Just Keep Praying

My physical/emotional self is tired. Tired of selfishness, tired of games people play, tired of drama, tired of caring and not being cared for back, tired of pride unchecked, tired of the weight on my shoulders all the time, tired of stress. So true. So true. But…

The mental self can still be moved, can be tintilated by puzzles, can be engaged in enigmas. Can still co-create and write, can still be energized and awakened and thrilled. But…

My main focus I have decided is on my spiritual self, for that will remain into eternity. Here is where the Holy Spirit (who dwells there) reminds me to keep praying, keep doing what is right, keep worshipping. And here He gives me energy when I humbly ask and finally put the tired physical/emotional down. I am reminded that when I feel tired all over and overwhelmed is when I have not humbled myself to prayer and spirit where renewal generously flows over me and rest is sweet and burdens light. Joy and peace are there. For there I meet with my Savior. Sweet relief.

This post is a reminder to myself and a reminder to whoever needs it to humble up, put the physical down, and just keep praying. And peace and joy flow there. Praise God! 😄❤

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Awareness & Decisions

I had a dream that someone close to me was going to die. I have never had a dream like that before. So it made me very aware and rather somber and contemplative. In addition, since said dream, I have to make several huge decisions. And I am reminded that life does not get easier with time but more complex and different instead. What changes for the better is that my humility and faith and relationship with God has grown and developed so much so that I trust Him no matter what, thank Him no matter what, and pray to ask for the guidance on which direction to go. And He never stars me wrong, it is always in line with the Bible and the Holy Spirit. God will never contradict His written Word, not ever.

So, I will have some extra conversations with the Lord about these matters and maybe add an additional day of fasting and let God guide my heart in the right direction, as He always does. God is certainly mighty good!! I am so glad He is!!❤❤❤

My Son’s Journey

My son is now a few months from 14 years of age. He is voice is changing. His mood is changing. His confidence is growing, sometimes too quickly. But God be praised, his spiritual maturity is growing. I just dropped him off at 4:15 am this morning to go on a week long Honduras missions trip. They are building a church by day and holding Bible study at night. He is growing closer to God every day. We read the Bible and pray together several times a day and I lead by faith and works. He is a good boy and is unmoved by the several girls who have already noticed and are pursuing him. He wants to be true to who God made him.

I say all these things not to brag, but I want you to know that every step we take closer to God or sadly farther from Him is our own choice. He went through my painful divorce and many turbulence with new step parents on both sides and he has chosen to be God’s son and focus on God. And God rewards and blesses him, as He does so often with all of us who chose to obey. And despite some sins/ mistakes made on the journey, God is only ever a humble prayer away again. There is hope for our kids. Sure, he is homeschooled, but that us a possibility for everyone and we always have that personal choice to make regarding our spiritual maturity/walk and relationship with God.

I am fasting this week while he is gone that God’s will for all involved will be done and I know he is in God’s capable hands, right where he belongs and chooses to be. We all make that choice all the time, some knowingly and some unknowingly. Pleased be encouraged and God bless your choice and journey. Praise God!❤

The Thing Is

The thing is that our loving and holy God wants and designed you for a relationship, a personal friendship with Him. This spiritual truth is the most important truth,this is fact based upon evidence both in thr Bible and in nature, in our very selves. Down deep we know this, we are made up of His stuff, so we inherently have an internal right and wrong scale, no matter how we have messed it or allowed it to be messed over the years.

The thing is the way to have that relationship with God the Father is through God the Son Jesus Christ who took care of the bridge between unholy – naturally us and holy Him by sacrificing Himself for us. Believing in this truth and keeping in prayer and Bible study is the key. Naturally, we will want to say and do the right things as a result of that but humbled-soul belief and acceptance and prayer is the key.

The thing is we don’t have unlimited time to do this. We are told Jesus is coming back soon. That means eternal life in heaven or hell (our choice based on what we do with these truths) is beginning soon, ready or not. We own our choice, no matter what deceit has been present. Lies will immediately melt away in His truth and we will be gloriously happy or eternally ashamed. And that truth forces a decision.

