I was thinking tonight of all the things, travel, opportunities and people God has blessed me with every day of my life. There are more than I can name or even remember. I am so very grateful. It shows me unquestionably how unfathomably good God is. There are so many blessings. Every one of them was precious and purposed into my life, even the pain. I do not wish for a different past, a different upbringing, more of anything. I am so very thankful. And it hit me that God is perfect and good and loves me so much. He orchestrated my life like a poet in love, masterfully and exquisitely. He designed my days and provided restful sleep for my nights. He painted incredible scenes when He knew I needed them and allowed just the right encouragement at critical times. How precious is our Savior! How amazing is our God!!!😄❤
So the birthdays left me a bit tapped out. I got a job offer- working 2 days a week for $3,000-$5,000/mo. I had hesitation from my husband so said no to it. So I told the Lord I was trusting Him to provide as He always did. And He gave me 6 consults in about a 6 hour commitment, including drive time. So God reimbursed me and/or rewarded me for honoring my husband’s leadership. And I just want to tell you that God takes care of us like that. And I enjoyed fasting today as I saw 2 of thr patients during a small part of the day and homeschooled a good bit of it. So God blessed me and I wanted to acknowledge the trustworthiness of God. You ask Him and He provides what you need most every time. Praise God!!!😄❤❤❤
Praise God who answers prayers and took good care of my husband through his surgery! Home already and all went perfectly! Thank you who prayed for us and wished us well! Praise God!😄❤
So, upon hearing of the impending Hurricane Dorian, my prayers have been focused on asking God to diminish the hurricane or flick it into the sea. And today, I received word from the meteorologist that the plots were all in agreement that thr hurricane was indeed flicked into sea and will be travelling north now in the Atlantic. And I tell you, God answers prayers every time we humbly pray. And sometimes, as in this amazing instance, He answers us the way we ask. But know that He always answers prayers for the best of everyone involved. And know this… God is so very good!!!! He is a loving Father and takes great care of His children. Praise God, who has proven yet again that He is bigger than any hurricane!!!❤❤❤
Our church no longer had classes or kids really either anymore. I had been needing a Wednesday night home for my kids to make friends and feel like home and tonight we found a new church home for Wednesdays! So wonderful to find a loving bunch of good people who believe in investing in children. We are all so very happy! Praise God!😄❤
Today, God healed yet another aspect of me. God did not choose to heal all of me all at once. Frankly, in hindsight, I was not ready for that and my pride was not low enough for it either. My faith was high but will was low. I was healed in sections as I was able to maintain it. And God healed a good deal of the physical remnants of my illness tonight at church. Elders laid hands on me and prayed and I knew I was healed and felt the change inside me. And I could not have had that happen without everything that came before it.
The lesson is this, friend. God is the Great Physician and coordinates every inch of your life for the purpose of accomplishing His will for you and those close to you. Do not miss it. Sometimes His healing is all at once and sometimes, as with me, it was in pieces I was ready for and could handle. I fancied myself tough and everyone who knows me would agree and I still know I am made for toughness. However, I am a twig’s plaything without God. I have no strength but what He graces me with. I have no ability to know what I can handle yet or not or when, I am just not that smart, even with all the initials after my name, just is impossible for anyone to know those things but God. Praise God!❤❤❤
Hard to do, forget. Not sure we always should as it warns not to do things that way again. So probably for the best, but sometimes we can forget a while and choose to decide not to remember. We can actively push it away until it becomes automatic. Of course there are triggers but we can choose to keep obsessing over it or send it packing. We choose this. Emotional people have more trouble getting to their choice through their emotion but the choice is there somewhere… dig til ya find it.
But today, I realized that I have finally forgiven a person and all persons involved in a past incident in my life. I am 100% at peace with it all, with them all. And the funny thing is that I really thought I was there already a couple of times before. I was not. I had said the words, thought the right thoughts but too much thinking about it remained, a desire to see what happened next, a will to know, a want to understand, a wish to see. Ever so faint but present nonetheless. And today, watching the grandbaby, seeing my kids in our home, hearing my husband practice guitar, thanking God for the blessings of my life, I thought nothing of this past experience. It would have been a passing caveat, a slight distraction of thought now and again, moreso after contemplation. My mind was finally quiet on the matter. Later, still quiet.
God works in different paces for different depths of pain. But if you keep humble and remain praying, especially if you can fast also, read your Bible, do what you know you should, don’t do what you shouldn’t, draw close to God, He will get you where you want to go in His timing and for your good.
All that being said, I am more ready today than ever for whatever God wants me to do. I am beyond the distraction. I am fully His. And my outlook is more His than it has ever been. And I praise God for doing what I could not do alone, as He has so many times. I owe Him everything and it is all His. I am so thankful. Praise God!!😄❤❤❤