On Being Happy

Happiness has always been a problem to me. Peace and joy are deep constructs of my soul because of being saved by Jesus Christ’s grace in sacrifice form. Happiness seems shallower, dependent on external forces, other people’s expression of will. Am I to be happy when faced with angry outbursts, divisive evildoers, assaults and threats to our country from a madman dictator possessed by a demon (principality to be specific) in North Korea, bullies, weather dangers, politicians not working with our good President, abortions, people ignoring God and doing their own thing despite possible ramifications, addictions all around, porn every-freaking-where, so many outrages? Should anyone in their right mind be happy about these things? I would be foolish to be happy with that. However, I have peace and joy in spite of these things because that is much much deeper and not contingent upon external circumstances. It is deeply internal, a gift from God. That is the key. Without God, and if everything else in life is perfect miraculously, I guess happiness is the best you can hope for. With God, even if God is all you have in the universe, you still have peace and joy and love and the beautiful fruits of the Spirit. Happiness is an extra. Contentment is a higher goal but still is not as deep as peace and joy. It is simply being ok with what you have and not wanting more. But if what you have is removed, so is contentment unless you take it to its deeper root of peace from God. So take here it is. God is where to go for the deep goal of peace and nd joy. Then contentment is bo us and happiness is shallow icing on the cake, take it or leave it and still good.❤

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A New Experience with Old Remembrances

So my ex (my son’s dad) started a new job driving a bus from hotels to the four major Disney theme parks. Tonight, we dropped my son off to ride around with him for a few hours to have time together without his new wife, quite literally the wicked stepmother from Cindarella and her ilk. And so it was new. We rode around exploring restaurants and shops and Disney Springs area while they rode on. It was quite a new experience to everyone’s contentment and happiness. And old remembrances washed over us as afterward we ate at Ponderosa, which I did not know still existed and which tastes exactly the same as I remember it from my childhood with daddy. ❤ And I tell you again and again that God is exquisitely good and it was again very good day with Him. Oh how I love God who continues to bless, regardless of what else goes on in the world. God blesses us as He blessed King Hezekiah who obeyed Him. It is truly a wonder how greatly God blesses, hears and protects those who obey and sincerely want to please Him!❤❤❤

Working the Day Long

I didn’t walk this morning. Because I knew we would be working all day long. And we did. And I am exhausted. And this has been every day since hurricane Irma stopped by. And this is wonderful. We are all working together as a family and community. It is great. I love hard work. I have been burnt, tired, muscles well used, useful, truly happy every day. And every day God has poured out blessings for us. Today we had a family of titmouse birds visiting our bird feeder. And a woodpecker. And many butterflies and hummingbirds visited us. It is beautiful. I am truly happy and so very blessed by our loving God who loves us so well and beautifully. 😄 ❤ 

Encouragement & Other Surprises

My secondary love language is words of affirmation. I think that is because criticism was always heavy in the air and my ears growing up and all the way until now. I have my best friend (I live you, Shawn!) and a few friends here or there who encouraged, mostly church and band and lately blogging family has been my greatest source of encouragement and for that I am so grateful. But lately, people are so pressed by the enemy and cares of this life and so distracted or fantasied away that, confirming the end times where people are lovers of selves and looking to their own interests, have been largely silent in the encouragement department. So when I hear words of affirmation/encouragement/good truth, I am greatly surprised. But the beauty of that is that when I do hear those words, like tonight from my husband, I know I am on the right track, doing the right things to be a light and encouragement enough to cause someone to feel and be blessed enough to speak it. It means more now because it is so rare. So praise God for that!!! ❤❤❤

Quilt Success Yay!


So, here is the complete quilt minus the backing and skirt. I am very happy. The detail work is completed so it is just straight handsewing from here in. Whew! I am a happy girl. I will show the finished product but the hardest work is over, praise God!! ❤
Happy, happy little girl! 🙂

Musical Confessions

So maybe it is weird for a classical pianist in an oldies rock and roll band and who is a worship leader at church to completely dig reggae music. Something about that laid back island groove takes me immediately to the beach, to simple relaxation, so crazy easy to play and redundant ridiculous that soothes me entirely. Maybe what I play is so complex I value the simplicity and laid back groove. That is my confession. And here is a confession ahead of time… I am going to introduce a reggae praise song to my kids next Sunday. Tee hee! ❤

Quilt Progress Oh Wow

So, I have about 12 more applique blocks and then it is put together time. And I arranged the final goings on of the story of us quilt. Here it is. Wow. It is impossible to get it all clearly but I am so happy with it! Praise God, the ultimate Artist! Man, He did all this for real! So much work and love going into this!! 😄