I have always been a traveller. I have always felt like a foreigner. I have always been weird, out of the loop, never popular and never wanting to be, always well known and a leader naturally but never feeling like I really belong or am accepted as I am fully- except with God, with my best friend, with my Daddy, with my Aunt Rosie and my Grandmas. I guess that is more than most but the only living ones left are God, of course, Aunt Rosie and Shawny and God is the only one less than a day’s drive away. So I would be terribly lonely without the Lord. Yes, I teach and kids, old people and animals love me, but that is it. I am.not sure most of the time my husband likes me. I am just a weird cut. Don’t get me wrong, I am ok with that most of the time. But right now, I am lonely.
So, when lonely and homesick for my hometown and family, I pray and God, who has always been there loving me, comforts me. To Him I go and love Him so much! And He brings me joy and peace and love. And someday soon I will be caught up and delivered to Heaven. And that I am looking forward to and can call home. It will be good to finally be home.😄❤
On the topic of “giving up”,
Don’t do it. Ever. Never give up.
On why not to give up,…
Because you are loved by God and never out of His reach. You are held tight as soon as you choose to be.
You are loved. Always. Forever.
So, to recap,…
Never give up. You are loved dearly by God. Reach to Him. Always. Forever.❤
Today I got bit by the cleaning bug. I swept and mopped, vacuumed, neatened, cleaned bathrooms, and even found time to grocery shop and watch a movie with my daughter. It is amazing how much I get accomplished when it is just my daughter and I. And I am thankful. Love a clean house but it is hard to keep it so on such a busy schedule. It will be better come May but I am very grateful for this catch up day. Thank you, Lord!!😄❤
What I love most about our fence is that we worked as a team family to build it custom ourselves. And now we only have one fence section on the other side to address and we can get our puppy!!! Praise God! ❤
When you have 2 kids 5 years apart and one husband (that all want individual attention) and a house, you end up with a lot to do. Energy is expended to meet certain goals you set. Getting ahead is not always an option, as keeping up with things is about as good as it gets.
This is not a complaint, I truly love being SuperMom yet feel perfectly feminine and very powerful being a homeschooling housewife. This is a stark change from taking care of a slew of patients in the area and instead taking care of three VIPs in my household. Rather than a marcissistic rant about being spent, which would be idiotic, this is merely a vocalization on the importance of flexibility in your goals.
For instance, instead of a concrete goal that your children get excellent grades in every subject and obey every instruction, my goal has flowed into my kids making excellent moral decisions in line with the Bible and do their best to understand and incorporate the instructions from every subject. Some subjects will come easier or harder to them in their various personalities but they need to do their best and show their love of Jesus in it all. My goal for the house pre-children used to be that it be spotless and clean and always ready for company. Now, that goal has flowed into keeping the house as inviting as possible while being good stewards of the house God blessed us with, clean whenever possible.
Sometimes, flexibility shows a wisdom ability to incorporate key Biblical principles into the living of life for God’s glory. And everything we do is for God and not man/kids/women/us because it n is God we are really serving. I just choose to want to serve Him well and establish that principle in my family. ❤
So, a few good things happened today. I bleached then washed and scrubbed the windows and will re-caulk them once they have dried. Cracks have developed and one coat is not enough in Florida, folks. Also, we are insulating our electrical outlets that are on outside walls. We are insulating thr sliding patio doors and adding a new threshold to our front door and complete the replacement of our lights to LEDs. And whenever they get around to it, the installers will be here of a new solar turbo attic fan to reduce the power use and strain of the air conditioner to work. All these things are paying for themselves in no time at all and will complete our home to an energy efficient one. And that to me is the grace of God at work. He provides blessings to lift n our burdens- spiritual first and then that trickles down to financial and physical. And I want you to know that God provides what we need when we need it if we stay close to Him and stay humble. He truly rewards the pure in heart with the greatest rewards. I would be ok with heaven sometimes, an eternity with Him. But His grace and provision do not ever stop, know no bounds. He keeps loving, keeps giving, keeps blessing, keeps forgiving, keeps improving us. Wish everyone could see it, wish everyone could be filled with humility and draw close to Jesus and see it all. It is beautiful! Oh how I love Him.❤
Not sure why, but lately feeling homesick. I want to be around family and my aunts and cousins and home town and sister and nephews and neices. I miss everyone. I miss my good friends. I miss everyone. I was okay being far away for a while because I had a lot of healing and learning to do. Now, I miss them. I am healed and have learned and want to go home. There is the problem, this is my home now. My husband does not want to even visit my hometown and in fairness, I had never given an indication before of needing to. So, I know we will all be together in heaven and probably not before at the rate this world is moving towards Jesus’ return, but just know family and home church and friends that I love you and wish I could be with you! God bless you all! ❤