Life’s Strange Journeys and Perfect Imperfection

I believe that from conception, we are destined to be on a strange journey until we leave this body and go to our eternal destination. I believe that we are on that strange journey partly because of the choices we make out of pride, selfishness, greed or even good intentions, but also because of the choices God makes in leading is toward Himself and a glorious eternity. I believe life is beautiful because everyone’s strange journey is unique. Even if it parallels another person’s journey, the giftedness of each person is unique, their looks or ethnicity is unique, their other relationships are unique, and these differences are part of the beauty. And all the twists and turns make it even more beautiful and hopefully closer to God. And my own personal story, wrought with glory, joy, happiness, intense pain, more intense pain, almost killed me pain, beauty, nature, travel, lots and lots of people, distance at times and now extreme closeness to God, music, art, leadership, degrees from formal education, life education, children, husband, and grandchildren, and weirdness. This has been the highlights of my life. I would not change a damn thing, not even the near death experiences, not even the depression, and definitely not all the good moments or those two seconds when life was perfect and I felt loved unconditionally by a person which faded fast. All of it and definitely my relationship with God my Father, I would not change one thing. It is accumulatively strange and beautiful. No one’s story is mine. No one’s mind is filled with my memories and story. These together are my steange and amazing journey. And yours is just as unique and strange.and beautiful. This is exactly as God designed and intended. Perfectly imperfect.❤

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At the Beach

So we took a family vacation to the beach for a few days. I know, driving 1 1/2 hours to the beach is not such a big deal as some people have to travel to get there, but this vacation was special. It marked the first time the kids were old enough to send them out without us so they didn’t have to wait for me to finish making the sandwiches and things thus no guilt. Yay! Also, we are right on the beach with our motel and can see the kids on thr beach just ten yards or so from the balcony so they can test their independence without me losing site of them should a problem arise. It helps that they swim like fish and know self-defense (we have role played many potential problems and what to do and I taught them what my dad taught me). Lol. So, here is the very first beach or any vacation for that matter, where I can vacation too. I can relax. I can even, as I did yesterday, take a walk on thr beach alone and watch the sunset. That was the most beautiful sunset of my life. I thought for a moment about who would love to see that sunset and them let it all go and just basked in the glory of God’s work and paint job. It was truly divine. I was blesses to see His magnificent work and so blessed to be refreshing with family and Him! God is so very good!!❤❤❤

Another Haircut

Those who know me through life trials, know that when I go through really bad stuff that tries and humbles and changes me, I change something and the deepest wounds produce a haircut. This one, however, was only a couple inches off to a below the shoulder bobbed cut. To me, it signals a change. Lesson learned and I got it and grew and time to move on. Deep wounds don’t make the reasoning so quickly and some short cuts are from mourning grief more than resolve but I know God always gets me there. I am teachable. Not always easily so. So no I am b undertaking a peaceful challenge, a new forced resolve I had not counted on so quickly, a concession in my soul, a huge change. And this haircut is making peace with my new lot in life. And where it would have depressed me a year or two ago, now it is the most natural course in the world. I had a good run and God will sustain me through this challenge. And I see what I have to give up as a sacrifice to draw closer in dependence to God. I have always believed that life is what we make of it and our perspective changes everything for better or worse. Since we cannot change some things, better to find the blessing and rock on. Life is about the journey, baby. Kicks ya around sometimes, but what a beautiful ride.😄❤

Walking Home

This beautiful red shouldered hawk landed by us as we were walking home from the store. Such a beautiful bird. And while it was too far away for a great shot, this was descent and I marvel at the great detail God put into such a bird. All of them, really. All of us too, really. Such masterpieces! Praise God!❤

Beauty Like the Oleander

There is beauty in this world because our Creator is full of glory/beauty. The idea of beauty has changed over the years to now mean physical attractiveness, the prettiness and symmetry of the physical body, the shell, regardless of the substance and makeup of the hear, soul, mind and spirit of a person. And this becomes the goal. Look pretty, be seen as pretty, have people look at us, selfies galore, “I am pretty so I matter.” And this is only a teeny tiny part of the beauty God designed in us, and really the least important part. Like those who have been disfigured or just even less lustly attractive/asymmetric in some way. Are they less beautiful? Heavens no, they have the same mind, the same soul and the same spirit. Here is our greater impact of God’s fingerprint. We are nothing if not unique displays of God’s glory/beautiful! We are His will, His plan. We are made for Him because of Him. We cannot get around that. Those who focus on the shell alone and how lust full they are when looking at that shell are like gardeners who take great pleasure of the beauty of the oleander, despite how poisonous every part of that plant is- leaves, stems, flowers. All, if ingested, will kill you and if touched can irritate the skin or blind you. That external, superficial beauty alone means nothing in the light of eternity, do not desire it. The beauty/glory of God shines out most powerfully in the focus of attention and energy on perfecting the soul, mind and spirit He made just for you.❤

Spring At Last

I know some of y’all are still knee deep in winter, but that is one reason we live in Florida. Here it is spring! I love this season because it is planting time, pruning time, preparing for beauty outside time! Wonderful! I am dirty every day again and working outside every day doing something! It is phenomenal. The kids are old enough to help so my back is not hurting even. And I used to love my solitude with the plants and now I love my time with family and the plants and mostly time with all of the above and celebrating God and His creation. Nature is such a luxury for just being in God’s glory and beautiful design. Nothing brings me more peace and just sheer joy than that. So happy spring!!! And for those up north, it will happen soon, there is hope! 😄❤

Getting my Praise On

I just want the universe to know how perfect and loving our God is. He healed me and my daughter. He is healing my son and husband. God provides us shelter and family and friends, work to do, service to provide, freedom in our country, peace and joy and love in our souls. And it would have been enough just to make us all, but He also loves us sincerely and specifically. Take some time to thank and praise Him for that. We are all so blessed! God is so very good!❤❤❤