The Weather Inside

I try to keep my inner climate steady and calm and God helps with that. It is like being indoors in a controlled, steady environment regardless of what storms rage outside or troops waging war or occasionally evenall is serene and the same state and temperature so I can temporarily open the windows and let in some fresh air. And that is what being a Christian is like inside. Now, if we do not properly maintain the air handler, we get an influx of the weather outside, so we must maintain our relationship with Jesus to keep everything functioning as it should be. And when we have that focus and all works right, it does not matter one iota what the heck is going on outside our skin or even to it. Our peace runs deeper. Our joy flows higher. Our understanding is sweeter. Praise God!❤❤❤

The Journeys in a Day

Some days can take you through many journeys within their span. Today I walked 2 miles, swept the porch, cleaned a room, nursed a daughter fighting a cold back to health, vacuumed, we killed a dead old bed (from too much jumping oy) and assembled a new trundle bed without instructions or hardware, a different we played tennis and swam, had two meals and preset the third to begin while we were swimming, prepared the songs for tomorrow, and now finally can work on the quilt. Busy day, feels like we lived two days in this day. Busy day. Many journeys. Many moods waded through also, my emotional family. So tomorrow will be a quiet day, church and rest and quilt. Balance is so important and I feel out of balance now so will rest tomorrow. I believe when you don’t get it right, we can get it right as soon as we decide we want to and tomorrow will be more balanced. God is so hood and allows redemption even in small things like overpopulation a day. 😄❤

On Accepting the Blame

As a big picture person, blame to me is rather a waste of time. However, being surrounded by detail oriented people, blame is a hot topic in this house. Whose fault is it? Who is to blame? To me, it happened, fix it. Try not to do it again. They love my forgiving nature (I just don’t major on the minors really lol) until I am to blame. Then I am the scum of the earth when I make a mess and must be reminded of it daily or hourly until something else happens more worth their attention. This is an Aquarian living with three Libras and a nearby Libra mom. Such is life, but I have learned a valuable lesson from this unfortunate circumstance. It is most often better to accept the blame immediately and clean it up the best I can than to instill my life philosophy of nonjudgment and full forgiveness upon those who struggle with that concept. In other words, it is better to be humble than to be correct. It is better to promote peace by any means necessary than to foster a stumbling block for someone else in my correctness. Lol Life is a pickle. No good if you suck on it but brilliant if you bite in. ❤

What Brings Great Joy

I wanted to pause from my quilting and just praise God from my heart for all the joys He has placed in my life. There are way too many to mention, but I need to give Him props and thank Him for a few that stand out. All my life I wanted to be a doctor (well since I was 9), and He fulfilled that passion for me. And as a professional woman, I wondered if I would be too old to have my own kids or adopt (both are beautiful and either would have sufficed) and He answered by allowing me to carry two beautiful babies. One I look forward to seeing in heaven, she would be 22 years old, maybe with children of her own by now, who knows but she will be my Heavenly blessing, as well as my twin brother and family up there already. Therefore, Heaven to be assured of and look forward to is a great blessing! The love of my life is a major blessing. I never thought I could love anyone so deeply and fully and know so well and click with so intrinsically. I didn’t think before meeting him that soulmates was a real thing. He has blessed my life. Of course also hurt me, so every good thing has its down side. I am blessed by growing up on a farm with a Christian family who took us to the best church. Oh how I loved that farm! Only another farmer can truly get that but the hard work was replete with rewards of bird in song, glimpses of foxes at play, skies that changed all the time, deer accepting you as a friend, dogs running with you in the field, the feel of dirt and long grasses, better than any bed, swinging on ropes to the rafters in the barn off straw bales, riding on the tractors or combine with Daddy, the smell of fresh air and taste of fresh vegetables. The list goes on. My spirit was the most free there outside on the farm. Mmmm. Let me just take that one in a minute. I have been blessed being able to homeschool our kids and have a husband supportive of that. What a difference it makes to spend time with your kids!!! I am blessed each time I sit down at the piano and can play anything I want to or write original songs. (My fantasy, ideal cabin has a piano, by the way. Lol) I am also blessed to do art, see art, teach art, just express myself, write, everything that shares passions and ideas with another person is beautiful. Anyway, I could go on all night, but this partial list is what God chooses to flood my heart with joy and peace and love and calm. Some blessings are worth thinking of and revisiting for better perspective and appreciation of life and God, and some are worth waiting for. ❤

