Shaking a Fist at God

This imagery has been brought into my head lately. Whenever we insist on doing what we want- and for years as an addict I did this so I speak from experience- we are pridefully shaking our fist at God. We are saying we want what we want and don’t want to hear what our loving Creator wants from or for us. We are praying our will be done rather than God’s will be done. We are screaming that we know better than almighty God, who made us.

God brought me, loved me, into recovery, into humble submission to His plan. Jesus bought with His own blood and cleaned me up inside and out. I am not who I was and I am free now and joyful, I have peace. All this because I have accepted His plan for me and humbled myself to accept love and grace. It is so very beautiful! I am so thankful! Praise God!😃❤️

Tensions High & Humble Pie

Back to my humble I run. Tensions around here are high with my husband’s tv on the fritz. I am listening to music to pass time before bed and he is annoyed and passive aggressively hates every son I pick. I have to like all his weird songs that are rock songs with jazz timing that never settle well, but my songs are all garbage, not to be tolerated. And this is the tense life and I am fasting tomorrow (prayers to follow on another post).

So, I take a deep breath in ad hold it for a second or two and let it out in a controlled fashion and step off my reared up pride once again. It is not my concern that he keeps his pride up. No, my business is in myself being humble before the Lord and as an extention, being humble before him. I turn the music off, pray and read my Bible.

Is this a cop out, a “crutch”? I don’t care about that except to disdain the pride teeming in that question. I only care that I need to correct me and my pride to soften the room. So I do. And all is well.

We are too quick to proudly defend our honor when humble forgiveness and grace serve everyone much better.😄❤

Humble is the Goal

The world strokes you. They stroke you to sell stuff or to n push their agenda- money and power. They play on your pride that is our natural weakness. People want to be stroked. They want to feel important and valid and respected in this chaotic world. Pride pushes us to fight for what we want. Pride reinforces selfishness. It encourages self-thought and self-service. The opposite of pride out of control is being humble. Humble is the key to peace, joy, happiness, fulfillment because it is the proper way to be. It is putting yourself in the proper scope and frame of reference, knowing who you are in the world and who God is. We are not God, not even close on our best day or even best hour. When we realize God is all powerful and we are only important at all because He says we are and loves us (difficult to fathom) unconditionally, we get it. Then we can do what we can out of love and gratitude for Him and let Him do the rest because He can and will do what is best for everyone. We can rest in that, see? Like a child having faith, we can do that with God and then are under His eternal protection and salvation. It is that simple and beautiful! Praise God! ❤ ❤ ❤

Pridefully Alone or Humbly Held

Deep in richest pride, I walk alone.

I declare my proud right to self-government

And there is no room for God to work.

In pride, I am so important but so lonely.

When pushing for myself, I push God out.

But when humble, I am held by God

For He has room to enter in.

Humble, I am worthy of rescue and comfort.

Humble, I can accept God’s great intervention.

I am pridefully alone but thank God I am humbly held.❤