I am grateful for every happiness and every pain. There must be both. Without the pain, we cannot treasure deeply the pleasure. We cannot know happiness fully without some endurance of unhappiness. It is the way of it. I am grateful. Each step was designed by God’s choosing but also our choosing. We are a contributing part of the decisions of our journey’s payhway. And I am grateful to God for that also. I respect His power and wisdom after I see how I screwed up what He had planned beautiful. I am grateful and love God all the more for everthing. ❤
I lay there a while.
I realize I am laying there looking stupid.
I pray humbly for help for I cannot feel my arms.
Jesus lifts me up n out of the dirt yet again.
I try hard not to stumble again.
This time I ask Jesus for help.
I do better.
Regardless, I am saved by loving grace from Jesus.
I just want to please my Lord.
I keep praying and move on.
Jesus is so good!❤❤❤
It is impossible not to trip when looking behind you. Just a reminder, focus on the present and goal ahead. You will get there. Don’t let the wrong focus make you fumble. God is worth more than a half-hearted journey.❤❤❤
The longer I live and the closer I get to the Lord, the more sins He exposes in me so I can get them cleaned up and right/forgiven/confess/repent before I face Him in eternity. It is very kind of Him to show me the error of my ways. And it is humbling. For that I am thankful and truly feel loved. But I wanted to share in case anyone else needs help seeing it in themselves.
I always thought of myself as funny- don’t judge me lol. I also am thr most positive and optimistic person I know. However, in all my “funny”, I have a strong tendency to sarcasm, which is a disguised spirit of griping. Think about it. I have made almost a science of pointing out what was wrong in a flippant but real way and having fun at their expense. I have been a griper. “Venting” is another area I have been guilty of griping and criticising. And I was convicted how guilty I was. And I read in the Bible that God hates this practice. In fact, He had the ground swallow a good chunk of Israelites who were grumbling in the desert after being rescued from slavery in Egypt. That tells me grumbling is sin and is hated by God. And this makes sense because it is the opposite of thankfulness and praise.
So, I have had a major re-adjustment, yet another come to Jesus moment. And I am now working aggressively on a spirit of appreciation and praise, an obedience God will love in me, an act of worship to the precious God who made and saved me. And I am so very thankful to grow and change and see another fault within me to work on for God’s glory. Praise God!!!❤❤❤
It has rained foe several days now. In Florida, that really doesn’t happen tons. We get rain often, almost daily, but it is only for a brief time and we see sun and blue skies again. We are spoiled by this. Several days of rain and gray clouds in miserable to us because of the contrast to what we are used to and a turn from our steady source of vitamin D from the sun. But such is life. I whine to not see the sun. However, we needed this rain, being behind for thr month. The plants and trees and crops need this quencher. It will be gone soon, but it was just what they needed, and we people are not God’s only creation and reaponsibility.
When we get to a season of steady problems, regular issues one after another, it is easy to get myopic and think poor me or get angry or just depressed, but we are not the only one God looks after. He works on our weeknesses in our temperaments and molds us into greater faith and reliance on Him and answers all humble prayers, true. But there are others around us being worked on and loved on in different phases as well. And maybe they need you to go through some stuff so you can empathize and help them later. Our struggles are part of a bigger story and we are, through them, working on having a much better forever in eternity in just a little while. Heaven is next after this world and all its troubles are over. So I’ll take the rain and troubles and learn what I can. No worries. I have heaven to prepare for.❤
I pause here with selfie in order to bring glory to God and praise Him for providing the strength for me to obey Him in the area of food. I only have 3 pounds to my goal of 50 pounds down. I have lost 47 pounds to date. This has been an act of obedience in an area where I had a stronghold… food. People can have strongholds that keep them from eating, that cause people to gorge themselves then purge, or over-eat/indulge in gluttony. All of these are treated with obedience to Jesus; the love relationship with Him is what shatters strongholds, heals and strengthens us. And God is definitely my Savior in every way and I am so blessed and happy to be obedient to Him in this last stronghold of my life. God is so very good!!❤❤❤
God is closing one door for me at our church. I would have, in the past, kept fighting for the door, banged on it, kept working for door rights. I am no longer that person. It looks like what past-me would have called a quitter or wimp or lazy, but new wiser me realizes there are more doors. I am certain I would be able to serve elsewhere if I cannot serve here. God has a lot of churches who need a good pianist and kids choir director. So, I will not fight this door’s closing but will shake the dust off my feet and will listen for God’s leading to point me to His choice of door for me. And may God make wrongs right in His time and provide for the great kids I have had the honor of training. Praise God for His knowledge of my next service appointment!❤