Little Girl, Big Strength

I am a little girl. Granted, I have 43 years of maturity but I am still a little girl. I am strong, very strong both physically (which can change in a heartbeat) and spiritually (which is who I am), but it is only because I have faith that God is true when He says “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” ( Philippians 4:13). And I know my God. My strength is in being close to Him. Some people believe their strength came to them because they have been broken or endured/survived horrific things. I have. A lot. But I have seen that destroy people as well as strengthen them. Heck, I’ve seen myself so depressed it was difficult to move. And here I am today helping other people, taking care of my family with joy and peace and love and even gentleness, serving wherever I am asked, working on our house and landscaping. Me. Full of strength and vitality. Because I am extraordinary? Nah. I know much more amazing people than myself. My strength, and I am letting you in on a big secret here, is my closeness to God who loves me and made everyone and everything we know or can imagine. So, you can be just as strong. Maybe not the same but better with your specific design God molded for you. Strength is in All Powerful God and I am only strong when I am close to Him and obey. ♥

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So, this song has been on my mind lately. The thing is that when you accumulate some years during “maturity”, you reminisce in quiet moments. You regret some. You appreciate others. You wonder at your own sanity or insanity when the opposite would have been called for at different times. You get why you are largely alone now, preferring the stability of a few close friends to popularity from the world of strangers and denegration. And it hits you that although the past may hold most of your ambitions and loves and passionate pursuits and hard times and incredibly amazing and perfect moments, all of it accumulated to get you to the most important moment of our life… the NOW. And you may have left some love out there floating around, rejected for a while but you know remembered by them now and again, and you may have left some pretty harsh treatment being forgiven beyond deserving, that God brought you to this place to forgive now and love who you can now. Better. Bigger. With maybe less ambition but much more wise fervor. And maybe, now, as He has blessed you with survival and presence, you can give God back some love He gave you through it all. He has been your constant, precious friend. He is the Lover our souls all wanted and still want. And treasure your precious gift that everything else has led to… NOW. ❤❤❤

Big Bundle of Memories

My Grandma Metzler was the most special and important woman in the world. And when she went to heaven a few years ago, part of me went with her really. She was a nurse and a missionary and loved the Lord with all her heart. Every conversation reflected that. Every song was for Him. Every piano note played was a tribute to Him. And as a profession in the states, she was a charge nurse for a state children’s hospital. She was amazing. She and my grandpa took my sister and I to high school and college plays and musicals, the Nutcracker Suite ballet, orchestras, camping, national parks, monuments, literary historic homes. She was rich with art appreciation and the love of literary classics as well as Christian works as well as all things Christian. And she was my biggest supporter, writing me letters all the time, coming to every recital or school play or church musical I was in. She was all nurse so wanted me to be all doctor. I became one because of her. She was right as always, but she was humble and gentle as she was super strong. And all these things and more raced through my eyes and escaped through my tear ducts as I perused the treasure my dear Aunt Rosie had sent me for Christmas just now. She sent her poems. I have my precious grandma’s poems. Oh, what a treasure! So, it may appear as though I had only received a few insignificant presents, but with this offering, I am way richer than anyone else. Thank you, God. And thank you for so many years with this incredible woman of yours.❤

Merry Christmas to You (my card for you friends)

May your Christmas be very happy and blessed and may you give everything you desire and receive back the immense blessings that come from giving. Remember in your busy-ness the amazing miracle that was Jesus, God born as man, the reason we are celebrating, the meaning of Christmas. Praise God!!!❤❤❤

Supportive Love

Our greatest and sometimes only supportive love has always and will always come from God, our loving Heavenly Father. People are supportive often when it suits them or things are going well or if they are first supported in general. Of course there are exceptions, but enough has happened in my 43 years that I do not expect to be lovingly supported by anyone consistently except God. He made me, knows me inside and out, has been with me since before I was even a consideration, and is my future. Same for you, my friend. Lean on God who loves and supports you. Trust Him and go to Him for all your needs. God will not let you down and even in tests or at the dimented butt of an evil one’s jokes and whims, He gives peace and joy and nd nd justice will follow. Make no mistake. God has your back. ❤

Love and Freedom

It is impossible to separate love and freedom. They need each other and support each other. In the presence of love, freedom has breathe and power. In the preaence of freedom, love inheritably exists. They work in cooperation and function in every way together. When someone is controlling, they are acting out of selfishness and/or brokenness and not love. Let me be clear, controlling and demanding behavior is selfishness-based and/or brokenness-based and NOT love-based. Bank on it. Also bank on love and freedom being connected. They always are and always will be. And that is why I love God so much!❤

Control

Here’s the thing, we can control so very little in thr world around us. Sometimes we cannot control anything at all. One exception: ourselves. We can control ourselves with God’s help. And as such, we can control our responses to the hideous world around us and focus on the beautiful world around us, for both are ever present simultaneously. We can control our focus and our actions to help clean our neck of the woods up. God gives us strength for each day and He is in control of everything with one exception: He only helps us when we humbly ask. He does not control us because love cannot do that. Love is freedom. He lovingly asks for a relationship with us. That is love. Love does not equal control of us. He controls our environment so we are free to make our own decisions. That is love.❤❤❤