A woman who attacked me and my family and my church publicly for something she was told about was putting herself out there as the strongest follower of Christ, my Lord. And tonight I told the truth factually about her to someone. That is my confession. In all honesty, it was very factual, just telling the truth. I am not vengeful at all, this happened years ago and I have forgiven her. However forgiveness does not diminish the truth and I believe the truth should always stand for itself to hopefully bring the person at fault to repentence. However, it is a confession because though I felt I presented the truth objectively and without emotion or accusation, I wonder if I should present truth to try to give truth it’s proper power or just let it alone and play dumb and allow God to humble her His way. It was not about vengeance because I know that belongs to God and it was far too long ago for me to wish harm in any way. So why did I say anything and not just walk away? I believe I am on a truth kick. I am tired of political correctness and people’s tender feelings instead of truth. I want truth. Let’s allow truth to be told. Truth needs to be told. So for better or worse I told the truth. No more, no less, and it will stand on its own. I hope it was the right thing.
“Jesus paid it all. All to Him I owe. Sin had left a crimson stain, He washed it white as snow.” I love that hymn. It is a true story.
Simple true story: sin caused and continues to cause a debt rift of holiness (He is holy and now we are not) between us and God. Jesus came to give His life to repair that rift. Death could not keep Him (because He is God) and He rose from the dead and is in heaven now interceding for our benefit. Jesus Paid it all for anyone who calls on His name, humbly asking to be saved. To anyone who humbly and truly asks, Jesus saves from an eternity separated from God (and therefore horrible) and they receive the gift of the Holy Spirit for strength, the amazing fruits of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control) development and character building. It is simple and very cool. And God has worked in my life over and over as proof of this truth. It is beautiful, God is gloriously beautiful!❤❤❤
It is a lie that we are ever alone. Sometimes I forget that and feel how I am feeling right now… alone. My loving God is one humble prayer away. Yet sometimes I forget and have to remind myself. Why? What is so great that it blocks my vision? And the answer I determined is that it is a cumulation of little things, a myriad of distraction bricks that add up to one large brick wall to shade me from the brilliant truth. The anniversary of my Daddy’s death, the death of a great friend, the rejection and abandonment of another, kids needs, spousal needs, being constantly criticized, demands of time, coaching, leading choir, the band, teaching, cleaning houses, etc. It seems like I should be savagely content with so many people around me pressing in at every turn. But these things, at the end of the day, drain me and as I sit in the dark alone in my room, waiting for my brain to stop so my sleep can come, I wish strong arms would hold me and I feel so so very alone. The distractions, you see, again forged a chasm between the many things requiring my time and attention and my precious Savior who should have it all. My priorities flipped and I confess that I need alone time with God desperately. So tomorrow I will arise early and walk with Him. And He will help me as He always has done and I will get my mind right with His help. I will remember that He is always with me, always loves me and comforts those who mourn and admit they need Him. And I will repent of my falling for the distraction scheme and busyness and remember that no is a good word when you need time with God, nothing wrong with that. Yes can never be the only word or the distraction liars will walk all over me again. Tired of that. I will fight. God will help as He always does. ❤❤❤
The problem with comfort is that it generally yields laziness and lethargy. It gives an unrealistic expectation that comfort will just continue without necessarily working for those things which make you comfortable. I fear for my fellow Americans because they are so comfortable right now. They have grown accustomed to God’s blessings without realizing we have been lazy and have not followed His way of life. We have killed an atrocious and vile number of babies for convenience and irresponsibility and to hide evidence of constant fornication and adultery. We have accepted Homosexuality as normal and even given that lifestyle preferential treatment. We have idolized people in the entertainment industry adultery and plastered our unadulterated attention on promoting our preferred personal on Facebook. We have allowed pornography everywhere adultery did even taught forms of it in sex ed to impressionable kids. We have taken God out of school and children and growing up not knowing right from wrong. Shame on us! We need to pray and fast and repent and call evil out and correct it. And if we do not do these things, how can a holy God keep from judging us guilty? Only His grace and those of us praying holds back His anger from our soil and we Andre seeing it grow thin. Repent. Pray. Fast. God is loving and will forgive you when andrenyone humbly prays and calls on the name of Jesus to be saved, and you will save your soul from judgment now and eternity without Him. Neglect salvation and you certainly will not be saved. It is your choice as it has always been. God is waiting and if we all turn back to Him maybe He will heal our land and save us. Tough words, but I believe God put them on my heart. Please listen to them. Please!❤
Jonah 3:4. “Jonah began by going a day’s journey into the city, proclaiming, “Forty more days and Nineveh will be overthrown.” 5. The Ninevites believed God. A fast was proclaimed, and all of them, from the greatest to the least, put on sackcloth. 6. When Jonah’s warning reached the king of Nineveh, he rose from his throne, took off his royal robes, covered himself with sackcloth and sat down in the dust. 7. This is the proclamation he issued in Nineveh: “By the decree of the king and his nobles: Do not let people or animals, herds or flocks, taste anything; do not let them eat or drink. 8. But let people and animals be covered with sackcloth. Let everyone call urgently on God. Let them give up their evil ways and their violence. 9. Who knows? God may yet relent and with compassion turn from his fierce anger so that we will not perish.” 10. When God saw what they did and how they turned from their evil ways, he relented and did not bring on them the destruction he had threatened.”
So maybe it is weird for a classical pianist in an oldies rock and roll band and who is a worship leader at church to completely dig reggae music. Something about that laid back island groove takes me immediately to the beach, to simple relaxation, so crazy easy to play and redundant ridiculous that soothes me entirely. Maybe what I play is so complex I value the simplicity and laid back groove. That is my confession. And here is a confession ahead of time… I am going to introduce a reggae praise song to my kids next Sunday. Tee hee! ❤
What we struggle with effects our children. I have been healed by God of the crime/sin of anger/rage. God healed it because He is the only One who can do such a thing. But in my pre-healed days, my son picked up on the sin as a coping mechanism. It is brutal because I taught him that. And I know from experience that only God can heal it and my son has to be willing to let Him. He has to humbly ask like I did. And I am praying for that to happen while talking with him about it and praying about it with and without him. But I wanted to caution all you with kids’ eyes on you. They pick up and mimic and adopt our good stuff AND our bad stuff so we need to be careful. God heals though and forgives so there is hope. But just know that. ❤