When Travel Becomes Vacation Not Destination

Being an adventurous traveller most of my life since high school (and dabbling before that), travelling was the destination. Looking, searching for what different areas hold, what I was missing. I travelled through relationships that way too for a while but I digress. And I realized yesterday that I have arrived at my destination and all travel from now onward is done for vacations. I have found what I have searched for. It was not a physical location. It was not a person. It was a closeness to and healing from God. And I am complete and have arrived. I am content and incredibly happy. I am secure. In God first and then myself and my husband. There is now a fulfillment in the present, a new dawning of peace and calm and a bliss. I know this little girl is complete, no matter what happens to me. And I know my destination is heaven, far better than any place here, which must be incredible. God loves me with a sweet enduring unchanging love and fills and healed my brokenness. All the travel was searching for what He gave me as fast as He could without further damage. What an incredible God we have, so worthy of our everything. Now, I am absolutely brimming with Love and love is my home now.❤❤❤

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New Year Resolutions

So perhaps I am a little old, but I realize each year that there is nothing significant in a day unless you believe it is so and make it significant. Nothing happens unless you make it happen… one of Newton’s Laws. New Year’s day is just another day unless you want a change to happen in some way and need some excuse for that to happen. That is why resolutions generally don’t work for longer than your attention span. I believe that is not cynical so much as realistic. I believe you can’t make a wish things will change but refuse to commit to backing it up. I need to lose a few pounds, but vowing to stop eating or worse, taking a pill to make it magically evaporate, is pathetic and ineffective if in place of committing myself to improved health because I want to be a better, healthier, more energetic child of God. So, the resolution should be a deeper change, something which promotes lasting change and betterment. Something like praying every day, reading one chapter of the Bible every day, forgiving someone, wanting to please God, helping people every day, using gifts or talents to do good, etc. And we can make that change any single day of our lives and we must every day of our lives. I like how the singer Carolyn Arends sang it, “This will be my resolution, every day is New Year’s Day”. Every day, every hour, every minute is an opportunity to start again and be intentional. In fact, to be effective, it must be so.❤

Detoxing Our Social Circle

Upon firing from our world three people from our old band and their related toxic drama and constant negativity, we have detoxed our social circle and cleaned up the band. Those that remain and the new ones are uplifting and drama-free, just looking to make beautiful music together without the negativity. It is so relieving! First, we tried to communicate with them, reached out, prayed for them, prayed about the decision. And some people just do not want to let pride and selfishness go at any cost, so we released them. It was detrimental to remain in such a negative state all the time with constant harmful negativity and drama all the time. So we detoxed our social circle in this way and God blessed our decision with new, positive musicians and more instant energy and excitement about the band and gigging together! The house is lighter, the studio welcoming, creativity flowing. Change is rough but rewards are fantastic. What a relief!❤

Church at Home

Today, as the kids and I were getting in the car to go to church, our car battery was dead. By the time we scraped off the corrosion and recharged the battery, we would have been terribly late and maybe the car would have gotten us back home again and maybe not. So we had church at home. We spent time together, we watched a program enforcing lived out Christianity. We communed together and remembered what Jesus did for us and still does. We thought about things we could do around us. We sang together. Best church I’ve had in a while, truth be told. And I believe this was God’s idea. I believe He wants to grow us to greater compassion and need meeting in our area. I believe there are people around us who are forgotten and ignored, despite many many churches around us, and God made and loves each of them and wants them saved. We have so many churches around us. I wish we had more Christians. I decided we will start by obeying and being a help to those around us. Not with demands or expectations, just with love where they are because of Who made these beautiful but wounded (aren’t we all) people. And once we touch lives, I really hope there is a real Jesus church who welcomes people in and keep feeding their souls Jesus and not pharisee-like social or political bull. Who will join me in this compassion initiative? Show compassion to one person you see. See a person and their need and help. No motive but love. Join me.❤

Creator God

I believe the greatest lie that Satan started and has used for generations now successfully is the lie of evolution, and in so doing taking the Majesty, Glory, Beauty, Love and Power away from God as Creator for those who buy into that crap. The religion being forced down the students’ and public’s throat is the biggest pile of hooey in existence. It is ridiculous and impossible that we slowly made ourselves and became more complex. Leave things alone in nature and what happens? More complexity? No, of course not. Things degrade, break down. I am a doctor and many times in college was reprimanded, put down, penalized with a lower grade for not supporting that moronic agenda. It is so ridiculous. They think people are too stupid to think for themselves and too lazy to want to. And they try to make it seem plausible by adding billions of years to it! Ha!! Put the parts of a watch on the ground and wait billions of years. Will the completed, fully functioning and powered watch be ready to go when you get back in a couple billion years? Really? We need to think, people. God made us good minds that can think. God made the mountains. God made the sun. Think of that for a minute. He made it. He made the power source for our galaxy. God made birds that sing and fly, reptiles, insects for pollenation, chinchillas because they are cute, mammals, marsupials for something different, sea creatures, trees, flowers, everything. God did all that, in full color and sound and reproducing perfect offspring to perpetuate itself. And God made us. That is no mistake. We are not by any stretch of the imagination powerful enough to make any of it, especially our own selves. It is plain foolish to believe that noise. And dangerous, because God IS powerful enough to make all this. So He is powerful enough to withdraw from supporting it if we are so bad and against Him as to piss Him off. Of course He is loving and gives grace for now. But we need to get our acts together and start doing what He wants. God can restore. He can heal. He wants to. Draw close to Him and keep doing so. Pray, read your Bible, return to our country’s spiritual roots, to creation’s spiritual roots. ❤

New Experiences

So tonight Steve goes to a different band practice to play in a different band with an old friend to fill in for a missing guitarist. Tonight will be the first time he practices with them and the kids and I will go swim at the clubhouse. New experiences. We will ho in at few weeks to watch him and that band play. I will be in the audience, not plating keys or singing or anything. Strange but I am excited to be able to listen and enjoy someone else’s music for a change. Change is often good. I can do change. I love doing new. ❤