The Weeping Wind

I am not sure if anyone else has felt it. I am weird about reading nature. I generally worship best in it, I appreciate it, I am keenly aware in it, I feel its vibe and harmonics. Maybe it is growing up on a farm or my Indian heritage or just how God wired me. But I have been feeling a weeping in the wind, a somber spirit of the ground and there is an aloofness to the reception of toes in the dirt. Maybe I am reading too much into it based on the perception of news confusion and an obvious truth hardship and selfish pride befalling seemingly all journalists and governmental agents and even common Joe walking down the street. There is a heavy in nature I feel. It still plays in the less touched places but around town here and every town lately is a hush, a seriousness in the wind and the ground, a tumult, a quiet readiness. And again, I am an overly sensitive musician so perhaps it is just my weirdness but I feel it. It feels weird and mysterious and like a build up. What I do know is that I am getting my spirit and soul lined up for God, my prayer walk deepened, my humility reaffirmed, my heart forgiving and pure and I encourage you to do so also. It is never a wrong thing to do. I sure love nature and what God created and we share fingerprints of our Almighty God and I so want me and my family to be ready for Jesus’ return. What a day that will be!! Please be ready. ❤

Journalists vs. Actors

A journalist is a truth finder, writer and reporter. An actor reads a script. Journalism is a noble profession, with journalists throughout history putting their lives on the line to find our the facts that are true and reporting them without bias. Acting is pretending you believe what someone else believes for monetary compensation. You can act lies or truth, whatever is on the script. I am not certain how many actual journalists still exist but it seems the majority out there are actors so please be aware that truth may or may not be presented to you. I know one source of truth and that is God, His Person and His Word. If you pray and really wish to discern truth from the confusing mix of presenters, pray and ask the only reputable source of truth, God, for guidance and read it again. Repeat. Just a thought.

Mother’s Day Finery

So, we took my Mom out to Golden Corral for lunch last Sunday. It was her idea, because it was less crowded (no line) and she likes very few people around (lol) but likes their variety of foods, and one day is as good as the next to celebrate. And she has never been practical with money (learned that from Daddy lol), but she is practical with things like this. And she is right. What is an arbitrary day to celebrate something that is a part of who I am? Yeah, I know, not a romantic notion, but I am proud of my kids, I know I carried them for 9 hard sickly months each and gave birth without meds (rah!), and they are amazing people so I must have done all right so far despite it all. They both love God, love me and are doing great in school and life. Both are artists like me and both musicians now (piano first with theory then whatever they want). One is great at baseball and basketball now and one loves dance. I feel grateful for the opportunity to be these kids’ mommy. I always wanted to be a mommy and I am so thankful God blessed me with my own children. So one day out of the year to say, “Hey, you’re a mom” is kinda weird really. I am really not all that. I do the best I can but I have screwed up a lot and try not to but probably will again some other way. I fight the same balancing blended families act so many also work on. I try to keep everyone healthy but just got over being sick as a dog for not wearing a mask while scraping popcorn off a ceiling and sanding. In trying to make my kids more n independent, I always wonder if I and ignoring them too much. I teach them laid back and calm by exemplifying that mostly at home but teach them anger by erupting when driving surrounded by “idiot drivers”. So many things I do wrong. My kids see the best and the worst of me. But there is some good there, I hope. And in the end, I pray a lot and trust God will fill in for my deficiencies. And if they want to do something nice for me, that is nice but I would rather they obey. Lol Either way, I’ll take it and keep loving them the best way I can, as my mom did for us and her mom did for them and my Daddy’s mom did for them and my amazing Aunt did for them. I really had incredible role models of motherhood. I just hope the good parts carry forward. 🙂 Happy Mommy’s Day!!!!!!!! 🙂

