The Beauty of Separation

Sometimes, as has happened in my life and so many others I know of, a separation occurs. A betrayal or abandonment or broken promise. Sometimes it is in a marriage where one decides to up and leave, sometimes a close friend drops you unexpectedly like a bad habit, sometimes you are fired all of a sudden. I believe it is worse where emotional attachments and history together have accumulated. But whatever the betrayal, it is very common in our out for me kind of culture we are finding ourselves in. And when confronted with such a deep wound and heavy heartache, which you feel will literally kill you from the brokenness, you want to say or scream or cry different messages to the offender at different times. You really want to have kept things as they were or stayed in the relationship or what have you and that one-sidedness is what hurt the most maybe. It is a blatant rejection, and you question yourself and everyone and nothing makes sense anymore for a while, it was about a year for me. At a year, I reflected and learned this… there is a beauty in separation you can sometimes obtain in no other way. When someone was removed from your life, quite often God knew something that you did not, maybe about their moral character or your unhealthy over-attachment or their financial insufficiencies or your struggle with them to be who you were meant to be or what have you. There are a myriad of reasons we may not even be aware of. For instance, a man God saved me from that at the time I believed was perfect for me I later ended up finding out he had been a wife beater and cheater and dead beat dad and lived off of women. Yuck! I was young and naive and blindly in deep love but God saved me despite my protests and saved me again and then comforted me and brought me close to Himself. That would never have happened had the painful at the time separation never occurred. So my point is that God knows full well what is best for you and you can trust Him explicitely. He’s got your back. You cannot see what is in another person’s heart but God can and does. And if your heart must be broken to make something much more beautiful from it, it is well worth the pain and God comforts and gives peace and joy as He heals you. God can be trusted. Take what is dealt you where separation is the case. Often it is for your best and with God, He always makes beauty from the deepest of wounds.❤

It Occurred to Me

I look forward to doing what God wants me to do, no matter what that is. He gives me enjoyment and makes it fun to be where He wants me to be at the moment. This is HIS gift to me for obedience. It is beautiful. I am not sure how else to describe it. He makes me want to do it. Either He gives me this enjoyment from whatever task before I start by giving me the desire or after I obey when someone else asks me for Him to do it. And it occurred to me… God is very cool.❤

Crosses to Bear

“Let us remember that it is not God who makes many of the crosses that we find in our way, such as we commonly call ‘crosses’. Out Heavenly Father makes ‘straight paths for our feet’, and if we would go in His way, if we would straighten our our wills to His will, and lay them side by side, there would be no crosses. But when the path that God points out goes north and south, and our stubborn will leads us east and west, the consequence is ‘a cross’- a cross of our own making, not that cross which our Master bids us take up and carry after Him, and of which it has been well said, ‘He always carries the heaviest end Himself.'” ~Annie Webb-Peploe❤

Playing for Worship Again

So, since we took a break from the worship band at church so others could play who felt called to, I got a month off and they have mysteriously needed me to fill in on piano or keyboard ever since. Hmmmm. Well, it is for me to obey and if God wants me to play, He will lead someone to ask me. I am for God, whatever He wants, all His. And as much as I dislike midweek practice, I that much more love leading worship with the talent He has given me. So if I play or don’t play, may God’s will be done and Him honored and worshiped! To God Be the glory! ❤❤❤

A Time to Do What?

There is a time for everything, everything has its own time and season. The trick is figuring out what is the right time for which. It helps to have obstacles and distractions out of the way first. Then you pray a whole lot. And just start doing something you feel tugged to do and wait. If you are doing God’s will, He gives you peace and joy and the world attacks you because the enemy knows you are obeying God and hates that. So do not interpret resistance as God telling you no but gage your peace quotient and if you are really staying humble and happy serving, helping people and have peace, even if attacked outwardly, you are doing exactly what you should be. For God delights in our humble obedience and our persistent drawing close to Him. It is beautiful. And His blessings far outweigh momentary comforts the world offers with lies and deceit of all flavors. Do not be fooled. Do what is right and rebuke/force the rest out of your life with the great authority God provides you through Jesus’ name. When God has your back forever, what else really matters? ❤