Addiction=Willful Bondage/Slavery=Idolatry

Any addiction you choose to put first in your life you chose. It is an illness that help is needed for, but it becomes an addiction to begin with by choice. The addict wants to escape the responsibility of reality by purposefully escaping into pornography, alcohol, drugs, overeating, overworking, not eating, whatever the drug of choice is. They choose this as their savior, their idol to enslave them. In doing so, they unwittingly choose a slavery lifestyle, to be dominated and controlled by the addiction, to life in perpetual guilt/conviction and shame, to be in hiding and lie continuously to cover it up.

This does not have to be the reality. God is way stronger than the ties that bind you to a false idol slavemaster. God is freedom. He only needs a humble, sincere prayer for help and He can and will provide a way out. There is a lot of help out there and with God as your helper, no slavemaster can rob you of His joy and peace and truth, which is the strength to rebuild and love you back to life.❤

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Church Reform

I am a long-time, experienced, well read (Bible college and 44 years of church going and reading the Bible straight through about 9 times now, and fast and pray regularly), and always will follow and love God first and foremost. Saying this, I believe strongly that the church, more than any other entity in America needs reform first and foremost. Christians love to blame society, the devil, evil, politicians, their toothbrush, whoever they can rather than take responsibility for their own spiritual shortcomings and changing to be more like God designed and spelled out clearly in the Bible.

We need God’s powerful love and grace to transform our hearts back to His design rather than selfishly and pridefully serving ourselves.

We need to life up the name of Jesus rather than our own names.

We need to serve God with our talents freely rather than sell merchandise.

We need to encourage others rather than judge or use them.

We need to serve rather than showboat.

We need to provide for orphans and widows rather than exorbitant buildings and salaries.

We need humility and responsibility rather than prideful egos and blame.

We need to worship together, fast and pray, read the Bible and have communion together rather than promote our good ideas and comfort.

We need less comfort and more service, less division and more unity.

All this starts with us. It starts with me. It starts with each and every Christian reading this and doing something about it. It requires repentence from taking personal responsibility to humbly fast and pray and start being the change. Then we would see revival worldwide that surpasses all comprehension.❤

Meeting Imperfections with Humility

I am far from perfect. I strive for being purified by God. I am way too realistic to strive for perfection. I understand full well that is impossible with me. Not because I am bad but because I am human. I strive to live to please God and be purified by Jesus. That is it. That makes me look not perfect but restored. I still have the scuffs and dings and scars but I am a restored, refurbished work of God.

Today, I blew it and again need restoration. Thankfully, God is in the business of detail work. I became angry at a leader in the church, an intern, actually. I said true but inappropriate things about him to a coworker in the kids ministry. I should not have. My anger was just and things are not being handled appropriately, but that is no excuse for me to vent and blow my cool, which I certainly did. True or not, gossip is wrong. Very wrong. I blew it. I saddened my God and I am fully sorry. I said my apologies and prayed my confession and apology and am now in the restoration shop of God again for some detail work.

The thing is, none of us is perfect. I handle my screw ups/sins way better than I used to, however, and I am thankful to God for that. He helped me meet my imperfections with humility rather than pride. The imperfections almost always originate from pride, so to meet them with humility is the cure. It is the step of repentence back. Humility is beautiful. And anyone who says humility is for sissies has never tried it. It requires far more bravery and strength and energy than base pride. But the results are restorative and glorious.

So I wanted to share that and maybe it can help someone too. God is so very good and full of grace and generous with forgiveness. Praise be the Lord!!!❤❤❤

The Day with Jesus that Changed Me

I shared a day with Jesus when I recently fasted and prayed. He shared my day, was with me all day, I quite literally felt His presence, as if I was chatting with an important dear friend. That was a gift, friend. That changed me. That changed my focus, perspective and vision. That added eternity thinking and kingdom thinking to my constant considerations. And I have had this deep seated peace and just love and understanding and empathy for everyone since. And I just wanted to share how amazing a visit with Jesus is. He changes you for the better. Beautiful!❤

Using Your Gifts for God

God made each and every person on the planet with love, designed on purpose and with a special ability or gift to use for Him and others as an act of worship. There are no exceptions here.

So maybe fasting isn’t your thing, maybe it is. Maybe healing isn’t your thing but maybe it is. Maybe art isn’t your thing but maybe it is. So many options, so many needs in the church and kingdom of Jesus. Maybe you just don’t want to use your ability for God. Then don’t claim to be a follower of Christ/ a Christian and that would be a horrible decision. If you are a follower of Jesus Christ, then follow Him and use your gifts and abilities He gave you for Him and others.

The church is full of people not doing a dang thing. If you can’t be bothered, don’t even bother going. God made you, made everything that you appreciate, made everything good and on top n of that when we screwed up, Jesus came down here and suffered an agonizing death to redeem us. So what are you doing for Him?

Believing is good and well and may, may squeeze you into heaven, but what is belief without the fruit of that belief? What is the faith without using it to pray? What good is truth without sharing it? What is talk with no action?

We would be in a revival if the church Christians would wake up like it matters. Christians should be about God’s business. He has a lot going on right now. There us a lot of work to do. Christians should be missionary- minded. Christians should not be wrapped up in themselves and the world nor should they ever be lazy.❤

Struggling

When things are going well, look out. All was quiet for about a minute and internally peaceful with God’s love and grace and help. Still is really but seeing someone from my past pop up, someone I used to know every secret, someone who I obviously loved incredibly more than he loved me, who I haven’t seen in a long time, and now I am married to my husband and all is in the past. But seeing the face and hearing the name from a friend just reminded me of the weirdness and struggle with keeping focused on the now. It is easy for me to get distracted, my mind is always racing and God is the only one now who can focus me. And I had to refocus because it is strange to see someone you loved in the past out of nowhere when the loving someone now and being committed in marriage is happening. And I thought hard and really truly would not change a thing. If I had not gone through heartbreak, I would not realize fully God’s strength in restoring me and raising me from the dead. He saved me from myself, no question in my mind. I accept that everything happens for a reason, a blessing or a test, and that God gives grace when we fail the test if we ask Him and smiles if we pass the test. Tests must be. How else does anyone really know how they will respond in a specific situation if they are never in one. It is easy to say the right words without a struggle. When the struggle comes, you and God see what you are made of and infinitely more important what God is made of. How erasylse can we know with our tiny human minds? God has to show us. And I am so very thankful He chose grace for me and gave me a wonderful husband who takes such good care of us. I am content no knowing or contemplating the what ifs. What matters is the now. I choose God’s way and path for me. I am thankful for the blessings and thankful even more for the struggle. Pain is an impressive teacher sometimes if we are open to and decide to learn the leason. ❤

Changing Change

People and pretty much everything else changes. Sometimes overnight on a dime. Sometimes with a realization of truth. Sometimes for better and sometimes for worse. Many things age gracefully and many age like giraffes on roller blades. But change is inevitable. And usually it is most likely to happen when you just reach some kind of comfortable.

The thing about change is that it is constantly changing. And the thing about God is that He never does. God is the only constant we know about in the universe. God is constant, faithful. We have God as our solid rock under us, the only definite there is. So when change comes changing on in, cling with great fervor on God who is always the same, always loving you.❤