A Day of Rest

Tomorrow, our band has a gig and I am our only lead singer- our lead male vocalist taking care of his wife who is now in hospice. As such (tomorrow being busy), today was my Sabbath. I felt pretty blah all day so a rest was a good idea also. I did variety word puzzles and got my book in song order and relaxed. I did as little else as possible (having to break down our load up the van for tomorrow’s gig.

I had other cleaning plans but thought better of it. I really just want to go to bed. So, I believe I will. It is 11:45pm after all. Goodnight. May God who is always worthy of praise be praised forever! May His glory be seen and His will be done!!πŸ˜ƒβ€οΈ

The Love That Changes People

God has the love that changes people. His love is pure and powerful and passionate, consistent, joyful, kind, generous, self-sacrificing, self-controlled, gentle, considerate, etc. We cannot love people into change without being saved by God and close to Him. God’s love changes lives. We can only change ourselves and help each other by being a conduit of God’s love.πŸ˜ƒβ€οΈ

Community Groups

Meeting together in homes is how the early church began. People following The Way met together in homes. They sang songs and hymns and spiritual songs, talked about what Jesus said (read the Bible is the equivalent now), had communion, shared what they had with each other, cared for the poor, orphans and widows and witness to others. This was the church. They would get together with other churches if they got a permit to assemble, otherwise it was just small groups. Our church does this with community groups.

And we may have to go back to that. It may be better to do so anyway. Large churches have pretty horrible track records nowadays, looking more like the world than the kingdom of God, funds that could help the needyand missions in the church paying staff and elaborate, expensive buildings, usually poorly managed and truth not fully presented.

We need to get back to obeying God. We need to clean up pur act because harder times are ahead and we need to be the light and salt more than ever. We need to be counted worthy of God’s mercy and great grace. We need to lift Jesus up.πŸ˜ƒβ€οΈ

God is Lifting Me Up

I mentioned that I have been going through what some call a dark night of the soul, a horrible murkiness of mind and lethargy of body and will for no apparent reason- only God knows it. It was almost like a depression but not triggered by anything in my awareness.

In my past life and active addiction I would have covered that discomfort with stimulants that supress any bad feelings. Here in recovery, I feel everything and appreciate everything. Should I only praise and thank God when everything is going well? I am happy to feel things, even not always knowing what to do with that. I am happy to feel, even if it bad. I am long overdo.

But recently, God has been lifting me up from that murkiness. I have had headaches and allergic reactions but have walked more with the dog for both our sakes. And I have decided to do some pruning of my plants while God is pruning what He must in me and I have cried while I pruned- very therapeutic- and worked on sewing myself a quilted purse. And it comes and goes but I feel a fog slowly and trepidly lifting. I have hope of being out of it altogether soon. And God was with me all the while. We talked a lot. I worshiped a lot. I am thankful. Whatever happens, we do it together. Praise God!πŸ˜ƒβ€οΈ