Musical Confessions

So maybe it is weird for a classical pianist in an oldies rock and roll band and who is a worship leader at church to completely dig reggae music. Something about that laid back island groove takes me immediately to the beach, to simple relaxation, so crazy easy to play and redundant ridiculous that soothes me entirely. Maybe what I play is so complex I value the simplicity and laid back groove. That is my confession. And here is a confession ahead of time… I am going to introduce a reggae praise song to my kids next Sunday. Tee hee! ❤

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Character Development

What we struggle with effects our children. I have been healed by God of the crime/sin of anger/rage. God healed it because He is the only One who can do such a thing. But in my pre-healed days, my son picked up on the sin as a coping mechanism. It is brutal because I taught him that. And I know from experience that only God can heal it and my son has to be willing to let Him. He has to humbly ask like I did. And I am praying for that to happen while talking with him about it and praying about it with and without him. But I wanted to caution all you with kids’ eyes on you. They pick up and mimic and adopt our good stuff AND our bad stuff so we need to be careful. God heals though and forgives so there is hope. But just know that. ❤

What I Believe

There is a big list of things I believe. But what is more important than that is what is true. I believe the Bible is true. I believe God is truth and He wrote everything we need to know in the Bible. I believe it is difinitive and unapologetic and stands and defends itself unquestionably and is our greatest tool for life, instruction, correction and battle (defense and offence). Thus, I believe every word in it is correct and true and gives us everything we need for salvation and eternal life with God in heaven through the saving power of Jesus Christ, the true Messiah and only means of salvation from sin and evil. I believe prayer, faith and contrition bring us to direct audience with Almighty God who loves us and wants to have a personal relationship with us. And that is it. I used to have many opinions, but God has lined them up with His truth, thanks and praise be to God!!! His is the opinion which matters because it n is true and perfect and holy. Praise God Almighty!!! Praise my Heavenly Father, Maker of heaven and earth and all that we see or know! May His name be lifted up! May His light cut through the darkness! May His truth set us all free! May those He made love Him and choose salvation! ❤❤❤

The Story of Her Heart

A mature woman of God once told me her story. She was a patient of mine, a regular, a real sweetheart. She told me of her heart’s song, the story of her love life. It goes something like this (but without her charming demonstrative flare- you’ll have to imagine it). She was married to a man who was horrible to her for years and was miserable and wanting desperately to be loved and held and treasured by a man. She happened to meet a man she had been friends with a long time but they realized they loved each other. The bad thing was that he was also in a miserable marriage also to a horrible woman. They, for 9 months of bliss together, justified their love because their marriages and spouses were so horrible and they felt so good and whole in each other’s arms and company, it seemed like destiny, they were soul mates in every sense of the word, perfect for each other. It was a perfect fit. Well, the man was being kicked out of his living arrangement and decided to go back to his wife to survive (she would not leave her kids so stayed in the house married technically- divorce being a bad thing back then), leaving her high and dry, not looking back, throwing her away like garbage. She ended up heart broken and almost died of her broken heart, so great was the loss and the betrayal. She yearned for him and mourned him for 9 full months, the amount of time they were together. And I was moved to tears as she still teared up speaking of it, such a sad story, such a broken women before me even telling the story to me so passionately, so empathetic was I to her pain, I felt it equisitely. Then she changed her demeanor entirely and began again. This beautiful old woman told me that the story didn’t end there. She said that she felt alone and friendless after that and decided she would not waste the rest of her life depressed until she died, so she started praying and reading her Bible. A new friend helped her to rebuild her heart a little at a time and she became a strong woman of faith and character and she said Jesus restored and forgave her entirely and He can do the same for anyone. I thanked this beautiful woman for sharing her heart story with me and hugged her. It is not every day you meet someone so willing to share their intimate struggles and testimony. (She gave me permission to share this, by the way.) I think if we all showed people how Jesus changed us and humble ourselves enough to be vulnerable to the listeners and tell it like it is, warts and all, we would help win souls to Jesus for salvation and eternal life with Him in heaven. Jesus has saved us all who are saved and someone may need to hear your heart story to be saved. Never be too proud to tell it. Or rather, be more proud of Jesus and how incredibly He saved you from it that what it might look like that you were imperfect enough to need salvation in the first place. ❤