My Quilt’s Journey

I hand sew. I have tried to use a machine but to me, it lacks flavor, meaning, passion. I want to place each stich carefully where I want it to go. I want it customized and full of love and meaning. Every inch of fabric and thread, I want to touch and be a part of positioning and stitching exactly where it should be. And that meaningful intention produces a quilt with a purpose, a journey to its home, a story, a love thing. I make quilts and any of my art with the exact same passion and drive I live my life. I want it to be purposeful, time consuming on purpose, tell a story, be a visual representation of what God made. I want to exude love, scream out that this was on purpose. I took my time and valued it. That, my friend, is exquisitely beautiful. 

Downing a Draught of Daylight

Daylight to me is life. And it has nothing to do with the sun, no matter how much I love the sun. It is the Son, Jesus Christ who is the Light and Truth. I drink deeply of the daylight of God’s truth and love and holiness. There is no greater or more satisfying energy source than a that of humble worship, intense prayer and Bible study. And obedience is life. I obey God because He is the only One worthy of our healthy fear and respect but moreso or equally rather because I know He loves me. He holds me when I cry or ask Him. He wipes my tears. He allows me to be tried and tested to be sure I know where my heart is toward Him in reality. He already knows. He thinks of little tiny me in the big universe enough to hear my prayers. Wow! Have you truly considered that? The best thing that ever happened to me was humbly accepting Jesus Christ as my Savior and starting a love and respect relationship with God who lovingly and purposefully made everything I know about and even don’t know about. Oh how I love Him!!! ❤

Encouragement Fosters Life

I have few but potent encouragers in my life and quite frankly, I was lost in either a damaged or grieving or pouting much in my life up to now, so sad to say but I confess it freely. I have been wounded much of my life and feel like a really slow learner in that now, after 43 entire, jam packed years of life, I finally get it. Humble plus prayer and Bible study equals health, peace, joy, forgiveness, love, wholeness, contentment, healing, blessings, provision and all good things. I have been missing that key and an encouraging friend opened my eyes with God’s help and pointed me down the right road. I thought I was on it but was still criss crossing the right road while meandering down my own. I realize my road was sometimes the right road and sometimes had that extra element of pride that produced ugly things sometimes. I felt rules were sometimes a gray and that life should sometimes go the way I wanted and God could figure out how to make that work well enough. I’m not making this up, folks, and I am pretty sure I am not alone. Lol But now! Encouragement from a friend breathed life into me and made me realize my stupidity in not getting it right so long. Most of my actions and about half my words were right and good and correct but my heart inside was as often motivated by my own foolish pride than God’s perfect loving will, His Word/Truth. And this encouragement was not what you would expect. It wasn’t pretty affirmations or vain flattery or tickling praises on a job well done. Nope. It was a reprimand made about similar heart problems in someone else not even meant for me. But it resonated and made me think and realize (and I am sure someone was praying for me, thank you!!!). I needed to have everything ripped from me to realize in my or any humble heart, God comforts, blesses, purifies, answers, restores, draws close, forgives, walks with, etc. Humbling your heart and talking to God opens the door to His throne room where instead of judging, He comes to hug you. Encouragement, I have found, is not flattery at all. It is truth telling. Flat out telling the truth. The truth of God is encouraging beyond measure when you are humbly walking and talking with God and caustic when you are away from Him. That is why evil doers seemingly happy in their evil pride and haughtiness like I was find truth unsettling and needing modification to feel better and some even fight truth tooth and nail. Say that five times fast. Lol So, my hearty thanks go out all who tell me the truth/encourage me. I hope to encourage you. That has always been my goal. And if you encourage/truth tell, may God bless you heartily. I love you much! I try to resemble that every day. My heart is growing in leaps and bounds with humility and frequent prayers. May yours be also. God bless you on your journey! ❤