friends. I want to have them to dinner, go places, have tea parties, but my husband hates company and I have made allowances for that since day 1. I guess my inner hostess is pushing up through all this submission, perhaps my pride has not all been conquered or perhaps the length of the unfairness has erupted my anger, I am not certain, or perhaps my desire to go home being ignored and cast aside for so long is infuriating my inner rebel.

All these culminate to allow me to go shopping with friends soon without children. We will see what happens but it is my first outing with girlfriends in years. And maybe I don’t need to go and shouldn’t, but maybe this small rebellion will keep me from going nuts with homesickness. I miss my family desperately. And when I have felt like this in my life, I make a way to visit. My hands feel tied and I am, inside myself, starting to wriggle. So I will be praying over this. I really don’t want my inner desires to ever take over my commitment to God and faithfulness to humbleness. I do want God to be first always and His will for me to be bigger than any will of my own. And that is what I need to focus on.

Sorry for rambling and this stream of consciousness, but I figured out my desire to go shopping (which I detest) with the girls and why I am conflicted about it. It is way deeper than I imagined. And thinking it through has helped me see why I may not go but why I may instead get out in nature alone and pray for greater endurance and humbleness. I don’t spend a dime (that I am short on adter 3 birthdays this month) doing this and will be better for it. I will get precious time alone in nature with God.

I have changed my plans for the best. Praise God!😄❤

More Friends

God must have thought I needed more friends than the handful I have, so He gave me more of them recently. Still a handful but two hands now instead of one. So He graced me with people I can invite to things and have over and be social again. For years my husband was too disagreeable and hostile to them and now he has changed to be nice in every way. I know the Lord made ygis n difference because everything good is from Him. So I am thankful! And I am grateful that I haven’t lost all my desire to host people over the 10 years I was not allowed. God is so very good!! Humbly pray and ask Him for anything you need and to help and He will in the right timing. God is so good!!😄❤