Twisted Workings

I see around me women working and men often bumbing off of them. Women ruling and men being ruled. Women then having their babies and taking care of them financially and in every way then guys leaving or cheating then leaving because they aren’t getting what they feel they deserved. Even worse, they get kicked out of their current location with the new girl sponsor and move back in with their kid’s mom, the first girl, and getting back with her. And the cycle continues. I saw this recently in someone I thought was a friend. Wow, what an eye opener. This. Is. Wrong. Let me say it again, it is wrong. It is horrible for the kids, horrible for the adults, horrible for all the mistresses who believe the lies, horrible sins against God and humanity. It is hideous, atrocious, and I needed to voice this injustice to the world and demand better behavior from people in society. Pick a spouse and be satisfied with that spouse. Love them. Pour into them. Men, take care of your family, work for God’s sake and take care of them. Stay with and raise your child. Life isn’t just about you. There are many others out there, you Andre not special. The way to be special is to settle down, raise a family, bond with them, take them to church, get close to God, stay with and stand by God and your family, this is how to be a good man. Women, shut up and let them be men they need to be. Encourage them, help them meet good goals for you all, be okay with supportive loving wife. Respect him. Get people out of your lives that do not support your family as a whole. My rant is through. My anger is diminished. Please be good and want right, people. Jesus is Coming soon, no one knows exactly when so be ready. God bless you!

Memories that Stay

We all have regrets, mostly memories that haunt us because of being incomplete or unresolved or abruptly change or all of the above. There can be unforgiveness or the ever present wish that things had gone differently or you had known such and such at the time or what not. And these things (as I often over think things and reminisce in my ever-thinking, over-reaching, hyperactive brain) can bite you and consume way too much energy. What I have found to be helpful is a combination of reason, objective analysis, thought of both sides, acceptance, and forgiveness. A much more efficient plan, and I confess I just learned how to do this, is to go straight to acceptance that God is in control and in charge and knows best and then forgive myself for my part and/or the other party involved foe their part. And if you can see that clearly to do that right away, oh how clear the mind becomes and how much less cluttered the file cabinets of the mind. Truly, no amount of stewing or brewing or reining or regretting or remembering can change one iota of the present and quite conversely can hinder present energy and happiness. Just a thought.

The Hymn Take Time to be Holy

There is an old hymn we used to sing growing up in church. Here are the words to the first verse: “Take time to be holy. Speak oft (often) with the Lord. Abide in Him always and read in His Word. Take time with God’s children. Help those who are weak. Abiding in all ways His presence we seek.” I took for granted those words, did not think much of them until just now. But I tell you the truth. If these things are all you ever do in life, you will have lived an amazing and very beautiful, impactful life! I wish we still sand the good old songs that guide and help and worship who God is and not glorify the person worshipping. Oh what a different church and life would be leading the world to revival. To lift the name of Jesus Christ to its rightful place at the top of every food chain, the king of every mountain, A #1 first priority in all of the universe, least of all our tiny lives! Lift Christ up and revival comes. We need to bring back monotheism! Throw out tech ads king, throw out us adds all important, throw out addictions as answers, throw out adssnything in God’s spot. Jesus Christ is Lord and King of All Everything!!!! May His name and reign be revered as holy, perfect, loving & glorious!!!

When God is First and Home is Second

When things are in this proper alignment, God first and home second, you have peace at home. You have peace in life and contentment in any circumstances. God being first is actually the key. That means God comes before everyone. My time and conversation with God is first priority, His Word is first read of the day, His worship is first priority of life. This is clicking into the power source of truth and appreciation and love and, well, power. Then family in the home is next, those entrusted to your personal care. They get first dibs on your time and energy, and because of the time spent recharging with God, you have more energy and proper perspective and outlook for them. Then what is left of you goes to help serve those around you and the church. There should be many to help there, so that is lower priority for me personally. And when things are difficult, what you give up first is the outside world, never time with God. You cannot run long on high power without recharging, so you cannot fight a difficult battle without recharging with God daily. Just a thought.