Trying Something New

So, it is try something new day. The butler’s pantry (which is so funny because we just were putting in a pantry with a bar sink for coffee and the guy at Lowes said that was a “butler’s pantry” lol) is getting a marble tile backslash. It is the first time ever installing tile. We are doing this smaller area in practice for the slightly larger lol kitchen we are renovating next. And like everything else, to do something new is to expand your skill set and confidence and knowledge and feels good. Messy but good, like most good things. Lol. And as I am watching youtu.be e videos how to do all this, it occurs to me that most people pay other people money to do something they have never done out of fear or ignorance or laziness when they could easily do it themselves if they simply did a little research and tried. And then I realized that everything is like that. I had never made a quilt but wanted to make a personalized one for each of my kids and just did it. And the first one was hard and the second was easier. How true that is of everything. Just do it! 🙂

Purifying My Heart

Where there is a human being on this planet in this condition, there is a heart within that person struggling against impurity. It can be subtle like thinking too much of household upkeep to as damaging as harboring hate to commit a crime against another or self and any possible scenario between. Most of the time an excess of pride and thus selfish thinking, considering one’s self way too highly, is the greatest purity harmed because things are justified such as wanting someone else’s things or looking at things we should not or pampering yourself with monies allocated for missions or whatever. And we get here to the point. Jesus Christ is catching away the true, pure of heart Christians on this planet probably pretty soon here. There will be a catching up and we will be removed from this planet so we don’t have to go through the horrors of the tribulation. Those Christians impure of heart or lukewarm or lazy in their walk or relationship with Jesus Christ will have to go through the horrible tribulation to purify themselves and prove they choose God. I do not want that and certainly don’t want hell in my eternal future, so I want a pure heart and passionate walk and relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I sure bet you do to. So how do we do that? From my viewpoint, deprivation and humility, constant prayer with fastinh, Bible reading, and loving/serving people in your path every time you meet them. That is it. I say “deprivation” because that is how rich Americans would see letting go of luxuries that distract such as idols, money, fancy things, salon and spa appointments, social media and tech, most movies and tv shows, most news, porn, drugs, alcohol, whatever distracts and has been more time consuming and attention enrapturing than God and worshipping Him and your relationship with Him. The Bible is truth. Everything written in it is truth. It has happened or will happen. We must be pure and strong in faith and action and purity of heart and encourage others to be also. I really want everyone saved and so does God in His great love and grace! Praise God! Fall back in love with Him or just deepen your love for Him and throw distractions away. Be ready with me, might be today or in a few years but I have a saying on my fridge: “Jesus is coming for me today… unless He doesn’t.” It is better today day be safe than sorry when the stakes are so high. And God is so amazing and worthy and loving Him as He loves us is so wonderful! You can not go wrong.

Encouragement Fosters Life

I have few but potent encouragers in my life and quite frankly, I was lost in either a damaged or grieving or pouting much in my life up to now, so sad to say but I confess it freely. I have been wounded much of my life and feel like a really slow learner in that now, after 43 entire, jam packed years of life, I finally get it. Humble plus prayer and Bible study equals health, peace, joy, forgiveness, love, wholeness, contentment, healing, blessings, provision and all good things. I have been missing that key and an encouraging friend opened my eyes with God’s help and pointed me down the right road. I thought I was on it but was still criss crossing the right road while meandering down my own. I realize my road was sometimes the right road and sometimes had that extra element of pride that produced ugly things sometimes. I felt rules were sometimes a gray and that life should sometimes go the way I wanted and God could figure out how to make that work well enough. I’m not making this up, folks, and I am pretty sure I am not alone. Lol But now! Encouragement from a friend breathed life into me and made me realize my stupidity in not getting it right so long. Most of my actions and about half my words were right and good and correct but my heart inside was as often motivated by my own foolish pride than God’s perfect loving will, His Word/Truth. And this encouragement was not what you would expect. It wasn’t pretty affirmations or vain flattery or tickling praises on a job well done. Nope. It was a reprimand made about similar heart problems in someone else not even meant for me. But it resonated and made me think and realize (and I am sure someone was praying for me, thank you!!!). I needed to have everything ripped from me to realize in my or any humble heart, God comforts, blesses, purifies, answers, restores, draws close, forgives, walks with, etc. Humbling your heart and talking to God opens the door to His throne room where instead of judging, He comes to hug you. Encouragement, I have found, is not flattery at all. It is truth telling. Flat out telling the truth. The truth of God is encouraging beyond measure when you are humbly walking and talking with God and caustic when you are away from Him. That is why evil doers seemingly happy in their evil pride and haughtiness like I was find truth unsettling and needing modification to feel better and some even fight truth tooth and nail. Say that five times fast. Lol So, my hearty thanks go out all who tell me the truth/encourage me. I hope to encourage you. That has always been my goal. And if you encourage/truth tell, may God bless you heartily. I love you much! I try to resemble that every day. My heart is growing in leaps and bounds with humility and frequent prayers. May yours be also. God bless you on your journey! ❤

