Today I missed people. I missed my family I don’t get to see, those I love that are no longer Earth- bound, people I love I haven’t seen in years and miss all of a sudden. How much is hormones and genuine missing, I am unsure, but I have been exhausted with missing all day. So I just prayed. God comforted me. I rested. I forced some shut eye, no sleep but rest. And I kept moving. I cooked meals, did two consults in Sebring, taught school, watered the garden, and am at my daughter’s baseball game keeping score. So, even on bad days where you’d give anything to not feel awful missing people you love, you can just pray, rest, and continue. And that is enough.❤
So, while I was sick and sleeping a lot, I lost most all communication with the outside world, all blog reading, all updates, all face time with a screen. And it was necessary and essential to my rest and focus on healing. And now that I am nearly recovered, I would love to keep much of that time I had saved and serve more in my church and community and our garden. I hope to start small for our family at first and see what grows well here and abundantly so that we may help other families/widows around here needing veggies that are often quite pricey in the stores. I will freeze or can and minister to others as we can. That is a goal. I speak of revival and service and this is one more step for us toward that end and making this life count for the kingdom of God. So there it is. I will blog as God leads. God is so good!! Love you!❤
I am a little girl. Granted, I have 43 years of maturity but I am still a little girl. I am strong, very strong both physically (which can change in a heartbeat) and spiritually (which is who I am), but it is only because I have faith that God is true when He says “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” ( Philippians 4:13). And I know my God. My strength is in being close to Him. Some people believe their strength came to them because they have been broken or endured/survived horrific things. I have. A lot. But I have seen that destroy people as well as strengthen them. Heck, I’ve seen myself so depressed it was difficult to move. And here I am today helping other people, taking care of my family with joy and peace and love and even gentleness, serving wherever I am asked, working on our house and landscaping. Me. Full of strength and vitality. Because I am extraordinary? Nah. I know much more amazing people than myself. My strength, and I am letting you in on a big secret here, is my closeness to God who loves me and made everyone and everything we know or can imagine. So, you can be just as strong. Maybe not the same but better with your specific design God molded for you. Strength is in All Powerful God and I am only strong when I am close to Him and obey. ♥
So, two days gone and 20 CEU hours accomplished. My goal is ambitious but doable. Tomorrow, I will fulfill the last 10 hours and renew my license in time to see my patients Monday. So, I am motivated to accomplish my goal.
Thinking about that a bit, I realized that goals are really easy to accomplish if you set the goal realistically and have the proper motivation to do it. It has to mean something to you. It has to be realistic. That being said, all that is the easy way which does not grow you as a person of faith. I can do this of my own power no problem. Big whoop. To grow faith, you live close to the Lord and motivate yourself trying to please Him. Then your goal is whatever He puts on your heart and mind to do and then He gives you the power to do it. It may or may not be realistic but my favorite verse is “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”❤
I will do less that doesn’t matter am more that does.
I will be a better servant of God, my family and humanity.
I will teach my children meaningful lessons.
I will strive to honor God in everything I do and say.
The past is gone, the present is a gift worthy of intention, respect and appreciation and is in God’s hands, and the future is in God’s hands.❤
Rocketing my journey through space over time.
The vessel carrying me needs constant service to continue
Constant reminders of maintenance parameters
Constant upkeep of life support for survival
And I rocket on toward Heaven, my destination.
The life support is Prayer and Bible reading.
And the rocket will get me to my goal on one condition:
I attend to its upkeep and heed the life support.
I have been an employee (probably never a great one) and an employer, an entrepreneur really. I started a successful audiology practice from scratch and ran it for 4 years well and only closed due to my divorce (or I would have had to give him half it’s value). And I and my husband have run this band we have. I have hired and fired people and both are necessary sometimes.
I want to address firing someone who you have formed a friendship with. This is difficult because emotions and feelings cause you to retain them for far longer than you’ve any right to do and often the company/band suffers. And often the person is really ready to leave but for prideful blinders or other reasons they stay and force you to take that drastic step. Then you have a decision. Do I retain the friendship and destroy the company/band or let them go and hopefully stay friends but possibly offend them beyond reconciliation and keep the company/band a viable entity. Sometimes, because again of pride, it ends us being kill the friendship or kill the band/company. It is a horrible bind to be in. And of course you must pray over this decision.
We recently had this dilemma with two band members who needed to go because they were bringing us down in a slow death. We decided to retain our band because my husband and I met in a band and have been together in one since and we can continue this mutual hobby. We love it. We breathe music. It is where God gifted us and we can play together and lift others up and nd the same time. So, you have togethwr decide which. Maybe the friendship is more important to some. Maybe the company/band is more important. It is a personal decision. But know that you are making that decision and you must understand it and weigh both sides with pros and cons. Then commit. Make a decision and just do it. It gets harder postponing it. Decide and go. And I am relieved to be finished with it. Now we can move forward and focus on it better.❤