Choose Discomfort

Weird thing to say. Especially as I say that you have arrived and matured spiritually in life when you are content in any and every circumstance, trusting God with the details.

No, this is more of a comfort matter. I can be content and not be comfortable. In fact, this is my M.O., my credo, my life story. I can name on one hand the times I have been truly comfortable AND content being myself naturally. Most of the time I was trying to fit some mold or obey parents or obey teachers or please parents or fit in at church or not seem crazy despite my being so often. I don’t think like anyone I know… I am naturally a nature girl, pianist, singer/songwriter, artist, writer/author, sports girl, leader, seamstress, fashion designer, machine tinkerer, carpenter, mechanic loving, farming, mommy, wife, animal and children and elderly-loving, mission-minded Christian. Tell me where I can ever be myself. Does all that seem to fit together cohesively? Does it fit any person in church maybe? Work? Who can handle all that? No, I have always had to tone me down to some standard of social normalcy.

That being said, there is wisdom and greatness involved and resulting from not getting too comfortable. I believe if we choose to act, serve, do, be, love rather than sit around being comfortable, we please God. I have yet to find the verse some people live by that God is pleased by those who sit around in comfort and please themselves. It is not n in the Bible, does not exist. It is a device of the devil. An idiot believes God expects nothing of us but our comfort. Like Jesus dies for our sins so we can hang out watching TV and feeding our faces or be in social media all day making sure we do nothing to be censored by their demonic agenda (why I quit facebook and all social media over a year ago). No, God says to live out our faith, serve, love, help. We are not in existence to pamper our own behinds. We are here for God, to demonstrate and worship His glory and encourage each other in home and church.❤

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Giving Up on Frustration

Today was horrible. I will not lie. My husband woke up in a really bad mood and then it got worse. Last night was no picnic. And it is all culminating on him right now. He has lived with guilt and blame and unresolved issues so long he is now literally paying for it. He is angry, moody, passive aggressive and rightfully so after a fashion because we are dealing with and paying for termite annihilation, a broken van door, and PIED while doing house renovations on the back patio and two gigs this week and one just finished from the weekend. It is a lot for any person, and such stress and punishment brings a rawness of temper. And of course I and the kids are the closest things to lash out at.

But is that really understandable and normal? Is it OK to be a jerk when paying for past and present sins you are busy denying exist? God is not One to be fooled. He sees and knows everything. You can lie to yourself so long and other people so long but God sees. He awaits that humble, contrite heart coming to Him for love and help which He freely gives. Then He wants change for your sake. Until then, I prayed for consequences. Be careful what you pray for. But I am with the Lord and ready. I am tired and am giving up on frustration. As such, I am now praying for all of it. I am being the humble one and admitting I cannot do this alone and refuse to be frustrated another day. So I give up. I have no control, perceived or otherwise. I can do nothing alone, I freely admit it. My meaning, identity, lifeblood, spiritual gifts, abilities, health, strength, oxygen, everything is completely dependent of God. So of course is every event and situation of my life. I can control nothing. I can want another person close to me to get help and repent, as it hurts everyone close to them as well as themselves, but I cannot change or soften a heart. Only God can, and He knows what it takes to soften and correct another soul He made. Of course, it is always their choice ultimately, but God knows them best and can help most if anyone can.

So, long story to say that I give up on frustration and will pray humbly and do everything I can do and give everything all over to God for His will to thrive. I want to and do decrease and Jesus Christ increases in my situation. And I will walk the path faithfully, even if God and I are the only faithful ones doing so. I will be trustworthy even if no one else is. I will be kind and encouraging even if everyone is mean and selfish around me. No matter, I give up frustration. I give it to God. And praise God for being strong enough to take it and work corrections and who knows, maybe miracles. ❤

Being Yourself

Being yourself involves your Maker. He made you with certain gifts and traits. Never try to be more than you are, different than you are or less than you were designed to be or you will not have peace. Aceept your Maker’s perfection of design in you and bask in contentment of His wisdom in making you just as you are. And because He loves you so much, love yourself too, love Him back and love others. And that simple truth and working philosophy of life is the key to contentment and peace and beauty/glory in your life now and into eternity. God is most important. Then be yourself for Him.❤

The Rock That Supports Me

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When my daddy was still alive, he was my rock. He was the one person on earth (other than my best friend Shawn) who loved me unconditionally no matter what. Since he passed, I needed a new rock to support me. And when I found my Rock to support me, love me and lean on, I realized He should have been my Rock all along. This Rock is Jesus. I was close to the Lord most of my life but still tended to lean on my daddy for support and strength because He was the strongest person I knew. And I realize now that all this time and even now Jesus is way stronger and should have always been my Rock. I mean, He defeated death and that after enduring the worst beating in history and dying for sins we committed. This is the strength and love of our Rock, the Holy Savior who longs to be our Rock. I cannot tell you how much peace and joy come from humbly relying on Jesus Christ for everything I need. You have to discover that for yourself if you have not already. It is never too late.❤

Thought for Excellent

I am responsible today for my thoughts, words and actions.

I can make decisions which honor God or hurt His kingdom.

I am responsible for those decisions.

I will be careful then to make the right decisions today.

I choose to make good decisions.

And I can and will humbly pray for help from God to do this.

And He will help because He loves me and He is more than strong enough to help.

So today His peace and joy will envelop me.

I will be His loving light to honor Him.❤

Busy Season

From January to May is our busy season. We have baseball, homeschooling, PE, cleaning my mom’s house, church twice a week, chirch and our band practices, band gigs- a lot of them, caring for the dog for these months of heartworm treatments, quilting, patio remodeling to install windows, car trouble we are fixing, playdates, care for my kids, household care, birthdays of friends, etc. Busy season.

I have friends and acquaintances say they are too busy to pray and read their Bibles. And I can say that is a blatant lie. I am busier than any of them and I make the time to pray all through the day and read my Bible, blog to share and encourage, etc. You have time for what you want to do. Granted, I gave up all social media and movie watching and any other distracions to make time, but that is because God is my priority. You always have time for what you want to make time for. Always. Decide God comes first and you secure your eternal future and achieve peace and joy amidst love to help you now. Life without God is a rut and eternally meaningless and depressing bit with God there is strength and help and eternal security and meaning and blessings.❤

Easier Day

Want an easier day? Focus on Jesus Christ. It works every time. If life is ugly, much going on, lots to handle, many distractions, unkind words, bad drivers around you, just too much self-thinking, whatever it may be… whenever you focus on Jesus- read the Bible, humbly pray, praise and worship Him, talk to a friend about Him, help someone in His name for Him then the day goes easier and better, focus is right, balance is there, you have a great day. Make it a habit. It changes your mindset and attitude for the better. And God gives peace and joy in return. It is beautiful!❤