Just This Side of Crazy

Been balanced lately and doing quite well. And don’t worry, I am at peace and in joy and love with God. Today, however, under stress of heat, too much sun, too much work in both, cleaning mom’s house, walking her dog, kids misbahaving, not enough sleep, doubling up my morning walk, this momma hit a near crazy today. God helped me when I asked, just wished I had asked earlier and not done so much, but such is life. I am forgiven. The thing is, I realized this one thing is still plaguing me. I blogged about it a bit ago and thought I had fully kicked it to the curb but I am stubborn sometimes when I should not be. It is great sometimes but is a powerful tool that can be used for good or evil. So, when stress is high and crazy is looming, seems like that is when old haunts return to further stir the pot and double confusion. I don’t think that is a coincidence. Not for one second. See, our enemy wants us dead. Plays a great, alluring make believe, elaborate game with us, but lying scum the entire time, scum that throws you away like garbage as soon as possible and leaves you for dead. Pretends to love and dishes out a hate dessert. This is why I (and we all) need to get enough rest and stay healthy (physically and spiritually) to keep our guard up and be ready when too much comes our way, which it is bound to. I am going to bed now after a long talk with God and be more ready next time. This life thing is a series of attacks and adjustments all and long the path. I am so thankful we have God and each other for help and support. Be the light! Love you! ❤

Pray

In the Bible we are commanded to pray continuously, like a running focus and dialogue all day. We cannot burden God by obedience ever, but we can burden Him with disobedience. And now is ar good time to fast as well because evil is ramping. We must pray for ourselves, our family, unsaved friends and family, our President and Vice President and their families for protection and to do what is wise and right in God’s eyes, governmental officials all to do what is right in God’s eyes, Christians to wake up and get their focus and passion back on God, teachers and principals to return to teaching facts and the 10 commandments and not social or religious agendas other than truth, and other world leaders to do what is right in God’s eyes. Those doing right are few and far between and desperately need our prayer support for prayer and faith is what ignites God’s heart to act and we need Him so much. Please pray. There is a time to act in prayer and fasting and that time is now. Do not be silent in your prayers, do not sit by and serve your own agendas. If you are God’s child, obey and act like it. The church has been deaf, dumb and silent to long, looking more like the world than the obedient bride of Christ. Please help change that through prayer and encouraging others to pray, fast in groups, pray in groups or families, vote for those who truly oppose evil, love on everyone that crosses u our path,bus your gifts and talents for God.

Bend Your Head so You Can Stand Your Ground

There are treasonous evils and principalities fighting all around us on all fronts, in most all countries right now. These forces seem united and he’ll bent on destruction. Those standing for God, righteousness, good, truth, America need to humbly bow/bend our heads to gain the strength of God. Then these evil people should be prosecuted for their treacherous activities and pray the principalities out. I am tired of idly standing by and just praying alone for this country and souls I love so much. We need to unite in prayer and fasting and do something. For heaven’s sakes, why are we so timid against these evil forces? They are defeated foe trying to kill as many as possible let on their way to hell and we just let them?! Why aren’t Christians in an uproar? Are we afraid? No, who would be afraid with the God of the universe on our side??? Rise up, man up, start humbly praying and fast for these lost souls and justice for the traitors to humanity and our freedom.

Praying for Leaders

Leaders, whether of churches or government, make decisions that affect us for good or bad. We need to make a point to pray for them daily because we want them to make decisions that are wise and good, fighting evil and promoting goodness and growth/healing of our land. Plus these leaders are extra responsible for their actions when they face God. Please pray for our leaders. May God’s will be done on earth as it is in heaven. 

Praying Alone in Pain

Having recently lost someone important forever, I was reminded how fragile it all is. How we can laugh one minute and be shattered again St the rocks the next. And tonight, trying to recover from the recent blow, I am informed that my good friend lost her fight tonight. The car who hit her was also unexpected but recovery had looked so close but God thought heaven was a better home for her. And I loved her too. Also tonight while visiting my beloved Daddy, he didn’t know me, has been eating very little and sleeping a lot, can’t stay upright in a wheelchair anymore. And I am wondering just how strong God believes that I am or need to be. Of course everyone in the house is asleep and as I sit alone in my room, I cry. No, I weep. My heart mourns in sorrow and groans in grief. I am just a human being. I feel deeply. I am ripped to shreds. Just how humble do you want me, Lord? I do not doubt You, for You know everything and always what is best for everyone somehow, so much more than we do, but I am doubting the strength You gifted me with. I am doubting I can take any more of it. I am wondering how You will rebuild my brokenness, heal my heart. I know You understand pain. I know people were taken from you too. I know you felt alone sometimes too. I am talking to You knowing you feel me, you get it but not knowing anything else. So here I am to hold, Jesus. You are my only arms right now, Lord. I feel so tiny, so unimportant and I know You probably have a plan I can’t see. Again, I trust You. I will just shut up now and hope You hold me, Jesus. I need you.

Forged by Design

The soul of us was created and determined long before our physical birth. Our essence was forged by design and loving thought on purpose because God knew each of us could work together to care for His creation, each other and work together in worship of Him. Each person we see, each homeless person, each person dying of alcohol poison or drug overdose,each precious child, each strong warrior. Every person was designed on purpose with love by an incredibly amazing and awe inspiring God who wanted them. What they chose to do with that gift is their eternal choice, but that does not negate the fact that until life is passed out of an individual, they were made especially as they are to fulfill a purpose. And the beauty of salvation through Jesus our Messiah and Redeemer is that until the final breath, every person can be saved and forgiven for squandering their gift in any large or small way and can start fresh to be the amazing purposeful creation designed to be. We need only humbly ask and start a new life and journey. All dirt can be removed. We all come into this world with nothing but our potential and love and a choice to make later. All of us. We will leave this world with the result of the choice we decided upon. We are not so grand to have invented ourselves, matter can not be created by matter but by a higher force. The laws of nature dictate this fact. Evolution is a strong and powerful religion of bad science and lies. I have studied much and am a doctor so implore the mind and spirit to reason again at the impotent ramblings of religious fanatics whose goal is to remove the Deity of God and give it to themselves. Know the truth of your design and you will find that you are dearly loved and wanted. There is no mistake. You are no mistake. You are on purpose and loved. You have potential and choice. Please know it is never too late to be restored to your rightful state of effective worship and community with God and His true believers. God loves you so very much and made a way to begin again through Jesus Christ. Feel free to pray to God and feel free to reply if you want me to pray for you.