Sweet Sweet Obedience

I admit humbly that I was convicted tonight. I watched a youtube video of Heartdwellers on the rapture and was convicted by the Holy Spirit to quit being on social media and just obey, fast and pray. I have been on Twitter a lot tweeting Bible verses, my blog, and encouraging quotes. That few hear. A lot of time is wasted that I could be spending more learn g time with my kids or serving with them or volunteering more with Viste (helping elderly in need) or take my kids to play with kids at the orphanage in town or serve food at the homeless shelter or something. I thought I was doing this great mission thing but end up only heard by those who agree and not ministering at all so I will obey and get off all social media. My mom just did a piano concert at an assisted living facility and I would like to do that too. And I have a family to care for and house that needs a sprung cleaning. So there it is. I will keep blogging because I have beautiful regular readers to share life with, some feel like family but I will delete all other social media accounts. That may not be what everyone else needs to do but I have to obey what God wants me to do. I have been like my daughter when I tell her to get ready for bed and accounts he draws me a beautiful picture and I say, “This is beautiful but I would rather you just obeyed.” And it feels like God said the same to me. And I so want to be ready when He comes back soon. I want my family ready and as many people as I can help be ready as possible. And tomorrow so the big deletion day and I will be off and running with sweet sweet obedience as my goal and love my engine and peace and joy my strength.

The War Unseen but Felt by All

There is a war for our freedom, our truth, our justice and our lives. This war is raging and has been for years, but as the enemy is about to meet his punishment, his force is more open, more noticable, bigger. And everyone feels it whether they realize the reason or not. This unseen war is as real as you but operates only with permission in our physical world. The battle is between good and evil, God and Satan. It is not an even battle. God made everything and everyone we know of, and angels (which Satan is one) were created by God also. So He is much stronger and also won fairly by the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ as ransom for our sins. And here is one really cool thing about God. He gives His created people and angels free will to choose to worship Him or not. (Of course choosing not to is a death sentence because God is life and choosing not to live is choosing to die.) And Satan chose to overthrow his Creator and be God and God said no to that and sentenced him. Satan knew he was defeated and that defeat was clinched with Jesus Christ’s resurrection and now his war is not to win, he is already lost. His war is to take as many people to hell with him as he can. So he makes it enticing with unlimited lies that pray mainly on pride which is what got him so he feels will get everyone else. And he puts out lures of self-gratification and self-importance to see what sticks and works, be it gossip, judging, stealing, cheating, fornication, any sex outside of marriage really especially pornography, fantasies, drugs, any high, drunkenness, and it gets deeper from there. He promises happiness and pleasure and momentary bliss and so on and brings you into a doorway where you let him in deeper and allow him in because these things- any sin really- separates us from God until we humbly confess to Him and ask forgiveness, allowing the enemy to move in and gain ground into your soul. The goal is always to kill you while you are sinning, separated from God’s forgiveness to send you to hell. So the trick is to stay away from sin and temptation where these evils can come in. See, you falling for temptation says yes to demons coming in. You give them permission to make your life worse. Eventually, the lies accumulate to mask reality of truth to keep you distracted and feeling ok with living in sin. The power of the enemy is deception and denial, lies upon lies upon lies until it seems more true than truth and feels better for a minute. But the weakness of the enemy is that he is a dead dude walking and all you have to do to get out of his power is humbly pray to God and confess and ask forgiveness and for Jesus to save you. Then lies are defeated by truth and God’s Holy Spirit lives in your heart to fight off bad guys and you read the Bible. This seems far fetched and the enemy would say it is or distract you with work or social media or entertainment or the sins and building up of egos. This is the raw, honest truth. Beware of cults that masquerade as truth but provide an automatic in road for Satan and his demons. Beware of distractions. Beware of sins. Keep pure and it is easy to do, just say no to that crap and keep close to God. That is it. He heals, He is love, He is good, He is freedom, He saves, He wants everyone saved. Talk to Him all the time. Start now. God won already! Be on His good side!!!

