The One that Rejected Me

I recently saw the “love of my life” (at the time I thought so) in a recent picture someone had. He looked super skinny and old and I learned he had married a really controlling and harshly domineering woman. And at first I thought he got what he deserved for throwing me out for that thing. Then I thought better of that little dig. You see, what I did not realize at that time through my heavy tears was that God had bigger plans for me than to be a wife to a philandering man (found that out too).

Yes, at times my marriage is rough but I know I am with the man God wants me with until death separates us. And here, I can focus on my kids and my home and serve in church and help a lot of people and play great music in a band and working as a consulting doctor. And as such, I am using my talents. In addition, I have a great future vision of housing teenagers who are pregnant so they will keep their babies and not abort them. It is on my heart. And I have to wait for a while but I will work on that goal.

All this detail to say that God knows what He is doing when He puts people together and when He separates them. Do not regret anyone. Learn what you can and accept God’s plan for you. He truly knows best as certain as you breathe. So the one who rejected me was not meant for me. Just learn and don’t get too close too soon next time. Wait for God’s timing and confirmation.

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My Mom

My mom and I have had a lot of great moments and a lot of very strained moments all my life. When Daddy died, our relationship began to mend, mostly because we shared a mourning process. And I knew we are her only family here. And God has been working on my heart. Altogether, our relationship has become much more docile and close. And I am thankful for my mom. I know most people are thankful for their mom but I had abuses to overcome, to forgive. And with God’s help, we are healing. And I tell you all this because it is never too late to mend a heart. Never. God does not ever do “never”. I believe he sees the word as a dare. Lol But remember that our God is eternal and time means little to Him. So your “never” is comical and my “never” was just me lacking faith and believing lies and very comical. And God opened my eyes and allowed His love to pour into my heart and soul and mend its broken places. Again. It never gets old to Him and there is never too much attention to detail He heaps upon us in showing us personal love and healing for every layer of it. Do not give up. Give up your “never”.❤

Another Day

So, today my daughter and I made a bunny family out of 3 socks, rice, rubber bands, ribbon and fabric markers. We live the Magyver craft project youtube hacks. Lol. So, I decided to do that rather than take a much needed nap after last night’s extremely late night. So, apparently I am better to my children than myself. And I am glad of that. Serving others makes me happy, serving myself rarely does. Like my dad always said, “I can rest in heaven.” So, hope your New Year is bringing you joy and peace so far. Don’t forget to thank God for getting us through another year. Maybe talk a bit more with Him also and maybe read thr Bible a bit today before the day is out. God bless and keep you. Trust Him (and pretty much no one else). Love to you. ❤

Giving Too Much Away

People will always want more. My daughter gave away her precious stuffed dog (the one she sleeps with) to her best friend (who wanted it) last night without my knowledge. Then at bedtime, she cried herself to sleep because she missed her little dog so much. Heart-breaking. But I remember a much more horrible decision I made as a late teenager whose boyfriend pressured me into giving much much more than I should have and ended up dumping me anyway. And no one treasures your God-given treasure like you do. I’m sure this girl thinks it is just another stuffed animal when it was precious to my daughter. There will always be people who want more, want your stuff, see your contentment with it and want your thing believing your contentment will follow. And I realize what God meant when He said (Matthew 7:6) “Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.” He means there are things you only provide to people worthy of them, those who don’t want to have it to have it or in search of your peace, but to those who appreciate and not demand, who will be uplifted by it truly, who honor God and will be helped. We both learned valuable lessons. Thought I would share it. ❤

Nipping Problems in the Bud

We had to let our lead singer go in our band for a myriad of reasons which everyone left agreed upon. And he did not accept our decision that was best for him/his deteriorating health as well as the band, so he decided to be divisive by calling other band members and causing problems and whining like a child. So, here we have a problem, a potentially big one. But his tactics were ineffectual. Why? How do you nip problems in the bud? Here is the easiest way… good communication. We talk. My husband says “Adults talk”. Children whine, adults talk. That is it. We talked. I talked and explained for the decision we had wrestled over for a freakishly long time and our line of reasoning beforehand. Then the band was prepared for his childish antics and knew we were on the right page. Some people’s pride will not release them of wanting to do what they feel good doing even if their health is compromised and a good friend steps in to intervene and save them from their self. And my conscience is clear and everyone is good and excited about our new members and energy and new songs again and we are moving forward together, more united for it and clear of conscience knowing we did the right thing for him and us. Good communication accomplishes that. And of course before any communication occurs, we pray first and God provides the right words at the right time for the right reasons. So really it is two fold… good communication with God and with everyone else. And then the details, good or bad, will work themselves out. ❤ 

Merry Christmas to You (my card for you friends)

May your Christmas be very happy and blessed and may you give everything you desire and receive back the immense blessings that come from giving. Remember in your busy-ness the amazing miracle that was Jesus, God born as man, the reason we are celebrating, the meaning of Christmas. Praise God!!!❤❤❤

Detoxing Our Social Circle

Upon firing from our world three people from our old band and their related toxic drama and constant negativity, we have detoxed our social circle and cleaned up the band. Those that remain and the new ones are uplifting and drama-free, just looking to make beautiful music together without the negativity. It is so relieving! First, we tried to communicate with them, reached out, prayed for them, prayed about the decision. And some people just do not want to let pride and selfishness go at any cost, so we released them. It was detrimental to remain in such a negative state all the time with constant harmful negativity and drama all the time. So we detoxed our social circle in this way and God blessed our decision with new, positive musicians and more instant energy and excitement about the band and gigging together! The house is lighter, the studio welcoming, creativity flowing. Change is rough but rewards are fantastic. What a relief!❤