Rock Bottom

Been there, done that and it is not pretty. Rock bottom is not really rock but deep sludge that threatens to slowly drown you, in my case. Some people have an accident or incident that would probably feel like landing on rock after a 3 story freefall. But I digress, not wanting the glorify the bottom, whether rock or sludge. I merely want to say that I am not there anymore and will not be again. I can say that definitively because I am now standing firm on God’s promises. His promises are all throughout the Bible and all are mine through salvation in Jesus Christ, Yeshua. You see, there are three choices when you hit rock/sludge bottom. 1. Very selfishly and eternally die. 2. Proudly stay there and/or scramble up and drop back down repeatedly, indefinitel eternally. 3. Humbly pray to Jesus Christ for salvation and forgiveness and get up eternally. So, really two choices are quite foolish, if you think about it. Pride versus eternal life. Hmmm. I prefer humble myself, that was my choice. Every person can make this same choice anytime they want, foolish pride and eternal death and pain or humble acceptance of the free gift of salvation and obedience and eternal life. Hmmm. Doesn’t seem like a hard choice to me now. At the time it was, which is why I had to hit rock/sludge bottom to begin with. Jesus is hope, you see. Truth, peace, joy, faithfulness, gentleness, love and hope, the whole bit. Just something to think about. ❤

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On Fear, Pride’s Muscle

Fear is the enemy’s tool, right up there with pride which initiates it. Fear of discovery that lies will collapse as they always do. Fear of death. Worse is fear of pain. Death comes once and there is an end to it. Fear continues as long as you allow it to rule with pride in your mind. Fear is pride’s muscle. People who sin fear consequences so lie more creating bigger sin creating more fear. It’s goal is destruction. Not just of life but eternity. Fear with pride keeps people from salvation more than anything else. What will happen if I tell the truth, which is what repentence upon salvation looks like. Truth will set you free but fear says it will not free you but humiliate you if people find out. You may lose loved ones or divorce if your spouse is told of pornography addictions or other adultery. Jobs may be lost if bosses find out about money laundering. Children may be alienated to find a parent who admits hatred or evil desires. Salvation is exposition and that is fought by pride and fear in so many people. Isn’t eternity in heaven and out of hell worth discomfort, even pain? And isn’t Almighty God able to work miracles of forgiveness otherwise? Food for thought…❤

Ego, the Good, Bad and Ugly

We all have an ego. We all have some level of self-pride. This can be a good thing but can very, very easily be a bad thing and bad can very, very easily turn to ugly.

The good: We wash, dress, maintain our composure, fit the part, take pride in our work and do our best, enjoy our God-given gifts and talents, be brave and courageous, write as if we know we have something important to say, speak as if we know we have something to contribute, helping at church to serve God for blessing you. These are all good things.

The bad: any of the and love good things magnified too much. For example, speaking as if only we have something to contribute, writing as if we know everything, bragging about our God-given gifts and talents, taking too much energy into appearance rather than spiritual development, helping at church to get applause. These are all bad things.

The ugly: treating people as if they do not matter, thinking we are the most important people in our house, room, company, band, church, family, whatever. This is a bad ego magnified to excess.

The way to keep our egos in the good department (which should be our goal in any healthy, thriving society, family, church, band, company, whatever, is to stay humble, remembering that God is EVERYONE’s Creator and we ALL answer to HIM. How? Bow your head to God and pray. Read your Bible. Remember. Think. Listen. See opportunities to improve. No one but God is perfect or even perfect at one thing. God is. Remember.❤

Working with a Diva

So our band has to sandwich a violinist soloist at a Christmas party. They called and want to use our PA, as they don’t have one and want extra speakers and to sound great and and dedicated sound man (for free of course) and everyone get their an hour earlier for them and a million things we don’t even have as professional musicians. They want to be “Headliners” and make a name for themselves. And this is a small Christmas party. And I laugh. Divas. Haughty. Demanding. My immediate thought was if they had such high demands, why not get their own PA and hire a soundman. And an agent and butler and cheuffeur and press secretary and so on. Laughing still. They are lucky they spoke to me after God calmed me down and filled me with peace and joy.