The thing is we have to choose humble glory of naming Jesus Christ our Savior or proud shame of forever wishing you had. We must make time for that decision and commit now. ❤

Black or White

Either you have or want a relationship with Yahweh/God or don’t. This is black and white. Gray is not an option. It really is the best decision in the world to make that contrite decision to have that stabilizing, loving relationship with our loving Creator, the Almighty God of the universe. And no matter what you believe, that is the truth. And choosing to believe it or not almost comical, like deciding that the color white is indeed white versus deciding to proudly say that white is orange and screaming that haughtily at the sky as if that makes it so. Why thr Bible rightly proclaims, “A fool says in his heart that there is no God.” It is a fact that not only does God exist but that He loves us and wants to have a relationship with every precious person He lovingly made on purpose. And Jesus is our way. It is black and white.

Gray is a hypothetical construct to make people feel better without the discomfort of committing to something that makes you feel guilty about still sinning doing things you want to do that are not really eternally good for you. Gray sucks. And God says He hates gray, it will be spewed out of His mouth, He says.

Love Him or don’t and be very careful about don’t. That decision has eternal consequences. And it is such an incredible joy and peace to be close to Yahweh/God! God is worthy of our effort and praise and certainly our trust. He is worthy of all praise!❤

I Can Only Imagine

Heaven is our encouragement for ourselves and for encouraging each other. And I am torn between just really looking forward to/thinking about heaven and working harder to share Jesus and help other people be saved and go to Heaven to. I almost feel n guilty about dreaming about heaven when so many people are not going to be there because they have not accepted Jesus Christ as their Savior. So I can look forward to Heaven but focus now on reaching as many as I can with the Good News that Jesus Saves all who humbly ask Him to. And Heaven will be that much sweeter when I am there in person.😄❤

Oh What a Difference a Choice and a Night Makes

So, we begin our story on a busy day yesterday. So busy, I barely stopped moving all day. We tried to do homeschool while watching our 9 month old grandson who was ill, with meals and dishes and she decided to go get gas and shop at Target before picking up her sick baby and so without dinner or anytime to change we raced over to my son’s baseball game, got home late and got to bed late. And I was anticipated the same craziness today but with band practice instead of baseball and PE in the morning. Crazy, right?

Instead, I am just headed to sleep and I get a “Mom!” from my son. Unusual and never good, I get in there and I will not gross you out but I had a lot of cleaning up to do. He was suddenly sick. He is hardly ever sick but he had saved up. He must have eaten something awful from the canteen at baseball. It cleared his entire digestive system. Water wouldn’t stay down. All night long it was clean up, try to sleep, awoken up in a couple hours to clean up and nurse the boy.

I made an executive decision and texted to cancel PE and the babysitting today. And I slept a few hours before the next bout. And here we are. Sleep deprived but at least able to sleep a couple hours at a time between nursing the gut along toward healing and cleaning. Lord help us moms!

So “oh what a night” is explained. Next explains the choice.

My son had, in the morning when he was supposed to be doing school and up to now has been, decided to play hooky and watch a Netflix movie that happened to be a horror flick. What possessed him, I know not, but I believe it opened a door to an evil spirit to come in. He confessed to me at night when everything that could go wrong n in a day did go wrong. Because as soon as he had finished that movie around noon, the baby who had been well was suddenly sick, the game went poorly and my son played like he had never played a game in his life, my husband was very aggitated and grumpy, my daughter was an emotional wreck, I was suddenly overwhelmed and tired, and then the illness.

Upon seeing the demonic activity allowed in and hearing the confession, we joined hands and rebuked the demon in Jesus’ powerful name and Zac rede dictated his life to Jesus and was baptized in the Holy Spirit and rejected his choice and evil that was pressing on him. I prayed over the house and loudly commanded the evil to leave in Jesus’ name and pleaded God’s Holy Spirit to live here and bring us the fruits of the Spirit in abundance to reside here.

He did. All was immediately made right. My daughter had peace and fell into a deep, restful sleep she stayed n in through the night’s ups and downs. My husband relaxed and had peace and even joy. I received energy and peace. Zac had peace even though he had to undergo a reminder purging of his system. And the baby is not here today but is doing better.

The devil will come in any way he can and is allowed- be it horror movies, pornography, personal choices of pride, sexual misconduct, gluttony, idolatry, whatever it is- even to Christian homes. He must be sent packing by the authority we have with the Holy Spirit. And we must make it right by humbly choosing Jesus again. Please learn this lesson with us. Be encouraged that we have the cure through the Great Physician Jesus Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit. Praise God!!❤❤❤