Take Me Back

“There was once in our lifetime,

A time of joy, a precious dance sublime.

Now that time is in our past

And I long for precious memories of that.

Take me there to that time

When I was yours, your heart was mine.

Take me back to that day when I was yours that way.

See if we can bring back moments of splendor.

See if we can bring back hearts full beyond measure.

There was once a holiday

Where the best thing we could do was meet our gaze.

Now that time is in the past.

And I long for sweetest memories of that.

See if we can bring back moments of pleasure

See if we can bring back hearts full beyond measure.

Take me there to that time

When I was yours, your heart was mine

Take me back to that day when I was yours that way.

I was yours that way.”❤

I am singing this song tomorrow in church. I wrote it pining a lost love and revisited it after reading Revelation 2 (Rev. 2:1. “To the angel of the church in Ephesus write: These are the words of him who holds the seven stars in his right hand and walks among the seven golden lampstands. 2. I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked people, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. 3. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary. 4. Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first. 5. Consider how far you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.”) where Jesus tells us He longs to be our (the church’s/saved ones) first love again. And this song gained immense power to me for it is the song of Jesus’ heart toward we whom He loves so very much and longs to draw us back to Himself. That relationship is far deeper, more meaningful and eternal. It is always our choice. He is always willing and eager to love us. His arms are open, come on in.❤

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Beware of “Acceptable Sins”

I have observed that many Christians have an unspoken category of “acceptable sins”. This basically entails whatever sin they favor in their own life. For some it is gossip. Some, grumbling and complaining (I am working on this one). For some it is gluttony of food, drugs, alcohol, cellphones, tech, work, whatever it is. Some, it is idolatry of a spouse or lover. Some, it is criticism and for some, it is lust. For some, stinginess and for others it is worry. There are a myriad of options. People want their pet sin to be an “acceptable sin”. And this has gone on as long as I have been alive and I am sure before that. This is dangerous, friends, because in God’s eyes, every sin separates us from His Holiness/Perfect Purity. Any sin we commit is a blemish and causes separation from God. Any “little” or “acceptable” one. I am guilty of this and have to keep reminding myself as I am reminding you that we need to stay in a manner of contrition. Our hearts and minds are notoriously dirty and we need to stay humble and teachable in prayer and keep asking the blood of Jesus and power n of His resurrection to cover all our sins and keep us in good standing with God. He longs for and loves us and we have everything we need in Jesus Christ, who died a sinless sacrifice for us for all time as long as we accept His free gift of grace. How beautiful! He dies for every sin, “acceptable” ones or ones steeped in sheer evil. Jesus is strong enough to cover any sin. We just need to keep coming to Him with them and as soon as we are aware (and here is the hardest part for so many), stop sinning. People sin because they want to. We have to want to please God more than to please ourselves. That is the key. God is worthy of our efforts. And there are eternal rewards for staying with Him.❤

Today I Reset

God blessed us with a rain day, a day off of PE. I am happy because my sinuses around my eyes are going nuts right now and I needed some time alone with God to just breathe. I had to reset. My mind has played some reruns and wrong channels lately and it was really getting me weighed down and feeling far from my Savior. So He gave me this morning off to get my heart into contrite mode and give everything to Him, confess and just repent. I told a friend about it. And God forgave me (as evidenced by the feeling of a smile and burden lifted) and we are back. And God is so precious and so good and loves us so much. I feel Him close and am so thankful and want to give Him glory for His love and grace and just compassion on us. He may be the only one in the world that loves me and that would be enough, all I ever need. He loves that well. 😄❤❤❤

Been Thinking of a Friend of Mine AKA Relationship Choices

I consider him a close friend. Long time ago, we were as close as it is possible for two people to be and now I doubt he remembers my name. And I wonder about what changes in life to make things different.

A decision.

And only one person in a relationship has to decide the relationship is over and it is over for that person, and the other person hangs on sometimes forever, not having decided to end the relationship and still loving them, wondering what they did wrong. But alas, it is what it is, tears and all.

This lead me to feel very strongly what God goes through with us humans He lovingly created on purpose. He wants a relationship with us and He is always on board. It is us that flippantly out of the air just decide the grass is greener over there and skip out on the relationship. We drop it when it is inconvenient or doesn’t give us every wish granted for our pampered arses. And God is right there still loving us and watching for us to come back, longing for one word.

It is cruel to break off a relationship for selfish reasons but it happens And you just walk around with them in your heart all the time or wounded having ripped that part of your heart out. But with the Lord, we have until our breath is gone to humbly say the word and restore the relationship. We just never know when that last breath will be and then eternity is upon us. So we should restore that relationship with all our effort. And the beauty of that is that Jesus is very forgiving and always loving and eager to restore our relationship with Him. Thank God at least He loves me desperately. It is so nice to be loved.❤

Failing and Beginning Again

I trip.

I stumble.

I fall.

I lay there a while.

I realize I am laying there looking stupid.

I pray humbly for help for I cannot feel my arms.

Jesus lifts me up n out of the dirt yet again.

I try hard not to stumble again.

This time I ask Jesus for help.

I do better.

Regardless, I am saved by loving grace from Jesus.

I just want to please my Lord.

I keep praying and move on.

Jesus is so good!❤❤❤

Not Falling for It

By nature, I am naive. I think with a purity of thought, raised to be honest. I expect everyone to be also, always seeing the best in people. It is not long in this world before you realize the best in people is their choice and many do not choose goodness and their best but decide to choose their worst. Psychologists (of which my mom is one) explain everyone’s choice away as the fault of their environment or parental relationships. And I have to tell you, that us a load of crap. Life is not fair, things happen to everyone. No one is alone in suffering. But certainly, unequivocally, without any doubt or lie, whether you choose to be your best, which is a honest and loved-by-God servant of almighty God or a dishonest and ironically still loved-by-God servant of self/satan/pride, IT IS YOUR CHOICE. No one wants you to be bad. No n one can make you bad against your will. That is always your choice. The beauty is that being good doing good, returning to God is always your choice too. He has always been one humble prayer away. And returning to Him is always one humble prayer back. So simple. So many lies for so long and so many distractions provide the illusion of confusion, chaos, despair, complications. They don’t exist excepting your mind full of lies. Accept the simple truth of Christ Jesus who longs to be your Savior and give you peace and joy and lavish blessings and forgiveness on you. ❤

Less of Us, More of God

I offended many who love the New Age crap and self-thought, self-care, self-absorption. I am glad of that. Not enough truth is being told and when it is, it is watered down or cushioned with narcissistic enabling words so people listen. The Bible says in the last days people will be lovers of self, going after flattery over truth and narcisssistic in every aspect of their lives. Tech and entertainment promote this, addictions promote this, demons promote this, everything and everyone standing against Christ Jesus as Lord of all promotes this. That tells me it is evil and I must run the opposite way. I fell for it for a bit, with self-improvement crap. It is all nonsense and strokes the ego rather than pulling you toward Christ Jesus, the only way to eternal security in Heaven. We MUST have less of us in our lives and more of God, more of Jesus, more of His truth and goodness. That is lasting eternal improvement. The way of the humble is the way to Christ Jesus. The foot of the cross and exuberance of the resurrection is true eternal life. Less of me, more of God!!!❤❤❤