Sweet Sweet Obedience

I admit humbly that I was convicted tonight. I watched a youtube video of Heartdwellers on the rapture and was convicted by the Holy Spirit to quit being on social media and just obey, fast and pray. I have been on Twitter a lot tweeting Bible verses, my blog, and encouraging quotes. That few hear. A lot of time is wasted that I could be spending more learn g time with my kids or serving with them or volunteering more with Viste (helping elderly in need) or take my kids to play with kids at the orphanage in town or serve food at the homeless shelter or something. I thought I was doing this great mission thing but end up only heard by those who agree and not ministering at all so I will obey and get off all social media. My mom just did a piano concert at an assisted living facility and I would like to do that too. And I have a family to care for and house that needs a sprung cleaning. So there it is. I will keep blogging because I have beautiful regular readers to share life with, some feel like family but I will delete all other social media accounts. That may not be what everyone else needs to do but I have to obey what God wants me to do. I have been like my daughter when I tell her to get ready for bed and accounts he draws me a beautiful picture and I say, “This is beautiful but I would rather you just obeyed.” And it feels like God said the same to me. And I so want to be ready when He comes back soon. I want my family ready and as many people as I can help be ready as possible. And tomorrow so the big deletion day and I will be off and running with sweet sweet obedience as my goal and love my engine and peace and joy my strength.

The Only True Triumph of Salvation and Humility

I have had a myriad of successes (and failures, but that is a different topic lol) in my life. I have traveled much, moved a lot, gone on mission projects in three countries oversees, graduated high school as salutitarian, graduated with a bachelors of science in premedicine, a Masters of science in audiology and a doctor of audiology degree with honors, skydived, married, carried and gave birth to two beautiful and intelligent children, been a worship minister, been on praise and worship teams in very large churches and some small to medium ones, and many other successes. But recently, upon reflection, I am most proud of my recent success with humility, if that is not too much of an oxymoron. Lol. I realize that many of the successes I have had are meaningless because the success was in self glorification or material things. My greatest success to date is in humbly obeying the Lord and having humble faith in Jesus Christ to save me from my sins and take me to Heaven with Him any minute now. And I will be ready. I have thrown off things and people I have worshipped in the place of my Almighty and Amazing God and am forgiven and turned away. I have cancelled out addictions. I have humbled my soul and know I am only strong when I am weak. And I am proud of realizing my greatest need is humility. Maybe you have a different one, but the key is finding it with God’s help and doing it now. The only good in me is Jesus Christ. It is such a relief to get it. It is more of a relief to know without a doubt that I am saved and there is eternity with God starting right now and continuing forever, despite what happens. There is such peace and love and joy in that assurance. “Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! Oh what a foretaste of glory divine!” I am so thankful. I share my story to encourage yours. Be blessed! Ask any questions of me, or better or God and the Bible. It is vitally important. 🙂 God bless you.❤ 

When God Saves US Again

There is salvation from our sins through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, our Savior/Messiah. That happens when we humble our spirits and pray that we have messed up and accepted Jesus Christ as our Savior. Bam, we are saved. We then live our lives for God, thinking and acting for His good and helping who we can be saved or encouraged or helped. We worship by our obedience, humbleness, prayer, Bible study, service. This is who we are and we have immediately the development of the gifts of the Holy Spirit in our life (love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control) as well as love, hope of eternity with Him now and in Heaven, and faith. And God helps us. It is really this simple. 

Sometimes, we screw up again. And maybe it is something we like and/or think we want or need at the time, but it is not right, things we would not do if God were standing right there. Well, once we realize God is always standing right there because duh, He is God, and that He is holy, we all of a sudden realize that we need Him to save us again from this patch of mess we are in. And will He save us again? YES! The way is the same. Humbly admit you screwed up and ask His forgiveness in prayer and atop doing it. Become involved in His work again and worship Him. God is forgiving and faithful to His Word in the Bible and so very good and loving. Yes, holy too, so we need Jesus to save us and wash us clean. So don’t give up and don’t believe the lies the enemy tells that it is ok to keep sinning or to go ahead because God doesn’t care or He won’t save you because you go back to it. God is very forgiving. Humbly pray and ask Him for help and stop messing up. God does care and loves you and wants you to be saved. Out loud, say it all to God. But humbly do it. God is amazing and will help. And we all need His help and are empty down deep without that connection to Him. He did lovingly make us all after all. Get back to Him right now. 🙂