I long for home, meaning heaven or back on a farm in Michigan. You could get away to work alone on the farm, be in a sort of solitary enjoyment and working the land God made. I love and miss that quiet that never happens in a big city suburb in the third most populated state in the US, Florida. If you live busy, fun, crowded beaches, theme parks, sun every day, beautiful tropical plants all over year round, this is the place to come. If you want to be alone and still and quiet, enjoying nature, you would have as much trouble ad I am. I love people, just not so many so close. Especially when driving.
However, God has helped me be internally at peace amidst this perpetual chaos. He has trained me to listen to Him and I can do that now even when it is busy, busy, busy. And this has been a great learning experience and I no longer want to shoot out people’s tires and I am much more calm when they take my parking spot. I am certain the peace of God has kept me out of jail, come to think of it. And, in all seriousness, I know it has made me a better person in every way. Yes, I still want heaven or a farm in thr middle of nowhere, but I will take peace inside as a beautiful way of life and a tool to still have peace in chaos.😄❤
Today was the first day of Homeschool PE at the park for our kids. And I stuck to my guns and did not coach this year. The hardest part was my kids coming up to me, excitedly anticipating me as their coach. I am glad I had made such an impression and they will do great with the new mom who stepped n in to coach. I need to be able to not be there if my mom needs me; she will be moving sometime within the year. So, I did it and let someone else have the reins this year. Hard but done.
And I am happy, got to walk the dog around the field and talk to a friend. That was peaceful. Confirmed my decision and I am content. Sometimes necessary choices are difficult but the best thing. And you pray about it and just make the decision and go. And God is so good to confirm your good decision with peace.😄❤
Time flies. It used to only fly when you’re having fun but lately, it just flies no matter what. It is like everything is picking up its pace. All except one thing… the stillness of the nature God made when I am out in the country. I have been longing to be out in the country. I have wanted to be still with the Lord amidst His creation, feel His breath on me, just hang out and listen. I have wanted to talk less and liste more. I have wanted to just enjoy His creation, enjoy my kids, enjoy moments and remember them. And I pause. I schedule pauses. I embrace them instead of packing something else in. Ad I noticed that this practice causes me to be much more effective and efficient when doing my may tasks I still have to do. I am a better person. I am at peace, relaxed, joyful and content. I take things in stride as they come instead of forcing things. Inly eternal things matter and being still in God’s creation reminds me of that. Beautiful!😄❤
There is something special and hopeful about completing a task. Yes, it may take a lifetime or 10 minutes, or anywhere between these, but the feeling of exhilaration is always there when we stick to our guns, be faithful, use our God-given resources, reason it out and fulfill the task. I am sure Jesus enjoys the satisfaction of fulfillment of prophecy also. I believe that when we are close to the Lord, we start to think like He does to some extent and appreciate what He appreciates. So this fulfillment of doing what we say brings great joy. Those who are unfaithful to a commitment deprive themselves as much as sin against God and others. Fulfillment has vast rewards now and later, eternal rewards. So worth doing the right thing on a consistent basis. 😄❤