Focusing on the Life Giver

Even if everything is wrong with your life right now (which is always a negatively – skewed exaggeration), love the Life Giver and focus on Him. There is always something beautiful from Him in your life if you are focused on Him. For instance, my husband and teenage son are at odds a lot and angry a lot, my daughter is having trouble with obedience and honesty and a tad of laziness, I have to do a lot for my mom because of her poor choices, I now have added regular responsibility, my weight loss has stalled at only 2 pounds to go, I have a lot of responsibility on me as per usual, I am feeling a heavy weight from so many burdens around me, I am often neglected despite all this, I have no money to do things or get shopping for Christmas, I am missing my loved ones no longer here, so much weighing me down right now. I could focus on these things and get seriously depressed. That would be easy to fall into. I don’t though. I refuse. Instead, I do something else.

I focus on God, the Life Giver. I focus on my residence in heaven. I focus on the great goodness of God. Then, it becomes much easier to see how many blessings I have. Yes, the negative things are all still here, but I now get to play piano at a new church my friends attend and lead worship for. I get to teach my children school. I am healthy enough to work hard and keep up with everything without pain or exhaustion. I have a mom still alive close by. I have a husband and home and children and fish. We have air conditioning and a minivan that is lasting a long time. These are all blessings.

The thing is… sometimes you can only see the good stuff after you put your remaining energy on God. He gives life and is the light source. Focus on Him is the decision. It is always my best decision.❤❤❤

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Missing People

I understand that missing people is selfish. I get that. I also get that grieving is a process of letting go of that person’s present influence in your life and needs to complete its journey before it lets you go. My daddy has been in heaven two years now and I still miss him and still grieve. And my two friends died at the same time, one from this world and one rejected me and left my life completely. Three losses at once and one was my precious daddy. Also, I had some bad decisions still on my conscience and had discovered a porn addiction in my husband so felt very alone and isolated and ugly. And I got very depressed for about a year and a half and have since been healed by Jesus. So when I say that God heals, I know this to be true personally. It starts with a hope that it doesn’t always have to be like that, that it can change. Then that hope fans into exploration, what can be done? Then for me it was a search for truth in the Bible, then prayer and then a relationship with God through Jesus. Then He healed me. And He strengthened me so much I can fast once a week and look forward to it to grow closer to Him. And He helped me lose 48 pounds (just 2 pounds from my goal) and have tons of energy to serve and work and make music.

So have a little hope and then do something to search out truth, only found in God. He can heal you like He healed me. He healed me from everything, even things from my past I did not realize were still hurting me. God is so loving and beautiful and really loves you and me and wants us healthy and happy. He really does. Feed that little hope and read some precious truth from the Bible and pray. Healing is just after that, yours for the asking and a little internal effort. Worth it.❤

Today, Ready, Go

Today is a beautiful day. You are ready for it. You have thanked God for the day, for life, for eternal security through Jesus. Now feet to floor, you are ready to serve. Staying humble is your greatest proof of strength as always but remembering that your Heavenly Father owns the cattle on a thousand hills and the wealth in every mine keeps things real and dispels worry. Faith in God keeps things real as you trust He will take care of you as He promised. And because God is good and loves you, you are ready to go today on a great day. God bless you!😄❤

Vestiges of a Bygone Era

I was cleaning out my bottom drawer tonight, just now actually, and came across vestiges of a bygone era. These were tokens from a deeply past lover. Why had I kept them all these years when it is abundantly and rightfully clear that the sin committed in the past with him is forgiven, forgotten, no more. It is strange why I kept them so long, these gifts that stayed hiding in my drawer. So I removed them and am giving them away to my friend who needs them. These items mean nothing to me now at all. I realized that tonight, but I had not dismissed them from my ownership until tonight. And I pondered why and I guess in a strange way, I had truly felt loved by someone at the time they were given and that felt good. No matter what happens, I can look and remember that I was wanted and loved once by someone. And I am growing more certain by the minute that that was the case. I wanted to remember, as I lay alone at night that once long ago I was loved. And I am giving them away because I realize something newer and much more substantial. Jesus loves me more and He stuck around. And I am not saying that he should have stayed with me… I am right where God wants me and loved truly by Him… I am saying that I wish him well, am glad God separated us so my family could exist, and only need Jesus now and forever more. Past is released and whatever was required for its passing- forgiveness, release, acceptance, peace, joy- is completed. And I move forward with a load lightened and Jesus who loves me forever.❤

Wisdom from Fasting

I decided to write a new book… Wisdom from Fasting will be the title. The reason I will write it is because I want every Christian to fast and see the enormous blessings of this obedience. God draws so close and gently to you. Prayers under the obedience and faith of fasting are answered personally. God draws close. It is the most beautiful experience of God’s love and care. This weekly obedience is the best decision of my life.😄❤

Refusing to Get Offended

I am not sure exactly when it happened, but after most of my life having been inundated by criticism, always at home- by parents and sister first and later husbands- I drew close and deepened my relationship with God. First, I read my Bible every chance I got. Then later my heart softened and at Ling last humility became my constant companion and I was at long last able to humble my heart to pray and kneel to my God, the Almighty. Then I started the obedience of fasting once a week and that drew me closer to God even more. And somewhere on this journey with my Lord God, He revealed to me that His is the only opinion that matters and that He loved me and made me on purpose for Himself and His kingdom. And that, my friends, when you finally grasp that and hold it in your broken heart, frees you from anyone’s criticism. You are above that level of insecurity and immaturity and distraction and certainly those lies. And you realize that God’s encouragement and blessings far far outweigh any pathetic attempt to put you down. God is way bigger (to entirely understate the magnitude of that) than any evil coming against your soul for the Holy Spirit lives there now. So, I refuse to get offended now. My pride is not puffed up and I know the truth about God and the secret that He is in charge. What people say about or to me is discarded the second it does not line up with God’s Word about me. And I genuinely forgive them instantly, feel sorry for them not understanding that God loves them too, and then praying for them to get it. And here is my secret. You are welcome.😄❤

Addiction=Willful Bondage/Slavery=Idolatry

Any addiction you choose to put first in your life you chose. It is an illness that help is needed for, but it becomes an addiction to begin with by choice. The addict wants to escape the responsibility of reality by purposefully escaping into pornography, alcohol, drugs, overeating, overworking, not eating, whatever the drug of choice is. They choose this as their savior, their idol to enslave them. In doing so, they unwittingly choose a slavery lifestyle, to be dominated and controlled by the addiction, to life in perpetual guilt/conviction and shame, to be in hiding and lie continuously to cover it up.

This does not have to be the reality. God is way stronger than the ties that bind you to a false idol slavemaster. God is freedom. He only needs a humble, sincere prayer for help and He can and will provide a way out. There is a lot of help out there and with God as your helper, no slavemaster can rob you of His joy and peace and truth, which is the strength to rebuild and love you back to life.❤