Hard Days

When they wear you down, and the days are harder than you thought they could be, know that we are all having those days. You are not alone. You are not the only one feeling pain and being insulted. But know this. The other person who shares the experience of difficulty, insult, pain, hardship, persecution of all types was Jesus Christ. So praying to Him about these things is taking your pain to someone who also lived it, understands it and loves you. And when you truly get this, you have a world of help and hope. So, consider this and know you are lived so much by God. Love you.❤

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Late, Late, Late for A Very Important Date

In our band, we have a late guy. I used to be a late girl. I was 5 to 10 minutes late to about everything. I lost jobs and still kept up my horrible habit. Why? I did not realize that being perpetually late actually is selfishness. I never realized that by making people wait for me was not cute but declaring that my time was more valuable than theirs. And I never believed that but they were right and I have need on time ever since. I think I need to talk to my late guy. 😄❤

Today I Touched the Past

Today I touched the past, I played the song and it did not harm me. The flow of music from times past wafted over my soul and yet I walk on unscathed. I walked beneath the fountain of its ancient flow and am uncrippled. I saw that which had been left in the past and restored and basked in its current value and allowed the remainder to stay behind. I have moved on but some people and friendships are worth the effort to sustain. There comes a time when walking forward when one heals enough to return for what was valuable and leave the damage alone. Some friendships are not worth that effort but some certainly are. Today I reclaimed my friend. She is worth it. My heart is content and happy and peace and joy remain intact. God is so good.❤

Maturity=Acceptance

I think maturity is acceptance. I think we who strive to mature wisely (and I have found it is a purposeful decision) must push toward acceptance of all things. Yes, we may want to change things and yes, when asked (for that is the only time it is ever accepted) we must speak truth and wisdom learned from life to others headed toward wrong/detrimental decisions. But we strive for acceptance. Acceptance that we are not in control oft anything but ourselves and we need God for even that. Acceptance that others have every right in the world to ignore all wisdom and logic. Acceptance that we may be alone with God for long periods of time and that is ok. Acceptance that when walking with God, we will be attacked more than those from other religions even because God is alive and so is His enemy (and His enemy can’t hurt God so tries to hurt His children). Acceptance that I must walk in humble prayer all the time, constantly. Acceptance that there is always a new lesson and annul ways something to do but rest is a part of that too. Acceptance that nothing is perfect or fair until Heaven.❤

Sick Days

Yesterday and today have been my sick days. I am rarely sick because I generally do not allow it because I have too much to do and yes, my faith in God’s healing ability and my will are that strong. I allowed this one because I needed some down time and rest. October was insanely busy and we needed rest. So, November is not so busy and we don’t have a gig until Saturday, so it is a good time to rest. I hope everyone else stays healthy and happy. I will be healthy again tomorrow and back at walking and school. God bless you all! Remember to spend some time with Him today! ❤

A Ray of Runaway Sunshine

In our band, we play oldies rock (and variety) tunes. One of the songs we do that has always given me grief on my organ lead was Runaway. It was our old drummer’s favorite song, so it sticks out in my head and I always got it right on the repeat but always screwed it up the first time. It plagued me. But something happened. I was led to study it. It sounds pompous, but I rarely study a song, just play it, make it happen. So this is not on any planet my norm. And for the first time ever, I easily and smoothly and perfectly performed the lead both times and can do so without complication or stress every time. I could play it now for you. Lol So, this was my gift. I don’t give myself glory for it was so out of character to think of figuring it out that I know it was a gift from God. A rock song? Yes. Because it was a stress for me and I asked for help and He helped. So it was more about God’s provision and answer to prayer and less about what He was helping with. God cares deeply about us, about me, about you. He loves specific humble prayers and requests. He loves surprising us with creative answers. And it was a moment of sunshine in an otherwise impossibly busy and stressful day. Well done, Lord God! I love you!❤❤❤

Wil Sepulveda

Wil Sepulveda, a Great Drummer and Our Own Runaway

What I Am Not

People place a great deal of emphasis on what people are and who they are and positive affirmations. I believe just as important, and for me more importantly because of how I am cut, it is valuable for me to declare what or who I am not. I think for me it is easier to behave the way I should by declaring how I am not going to behave. Here is my short list:

I am not evil.

I am not a coward.

I am not afraid.

I am not someone who sees a need and runs off because it is inconvenient for me to help.

I am not selfish.

I am not God and am not worthy of worship and excessive rewards and attention.

I am not a liar.

I am not a cheater.

I am not a thief.

I am not a hater or murderer.

I am not ugly or worthless in any way.

I am not friendless or unwanted.

I am not a judge or jury or unloving.

I am not without compassion.

I am not a jerk or bully.

That is my short list. For those of us who God deemed fit to make with extraordinarily strong and driven personality and will to match, it is often what I refuse to be that drives me to goodness and Godly living. Yes, the positive statements are valuable also, but for me personally, I work better on the flip side. Maybe this helps someone else. I love you! ❤