Herein Prooves the Faithfulness of God

So, I sang my song this morning (“Take Me Back” from a previous post) at church. Of course, I humbled my heart and prayed before singing. I have not gotten nervous on stage for, oh, 30 years or better except when perforning an original song. With my songs, I have always gotten nervous. I think it is a part of yourself you are sharing with everyone else, putting yourself out there for criticism that always came. And I have never had a supportive spouse that encouraged my songwriting or even bothered to read my songs or hear them. And my husband is very critical so I keep them to myself.

Anywho, today like I said, I prayed. And herein Prooves the Faithfulness of God for He took over. I said “Let’s do this” and we did. And for the first time ever doing my own songs, I was not nervous. I even spoke before and told them the Scripture reference it came from and what it was about.

Many people came up and encouraged me and told me the song God gave me inspired them and they loved it. I am so pleased! God is faithful even when we are not and loves b us so much! He longs to draw close to us and just love n on us. That is why He helps every time we need Him and humbly ask. He is so good!!!😄❤

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Benefits of Being Married Long Term to an Addict

Many people believe there is only negative in being married to an addict (it does not matter the addiction of choice- they all look the same ugly in a spouse and are all rooted in false beliefs, lies, sin and pride). There are many advantages and blessings. Some are the following:

1. Being humbled every day allows a contrite heart to flourish. It is next to impossible to feel like the center of anyone’s life or attention who already has their addiction as the center. Yes, the downside is that often even God and obedience comes after the addiction, but I am showing the positive and it is true that you cannot help but be humble when married to an addict. This helps a lot when working on contrition with the Lord. And that is a hurdle to faith most people really struggle with.

2. You depend on and trust in God only and that is very healthy spiritually. You cannot depend on the addict often but you realize quickly (because of the contrition mentioned earlier) that you can always depend on and trust in God.

3. You love truth. You realize that the addict, although in denial with lies and false beliefs, is riddled with guilt and fear all the time and lies like they breathe. This is so obvious and lies upon lies gets old. So you love truth. I read my Bible all the time, loving every word, every truth it is. You truly appreciate truth more than most do.

4. You accept and learn to be content in God. You appreciate everything good in life, really appreciate every blessing, every kind word, every word of encouragement, every friend who sticks around, every prayer where you feel God there with you. You appreciate more. You are thankful for a home with air conditioning, transportation, food, all those blessings people take for granted. You are content with unimportance. You are happy with every blessing and know full well that God is enough every day, every time, every moment.

5. You develop a thick chin. You realize that what God says about you is the truth and are thankful for it. You realize the truth is not in the accusations and put downs and anger/rages that always accompany the adddictions because of their nature and guilt and fear. You realize that God lovingly made you and sleep alone for years or not, you are beautiful inside, God lovingly made and gifted you. You are incredibly beautiful because God’s glory shines through you. So beautiful!

6. Forgiveness comes easily. You have to forgive so much and are humbled and contrite that forgiveness comes super easily. You have to forgive to survive. You forgive because you love. And you forgive because God forgave you and you want to be forgiven and have your prayers answered.

7. Greater faith in God. You rely on God for every encouragement, every good thing, every solution to every abuse, every emotional anything, healing when stress is getting to you, every comfort when lonely, everything. This is invaluable in a walk with the Lord and makes us closer. And heaven will be so much more beautiful!

8. You show them God’s true love. When you stay with an addict, you have the chance to show them love. In fact, the act of staying married to the addict is the strongest show of love along with the forgiveness. Love is patient, kind, self-sacrificing, humble, real, truthful, joyful, peaceful, faithful (even if they are not), etc. We are responsible for how we love. And love is purely beautiful.

9. You are in obedience to God. God hates divorce and if it can possibly be avoided, it should be. There are many blessings and rewards for obedience to God.

I hope you understand better the blessings involved in being and staying married long term to an addict. No one is perfect except Jesus. Staying married is your choice I would say largely because of these blessings and love. And God’s love is the greatest force I know.❤

So Very Thankful

I am so very thankful for so many blessings in my life.

Some blessings at the time were disguised as curses. But God knew what He was doing.

Some of the biggest wounds of my life became the greatest blessings.

So many blessings were taken for granted and left unacknowledged and unnoticed.

Yet blessings they were and I look back on them and appreciate God’s consistent love.

He has remained the most faithful Person of my life and only true lover of my soul.

Better late than never at thanking God for everything…the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful.

All those things were there on purpose and made you the precious gift you are.

Such is the love of God. Thank you, God!!!♥

Determination

Determination is rooted in faithfulness and is fed with persistent courage. The will of a person is the initiator and the moral character its determiner of consistency. But the Author of all these within us is Almighty God, our loving Creator. He is the DNA which allowed all else to develop. When people compliment us, they are complimenting Him and I praise Him for that. It is so impressive how He works. In a very “me” and narciasistic/selfish world we live in with pride and ego encouraged, I am deeply honored and privileged to understand that it is not about me but it is most definitely about God. (That will be manifest now or later.) And I am positively floored when He hears and answers my prayers and works through me in any small way. That the powerful Creator of everything we know of loves, made and wants to be my Heavenly Father is just incredible and I am filled with gratefulness of Him. What a perfect God we serve. He is so good!❤❤❤

Just a Reminder About Grass

Just a friendly reminder: Grass is never greener on the other side/someone else’s yard unless it’s the weeds you are noticing. Weeds can look pretty green, even have pretty little flowers on them, and there may be playground equipment on it that looks mighty fun. But alas, upon closer inspection, weeds, only rotten weeds, and the playground is broken down, only looks fun, no substance. Nope, take care of your own grass, tend it, fertilize it, own it. When it finally dies, pave it and paint it green. Memorize this: “Not my circus, not my monkeys.” ❤

Discoveries

So I found out recently that a long lost friend of mine took up playing piano. And I was curious, so I checked it out and saw him play on a video. For someone who used to play drums in our band, I was super impressed he is shining on my instrument after only a month. He is either a natural or really passionate about playing. Either way will get you there and I am so very happy for him. I am sure he doesn’t even consider me anymore, maybe forgot my name even by now, but I was happily surprised by his accomplishment and hope the Lord uses that to bring joy to his life because he seemed very unhappy.

So a discovery sometimes is a welcome surprise that inspires and is often a mixed bag because it brings to mind remembrances and missing people. So like the kids’ song says, “Be careful, little eyes, what you see. Be careful, little hands, what you do. Be careful, little feet where you go. For the Father up above is looking down in love. Be careful, little mouths, what you say.” It is important to consider some discoveries as “That’s nice” moments and move on. Too much rumination does no good. Might sour things. Food for thought. 😄❤

Back on the Horse

I fell off the my horse yesterday. Here is what I learned.

If you fall for a minute, brush off the dirt, mend the wounds, ask forgiveness, and get back on the horse. Falling off is inevitable in a fallen world. Staying off is a choice. Get back up there and ride. The horse will understand. The Trainer will forgive and help you. If it is muddy out, be more diligent and listen better, obey better, serve better. Use the horse to help serve more. Don’t choose to stay in the mud after a fall. Thr mud is no life. Get back on the horse. Don’t focus on thr mud beneath you, focus on the destination, the road and the Trainer.

Count on the Trainer’s wisdom and advice from the Training Manual and His Words and follow it again. Never fall off the same way again. Do your best to stay on the horse. Be humbled but not humiliated and learn from it. The Trainer will help you.❤