The Blessings of Friendship

I am so very honored to have a best friend of 40 years!! She has been my best friend since we were 3, and we went to church and school together. And we have been a short bike ride and we’ve been hundreds of miles apart from each other but it never takes but a prayer or voice on the phone or text to bring us right back to the running conversation. And we miss Jody, who used to be one of us, but we are thankful for each other. We have unique issues we pray over each other about. And we have sometimes been weak in our faith at different times and helped encourage each other in the truth. And I am eternally thankful to God for the blessing of her in my life. We needed each other and still do.  God always provides. I am so very glad He does!!! Thank you, Shawn, for being the constant human in my life, best friend second only to Jesus! Love you!❤

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Compliments Ahoy

My mom and dad raised me to not take much credence in physical appearance because it is just a shell and mask to the real soul and spirit of a person inside that does matter and can change from one moment to the next. That being said, they never complimented me on my looks. They criticized sometimes (rather ironic if it didn’t matter lol) but never complimented me. Most people in my life, men and women, we’re the same way. So, I figured it didn’t matter unless something was wrong. Also, I assumed I was very plain looking or ugly and that is just how it was. It was this way when I was size 6 and healthy or size 18 with a very difficult pregnancy. No one said anything good, only bad. (And the one guy who said the most and actually complimented me turna out was a liar and so none of thise words count at all. That is my background, which sets the stage for now. Now, I still do not care about my appearance and no longer cry at the criticisms because it truly does not matter, but I am feeling extremely healthy lately and have a glow (uv damage from the sun) about me and am fit and toned aunnnd feel so good. And people have been giving me compliments one after the other. Ironically, the scale has not changed numbers but I am two dress sizes smaller now. And my vitality is soaring. I have energy to spare and productivity hard to explain and even easier breathing and better focus. And to be truthful, my deepening relationship with Almighty God is the biggest reason for every good bit of it. All of it is from God and didn because of and for Him. I am still very plain, but I am happier and more joyful than I have ever been. And the compliments are all appreciated because it is proof that I am on the right health track and refocuses me on health. But I like it so much more when people tell me they can see God moving in me, growing me, improving me. I love it when He gets the glory. Any good I am or do is from Him.❤❤❤

Sometimes… I am Content

Sometimes I wonder at the present

I wonder how on earth I got here

So many twists and turns on the path

That led me to You.

You held my hand when I let you do it

You walked with me each bad decision through

You kept pace with my neck breaking speed

And kept loving me.

So now as I sit with my gray bonnet

Wondering how it was so much has passed

Thinking of all the times I turned down

The very wrong road.

And times like this moment of quiet reflection

Alone in my bedroom, how can this all be?

And I look with deep quiet and see Your same hand

Is held out to me.

I take it.

I am held.

I am content.❤

Tired & Smiling Deeply

My dad worked more and harder than any person I had ever known or heard of. He did this all his life. He taught me that work ethic. And when asked when he ever rests, he always said, “I’ll rest in heaven.” There was always work to be done, either the kind that pays the bills but often what other people needed. He helped anyone who ever asked him. He did not say no just because he was tired. He was built for hard labor, made able to work and he saw it as a gift from God to be used for him. I have that gift, he passed it down. I live that gift as much as I love playing the piano or singing or writing or handsewing or being mom. And when God gives us a gift or talent, we are truly happiest and most at peace and full of joy when we are actively using that gift for God, for other people and even for us. God designs that into our fabric. Do what you desire to do deep inside more than anything else. Everyone happiest as a different gift and chances are that what you desire to do deep down and what comes naturally is your God-given unique gift. It is all yours. Just do it. You will be so very happy you did! Love you! ❤

On Being Happy

Happiness has always been a problem to me. Peace and joy are deep constructs of my soul because of being saved by Jesus Christ’s grace in sacrifice form. Happiness seems shallower, dependent on external forces, other people’s expression of will. Am I to be happy when faced with angry outbursts, divisive evildoers, assaults and threats to our country from a madman dictator possessed by a demon (principality to be specific) in North Korea, bullies, weather dangers, politicians not working with our good President, abortions, people ignoring God and doing their own thing despite possible ramifications, addictions all around, porn every-freaking-where, so many outrages? Should anyone in their right mind be happy about these things? I would be foolish to be happy with that. However, I have peace and joy in spite of these things because that is much much deeper and not contingent upon external circumstances. It is deeply internal, a gift from God. That is the key. Without God, and if everything else in life is perfect miraculously, I guess happiness is the best you can hope for. With God, even if God is all you have in the universe, you still have peace and joy and love and the beautiful fruits of the Spirit. Happiness is an extra. Contentment is a higher goal but still is not as deep as peace and joy. It is simply being ok with what you have and not wanting more. But if what you have is removed, so is contentment unless you take it to its deeper root of peace from God. So take here it is. God is where to go for the deep goal of peace and nd joy. Then contentment is bo us and happiness is shallow icing on the cake, take it or leave it and still good.❤

Gorgeous Day from God

Today is gorgeous! As I walked in the cool, brisk, fresh air, the birds were singing happy songs, the trees were standing strong, the sun was coming up regally, the flowers bloomed valiantly. God made us a gorgeous day. Enjoy it and remember to thank Him for it. 😄❤

A New Experience with Old Remembrances

So my ex (my son’s dad) started a new job driving a bus from hotels to the four major Disney theme parks. Tonight, we dropped my son off to ride around with him for a few hours to have time together without his new wife, quite literally the wicked stepmother from Cindarella and her ilk. And so it was new. We rode around exploring restaurants and shops and Disney Springs area while they rode on. It was quite a new experience to everyone’s contentment and happiness. And old remembrances washed over us as afterward we ate at Ponderosa, which I did not know still existed and which tastes exactly the same as I remember it from my childhood with daddy. ❤ And I tell you again and again that God is exquisitely good and it was again very good day with Him. Oh how I love God who continues to bless, regardless of what else goes on in the world. God blesses us as He blessed King Hezekiah who obeyed Him. It is truly a wonder how greatly God blesses, hears and protects those who obey and sincerely want to please Him!❤❤❤