So, several times now, there have been more readers of my blog from India than the USA, where I am from. It is fascinating, and reminded me of my good friend Anita Bandhakar, who was in the Masters of Science in Audiology class with me. I lost touch with her for we went to separate states for our internships, but I had befriended her when others did not, and I used to wonder about that. She was genuinely nice and very brilliant and a sister to me in class. People can be very harsh to people they don’t understand and that just shows their intelligence level and moral character in my opinion. And it would be wonderful to see India such a large and diverse country so rich in history and natural diversity. Seems like it would be difficult to live in a city with so many people, but I imagine like NY, you get used to it. But the ancient architecture I have seen in geography books and travel shows is enthralling. So, long story short, hi! And, trying to be amusing and not sterotypical, thank you so much for Yoga because seriously it is so nice to stretch and get a workout. Very cool. I love you all, everyone, in other countries as well. And praise God for bringing us together. That is very cool.😄❤
I am a studier and appreciate of people, mostly because it impresses and amazes me how unique and detailed people are and how incredible God is for making every person so beautifully on purpose with love. But anyway, I love to know what people are thinking because it is fascinating. And so I am sharing my thoughts and maybe someone will reciprocate on their blog and I can be amazed and enjoy learning something new. So, here I was sitting here alone in my bed in the dark and quiet. I hear the clock ticking, cars fly by on the highway in the distance, an occasional annoying night flight on a pretty loud airplane or helicopter, birds who must have a nest of eggs or baby birds tweeting in the tree close to the house. I am just beginning to (for the millionth time) wish I lived in the country somewhere and not so close to the city. And out of nowhere my thought travel instead to the sheer beauty of the day, the pleasantness of the breeze, the feel of the sun as it burned me today, the beauty of our yard as we are landscaping and planting, the magnitude of my love for God and my family, the greatfulness I have of my callouses, knowing I can work hard for my family and for God. And I feel so very rich. I do not feel alone as I am in this big room. I feel rich and free and alive. God has freed me from my many sins- they are gone. My mind is clear and clean and at peace. I am joyful again. I am grateful and not selfish anymore. I am blessed to have my kids work alongside us now. ❤
God has made me fully aware that He is in charge.
God has made me fully aware that I am His little girl, no matter my physical age.
God has made me fully aware that He loves me.
God has made me fully aware that He loves you, no matter who you are or what you have done.
God has made me fully aware that nothing surprises Him.
God has made me aware that He is beautiful and glorious and fun as well as intimidatingly powerful and perfectly holy.
God has made me fully aware that Jesus’ death and resurrection was a horribly beautiful and generously loving gift to give us hope and relationship with Him.
God has made me fully aware that He is what it is all about and for, as it should be and I love that and agree.
Goad has made me fully aware that we need to wake up and stay ready because He is coming soon for us.❤
I may have told this story before, a long time ago, but it is poignant. An elderly man has developed a sever allergy to a tree outside his bedroom window. He is so congested, he cannot sleep and it is becoming a huge health problem. Being betrayed by his wife, who told the doctor he still sleeps with the window opened, the doctor demands he keep the windows closed so the purifier will work and he will be relieved of his symptoms and have the relief of sleep. His elderly wife closes the windows with strict instructions to keep them closed and follow the doctor’s advice. She took out her hearing aids and tried for sleep. The man could finally breathe but was feeling so claustrophobic that he still could not sleep. He always slept with the window open. He had to. He knew his wife would wake if he got up but he knew without her hearing aids, she could not hear a thing. So after she started snoring, he picks up and throws the alarm clock and hears glass shatter. Feeling so relieved that the window was now open, he slept a long, deep sleep as he had not in ages. In the morning, his wife yells this, “Why on God’s green earth did you break the mirror?”
See, he thought the window was open so he behaved as if it were. We are like this man, sorry to say. We are stubborn and prideful and convinced we should do what we want or feel we need to do. And God tells us to do the opposite. God says be humble, be teachable, do what I say for I know the past, present and future and can help you best. And so following God is our choice. We can obey or fight it. God will get His way eventually for He is God, and we will be rewarded if we help and not dig in against Him. ❤
I had a dream last night about playing a gig with our present and past band members playing an all day gig together. It was so good and I woke up happy. So, Steve and I are aglitting here in the studio listening to all our tracks and lay recordings of current and past band members, and now and then we’ll hear Sherman’s voice or Wil’s or Fonzy playing or Bill singing or Artie, etc. It reminds me of those beautiful musical moments with our band family. And I appreciate those moments.❤
Thrown away, the soul dejected
Lost, alone, the heart does cry
The fit of loss is hard lifted
The burdened pain of love passed by.
And yet is hope, I hear it singing
Fading in from miles away
Call of trump and future mansion
Jesus beckons me to His day.
Never think a loss is wasted.
Never wonder at pain you bear.
Bow in prayer to One who know all
And think on Him and He is there.❤
The good: Our band family had a great family gig today at the mall’s food court. There was singing, dancing, congo lines, great stuff. And my kids could come to it and have a blast and participate. They knew all the songs and played Morocco and egg shakers. It was a blast and I killed those congo songs, just saying. Pays to have gone through a reggae phase. Lol
The bad: Missed my friend today a lot and band family no longer with us. I wish there was a way for me to turn that off but for now, I feel it hard and do the best I can with God’s help.
The ugly: Got a bit lost on the way home and ended up very tired through Winter Haven. Oy. Must to printout my own directions and not rely on following someone. Lol
But all in all, a tired but great day and gig. Glad to be home. Headed to the shower and then bed. Church tomorrow with my kids!!! I have a lot now… my two and the big bunch from church. Momma first and foremost. 😄❤