I thought of this and realized these clowns are a lot like us sometimes when we live our lives. We think of self-promotion , what we need, fight for our wants, demand things of God while doing our best to prove we are the most important thing in the universe. And God must just laugh at that level of irrational diva mentality and pride. He, Creator of everything we know and don’t even know. And here we are fleas with our little instruments instead of acknowledging God’s superiority and asking for help are like a diva toddler screaming “Treat me better! I am most important!” As if breathing and the choice of salvation and talents we have were not gift enough. Laughable. Pathetic. Silly. 😄❤

Crosses to Bear

“Let us remember that it is not God who makes many of the crosses that we find in our way, such as we commonly call ‘crosses’. Out Heavenly Father makes ‘straight paths for our feet’, and if we would go in His way, if we would straighten our our wills to His will, and lay them side by side, there would be no crosses. But when the path that God points out goes north and south, and our stubborn will leads us east and west, the consequence is ‘a cross’- a cross of our own making, not that cross which our Master bids us take up and carry after Him, and of which it has been well said, ‘He always carries the heaviest end Himself.'” ~Annie Webb-Peploe❤

Humble On Stage

There is a certain pride that you need to get on stage. I have led worship, been in secular and worship bands and orchestras, done public speakinh, sung before thousands, and been in a lot of musicals. You have to have some pride to do this. You have to believe in your ability enough to believe you can and should perform or preferably lead other people watching you. You have to have some pride in your appearance or not care. You have to have some level of belief in yourself that what you are doing is worthwhile and beneficial enough to convey a point, a message, be believable, be natural in the presentation. I walk on stage more confidently than I walk into a room of just a few people, I do not get nervous, I do not wonder if I look ok, I do not hesitate, my mouth does not get dry or wet or anything different. I am not nervous. I focus on what I am doing. Or I wing it. There has to be a measure of pride involved. This pride is not bad, it is focused and purposeful. This pride is necessary for that purpose. When you are getting up there for your own glory or attention or praise or elevation or to prove you are ready worthwhile or better than anyone is where pride turns from are reset into liability, obedience into sin, good into bad. See, the focus is areressetlways to benefit, to do good, to elevate God and help people do that to. When we stay in the good pride, also called self-confidence or as I like to think of it confidence that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, God blesses our efforts. You see, that kind of pride is actually humility. I am not perfect, but I will go up there, Lord, because you want me to and I trust you will help it go well. Humble does better on stage than self-elevation or perfectionism self-elevaters call it. Once you say the object is perfection, I know your heart has gone the way of sinful pride and you will screw up. I tell you to prepare but trust God every time for the outcome. He may need imperfect for someone for reasons you don’t know. Who cares. You obeyed and praise God He does what is best!!! ❤

Pride with a Capital Me!

Pride is the primary reason for all the evils of this world, of which we all see regularly now. Pride says “Me!” Pride puts self or something pleasurable on a pedestal and strokes the ego to justify the lifting of that to God status, called the old fashioned word “idolatry” in the Bible. Pride says “I am more important”, “I deserve this”, “I want it”, or “I certainly deserve it more than they do” and on and on the lies go. Salesmen tickle our ears with it, media caters to it, social media pushes and reinforces it soundly, we are solo artists in a bowl of soup with other solo artists but there is no orchestra anymore. Pride lies and destroys. Nothing is more destructive than pride. Nothing. Not one thing. And nothing will keep people from humbly admitting and confessing sins in prayer to God for salvation more than pride. So pride then will keep more people from heaven and drive them to hell. So pride is the enemy within. It must be minimized. It must be thwarted. I must drive pride out of my heart and put humility and the Holy Spirit on the pedestal He deserved. We must make our hearts a pure and classy, clean, inviting throne for God to dwell. We must love and serve, smile, make eye contact with, encourage people for God loves that not so pride gets puffed up. God is everything. Pride must then become nothing.