When All Else Fails, Talk About It

There is an unwritten stupidity in many of our heads that prefers to stew and mull things over and brood rather than having a potentially uncomfortable conversation. However, quite often the other party is not even bothered by the matter or at the least most often not to the same extent. Yet we brood and suffer and pity ourselves and fester in a darkness of our own making.

So, I have opted from now on to have those potentially difficult conversations here and now rather than decrease the years of my life over them when it may be avoided. Better a moment’s discomfort than a long drawn out death over it. Tired of that. Tired of keeping it in. I was not like that as a kid, and by golly I am tired of eggshells. I will walk rightly in the fruits of the Spirit so as not to harm anyone but I will not puss foot around anymore when a conversation needs to happen. Now that is proactive for everyone’s good. So much negativity and energy can be saved if real eye to eye conversations happen. So much good is done that way. And here is my new manifesto… Keep moving forward wisely but with fruit (of the Spirit). I will do the right thing as often as I can, every time if possible.πŸ˜„β€

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Can’t Get People to Church Here, Meanwhile in Honduras…

A missions team, including my son, is braving the heat as we speak to build a church building where the church can meet together and be a spiritual family together for the sake, cause and glory of God. We need this passion back, churches. It is beautiful!πŸ˜„β€

July is Here

Here it is already… July. Hard to believe June flew so quickly by. And this month, my son goes on his first missions trip to Honduras after our amazing country collectively celebrates its birthday and we have a fun gig. Busy month but meaningful. For God, for family, for country! Let’s go!πŸ˜„

Surprises

I had some pretty big symptoms of diabetes (and yes, it runs in my parents) before my 50 pound weight loss. And I was on the Paleo for 6 months to accomplish that and weaned off it and exercised and re-gained 15 pounds. Because I gain muscle mass so easily (being a mezomorph like my dad), and the fact that my clothes stayed just as loose on me, I figured I just gained muscle back I had lost during the Paleo diet. But now my symptoms of diabetes are back now that I am eating carbs again. So I will be laying off of carbs and modifying my diet for life now as a result. Yummy foods are not worth all the side effects and I cannot do all the things for God I need to do with diabetes, so there it is. Lifestyle will change permanently and just like that life is different.

When new things come up, you don’t have to freak out about them or sob or go into a depression or pity party. I count my blessings. So far, I have been blessed to stay away from it. I have been amazingly blessed with great health and now I am still blessed. So I have to change things up a bit. I have been needing a change, no worries. God is still good and I am still His. Praise God for His amazingness!❀

Changes on the Horizon

Only God knows what will happen, but I know that changes are on the horizon. I also know that God is ultimately in charge of the final events and everything else.

One change I know is that my mom will be moving into a wheelchair accessible apartment on or before a year and a half, depending on the waiting list. As soon as it is available, we will move her in and out of her manufactured home. This means several things… this will be a lot of extra work for all of us and her included in deciding how to pare down. And she will n have access to their piano but not at all hours as before, life will change. Once wheelchair bound, which is a matter of time, she will need special transportation for everything or me to shop for her. Also, my kids and I will no longer have access to her clubhouse to swim and play pool. In addition, I have to gradually prepare her current home for resale as she will need that money to live there. So, life will be quite different for all of us.

Again, only God knows how it will all play out. And who knows, maybe God will take us all Home first. No one knows but God. And I put it all in His capable hands. I am not worried. I am not concerned. I trust God. ❀

Rearranging Rooms

Life has been extraordinarily busy lately. And whether in answer to that or in rebellion of being busy with so many things outside our home, I have rearranged my daughter’s room last weekend and my son’s room today. They both are more age-appropriate and less cluttered. This needed to happen. In addition, I cleaned out the art corner. Wow, that was a job! Also, my daughter’s hair and mine are now shoulder-length bobs. That also needed to happen. And now my home feels cleaner, less cluttered, and I am so content the house is better, decluttered. It is an enormous blessing from God. And I get now why some people of older wisdom said that “cleanliness is next to Godliness”. You feel calmer and can accept God’s peace easier and better somehow. πŸ˜„β€

Back on the Horse

I fell off the my horse yesterday. Here is what I learned.

If you fall for a minute, brush off the dirt, mend the wounds, ask forgiveness, and get back on the horse. Falling off is inevitable in a fallen world. Staying off is a choice. Get back up there and ride. The horse will understand. The Trainer will forgive and help you. If it is muddy out, be more diligent and listen better, obey better, serve better. Use the horse to help serve more. Don’t choose to stay in the mud after a fall. Thr mud is no life. Get back on the horse. Don’t focus on thr mud beneath you, focus on the destination, the road and the Trainer.

Count on the Trainer’s wisdom and advice from the Training Manual and His Words and follow it again. Never fall off the same way again. Do your best to stay on the horse. Be humbled but not humiliated and learn from it. The Trainer will help you.❀