Finally Forgiven, Mostly Forgotten

Hard to do, forget. Not sure we always should as it warns not to do things that way again. So probably for the best, but sometimes we can forget a while and choose to decide not to remember. We can actively push it away until it becomes automatic. Of course there are triggers but we can choose to keep obsessing over it or send it packing. We choose this. Emotional people have more trouble getting to their choice through their emotion but the choice is there somewhere… dig til ya find it.

But today, I realized that I have finally forgiven a person and all persons involved in a past incident in my life. I am 100% at peace with it all, with them all. And the funny thing is that I really thought I was there already a couple of times before. I was not. I had said the words, thought the right thoughts but too much thinking about it remained, a desire to see what happened next, a will to know, a want to understand, a wish to see. Ever so faint but present nonetheless. And today, watching the grandbaby, seeing my kids in our home, hearing my husband practice guitar, thanking God for the blessings of my life, I thought nothing of this past experience. It would have been a passing caveat, a slight distraction of thought now and again, moreso after contemplation. My mind was finally quiet on the matter. Later, still quiet.

God works in different paces for different depths of pain. But if you keep humble and remain praying, especially if you can fast also, read your Bible, do what you know you should, don’t do what you shouldn’t, draw close to God, He will get you where you want to go in His timing and for your good.

All that being said, I am more ready today than ever for whatever God wants me to do. I am beyond the distraction. I am fully His. And my outlook is more His than it has ever been. And I praise God for doing what I could not do alone, as He has so many times. I owe Him everything and it is all His. I am so thankful. Praise God!!😄❤❤❤

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Answered Prayer

Thank you to my friends and brothers and sisters in Christ, the beautiful prayer warriors who prayed for me and my son during this sinus infection. He is 100% better and back to normal and I am healing up now also. My voice is also not affected for our gig tomorrow, praise God. I thank you for faith-filled praying and praise Almighty God, my loving Healer! 😄 ❤

Oh My King

A song I wrote to Jesus a while back:

“You, oh Lord, are worth all praise

Whether or not we praise You.

You’re the great and mighty God

Whether or not we sing

For You created life

And You created me.

So I will worship and bow down,

Almighty King,

For You are holy and worthy of everything.

So I sing,

Oh my King.”❤

Praise and Worship is the Opposite of Murder

Really been thinking about murder lately. Heard a message today on Moody radio while driving to work and that pressed the issue.

Yes, of the 10 commandments, murder is one of those commandments we can usually breathe easy and feel confident and good that we kept it. But did we?

Jesus said that if you hate someone in your heart, you have already committed the crime. And it goes back to the fact 100% truth that God is in the business of heart, mind and motives. (This is why porn is so bad, by the way, already committed adultery when you engage in it, along with the idolatry and further marriage-breaking evil of it, but I digress.)

So, murder is really being extremely angry out of greed, jealousy, selfishness, pride, whatever. You are at that point saying that you are more important than who you are angry at, devaluing them and thus shaking a fist at God and His loving, purposeful design of another human being.

So I quite frankly had to ask for God’s forgiveness for murdering several people in my lifetime. And I would suggest searching your heart for such thoughts and repent of that line of thinking.

That all being said, the opposite of devaluing other people is praise and worship of God and encouraging other people. Telling God how great of a job He did creating people, His ultimate design; choosing to devote yourself to Him in appreciation; and encouraging other people to live up to their designed, beautiful potential from God are all ways to please God and live out His design. This is the opposite of putting one’s self above all of that in your mind.❤

A Day at a Resort

Well, God knew I needed rest much more than I needed to get caught up on homework and housework. So, God provided for this little girl of His yet again and blessed me with a phone call resulting in a day at a resort. No, not the whole day, but several sorely needed hours of rest by a pool catching up with my spiritual parents. The kids and I packed up our suits and drove to Celebration to spend the day relaxing with them and basking in their peace and encouragement. What a day! We got back dehydrated and physically drained but uplifted and encouraged with peace and joy at the exact same time. How beautiful are the blessings of the Lord! I am overwhelmed with luxury of having such a loving God that meets my needs and even blessing me with comfort. Yes, I work very hard, but God always rewards me with more than I started with. Praise Yahweh!❤❤❤

Praise Affirmations

Instead of starting off the day with self-affirmations, start them with praise affirmations. For instance:

1. Lord God, there is no strength in me without you.

2. There is no hope without b You.

3. There is no love without You, Almighty God.

4. There is no perfect except You.

5. God, you are the only One fully dependable, faithful and trustworthy. Thank You for that.

6. God, You are perfect and holy, thr only One who is.

7. I give you today for You know best every time and I love you!❤

When God Corrects Me

Sometimes I screw up and sometimes is being nice. However, God sees fit, in His amazing and infinite grace and mercy, to correct me. I used to hate that because I was a bit of a control freak when I thought I was right and intended right to happen of my own volition. I have matured, thank God and n only because of Him, and release control to God, who is actually capable of carrying our the absolute best in any situation. I have been wrong lately in my thinking. And He showed me this tonight. And great was my praise.

The surest sign that you are maturing is that each time you screw up takes less time for you to realize it, confess and repent, become humble enough for all that in thr first place, and praise God for His wisdom and sovereignty over everyone and everything. And I really don’t want to go over my screw up and bring more attention to myself. I really want to n lift up the name of Jesus and glorify God. I want Him to have all the props because my obedience of Him is also due to His grace and mercy. He sees fit to correct and loves me enough to love me back every time. It is truly beautiful how He works n in my life in every big thing and every little thing. And I love seeing my kids love Him too. Makes my day! God is so very good friend!! 😄❤❤❤