Since childhood, I have wondered about everything. It is a wonder I am still alive, to be truthful, as my curiosity has often crossed my fearlessness into daring and wreck less experiments just to see what would happen. I lived searching out truth. I wanted to know everything, how it works, how to fix it, how to make people’s lives better, how to make things easier for people. I have invented a number of things and written many songs (stopped counting after 400). I just want to do something new, is there anything new to do, has everything been thought of, is there no original thought left to be made, how does it all work, why did God makenit m like that, what purpose does that make? All these questions randomly pop into my brain. In childhood, I had more leisure time to wonder. I also had a very big, dangerous park close by which was not safe by any standards in thr late 1970’s to experiment with. (Consequently, serious shout out to my amazing and very strong and fast guardian angel, you rock and thank you!)
I still wonder about things, but I have so many responsibilities and distractions and family to care for that I have lately only had time to n ponder spiritual matters. What is heaven like, how will we recognize each other without bodies, do I pray enough for forgiveness of thoughtless sins, have the seeds I have n planted or watered in people’s souls helped lead them tosalvation, is the world better or worse for my having lived here, have my bad choices made me less effective a Christian? So many questions.
The good news is that God that I love and that loves me knows all these answers and I do not have to. Someday I will be able to ask in person and that is just an incredible thought. The more questions I have, the more I read my Bible and am satisfied. So as I wonder, I do so tongue in cheek, with great faith that the answers will be uncovered sooner than later and I am in God’s capable.hands in the meanwhile. Praise God!😄❤❤❤
I detest the idea of trancendental meditation, the idea of clearing your mind or focusing intention on ourselves. I was never comfortable with it, even when I tried it many years ago. Now, in my maturity as a Christian, I detest it. I believe we think way too much about ourselves as it is and that when we empty our mind, any fool can walk in and make a home there. Maybe I am the only one, but if I do not have a focus actively, intentionally on Yahweh, Almighty God, I am easily tempted to dwell on things I should not or even worse, myself. It is much wiser to contemplate God intentionally, to ponder His Word, written and living. We must constantly “take every thought captive” for the sake of Christ we serve and represent. ❤
Most nights now, I sleep like a baby.
Tonight I am still awake at 2:30am with my thoughts and songs.
And I made peace with my past yet again.
And I realize that without the devastation, I would not know myself so well. I would not be so strong and realize it fully.
So much more importantly, without the horrible, I never would have known the enor ity of the love of God. I would never have known the vast depth of His comfort. I would have never fully comprehended that if all I ever had in this world was Jesus Christ, I would be perfectly complete.
So, having completed that very precious truth in my brain, I will now go to sleep. Peaceful and full of joy.
God is everything. All is well. No worries. Ever.♥
During the day, I am very busy. This is an extremely busy season of our lives. I keep busy, I have no choice. But at night, alone and quiet in my bed, the rest of the house asleep and dreaming sweet or weird dreams as they may. That is when my wondering happens. Right before dreams come to me, I have thoughts. I wonder about all kinds of things. Some are beautiful and good, magnificent and praiseworthy things. Some are dark and mysterious, bordering on temptations. And this is when I have to stop the turn made and double back to good again. I cannot do this on my own. The Holy Spirit in me is powerful enough to tame my rambling mind and kick out what was kicked out hundreds of times before and reverse direction to godly wonder. It is not for me to choose what to think about, it is for me to contritely obey God when He said to think about things that are good and honorable and praiseworthy. That was commanded. So I need to constantly check my thought wondering and especially at night when it is hardest, obey God with the powerful help of the Holy Spirit. He helps every time I really want Him to and convicts me when I don’t. What a gift He is!!❤❤❤
Here is a short list of important things to NEVER say:
1. I can’t.
2. It is their fault.
3. I will never do that.
4. I can do this without help.
5. I don’t need the Lord.
6. Church is full of hypocrites, I am not going. (The world is full if hypocrites- we are all human.)
7. Well, just this once.
8. Any lie.
9. No one understands/loves me/cares/gets me/wants me around.
10. Anything negative or discouraging.
That is my short list. If anyone is interested, I can expound on why, but the truth is that these statements are particular dangerous and/or sinful. If we are on an eternal track here, which we are, I would like to remain positive and obedient to God to ensure my relationship is close enough to God to make the rapture.
Tomorrow, I will write my short list of things to say at least every day.❤
We do not contemplate our ancestors enough. They had to have had a certain endurance for us to be here. They had to love each other and care about family enough to procreate. They had to be healthy enough, strong enough, really tough. They had to care. They protected their land, fought oppression and tyranny, they lived and thrived enough to provide for a family that could provide for a family and so on until we came on the scene. They had faith they wanted to pass down. They had principles they stuck to. They had guns to protect their investment. They had land they worked. Our Forebears rocked. They were incredible and their endurance runs through our veins. And I am grateful for and to them and to God for providing what they needed so we would be here now and I could be raising my own children here now. Thank you, foreparents. Thank you, God.❤
Just when I thought it was over, it wasn’t.
Just when I thought it was gone, it came back.
Just when I thought it had ended, it began.
Just when I thought it was finished, it rejeuvenates.
Perhaps the problem is thinking
So many things all of the time
Perhaps I just have to ride it out
And see where it is that God guides.
God knows every thought and each whisper.
He knows how it began and will end.
There is no use second guessing the Master,
For it will be as He says in the end.❤