Surprises, but Not the Good Kind

I love suprises. Usually.

Today, however, when getting home and looking forward to lunch, I was treated to two flat tires on my vehicle. Not one, but two. Two screws, one in each tire. “How does this happen?”, immediately goes through the mind. “Did I drive through a screw farm? No, not even a shoulder was touched,” as I re-drove my travels in my mind.

But was I hot? Yes. It is Florida in summer. But bothere? Nah. We got this.

My son aired up the tires and now I am sitting at Walmart awaiting the tire heroes to patch my tires. They are even checking my front tires to be sure. And it is covered under my roadside coverage from here!

So, surprise inconvenience and intrusion, yes, but perhaps it saved me from grueling work at the house that was my after lunch goal because the kids want to skate tonight. Maybe that is what God wants me to do. Relax for a change. And it didn’t cost a dime. How often does that happen?? God is so good!❤

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Journey Onward

My heart is uptight today. Not enough sleep is probably the reason but it is always really more than that, isn’t it. And we washed and waxed the vans today and cleared off and swept the back patio in preparation to finally put flooring down. And I have lost more so am at minus 24 pounds now and look great. All these things and I should be happy. Much moreso, I have the deep underlying joy and peace from God in my spirit and that is always my constant. However, today I have anxt. I know why. Sometimes the frustrations of life buckle down in us, just fall in and create weight on our hearts. And I feel things moving in the spirit world, being much more sensitive to that as I draw closer to the Lord and deeper in His Word. And things are going on. The enemy is stepping up his game and God is, in answer to faith and prayer, stepping up His game and reminding said enemy who really owns everything. And here I am doing my little work and feeling it all. And sometimes ya just gotta feel it and keep working and doing your best and just pray more. And that is my job. And I will be faithful in that work. God bless you all. Hang in there! Love you, friend.❤

Living Your Life

1. I have my life to live and my journey to make.

2. I cannot walk someone else’s journey without failing mine.

3. Noone can walk my journey without failing theirs.

4. God is the Creator of the journey.

5. We can defy God or draw close to Him.

6. Each person must chose their eternity with God or without Him during this life journey. (Without Him is a horrible place.)

7. Jesus gets us to God and salvation. (A great place to be.)

8. Only you can be you and travel your journey.

9. Walking your own journey with Jesus is success.

10. I want to be successful and am no matter what uniqueness my journey holds because Jesus is my focus. ❤

Life’s Strange Journeys and Perfect Imperfection

I believe that from conception, we are destined to be on a strange journey until we leave this body and go to our eternal destination. I believe that we are on that strange journey partly because of the choices we make out of pride, selfishness, greed or even good intentions, but also because of the choices God makes in leading is toward Himself and a glorious eternity. I believe life is beautiful because everyone’s strange journey is unique. Even if it parallels another person’s journey, the giftedness of each person is unique, their looks or ethnicity is unique, their other relationships are unique, and these differences are part of the beauty. And all the twists and turns make it even more beautiful and hopefully closer to God. And my own personal story, wrought with glory, joy, happiness, intense pain, more intense pain, almost killed me pain, beauty, nature, travel, lots and lots of people, distance at times and now extreme closeness to God, music, art, leadership, degrees from formal education, life education, children, husband, and grandchildren, and weirdness. This has been the highlights of my life. I would not change a damn thing, not even the near death experiences, not even the depression, and definitely not all the good moments or those two seconds when life was perfect and I felt loved unconditionally by a person which faded fast. All of it and definitely my relationship with God my Father, I would not change one thing. It is accumulatively strange and beautiful. No one’s story is mine. No one’s mind is filled with my memories and story. These together are my steange and amazing journey. And yours is just as unique and strange.and beautiful. This is exactly as God designed and intended. Perfectly imperfect.❤

Another Haircut

Those who know me through life trials, know that when I go through really bad stuff that tries and humbles and changes me, I change something and the deepest wounds produce a haircut. This one, however, was only a couple inches off to a below the shoulder bobbed cut. To me, it signals a change. Lesson learned and I got it and grew and time to move on. Deep wounds don’t make the reasoning so quickly and some short cuts are from mourning grief more than resolve but I know God always gets me there. I am teachable. Not always easily so. So no I am b undertaking a peaceful challenge, a new forced resolve I had not counted on so quickly, a concession in my soul, a huge change. And this haircut is making peace with my new lot in life. And where it would have depressed me a year or two ago, now it is the most natural course in the world. I had a good run and God will sustain me through this challenge. And I see what I have to give up as a sacrifice to draw closer in dependence to God. I have always believed that life is what we make of it and our perspective changes everything for better or worse. Since we cannot change some things, better to find the blessing and rock on. Life is about the journey, baby. Kicks ya around sometimes, but what a beautiful ride.😄❤

A New Reality

It never ceases to amaze me how much life changes. In love, out of love, in love and married, disaster hits, divorce, in love and married, changing times. And that is just one topic.

Maturing physically then maturing spiritually then blowing both and restarting and in and out of churches and roles in them and that is just one more topic.

No kids then one kid then another comes along and they grow then I am homeschooling them and have them 24/7 as they keep growing and changing and that is just one topic.

It goes on and on and these things and growing and maturing and changing goes on all at the same time. And in the middle somewhere is trying hard not to just survive but to also do music and write and heal and share faith as gifted to allow God to work through me as He made me to do. And the new reality of life looks so very different than it did even three years ago. Just so different. People come and go from life- key people you thought were staples of existence- just leave. New people arrive and old relationships are restored. Forgiveness happens. Amazingly, God keeps up with all the changes and keeps loving and helping and protecting us all. Incredible. And I am realizing the greatness applied from God is so very real in this skin, in this home, in this church, in this city. And God is not a powerful entity far from us in space somewhere, moody and irrational and distant unless we do exactly what He demands. He is right here, right now, loving and pulling us to Him for rest and comfort and peace and safety and never surprised by anything but ever eager for our choice to be to love Him back. How I love Him! ❤

Blessings of No TV

So, my daughter got herself properly grounded from the tv. And I am tempted to get rid of it completely. She is such a different girl- more lively, active, outdoors, playing, using her imagination, doing crafts, reading, playing piano, praying, cleaning with me, playing games, so on. Why the heck do I have a tv when it turns my baby’s head to mush? Without it, we are much healthier and happier. And she likes it better too, willingly offered to extend her grounding to a month. Lol. This “punishment” is the best blessing ever. We are in love with life without tv. Life us incredible when lived and not watched.❤