The Place of Acceptance

The Lord has brought me to a new home in my soul, a retreat of acceptance. There is a maturity, forged by intense, deep suffering, longing, loneliness, forgiveness, then acceptance. At least for this moment, I am certain and feel warmly thankful that God has brought me through the worst of times. It only took and year, and that sounds like a lot but some people carry it around forever and self-education to ease the burden of it. I feel and am very blessed to be here right now at this new residence of acceptance. And the effort and tears are well worth the process because when God solves the matter, the cleansing is intense, thorough and deep so it lasts forever. No baggage to carry around anymore and when I realized it this morning while walking and talking with the Lord, I could not stop crying thankful, joyful tears of relief. It is beautiful. Thank you, God!❤❤❤

Independence Day!!

My daddy was a Marine and a farmer and machinist in SW Michigan and the more patriotic man in the world and I am His daughter. He used to do July 4th bigger than anyone I knew, spending hundreds of dollars on food and fireworks at our house. Family and neighbors came to our house for this holiday. Homemade ice cream, grilled meats, mom’s potato salad, sweet corn on the cob, watermelon and a healthy dosage of fireworks to top it off. This is my first Independence Day celebration without him and it will be spent humbly with some close friends. It will be different, quiet but sometimes the quiet company of dear friends is best and we will have a great day. We are looking forward to it! Happy Independence Day!!!! Love you and God bless America!!!

Fully Free

I have visited a beautiful city, one which houses many people with a lot of money, a lot of beauty, a lot of everything. In this city was an excessive amount of homeless people, “urban outdoorsmen”. And I cannot help but wonder which is fully free. One can be arrested for not holding a viable address, one is in prison of having to make the same amount of money or more to maintain his address. One can roam the world, live off their skills, maybe fostering an addiction. One is stuck, living off their degree and grace of an employer, maybe fostering an addiction. I believe I am fully free and it has nothing to do with address. I have lived homeless (did I hear a gasp?) And I have lived in affluence. I prefer neither but I am fully free because of my address in eternity, not now. My address is heaven, on the corner of gold and pristine colorful gardens. My address frees me from anything but worshiping and serving God and service is a privilege and not a duty because of God’s amazing love for me. That is fully free. 

Thoughts of Random Connectedness

Our minds are a gift to us from God. We were lovingly created to have free thinking, free will, choices can be made and thank God we can act on the good ones here in our amazing recovering beautiful USA, where freedom still exists (other countries esp. for women unfortunately not so much). And our free thinking and free talking and freely independent (and hopefully informed with truth) thoughts are invaluable. So, when I declared as a young girl of 9 that I would become a doctor, I went to school and succeeded being salutatorian of my class, did well, finished working full time to pay for my own living/car expenses through college, finished with my doctorate and started my own succeasful n private practice. All in America. All from farming roots and little money. All with God’s help all my life. To God be the glory! So freedom to do good is an incredible right give to all by God. Freedom to do wrong should land you punishment by law. That would be justice. You see, freedom is a two way street. We can freely be saved by Jesus Christ or we can freely reject His salvation and be punished eternally. A wise person would use their freedom to choose life and love and eternity with God and life and love. But not everyone is wise, unfortunately. But the cool thing is that if anyone humbly asks God for wisdom and tries their best, God helps them and grants them wisdom. He is so generous with His grace! So, I choose to be on the winning side of right vs. wrong and you get to choose which eternity you want to end up in. Heaven or hell. Both are very real and very close. I choose heaven because I want to be with God, my Heavenly Father, and I sure hope you choose heaven too, sooner than later. I am really cool to hang out with so you can hang out with me 🙂 , and I am so eager to see Jesus and thank Him in person! It will be good to see those I love who have gone before me also. If God allows, I will play the piano for Him. I am positive God will have an amazingly tuned piano. 🙂 ❤  

Bend Your Head so You Can Stand Your Ground

There are treasonous evils and principalities fighting all around us on all fronts, in most all countries right now. These forces seem united and he’ll bent on destruction. Those standing for God, righteousness, good, truth, America need to humbly bow/bend our heads to gain the strength of God. Then these evil people should be prosecuted for their treacherous activities and pray the principalities out. I am tired of idly standing by and just praying alone for this country and souls I love so much. We need to unite in prayer and fasting and do something. For heaven’s sakes, why are we so timid against these evil forces? They are defeated foe trying to kill as many as possible let on their way to hell and we just let them?! Why aren’t Christians in an uproar? Are we afraid? No, who would be afraid with the God of the universe on our side??? Rise up, man up, start humbly praying and fast for these lost souls and justice for the traitors to humanity and our freedom.

Facebook/Social Media Disease

Now that I have been off of Facebook for a while, I can look objectively at it. With Twitter, I am on a few minutes each day for encouragement (I only follow a few positive and Christian people) and that is it. Something about Facebook particularly drew me in. It is a disease. It is a faux way to feel connected to people without being connected at all. Very few people who were on there all the time still text me or keep in touch. It is weird. It is like their noses are in it all the time, every experience is documented like a glorification journal all about you, and everyone knows what everyone is doing or had for supper but does not know their spiritual or soul song. It is like a “safe” way to communicate and only present to the world what you want them to see or know but not be known. It is addictive and generally about yourself, like you are what matters most. So I am glad I am off of it. It wasted a lot of my time and was a huge distraction and for me personally an addiction. No thank you. It does not fit into my family or new simplifying take on life or my relationship with God. Let me just use that time to read the Bible and pray and actually be connected with people I love. Just my thoughts.

Holding On

There are times, like when hanging onto a tree limb from a cliff top, when holding on is important. Holding on to good memories is also very beneficial as it assists us with healing from past losses and grief as well as gives us happy thoughts to draw from when we are not in happy places. Holding on can be very unhealthy and blatantly mean when it is bad or traumatic memories or any wrongs against us. These memories if held onto will eat you alive. Forgiveness is the key here to prevent such unhappiness. How do we forgive? Especially when they have not acknowledged a wrong or asked forgiveness? There is only one real lasting way. Knowing that Jesus Christ died for our wrongs against Him and anyone else because He deeply loves us and not because He was wrong so when He rose from the dead, we could be forgiven and live in heaven forever when we die. This deep forgiveness we were given is so complete, so great a gift, so hopeful and humbling that not forgiving someone else becomes quite upalling. Not forgiving is counter to appreciating the immeasurable gift of salvation we were generously given. Not forgiving is selfish. Not forgiving is a slap in the face of God who forgave us. So, forgive. Ask God to help you. He will. He always does. Forgive and let go of the bad. It is the right thing and quite freeing! And hold on instead to the truth of the Bible, pray, hold on to beauty and beautiful memories and experiences. Then you always have this amazing peace and joy and deep appreciation of life and hope for the eternal life. Can not get batter than that.