We Christians have been silenced for so long and most are afraid, which is a pretty good guage of how strong your faith is at the moment definitely. What I mean is, we have been lazy, most of us. We need to speak out with the most radical tools we have, our voice and our love. We must forgive openly and readily. We must serve with live often and fluently. We must voice peace and joy and encouragement on every occasion. And we must do this no matter what. This is the radical example Jesus Christ modeled for us. Love everyone no matter what and so doing speak volumes of truth and power and change things. Love is power. Love is so much stronger than fear or hopelessness or discouragement or pain. Love is the light, the truth and hope for God is love.
I thought this was extremely beautiful and true and hopeful and wanted to share it. God bless all who love Him and do what is right and stand with Israel! Pray for our President and all those rulers over us who follow God and pray harder that those who don’t will either change their hearts or be severely punished.
So, in my spare time, I will be working on a quilt for my bed. I have never made anything like that for myself because I thought it was selfish. I still think it is, but it is an avenue for creativity and an artistic work for my hands to keep busy with in spare time. I detest just sitting and doing nothing unless there is a good movie or something. So, I am designing it with materials left over from the quilts I made for my kids (the only quilts I have ever made) and odd fabric I had. I will design a keyboard in it and notes and guitars and drums because it is such a strong part of us. I will have a background of a barn like the one I grew up with. It is an art project. I am excited. So many renovations are being done on the house, it will be nice to not be cold at night with the air conditioner right on me. So I am excited for warmth. And there really is no moral contemplation here except to say that I am very thankful to God for both creativity, supplies, and an outlet to keep me sane in this dry period. And while I work, I am always praying, so that is a beautiful thing for me. I am so thankful. I know it is God who does all good things.
Sometimes we just miss people that once were a strong part of our lives and now and forever will be missing. To miss them is human. There is not much getting around that. We feel. God made us empathetic and feeling creatures, and our hearts sometimes are fuller than we can bear and it seeps out and rolls down our cheeks. We just miss them sometimes. The pain lessens with time and prayer but sometimes you just have to pull out the pictures and memories and just remember and cry one more time. And then on we go on our journey for we do not journey backwards but ahead. We miss people from our past but we must move forward and be in the now. Good news is that God comforts us when we mourn. And I can attest to that. There were times my tears were streaming from such a deep part of my soul, I thought my heart would just break right into and I would be dead. I really thought that it was so deep. But when I prayed my famous prayer “Help me! Hold me!” God put an arm around me. It felt so real I thought someone was there. And it felt like He wiped my tears off my cheeks. It really felt that way. And I understood the entire world and God’s pain and sadness at losing valuable people. I got it. I understood mourning is not for the weak but for all people at some point and God loves us so much He cannot bear to see us so heart-broken without comforting us. He is a good Daddy. And so I missed someone today but God is faithful to comfort and then remind me to keep doing what is right and moving forward, focused on the now. “Now is the most important time in the history of mankind.” I made that up just now but I bet someone already said it somewhere. Lol But each and every day, taken one at a time, is precious and valuable and the most important time of your life. The internal decisions you make right now will change every attitude here forward. And on we go, moving forward but focused on right now. Miss if you need to, and sometimes you do, but then let God dry your tears.and move forward, focused on the no wow with His help. You and He can do it!
When we walk with God, and if our faith deepens to the point of putting our lives in His capable hands, He directs our paths. And like walking in the dark from step to step on flat towers with huge chasms beneath, God gives light and direction to our steps and we realize that following Him who is so full of grace, love and knowledge is actually never walking through the unknown for He knows everything and guides us. So it is never a matter of unknown but not enough faith. And as our faith and relationship with God grows, our need to know lessons and we become the culmination of what we should be, children.
I grew up fighting. I fought myself internally because I knew my power from a young age and needed to keep myself controlled. I fought physically because my sister had some anger issues and instability (as an adult diagnosed bipolar) so attacked me regularly and I had to defend myself very often. Also, we grew up my single digit years in a trailer park and there were a mess of people who liked to mess with you and pick fights. For myself, I just defended or avoided but if a bully was picking on someone else, I was instantly in attack mode. And to boot, my daddy was a marine and taught boxing so he taught me how to fight well. And like any boxer, I never have lost a fight. And I am going to share my secret. Prayer and faith. That is it. There were times I did not realize that is what it was and there were times I in my pride took credit for it as if my strength was so great. Ha! What it was is that I live my life in an attitude of prayer and humility. See, I have from birth been gifted by God with the tool of faith. I have unconditional faith in God, unwavering belief that every word He says is absolutely and unquestioning true and I memorized from a young age Philippians 4:13. I took that literally. I still do. And now I realize that God had granted my heart’s prayers to win the fights I saw as justice against bullies because I believed with God, there is winning. And as a bonus gift, God grated me wisdom to know which battles were worth fighting. For instance, my ex’s wife was in the cat when they dropped my son off upon returning him, and she was acting very hostile and picking a fight with me. I was watering the grass and plants at the time. And she wanted to fight me (probably because I had revealed to my ex that she was abusive to my son when he wasn’t there, and she is). And I would have accommodate her had I not been taking care of something far more important in my life, watering the grass. I had no impulse to meet a fight, despite the fact that I exposed the truth and I am never going to lose against a liar because God is on the aide of truth. But I was not drawn by God to the battle field. See, it would have made me look guilty and she was deflecting from her own guilt and trying to draw me in. It is what the liberals are doing to America and our President Trump now. They are not worth the fight or attention either. The thing is, when there is a moral reason for a fight, not a selfish one, but you have a spirit of humble prayer and a heart to stand up for God and what is right, God will accept your faith and fight for you. Let me be clear, this must be in line with God’s will and peace must be pursued first. And how you fight is also important, only stopping the wrong and not angry vengeance or punishment. And there you go: humble prayer and faith and God helps. That is the answer to winning every fight. Willingness to fight for God and His truth and His weaker souls is honored by God. It would be lovely and will be lovely in heaven someday where there is no sin or bullies but until then, we must stand for the right causes for God. Not that He needs us to but that He wants us to be willing to. A contrite heart is always endearing to God and mix faith with that and that is an amazing combination. Because of God and His love for us, it is so. I sure do love Him!! ❤
I admit humbly that I was convicted tonight. I watched a youtube video of Heartdwellers on the rapture and was convicted by the Holy Spirit to quit being on social media and just obey, fast and pray. I have been on Twitter a lot tweeting Bible verses, my blog, and encouraging quotes. That few hear. A lot of time is wasted that I could be spending more learn g time with my kids or serving with them or volunteering more with Viste (helping elderly in need) or take my kids to play with kids at the orphanage in town or serve food at the homeless shelter or something. I thought I was doing this great mission thing but end up only heard by those who agree and not ministering at all so I will obey and get off all social media. My mom just did a piano concert at an assisted living facility and I would like to do that too. And I have a family to care for and house that needs a sprung cleaning. So there it is. I will keep blogging because I have beautiful regular readers to share life with, some feel like family but I will delete all other social media accounts. That may not be what everyone else needs to do but I have to obey what God wants me to do. I have been like my daughter when I tell her to get ready for bed and accounts he draws me a beautiful picture and I say, “This is beautiful but I would rather you just obeyed.” And it feels like God said the same to me. And I so want to be ready when He comes back soon. I want my family ready and as many people as I can help be ready as possible. And tomorrow so the big deletion day and I will be off and running with sweet sweet obedience as my goal and love my engine and peace and joy my strength.