Perfect Toenails

I have friends, and I am not judging, that may have a bunch of kids and nursing one and busy busy busy but always have immaculate, polished toenails perfectly exposed to the world (as we can see in our flip flop/sandal state). And that is beautiful but and a nice pampered treat. However, just for me mind you, I find other stuff a wee bit more important than a weekly expensive visit to the nail salon for a pedicure. And while I have amazing feet and love them bare, I am more keen on function than aesthetics. If I out my family an hour and some hard earned money every week, I feel I have wasted money and time on a luxury I do not need. It does not improve our family’s well-being. My kids don’t eat better because my nails were done. Fingernails done is far worse though because that discourages hard work with my hands. Anyway, I guess I recently saw a momma care more about that than her kinda wild children terrorizing the place and got into people’s stuff while she gossipped  with the nail technician and played on her phone. I was just there with my son at the barber shop for his monthly hair cut. Crazy, I marveled, that outward appearance for some holds so much more sway than developing internal respect. If people don’t SEE a problem, though, they don’t have to acknowledge or fix it, so they ignore real issues and cater to the selfish side with selfishness buzz words like “I deserve it”. And that always drives me deeper to be reminded that God deserves our attention, worship, time, love and He REALLY does. He deserves us to care more about obeying than treating ourselves to more benefits and blessings than we really deserve or need. Just an extended thought. 🙂

Over- Thinkingitis

Often I suffer from over-thinkingitis, an illness of either great minds or insane ones, depending on the course of thought at that particular moment. It is my best friend or worst enemy, over-thinkingitis. My mind is triggered or reminded, depending, and goes hoggishly wild over that memory and what it could have meant, what it means now, what future is changed over it, why cats stare at you like that, and when to treat a child’s fever and when to let their body duke it out to build their immune system, with just a tad of I think I’ll add sage this time and see if that is better or worse. And it rages. My mind is ever growing, ever bending, ever searching. I became a doctor to follow my natural curiosity and would have done so anyway without a degree had I not first paid these people like a million dollars for the degree. I might have fifty doctorates right now if I had kept paying these people is how perpetual my train of thought is on many topics all the time. I don t speak of it most of the time because my psychologist mother will say I have ADHD, my friends would call me nuts, my teachers called me a brilliant dreamer, and my husband thinks I am an idiot for not being able to stay focused on one thing at a time. Trust me, you don’t want me to focus on just one thing. If I do, the rest of the world disappears completely until the job or thought is complete, regardless of time or hunger or thirst or anything. So, I am taking about it now because I am seeing more people with my brand of mind and over-thinkingitis. And I want you to know you are not alone. 🙂 And I want you to know that reading and studying and thinking about God’s Word is incredible therapy. Try it and you will see for yourself. 🙂 Love you!!

A Walk Through Pictures

I take a lot of pictures. Partly because I am an artist and extremely visual and partly because I have a horrible memory about specifics sometimes and like to have the pic to remind me of the details. It jogs the memory. And being so visual, it takes me to the very spot again and I can relive it in my mind. And as I went through so many beautiful pictures of so many varied events, from family vacations to my kids’ endeavors to my band family and gigs to my Daddy in various stages of decline to nature around us which is amazing to home improvements and so many things. I love to think back. Some things seem like they happened yesterday and some things hard to believe happened. I vaguely remember the year leading up to and after my Daddy’s death, so much was going on. I think what a blessing it was to have the band’s and gigs then for a creative outlet while caretaking and the slow plague of dementia. And now both bands are so different, one we have moved on from and one we are reworking and taking a break from. A pantry lives and breathes where there was a blank slate. Other major house changes are here now. People have moved out of and into our lives. We have traveled and relaxed in some beautiful places. And I see and remember. And I am super super blessed by it all. I feel so blessed to have been a part of so many great things, a part of my good family, a part of other people’s lives. We are so very blessed!

