Kickin’ Back

Today, we got everything done for school and extra exercise and unloading the van and two meals so far and business calls and texts done for the band and 4-H and chillin’ time. A very productive day but felt so very peaceful and laid back, I cannot imagine. Then I saw it. An article was in my email that read “President Donald Trump Now Drafting a Palestinian – Israeli Peace Agreement”. And tears welled up and peace washed over me. And God is so very good, friends. Don’t forget to talk to Him a bunch today.❤

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Control Freaks

I gotta admit that in my previous life B.C. (before Christ) I was all about control, and not necessarily myself. I had about certain way I thought my life and those I loved and society at large should be and worked agressively to get there and live up to that expectation. I always tried to be good and moral as I was raised and wanted good for everyone, which is lovely, but tried to force everyone into how I thought it should be good. Strange, I know, but nonetheless, people will always do what they want or decide to do no matter how much you want them to do something else. Porn addicts will remain so until they decide not to be controlled by those evil urges anymore. Alcoholics will continue to drink until they decide not to be controlled by that evil (for them) substance anymore. Same with drug addicts or workaholics or food addicts, etc. No one can control another person. At least not for long. Nor is it healthy. Unless it is their decision, they will keep doing it. Real/God’s love and gentleness may pull them out or at least get them to listen but they still have to make the choice. They may respect you enough to not do it in front of you or become or attempt to become sneaker about it but they will keep doing it. It is their own attempt at control, which is ironic and the lie because they are actually giving up control to the thing addicted to. They want control and have accepted the lie as truth that the addiction gets them there. It never ever ever ever will. In fact, it keeps them from a deep bond with God who loves them no matter what and is actually strong enough and willing to help. So stop trying to control or change anyone but yourself and just accept them as they are and heap love on them or decide to reject their behavior and leave. Quit whining and make a decision and do it. I control very little except myself internally and even that I defer to God most of the time. And I am content, at peace, full of joy. Yes, I am very tired often for being second to a disgusting addiction, going with unmet needs often, and if I think fleshly and emotionally, I can become despondent and forlorn. But in my Spirit, as I read my Bible and pray and keep giving everything to God, He continues to comfort me and love me and provide. God is that big and loving. What a great comfort that is!!!! ❤ 

Of All the Beautiful Days

This day was full of busy (the 5-k and making of a costume before a deadline) and beautiful catching up with wonderful friends we love dearly that live far away. It rang with the familiar bells of too much to do, blended with the joy and peace of reuniting with very great friends and then more busy-ness (the flat tire) and then more beautiful with watching my husband’s other band play a gig and then being a roadie. Busy and beautiful was the order of the day, and despite every potential frustration, I have been unable to stop smiling. Truly, God’s brilliant light shone on us all day long. He is the Maker and lifter of our heads. May God be praised!!❤

Practicing Joy and Peace

In marriage, you have a lot of time to practice joy and peace. Happiness is direct reaction to circumstances so joy and peace are quite different as they are deep enough to keep you soundly whether or not your circumstances are favorable or heavy. And marriage is the constant bending of my will and bowing of my head in compromise. Ideally both are doing so but my responsibility is what I am doing. So bad day for spouse often would be bad day for me but as my relationship with God has deepened and grown and ripened, my joy and peace have sunk in to depths impenetrable by surface tremors. It is tested though some days, like today. It seems like the happier I come in from my devotion walk, the more the enemy will try through my husband to discourage me. And I have to remember that my fight is not against flesh and blood and certainly not against my husband who I am bonded with. And the more the attacks, the greater the joy and peace. And that boggles the mind but is because Jesus endured so much for us, for me too, out of His sheer love for us, so amazingly. And to have difficulty and yet not sin in it and go to Him with it and pray and give it to Him who is capable of understanding and powerful enough to dissolve it is to honor Him. And I want everything I do and say you honor Him. He is everything. So I practice my joy and peace and feel exceedingly blessed to be so greatly loved by my Heavenly Father, who happens to be the Creator of the universe and me and you.❤❤❤

On Being Happy

Happiness has always been a problem to me. Peace and joy are deep constructs of my soul because of being saved by Jesus Christ’s grace in sacrifice form. Happiness seems shallower, dependent on external forces, other people’s expression of will. Am I to be happy when faced with angry outbursts, divisive evildoers, assaults and threats to our country from a madman dictator possessed by a demon (principality to be specific) in North Korea, bullies, weather dangers, politicians not working with our good President, abortions, people ignoring God and doing their own thing despite possible ramifications, addictions all around, porn every-freaking-where, so many outrages? Should anyone in their right mind be happy about these things? I would be foolish to be happy with that. However, I have peace and joy in spite of these things because that is much much deeper and not contingent upon external circumstances. It is deeply internal, a gift from God. That is the key. Without God, and if everything else in life is perfect miraculously, I guess happiness is the best you can hope for. With God, even if God is all you have in the universe, you still have peace and joy and love and the beautiful fruits of the Spirit. Happiness is an extra. Contentment is a higher goal but still is not as deep as peace and joy. It is simply being ok with what you have and not wanting more. But if what you have is removed, so is contentment unless you take it to its deeper root of peace from God. So take here it is. God is where to go for the deep goal of peace and nd joy. Then contentment is bo us and happiness is shallow icing on the cake, take it or leave it and still good.❤

Peace in Uncertainty

Peace only comes from God. You can have temporary calm from other sources, but lasting peace only comes from God. Why? Because He is powerful and huge enough that nothing can threaten or stir Him. His peace is a natural makeup if His because He knows who He is. His confidence exudes what we know to be from His natural enormity and wisdom and power and love and all that makes Him who He is. Also, He knows everything. There is no uncertainty with God. And even though He gives us free will, He still knows what we will choose. He knows everything past, now and future. We have uncertainty because we do not have the ability to know the future. That is God’s alone. Demons and Satan cannot do that. We cannot. Only God knows. So even though we have much much uncertainty, we can be certain about one thing. God knows. God is certain. So to have peace, we just have to be certain that God is certain (called faith), make Him your Heavenly Father because He wants to save you and loves you, and cozy up to Him. We can have peace because we are on the side of the God of peace. Our uncertainty is just ours so we rely on God who is not uncertain about any topic. Our peace is faith in Him. ❤❤❤

Philippians 4:7-9

Philippians 4:7. “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 8. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”❤