While I love my life as a loving housewife and loving homeschooling momma, I sometimes am blessed to also still be a consulting loving Audiologist. And today, I was blessed with 3 patients. This helps with birthdays coming up (everyone in the house but me) and gas money for running around, etc. So work is a blessing to us. But more of a blessing is God’s blessing of timing and allowing the blessing at just the right time.
I got to thinking that I have Christian brothers and sisters who struggle with money. And I heard a great teaching that said struggles with money are management problems or problems with God’s provision. As in, either we spend poorly and that is the problem or we ate not getting enough and that is the problem. Or both. And to the not getting enough, it could be three things: not working at the best position you are capable, not enough faith and prayer, or you have a lesson to learn about depending on God. And that teaching is sound.
I reflect that I used to have a pride issue and work harder, more jobs and earn more but simultaneously had a spending problem. But I do not remember ever not tithing. 10% to God first. And I always had faith but still struggled because there was a spending problem and pride. So when my pride broke and I adopted a Spirit of humbleness and my faith was still there and my Spirit of self-control helped with my spending, now I do not want for anything. We don’t have enough to go to Disney, but I am content with whatever God provides and He always provides what we need when we needed. ❤
I tell you what. Losing 22 pounds the healthy way in just 2 months really dumps a ton of energy into your body. I am getting g things done and caught up that were so behind in my larger, unhealthy, still coming out of depression days. I hadn’t realized how much I had let go of, just not doing it, not paying attention. Since losing the weight and still working on losing more to get to a “normal” weight for my ridiculously short height, I am working on putting in the fence, catching up on yard maintenance, mowing, spring cleaning, reorganizing, rearranging the kids’ rooms to make more sense, reading, keeping up with cooking and cleaning, doing dishes, subbing the outdoor front patio, practicing my piano, catching up with old friends I love but have neglected, oh so many things! And I am not worn out, my back doesn’t hurt, my knees are fine, no pain anywhere, and I am looking for and finding things to do for fun and productivity. I love this. I am working for God and love the energy and help losing weight He is giving me. God is so very good and holds us well. ❤
Usually family fun days do not include my husband, who is notoriously anti-social except for music and thr security team on Sundays. He never wants to do anything, so usually family fun day is the three of us doing something free or cheap, like a park day, swimming and pool at mom’s club house, hiking Carter Lake, walking to Circle K for a soda pop, or something. But tomorrow we are all going to Busch Gardens! We got the fun pass for the rest of the year (thanks to my consulting job) and tomorrow is our first time using it. So excited! We rarely splurge on anything not music related but this will be great. Steve probably won’t go often but even one time is good the the kids’ memories. So excited for this family fun day outing. Thank you, God, for the patients you sent my way!😄❤
Sometimes, as has happened in my life and so many others I know of, a separation occurs. A betrayal or abandonment or broken promise. Sometimes it is in a marriage where one decides to up and leave, sometimes a close friend drops you unexpectedly like a bad habit, sometimes you are fired all of a sudden. I believe it is worse where emotional attachments and history together have accumulated. But whatever the betrayal, it is very common in our out for me kind of culture we are finding ourselves in. And when confronted with such a deep wound and heavy heartache, which you feel will literally kill you from the brokenness, you want to say or scream or cry different messages to the offender at different times. You really want to have kept things as they were or stayed in the relationship or what have you and that one-sidedness is what hurt the most maybe. It is a blatant rejection, and you question yourself and everyone and nothing makes sense anymore for a while, it was about a year for me. At a year, I reflected and learned this… there is a beauty in separation you can sometimes obtain in no other way. When someone was removed from your life, quite often God knew something that you did not, maybe about their moral character or your unhealthy over-attachment or their financial insufficiencies or your struggle with them to be who you were meant to be or what have you. There are a myriad of reasons we may not even be aware of. For instance, a man God saved me from that at the time I believed was perfect for me I later ended up finding out he had been a wife beater and cheater and dead beat dad and lived off of women. Yuck! I was young and naive and blindly in deep love but God saved me despite my protests and saved me again and then comforted me and brought me close to Himself. That would never have happened had the painful at the time separation never occurred. So my point is that God knows full well what is best for you and you can trust Him explicitely. He’s got your back. You cannot see what is in another person’s heart but God can and does. And if your heart must be broken to make something much more beautiful from it, it is well worth the pain and God comforts and gives peace and joy as He heals you. God can be trusted. Take what is dealt you where separation is the case. Often it is for your best and with God, He always makes beauty from the deepest of wounds.❤
Rocketing my journey through space over time.
The vessel carrying me needs constant service to continue
Constant reminders of maintenance parameters
Constant upkeep of life support for survival
And I rocket on toward Heaven, my destination.
The life support is Prayer and Bible reading.
And the rocket will get me to my goal on one condition:
I attend to its upkeep and heed the life support.
God keeps calming me and I have peace. We await very strong winds but I have peace. Even if all is lost, I have peace. Even when I am tense or stressed for the moment, I have peace. God does that. Only God gives peace. Please pray for Florida’s right now. We are trusting God but many are scared. Funny though, I have peace. God is bigger than hurricanes. God is bigger than life. God loves us. I love Him and have not been able to help but praise Him through the day. He is good. He saves, He protects, He provides. True of tiny life things and huge disasters. It is all about God. Hang on to Him.❤❤❤
Please join me in spirit. Dear Heavenly Father, please keep safe every person in the path of Hurricane Irma. Please remind them that you, Almighty God, are stronger than any hurricane. Please guide and help all those evacuating and protect those staying. May your will be done. Our life is in your loving, capable hands. We love You and praise Your name forever. Thank you for your protection. In Jesus’ name we pray, Amen.❤❤❤