Undefeated Season

We learn so much when we lose. We learn less from winning. I believe that with all my heart. But it feels good to win all the time. My son’s baseball team won their tournament tonight and went all season undefeated. Not one loss, a few close calls but always pulled it off. Things can be learned by winning like rally to push to victory if you get behind, winning is nice, encourage each other, never give up always push through, win more, don’t screw it up. However, had they lost, they would have understood that it is awful and humbling to lose and humbleness leads to teach-ability or depression, depending on your personality and moral decisions. Nonetheless, we won and I am grateful for that and we have a lovely trophy and banner forever. And if we lose some next season, we will work on the lessons as they come. Lol 🙂

The Start of Something

When my throat hurts, I am very sleepy for no reason and feel got, I know I am fighting a bug and need to rest. When the air is windy, tree frogs croak and clouds come billowing in, I know rain is coming and I need to reschedule outdoor events. When Jerusalem is surrounded by enemies, evil is at an all time high and the earth is rumbling and quaking at greater frequency, I know Jesus is Coming soon and we need to get right with Him. Do not ignore the signs of it. Prevent disaster by doing what you need to do to get your house in order spiritually and in every way. Throw out distractions and things taking too much time, they are not worth losing heaven over. Nothing on this planet is worth separation from God. Cling to Jesus Christ, our hope and salvation. Love Him for He loves you more than anyone else can ot will. 

Life Lessons from Pantry Installation

So, I am learning a lot about life and me from this pantry installation. It was years in the planning and preparation and saving up phase. Now that it is here, I am tending to rush it. Why? My impatience, my worst flaw, is in full force. I am putting the paint on too thick, trying to get it all done in one coat and realizing now I have to do another coat anyway and now have to paint the border of the inside of the door in my sloppy drippy haste. It does not pay to rush a masterpiece. You take one step, one thin, careful coat at a time in painting and in life practice the same measures. One baby step at a time. Purposeful. Meticulous. Rushing produces more work and time and a mess really. I am getting this messon finally. I guess better late than never. Lol Now back to painting. Lol 🙂

Feminism & Roles

This topic is hot and important as so many women are impacted daily with the effects of feminism and anti-faminism nowadays. We see it all the time and it sickens me. I am just a little girl but I have a big voice and a bigger God. Here is my humble opinion: 

Being 43, and born into a farming Christian family in a small town of Buchanan, MI, and currently a homeschooling housewife, I guess you would think I would be “old fashioned” when it comes to views on women and their roles in the world. And I am. However, as a doctor who started her own practice from scratch and ran it successfully for four years, having been through a divorce after 10 years of marriage and being a single working mom before I remarried, I guess you would call me a “modern woman”/”feminist”. So which is right? 

The long and the short of it is that God looks at our hearts and motivations. That is true for men and women. But speaking of women now, I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that I can and should do any and everything God has asked me to do and given me the ability to do. And I am willing to be trained to do His will for me without prior training. That is a healthy viewpoint as a woman and mother. Now, I also believe strongly that each person is made in the image of God, all people are equal in importance because of this and women should be able to vote, work, take care of their kids and families and serve where they feel called by God to do so. They are equal. Men have this same right. But with privilege comes reaponsibility. This degretory and highly abominable opinion that bad men request and bad women oblige that women need to shed their clothes at request and much more while men watch fully clothed and gawk, and with each time thus happens two things occur: men get stupider and women get stupider. Men who jack off to airbrushed women on a computer or phone screen or in a movie or whatever have less enjoyment and ability to bond with or sexual enjoy their spouse and see women as stupid or sex toys and have unnatural standards of beauty because their wife is not airbrushed. And women who subject themselves to this degredation lose their self-respect and become morose and lonely and wonder why that is all men really wand from them and no connection they long for. And it is so prevalent that there is all growing rift between men and women. If men would be men and man up and shun this unnatural attraction and be satisfied with their wives and love them, and if women would stop disrespecting themselves and all other women by foolishly doing what greedy and lustfull fools want them to do, there would be a more natural understanding of equality. And men would naturally take their place as head of the household and women would naturally be so deeply in love with and respect their husbands, life would be infinitely better for everyone. Men need to be respectable men and not perverted selfish jerks. And women need to be women and concern themselves with their household. And the porn industry should be damned and thrown out on their greedy assessment straight to hell for all the damage they have done to families and people’s opinions of men and women and their roles. And no man should ever ever EVER hit his wife or humiliate her and berate her and a real man woukd never do that. That is fact. A man rapes a woman, he should suffer the same fate in prison. A real man concerns himself with Godly responsibilities and using His gifts to provide and care for his family and keep his focus on only his wife and his work and play only with her and leave the cyber sluts and all other women alone. 

And in return, it is my distinct high honor and privilege to serve my family. I am more of a woman for it. I am strong for what I miss out on so they prosper and thrive. And that is my humble and old fashioned and 100% correct and healthy and Godly viewpoint on feminism and the roles of women and men. God be praised for His design! He is so good!