I believe that from conception, we are destined to be on a strange journey until we leave this body and go to our eternal destination. I believe that we are on that strange journey partly because of the choices we make out of pride, selfishness, greed or even good intentions, but also because of the choices God makes in leading is toward Himself and a glorious eternity. I believe life is beautiful because everyone’s strange journey is unique. Even if it parallels another person’s journey, the giftedness of each person is unique, their looks or ethnicity is unique, their other relationships are unique, and these differences are part of the beauty. And all the twists and turns make it even more beautiful and hopefully closer to God. And my own personal story, wrought with glory, joy, happiness, intense pain, more intense pain, almost killed me pain, beauty, nature, travel, lots and lots of people, distance at times and now extreme closeness to God, music, art, leadership, degrees from formal education, life education, children, husband, and grandchildren, and weirdness. This has been the highlights of my life. I would not change a damn thing, not even the near death experiences, not even the depression, and definitely not all the good moments or those two seconds when life was perfect and I felt loved unconditionally by a person which faded fast. All of it and definitely my relationship with God my Father, I would not change one thing. It is accumulatively strange and beautiful. No one’s story is mine. No one’s mind is filled with my memories and story. These together are my steange and amazing journey. And yours is just as unique and strange.and beautiful. This is exactly as God designed and intended. Perfectly imperfect.❤
This journey we are on has a point. Might take years to discover it but it is on purpose. We are lovingly designed, not freakish accidents of life, not mutations, not decendents of lower life forms. That is a load of crap someone really bad is selling. We are designed on purpose by God and our lives matter, our journey matters. Our journey has a point. The point is that God made us and we are here to want Him back or not want Him back. If we want Him, He blesses us with really great spiritual gifts (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control, love, hope, faith) and we are welcomed to Heaven later because that was His original plan. If we don’t want Him, we reject Him and live and life because He is life and death comes to us eternally after we die. While living, He keeps giving us chances and opportunities to choose Him. And writing chronicles our journey. Our writing matters and allows people to know our journey and be encouraged by and find hope from our journey. You can help people make the right choices with their journeys. Writing is a beautiful expression and sharing our journey with others who need help. Keep writing, it is so important and beautiful! ❤
Those who know me through life trials, know that when I go through really bad stuff that tries and humbles and changes me, I change something and the deepest wounds produce a haircut. This one, however, was only a couple inches off to a below the shoulder bobbed cut. To me, it signals a change. Lesson learned and I got it and grew and time to move on. Deep wounds don’t make the reasoning so quickly and some short cuts are from mourning grief more than resolve but I know God always gets me there. I am teachable. Not always easily so. So no I am b undertaking a peaceful challenge, a new forced resolve I had not counted on so quickly, a concession in my soul, a huge change. And this haircut is making peace with my new lot in life. And where it would have depressed me a year or two ago, now it is the most natural course in the world. I had a good run and God will sustain me through this challenge. And I see what I have to give up as a sacrifice to draw closer in dependence to God. I have always believed that life is what we make of it and our perspective changes everything for better or worse. Since we cannot change some things, better to find the blessing and rock on. Life is about the journey, baby. Kicks ya around sometimes, but what a beautiful ride.😄❤
It never ceases to amaze me how much life changes. In love, out of love, in love and married, disaster hits, divorce, in love and married, changing times. And that is just one topic.
Maturing physically then maturing spiritually then blowing both and restarting and in and out of churches and roles in them and that is just one more topic.
No kids then one kid then another comes along and they grow then I am homeschooling them and have them 24/7 as they keep growing and changing and that is just one topic.
It goes on and on and these things and growing and maturing and changing goes on all at the same time. And in the middle somewhere is trying hard not to just survive but to also do music and write and heal and share faith as gifted to allow God to work through me as He made me to do. And the new reality of life looks so very different than it did even three years ago. Just so different. People come and go from life- key people you thought were staples of existence- just leave. New people arrive and old relationships are restored. Forgiveness happens. Amazingly, God keeps up with all the changes and keeps loving and helping and protecting us all. Incredible. And I am realizing the greatness applied from God is so very real in this skin, in this home, in this church, in this city. And God is not a powerful entity far from us in space somewhere, moody and irrational and distant unless we do exactly what He demands. He is right here, right now, loving and pulling us to Him for rest and comfort and peace and safety and never surprised by anything but ever eager for our choice to be to love Him back. How I love Him! ❤
There are a myriad of seasons in life: growth, decline, learning, forgetting, deep love, cold remembrances, exploration, settling, building, moving, strengthening, weakening , exercising, and neglect. These seasons ebb and flow like the tide, sometimes mingling together in the waves for a time but ever changing. And this is our lot in life, our epic journey we must make to our eternal destination of our choice, heaven or hell. We walk this road, this tidal path. It is an adventure, sometimes happy, sometimes heart-breaking and everywhere between. Keep journeying for the right, dear friend. Keep your focus on our Savior Jesus Christ and He will maintain your peace amidst all the changes. He is faithful and just and hope and truth. Woo hoo! ❤
You are not “going to be ok someday”. You are ok now. You are beautiful and pain is part of the journey, loss is part of the journey, screwing up and repenting to start over is part of the journey, illness is part of the journey, all as much as love is part of the journey. It is important to change our perspective to keep on track and stay on the beautiful journey designed just for beautifully created you. You are ok now. In fact, you are purposefully and beautifully designed and creates by a perfect God who believes you can and should do what He designed you to do. And modification and realignment is part of the journey. You are beautiful, baby. Even if you feel ugly or some selfish monster tells you you are. God says otherwise and His Word trumps everything. You can believe Him. But keep on your precious, important journey. Keep going. It is part of it and you are beautifully ok now. Keep going with God’s help. ❤