10 Constant Benefits of 24 Hour Weekly Fasting with Prayer

Since I started in September the discipline and obedience of fasting with prayer one day a week, I have noticed a stark difference in me and wanted to share it.

1. Constant peace running in the background all the time. Joy has rarely ever been a problem but this peace is relatively new to me. I like it. It is a constant reminder that God is in control and loves me so will handle everything His way in His timing. No worries.

2. My relationship with God has grown deeply. I am spiritually maturing and physically minimizing (except to get it in line with what I need to do spiritually). I never am or feel alone.

3. Running conversation prayers are more automatic and consistent. Prayer flows and I understand its importance and power.

4. I am healthier. I am maintaining my healthy weight and energy better, not letting food be so prominent.

5. Clarity of mind and spirit.

6. One running trial from my past is over. God worked it out and the struggle is over.

7. Spiritual things matter infinitely more than temporal, physical things.

8. I am more engaged in people and my kids and my husband, helping wherever I can and putting myself last. A servant’s heart has developed stronger than before.

9. My self-assurance because God is my Father has increased. I do not care or get offended by jerks or bullies or friends or family. I let it run off my shoulder and instead or reacting, pray for them.

10. I want to continue. I want others to pray determinedly, even if they cannot fast but fast if you can. I want everyone to be saved and have this geowth with God. It is amazing.❤

God Continues to Bless & Give Chances

God is perpetually generous! He blesses and answers prayers, gives chances again and again and keeps on loving us to Himself. Oh how He proves His matchless worth! Oh how He loves us! That is amazing to me the more I ponder it. And the late Rich Mullins said it best that with all his philosophy and theology classes, thr most profound truth in the Bible or universe is that “Jesus loves me, this I know, for thr Bible tells me so. Little ones to Him belong. They are weak but He is strong.” So great and powerful is that truth! So blessed we are to have another chance today to love Him and accept His present love and past love via Jesus. So amazing is our Heavenly Father!❤❤❤

Benefits of Being Married Long Term to an Addict

Many people believe there is only negative in being married to an addict (it does not matter the addiction of choice- they all look the same ugly in a spouse and are all rooted in false beliefs, lies, sin and pride). There are many advantages and blessings. Some are the following:

1. Being humbled every day allows a contrite heart to flourish. It is next to impossible to feel like the center of anyone’s life or attention who already has their addiction as the center. Yes, the downside is that often even God and obedience comes after the addiction, but I am showing the positive and it is true that you cannot help but be humble when married to an addict. This helps a lot when working on contrition with the Lord. And that is a hurdle to faith most people really struggle with.

2. You depend on and trust in God only and that is very healthy spiritually. You cannot depend on the addict often but you realize quickly (because of the contrition mentioned earlier) that you can always depend on and trust in God.

3. You love truth. You realize that the addict, although in denial with lies and false beliefs, is riddled with guilt and fear all the time and lies like they breathe. This is so obvious and lies upon lies gets old. So you love truth. I read my Bible all the time, loving every word, every truth it is. You truly appreciate truth more than most do.

4. You accept and learn to be content in God. You appreciate everything good in life, really appreciate every blessing, every kind word, every word of encouragement, every friend who sticks around, every prayer where you feel God there with you. You appreciate more. You are thankful for a home with air conditioning, transportation, food, all those blessings people take for granted. You are content with unimportance. You are happy with every blessing and know full well that God is enough every day, every time, every moment.

5. You develop a thick chin. You realize that what God says about you is the truth and are thankful for it. You realize the truth is not in the accusations and put downs and anger/rages that always accompany the adddictions because of their nature and guilt and fear. You realize that God lovingly made you and sleep alone for years or not, you are beautiful inside, God lovingly made and gifted you. You are incredibly beautiful because God’s glory shines through you. So beautiful!

6. Forgiveness comes easily. You have to forgive so much and are humbled and contrite that forgiveness comes super easily. You have to forgive to survive. You forgive because you love. And you forgive because God forgave you and you want to be forgiven and have your prayers answered.

