So, there once was this guy. He grew up smack dab in the middle of a family of five and was a very sensitive soul. However he soon found out the world was not a sensitive place. Born and raised in the Bronx, he quickly grew an outer hard shell to protect his sensitive insides. Protection and safety was the name of the game. All about himself, he was.
He loved and left many, had three children along the way and is on his third wife. He is afraid to be alone, afraid to be vulnerable, afraid to be hurt, afraid to be bored, afraid to be rejected, afraid to not have what he needs in a woman or in life, and all the while fights to be a man, though he was largely left alone as a boy. His favorite wife (the second and most beautiful person he actually loved) tired of his fears and games and other women.
One day, he met a woman unlike any other he had ever met before, different than any other woman ever. She became his soul mate. Theirs was the deepest love you could imagine, at least on her side and maybe on his for a time too once he realized he had nothing to fear in her. Seemed a perfect match And both were very happy together.
But life was complicated and he ran to a worthless woman who offered him a house to co-own, becoming his wife number 3. The girl who loved him so much just couldn’t compete with his fears. Instead of embracing her strong love, he threw her away as if she were the garbage and the fears were the truth. She could not compete with irrational fear and lies bought and paid for. No one could except the horrible number 3 who gave him a house. Turns out that is what he wanted more than anything, more than happiness, more than peace, more than passionate love. Four walls and a roof. With someone so afraid, how can love compete with false beliefs of fear?
What this poor guy has yet to learn is that love is the only solid truth security and love is the only thing that can drive out fear. Fear is a liar and sucks your joy. When we realize love is a million times stronger than fear, our maturity then can pull joy and peace in and secure the heart in that love. Love is not a place but a Person and God is love.❤❤❤
Tonya LaLonde 
Love, love, love! What a poor soul to have been blessed with 2 of the most beautiful women. Praying for the day his heart’s need for true love outweighs his perceived troubled needs of the materialistic. As always, love your words!
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Love you, Joani. You are truly beautiful and his pitiful choices are never a reflection of any lack in you or any of the trail of tears he left behind in his quest to quiet his fears and get the next best thing. And oh what potential for true love has been discarded… twice!! If he believed the truth, he would hate himself for what he lost in you. Maybe he does now and that is his sadness. It can’t be me, he doesn’t remember I even exist. You are a precious treasure. I know this truth.. only God can truly satisfy. Truth. Love you. Hugs!😄❤
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