The Whispering Tornado

They say that God speaks in a gentle breeze. While that is true, He certainly speaks however He wants to. He is God, after all. That is a big word and an infinitely bigger person. And for me personally, He can speak through a gentle whisper of a tornado. It has happened in my life, maybe because my pride or stubbornness or maybe I am denser and just more plain determined to get my way than I envisioned but I firmly believe when He has done this, it was out of loving necessity. See, He has never given up on me. And this world is all the generous grace we get. Once we die, our decisions of whether to obey/worship or not are our final decisions. We only have this brief time on earth to decide how our eternity after will be, wonderful or horrifying. And I would rather go through an eye opening tornado of a wake up call now than throw away that loving grace and opportunity to be humble and live happy forever. God is everything. He made us, this is all about Him and He is so very good/perfect/loving/holy!! How stupid was I and would I be again to pick up anything else to worship than Him?? What temporary pleasure (and everything but Him is temporary at best) is worth chasing where it is more important than my heavenly Father?? Is any amount of temporary pleasure worth eternal separation from God?? Uh, no. No person, no thing, no drug, no porn, no power, no lie, no agends, no meager success, nothing. Not one thing. So a tornado of life woke me up, thank God for it. I am awake. And thanks to His grace, I am forgiven and holy and saved. Oh how I love Him!!!

The Fire in my Eye

Once upon a time, God made me. I plopped into this world with a pretty big thud (over 9 lbs) and alone. My twin brother decided to meet me in heaven later. So here I was, on this earth and from day one there was a fire in my eyes. A sweet fire, but a fire nonetheless. I grew with that fire sparking, always sparking, lots of life, lots of drive. Fast forward 20 years or so and I made some really stupid choices to allow another human person to douse my fire, diminish my spark, lesson my drive. I believed an idiot. And I didn’t realize it at the time, but believing an idiot over the truth made me an idiot too, against the truth of who I was I believed a clueless wonder, a moron who made someone (me in this case) feel like less to feel like more. And dumb me of ancient past believed such lies and a fire, born to blaze eternally, went out. Not completely because it is innate. A fire was still perking unseen, awaiting a new spark. Fast forward past one misfit marriage into one of much more freedom and finally what relit the flame of life, of drive, of passions and pursuits for God, of peaceful movement forward was a spark of love and acceptance and fitting somewhere with someone whole who fit back. And life moves on again, fire is reborn, stronger and wiser than it was before and I see God’s hand in this. I feel the passion for life I once had, I hear the calm reaching hand of the Almighty coming toward me and feel Him lifting my head. So never underestimate the power of your love on another’s life. Love may mean the difference for them, may relight the fire in their eyes. And loving them and making a difference to them may relight your own fire. Sometimes doing what seems hopeless brings hope when done anyway. Have a goal of relighting at least one fire in your lifetime. What a gift that is! What a blessing!