Sometimes, as has happened in my life and so many others I know of, a separation occurs. A betrayal or abandonment or broken promise. Sometimes it is in a marriage where one decides to up and leave, sometimes a close friend drops you unexpectedly like a bad habit, sometimes you are fired all of a sudden. I believe it is worse where emotional attachments and history together have accumulated. But whatever the betrayal, it is very common in our out for me kind of culture we are finding ourselves in. And when confronted with such a deep wound and heavy heartache, which you feel will literally kill you from the brokenness, you want to say or scream or cry different messages to the offender at different times. You really want to have kept things as they were or stayed in the relationship or what have you and that one-sidedness is what hurt the most maybe. It is a blatant rejection, and you question yourself and everyone and nothing makes sense anymore for a while, it was about a year for me. At a year, I reflected and learned this… there is a beauty in separation you can sometimes obtain in no other way. When someone was removed from your life, quite often God knew something that you did not, maybe about their moral character or your unhealthy over-attachment or their financial insufficiencies or your struggle with them to be who you were meant to be or what have you. There are a myriad of reasons we may not even be aware of. For instance, a man God saved me from that at the time I believed was perfect for me I later ended up finding out he had been a wife beater and cheater and dead beat dad and lived off of women. Yuck! I was young and naive and blindly in deep love but God saved me despite my protests and saved me again and then comforted me and brought me close to Himself. That would never have happened had the painful at the time separation never occurred. So my point is that God knows full well what is best for you and you can trust Him explicitely. He’s got your back. You cannot see what is in another person’s heart but God can and does. And if your heart must be broken to make something much more beautiful from it, it is well worth the pain and God comforts and gives peace and joy as He heals you. God can be trusted. Take what is dealt you where separation is the case. Often it is for your best and with God, He always makes beauty from the deepest of wounds.❤
So, this song has been on my mind lately. The thing is that when you accumulate some years during “maturity”, you reminisce in quiet moments. You regret some. You appreciate others. You wonder at your own sanity or insanity when the opposite would have been called for at different times. You get why you are largely alone now, preferring the stability of a few close friends to popularity from the world of strangers and denegration. And it hits you that although the past may hold most of your ambitions and loves and passionate pursuits and hard times and incredibly amazing and perfect moments, all of it accumulated to get you to the most important moment of our life… the NOW. And you may have left some love out there floating around, rejected for a while but you know remembered by them now and again, and you may have left some pretty harsh treatment being forgiven beyond deserving, that God brought you to this place to forgive now and love who you can now. Better. Bigger. With maybe less ambition but much more wise fervor. And maybe, now, as He has blessed you with survival and presence, you can give God back some love He gave you through it all. He has been your constant, precious friend. He is the Lover our souls all wanted and still want. And treasure your precious gift that everything else has led to… NOW. ❤❤❤
I will do less that doesn’t matter am more that does.
I will be a better servant of God, my family and humanity.
I will teach my children meaningful lessons.
I will strive to honor God in everything I do and say.
The past is gone, the present is a gift worthy of intention, respect and appreciation and is in God’s hands, and the future is in God’s hands.❤
Never give up. Run the race. Finish the course before you. And on your journey to heaven, don’t forget not only to focus on Jesus’ arms ahead but on the beauty of the journey itself. There is glory in everything God made… His fingerprint and breath, His design and inerrant beauty. Run the race with purposefully beautiful intentions.❤
We may not acknowledge it’s importance and may be so distracted we downplay its value, but in crisis it is more obvious that this is true… every moment is a choice. Our choice. Every single moment we choose to life, be free, continue to breathe. Those seemingly automatic choices are only automatic when nothing is wrong. But in states of natural disasters, illnesses, abuse, devastation, it becomes much more apparent that these are indeed choices. It is likewise our choice to give God glory and honor in everything we do. Or not. These are purposeful choices every moment of our life. Every moment counts. This moment I am for God and truth. This moment also. This one too. Or… this moment I will do what I want, I want to escape in this drug, I want to watch porn in this moment. The choice is ours and important and will be counted and rewarded (either positively or negatively) for an eternity. Not claiming to have made a choice or saying it is not important is actually making ac choice to believe a lie, a moment of choice against Truth/God. God says our choices matter and we will be accountable for them. If we pretend/lie to ourselves that it doesn’t really matter or isn’t important or we have time later and blow it off, we call God a liar and that is not something I would recommend. God lays out Truth in His Word. It must be our choice to read it, humbly pray to Him and obey/make good choices every moment. It is time to live every moment on purpose and choose God. God is power and truth with love. He is very forgiving and full of grace. Apologize and start over with His help. Now is the time to make good choices for God. Life purposefully for you are without knowing it anyway. God/Truth is our focus and choice. Every moment on purpose it is the same. If you screw up, apologize and start again next moment. Practice makes perfect. ❤
Ephesians 2:10. “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”❤
Ephesians 1:3. “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. 4. For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love 5. he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— 6. to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. 7. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace 8. that he lavished on us. With all wisdom and understanding, 9. he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, 10. to be put into effect when the times reach their fulfillment—to bring unity to all things in heaven and on earth under Christ.”