7. Greater faith in God. You rely on God for every encouragement, every good thing, every solution to every abuse, every emotional anything, healing when stress is getting to you, every comfort when lonely, everything. This is invaluable in a walk with the Lord and makes us closer. And heaven will be so much more beautiful!

8. You show them God’s true love. When you stay with an addict, you have the chance to show them love. In fact, the act of staying married to the addict is the strongest show of love along with the forgiveness. Love is patient, kind, self-sacrificing, humble, real, truthful, joyful, peaceful, faithful (even if they are not), etc. We are responsible for how we love. And love is purely beautiful.

9. You are in obedience to God. God hates divorce and if it can possibly be avoided, it should be. There are many blessings and rewards for obedience to God.

I hope you understand better the blessings involved in being and staying married long term to an addict. No one is perfect except Jesus. Staying married is your choice I would say largely because of these blessings and love. And God’s love is the greatest force I know.❤

So Very Thankful

I am so very thankful for so many blessings in my life.

Some blessings at the time were disguised as curses. But God knew what He was doing.

Some of the biggest wounds of my life became the greatest blessings.

So many blessings were taken for granted and left unacknowledged and unnoticed.

Yet blessings they were and I look back on them and appreciate God’s consistent love.

He has remained the most faithful Person of my life and only true lover of my soul.

Better late than never at thanking God for everything…the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful.

All those things were there on purpose and made you the precious gift you are.

Such is the love of God. Thank you, God!!!♥

Why I Fast

Many people are fasting for the health benefits. That is secondary to me. I fast first and foremost as an obedient act of worship to grow closer to my Savior Jesus Christ. I listen crisper to the Holy Spirit, something I have been working on. I want to please my Heavenly Father. That is it. It is simple. And I have done a weekly fast since September 4th of last year. I never regret it. I find it beautiful and it has enriched my relationship with God. I live Him first and foremost of anything in my life. And the thought of spending more quality time with Him is exquisitely beautiful to me. He nudges me to hear Him more. I adore His glory I see around me and in me. There is love and majesty together when I consider Him. The Bible teaches and corrects me with truth, which is so sweet to me. And there are always many needs of mine and others I bring to Him for solving and He does. So my faith grows every time. This is why I fast. This is why you should also.❤

Blessings Counted

Had a great day today, so I thought. Balanced time with husband and kids, had a few minutes myself to work on my ball gown alterations for our New Year’s Eve gig with the band. All was well, except… I firmly believe I am spoiling everyone else. They all were not content with my balancing act and wanted more. This is spoiled behavior. My 8 year old is acting up, my teenager is acting hormonal, my husband is needing more of me than he used to. It is a strange phenomenon… the more you give, the more they take. And I was getting pretty frustrated over an argument of greed over popcorn. I let out a grunt of some kind and wondered what would ever be enough for these people I love and must be spoiling. Can it be corrected? And I paused and ate something, drank some green tea, breathed. And my husband said needed and very rare nice words to me. The girl took her bath and was better afterwards. Thr boy showered and ate and was better. I spoke to the kids in unemotional weight and expressed my expectations of their behavior as my children. They realized their crazy and decided that was better than displeasing me. And laying in bed here now in quiet darkness, I count every blessing of my day as nd there are many. Many blessings were counted. Many. And the greatest of these is that I was never without the Lord today, ever His little girl. And peace and joy are here. Tomorrow we will go again, Lord willing.❤

Blessings from Obedience

So, I shared how I went through a frustration patch. Then, I chose to focus on Jesus and preparations for celebrating His birthday. Then, I shared I was able to see His blessings in my life.

Now, as a result of n obedience and sharing all that to help encourage someone else who may be struggling, God rewarded me with a gig for our band and a dinner our with my family, tangible blessings/rewards from obedience. God always rewards obedience. And He has unlimited resources, so obey whenever you can and He will always heap love and loving blessings on us. God is such a good Father!!!❤❤❤