So, a few good things happened today. I bleached then washed and scrubbed the windows and will re-caulk them once they have dried. Cracks have developed and one coat is not enough in Florida, folks. Also, we are insulating our electrical outlets that are on outside walls. We are insulating thr sliding patio doors and adding a new threshold to our front door and complete the replacement of our lights to LEDs. And whenever they get around to it, the installers will be here of a new solar turbo attic fan to reduce the power use and strain of the air conditioner to work. All these things are paying for themselves in no time at all and will complete our home to an energy efficient one. And that to me is the grace of God at work. He provides blessings to lift n our burdens- spiritual first and then that trickles down to financial and physical. And I want you to know that God provides what we need when we need it if we stay close to Him and stay humble. He truly rewards the pure in heart with the greatest rewards. I would be ok with heaven sometimes, an eternity with Him. But His grace and provision do not ever stop, know no bounds. He keeps loving, keeps giving, keeps blessing, keeps forgiving, keeps improving us. Wish everyone could see it, wish everyone could be filled with humility and draw close to Jesus and see it all. It is beautiful! Oh how I love Him.❤
I sit in my silence
Alone in my room to sleep
And silence speaks to me.
It beckons me remember
That which I should forget
It speaks lies of another’s silence
Which speaks differently.
I detest the silence.
The silence speaks peace
In an alternate story.
The silence beckons my repose,
Assuring that all is well.
I love the silence.
The voice of silence, then,
Appears my choice.
My perspective loves or hates.
Silence’s story is in my interpretation.❤
1. I have my life to live and my journey to make.
2. I cannot walk someone else’s journey without failing mine.
3. Noone can walk my journey without failing theirs.
4. God is the Creator of the journey.
5. We can defy God or draw close to Him.
6. Each person must chose their eternity with God or without Him during this life journey. (Without Him is a horrible place.)
7. Jesus gets us to God and salvation. (A great place to be.)
8. Only you can be you and travel your journey.
9. Walking your own journey with Jesus is success.
10. I want to be successful and am no matter what uniqueness my journey holds because Jesus is my focus. ❤
The closer I get to Jesus Christ, the more spiritually I am thinking of things. Today I saw a preacher speak on it and it clicked. What is released in the world right now is this strong demonic leviathan spirit at work because it is the end times. This spirit uses pride of men and women and even children to control their minds and cause division. It uses tactics of division and false convictions and misunderstanding through a lie filter to divide and conquer and control. The purpose: our annihilation and taking as many to hell as possible when he is forced there by Jesus’ eminent return. The counter measure is constant prayer and Bible reading. And when anger rises up in you and misunderstandings are looming, immediately take away the evil spirit’s power by humble prayer and Bible reading, pray for a discerning Holy Spirit and go about your business for the kingdom of God. We are given a reprieve via President Trump’s fighting for our rights and freedoms and punishing evil ones who have given in to the leviathan spirit to spread the Good News of Jesus and do what we can do to spread truth. This is our opportunity to enlighten masses and remind them of the simple truth that “United We Stand and Divided We Fall.” The beautiful news is that God is way stronger and He wins. We stay close to Him and we win.❤
There is a downside of weight loss. All of a sudden, I find men looking me up and down. I know many women would be flattered, but not this girl. It is irksome and annoying and makes me angry. And I am exploring my strong reaction to this but I can only say that we need to demand more of men. They are, contrary to Hollywood’s portrayal and marketing and even portrayal in schools, here for so much more than their ability to father children. Men are the backbone of this country and head of their families. They are strong and hardworking and intelligent. This is how I see men as they should be by God’s design. So when I see them salivating and staring at me, I want to slap them upside their heads and tell them to cut that lusting crap out and be a man. Real men are godly men and have self-control and treat women honorably and with care and value. So there is my idea on the real value of men and I strongly urge men to be who God designed and intended you to be and quit the havoc – making porn and other lustful deliberations and man up. Men, you are the key to revival and restoration of our churches and families and eventually nation and world. Please don’t fall for any less for all our sakes. Thank you to those men doing a great job. You totally rock. Keep it up please and teach another man or young man to do likewise.❤
In case you have been alive for more than a few years, life can indeed suck sometimes. That is just how it is, fallen sin nature of people, what not. But I just wanted to remind myself and everyone that life is good too. There is good and bad in it because there is God (good) and our enemy (evil). But God knows when we are going through crap and always always gives us blessings and reminders of His love for us if we choose to look around for it. It is His good love that impel Him to bless us. He wants us close to Him. So there is always hope and bad, no matter how bad, never lasts forever, despite what it feels like at the time. The key is to focus on God. Talk to Him. Journal, write it down. Say it out loud to God. He loves you through crappy days and sucks days. His love never changes. He’s got you, baby.❤❤❤
Addictions are being labeled as a disease now. Of course, that is the people who do not have addictions label it a disease. People with the addictions say people without addictions are “holier than thou” (and I swear if I hear that one more time I will lose it), overreacting, judgmental (and other favorite), and making a big deal out of nothing. They justify and validate their repetitive horrible choice every time they pick up the porn pad or phone or Internet or YouTube with that adulterous filth on it or pick up that drug or lift that glass of alcohol or start another game medium or work that extra shift or lift that spoon up with way too much food, sign in to facebook, whatever the addiction of choice is. And you see, they really are not innocent vices. They damage relationships. Addicts prefer to believe the lie that all is well and escape into their addictions rather than ever confront the pain they initially needed an escape from. It is pathetic. But what is worse, it is a disease they do not admit to having so often never get help for. If they wanted to quit, they would at least admit they had something they needed to quit. They are deluded and steeped in denial and lies that they are not hurting anyone else. Another lie. They break trust with those closest to them. They betray everyone. They lie to everyone and not just themselves. They hide and lie when caught. They attack you because of the immense guilt and shame they carry at their weakness and sin, not realizing that those who love them and of course God are easy and ready to forgive and help. It is a lonely life to love an addict and you wonder sometimes how vast the lie web is and that no one but God and His truth can ever set them free. And here is the frustration. Every moment left alon, they are breaking your trust all over again. Then they wonder why you are ever suspicious of them. Only a bad hypocritical person would ever question my honesty is their angry argument. Only a nosy “self-righteous” snoop would care that all my passwords are never shared or their are locks on everything or whatever it is. Only a moron would question my honesty when I repeatedly lie to them. And moment by moment the lies upon lies are mocking God who sees everything and flipping off those who love unconditionally the shackled one they want to see free in Christ. No one wants to see someone they love miss out on the rapture or heaven because they choose some sin over God’s loving healing. It is so easy to be set free, the lies that seem so strong are really so very brittle against God’s love and truth. It is only one step to God, which is the opposite of the lie Satan provides so excessively. God is stronger than any stronghold. He is one step away from any of us at any given time… one humble prayer is that step. They whoosh, watch Him work.❤