Not Sure When It Happened

A lot I do remember, some is still fuzzy, and I have lost the memories of many a tumultuous year. And I have forgotten many deep wounds and remember others still (although the pain has been replaced by scars dripping with forgiveness), lots I appreciate and many great little moments worked in. I remember many guys, which led me to the decision that either most guys are selfish or more likely that I have not exhibited great wisdom in the past choosing guys, which is far more likely (or maybe 50/50 with college guys of which I am referring). And somewhere along this 43 year trek of road along this journey, not even sure of exactly when, but I believe God has tamed me. Through suffering and moments of glory, God has melted this wild girl into some semblance of a tame but strong, Godly woman. That is certainly not to brag, I am not sure if I know of many more humble, but it is to say that God is a miracle worker because me being tame is a miracle and only God could do that. I have been a fighter rebel, proud and strong, defending the weak (and me too) most of my life, living free and wild by hook or crook, desperate for adventure and attention and a kind word from anyone, no matter what it took to get one. And God shaped that sad soul into the woman I am, His little girl grown up to be momma to many. And that is why God is my Champion, my Lord and Master, my Savior, my Father and my Friend. He made me, I blew it, and He remade me. What story is more beautiful? Any that go like that. God is everything, friends. Don’t neglect Him for He does not neglect us. He is for us.❤

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Naval Cadet Sea Bees

This is way off of my usual topics, if there is such a thing, but I wanted to pass on information that has become known to me and I think is pretty cool, based on my being a patriotic momma. My son has been involved as a Lead Cadet in the Naval Cadet Sea Bee battalion. You have to be 10-12 years old to be a Lead Cadet and you graduate to Sea Cadet from 13 through high school. It is not affiliated with a school, such as ROTC is, and they work well with homeschoolers. What they do is drill one weekend a month (like a boot camp training) and throughout the month they do service trainings, such as working with Veterans functions or community service, etc. They learn service and respect and earn rewards and rank for it and it is fabulous. Now you know. ☺

Life is Also in the Pain

As a doctor, I know some stuff about medicine and the human body. And I have read up on many illnesses, they just fascinate me because of my love for humanity and how things work. And a book I read about leprosy opened my eyes to the appreciate pain as a valuable part of life. He documented lepers throughout their illnesses as he treated them. Their biggest problem and sadness was not being able to feel pain, so they would get wounds they didn’t know about. They wanted more than anything to feel pain because they stated they don’t feel alive or a part of life without it. Pain is connection. Since reading that book, I look at pain differently. We barely grow in character with good times, however immense growth and character development happens through pain. At least for me it works that way. I don’t go searching for pain still, but if it comes, I am appreciative of the lesson I search out. It is a good part of connection, learning and life. ❤

Of All the Beautiful Days

This day was full of busy (the 5-k and making of a costume before a deadline) and beautiful catching up with wonderful friends we love dearly that live far away. It rang with the familiar bells of too much to do, blended with the joy and peace of reuniting with very great friends and then more busy-ness (the flat tire) and then more beautiful with watching my husband’s other band play a gig and then being a roadie. Busy and beautiful was the order of the day, and despite every potential frustration, I have been unable to stop smiling. Truly, God’s brilliant light shone on us all day long. He is the Maker and lifter of our heads. May God be praised!!❤

What I Am Not

People place a great deal of emphasis on what people are and who they are and positive affirmations. I believe just as important, and for me more importantly because of how I am cut, it is valuable for me to declare what or who I am not. I think for me it is easier to behave the way I should by declaring how I am not going to behave. Here is my short list:

I am not evil.

I am not a coward.

I am not afraid.

I am not someone who sees a need and runs off because it is inconvenient for me to help.

I am not selfish.

I am not God and am not worthy of worship and excessive rewards and attention.

I am not a liar.

I am not a cheater.

I am not a thief.

I am not a hater or murderer.

I am not ugly or worthless in any way.

I am not friendless or unwanted.

I am not a judge or jury or unloving.

I am not without compassion.

I am not a jerk or bully.

That is my short list. For those of us who God deemed fit to make with extraordinarily strong and driven personality and will to match, it is often what I refuse to be that drives me to goodness and Godly living. Yes, the positive statements are valuable also, but for me personally, I work better on the flip side. Maybe this helps someone else. I love you! ❤ 

Walking Light-ly

Christians are called to be the light because our faith is based on Jesus Christ who is the Light of the World. And where Christians do not live in the light where they are, they are like a flashlight turned off…. no good to anyone and selfish as snot. Being the light is sharing our inner light wherever we go. Living the light turns on the fruit of the Spirit (our love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control) so everyone can see it. That way those in darkness (without the Holy Spirit) can snoteeee another better life option that heals and restores and makes everything better in every way. Live the light today. ❤

On My Little Corner

On my little corner of the big bad world

There are many people everywhere.

They scurry on their lives like little bitty mice 

In a maze never going anywhere.

They go throughout their day finding tech and mice to play

And worshipping the cheese they have made.

On my little corner of the big bad world

The rats and mice mingle nicely.

Each have their place and no food goes to waste

Some are bigger, some are nicer, all the same.

But some of them you see wander differently

And put their hope in something that is greater.

On my little corner of the big bad world

I realize exactly what I am seeing

For God who made the mice and the rats and all they prize

Made them out of love and helped my vision.

God directs the mice and rats to come to Him

But they get to choose to be or not receivers of the vision.

On my little corner of the big bad world

Is a choice available for all to make

And it will change your life and make your eternity bright

It just lies upon you yes or no to make it.

And then you have eternity to be glad you made it. ❤