Today, God healed yet another aspect of me. God did not choose to heal all of me all at once. Frankly, in hindsight, I was not ready for that and my pride was not low enough for it either. My faith was high but will was low. I was healed in sections as I was able to maintain it. And God healed a good deal of the physical remnants of my illness tonight at church. Elders laid hands on me and prayed and I knew I was healed and felt the change inside me. And I could not have had that happen without everything that came before it.
The lesson is this, friend. God is the Great Physician and coordinates every inch of your life for the purpose of accomplishing His will for you and those close to you. Do not miss it. Sometimes His healing is all at once and sometimes, as with me, it was in pieces I was ready for and could handle. I fancied myself tough and everyone who knows me would agree and I still know I am made for toughness. However, I am a twig’s plaything without God. I have no strength but what He graces me with. I have no ability to know what I can handle yet or not or when, I am just not that smart, even with all the initials after my name, just is impossible for anyone to know those things but God. Praise God!❤❤❤
I am in two bands, the band at church to worship God with my talent and our band that makes money playing oldies variety music to help seniors relive their good days and bring them joy all over central Florida. Tonight, we had band practice for our 5 piece band. And it is so fun. We have good clean fun and only play the best songs, always uplifting and good classic or iconic songs. And our entire band has played together for over a year and a half (and four of us for two years and three of us for five years). We have so much fun and are very much a band family. And we all need a break in our week and love getting together to jam. Even with no gigs in the summer (there just aren’t any in Florida in the summer, thank God because when there are gigs they are outside- too hot), we all still want to keep playing. Just makes us a tighter band family. And we are hoping to work on a couple more originals. So fun and exciting. It is wonderful. I love being part of two band families, and all of us are Christians in both bands. Best bandsnin the world- all get along and play great music together. So precious!😄❤
In summer, I noticed writing slows, people’s thoughts are elsewhere, occupied by a frenzy of rushed vacations and manic relaxation. The flow of thought congeals under the pressure of too much heat and movement mixed, like a fan blowing hot air to quench an unsatisfyable need for cool and calm. And on we breathe, red hot as the air, miserable in the humidity, happier somehow in the rain that falls a few minutes every day to somehow provide a break, despite the miserable wetness of it. Rushed streams of thought are forced and flow thickly when they do attempt flow. Herein lies what I am observing on the blogs. Those unaffected by the heat and cludge of mass vacationmanship, those of us with more bills than income and can not get away, we still write. It is at least somewhere for our mind to go, our thoughts vacate to. So you fellow writers still expressing words from your thoughts, who still can, I thank you and delight in bathing myself in their richness. 😄❤
Every moment of life, we are on borrowed time. The moment is not ours to spend as we wish for our glory or even someone else’s glory. The moments we are given are for God, who is ironically not bound by time, but that is another matter. Our moments are a gift for God, meant to being Him glory and draw us closer to Him. And this beautiful treasure of time is sacred to Him. Being my primary love language, I get the time thing. We need to make the most of our time and pack as much love and worship into each moment we can. And this honors God and brings out God’s glory and love through us. Wow.❤❤❤
My 15 year old amazing roller blades broke recently. I was pouting as my replacements are heavier and uncomfortable and hurt after just a few turns around the place. Here I just was stuck in stupid until the Holy Spirit snapped me out of it. There are people without shoes, people without a roof, people without a Bible, people without a pillow, people without air conditioning. And here I am in full stupid regalia whining about a luxury. Whoa. Floored me. I like my skates now. I will wear them and smile. I will bless where I go and someday I am sure there will be roller blading in heaven.😄❤
Hard to do, forget. Not sure we always should as it warns not to do things that way again. So probably for the best, but sometimes we can forget a while and choose to decide not to remember. We can actively push it away until it becomes automatic. Of course there are triggers but we can choose to keep obsessing over it or send it packing. We choose this. Emotional people have more trouble getting to their choice through their emotion but the choice is there somewhere… dig til ya find it.
But today, I realized that I have finally forgiven a person and all persons involved in a past incident in my life. I am 100% at peace with it all, with them all. And the funny thing is that I really thought I was there already a couple of times before. I was not. I had said the words, thought the right thoughts but too much thinking about it remained, a desire to see what happened next, a will to know, a want to understand, a wish to see. Ever so faint but present nonetheless. And today, watching the grandbaby, seeing my kids in our home, hearing my husband practice guitar, thanking God for the blessings of my life, I thought nothing of this past experience. It would have been a passing caveat, a slight distraction of thought now and again, moreso after contemplation. My mind was finally quiet on the matter. Later, still quiet.
God works in different paces for different depths of pain. But if you keep humble and remain praying, especially if you can fast also, read your Bible, do what you know you should, don’t do what you shouldn’t, draw close to God, He will get you where you want to go in His timing and for your good.
All that being said, I am more ready today than ever for whatever God wants me to do. I am beyond the distraction. I am fully His. And my outlook is more His than it has ever been. And I praise God for doing what I could not do alone, as He has so many times. I owe Him everything and it is all His. I am so thankful. Praise God!!😄❤❤❤
Well, God knew I needed rest much more than I needed to get caught up on homework and housework. So, God provided for this little girl of His yet again and blessed me with a phone call resulting in a day at a resort. No, not the whole day, but several sorely needed hours of rest by a pool catching up with my spiritual parents. The kids and I packed up our suits and drove to Celebration to spend the day relaxing with them and basking in their peace and encouragement. What a day! We got back dehydrated and physically drained but uplifted and encouraged with peace and joy at the exact same time. How beautiful are the blessings of the Lord! I am overwhelmed with luxury of having such a loving God that meets my needs and even blessing me with comfort. Yes, I work very hard, but God always rewards me with more than I started with. Praise Yahweh!❤❤❤