People I Love

There are people I will love forever.

There are people that I will never like

But these people I still love.

There are people I will never see again

But loving them is a constant companion.

There are people I love that do not know

Because they didn’t realize their impact

And how their words or deeds uplifted me.

There are people I love that don’t love Jesus

And reject Him as their Savior

And that breaks my heart for them

For my love wants them forever in heaven.

There are people I love I consider every day

And I just pray for them because that is all I can do

I will never see or speak to them again.

There are people who love me, but not many.

Although I love deeply, I don’t present it.

I keep it inside, not for fear or any bad thing

But to keep from being overwhelmed by it all.

There are many people that I love, some deeply.

And I continue to pray. I will always pray.❤

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A Forgiveness Note

To Whom It May Concern,

Hello. It has been a really long time since we spoke. I want you to know something, for my part. I am very sincerely sorry for every distress I caused you. And I fully forgive any distress you caused me. At the time, I did not understand why you willfully bestowed such intense pain on me. I did not understand the lies and betrayal and traumatic pain. But now I realize fully that God designed that to humble me and bring me to trust deeper and more fully in Him. God is my anchor. He is magnificent. And the pain from you I forgive fully and thank you for causing it. I have never learned so much in such a short period of time. And although it was so very long ago, I needed to write these words and release you of any guilt or pain or sin against me. I forgive you freely and happily and with love. And I encourage you to draw close to God and cling to Him for safety and security. Trust God only. He never let’s us down.

With Sincerity and Love,

Tonya😄❤

Remembering Rejection

I know a lot of my regular readers are young and therefore are either going through the hurt of rejection or it is still piercing to think of. And I remembered back to that historical sting. And I was amazed to realize that the rejection that made me depressed at the time and still cry when I had thought of it in past times no longer had that affect on me. In fact, I felt sorry for the rejector and prayed for him and his horrible wife he ended up with. If it is any consolation for you at all, I find that if God wants you with that person, you will be with them, and when He knows (as He always does) it is not best or sees their true heart and knows you need to be free of them, He relieves you of them. And it is a loving thing to do. God dispenses people from your life when they will hurt you worse for longer by staying with them. Accept it. Appreciate being loved so much. It hurts so much, but trust that God knows more than you do and is keeping you from something far far worse. Please be blessed. Please be comforted by running to God’s arms. Please find rest and peace and joy in God. He loves you unconditionally. ❤

Just Pray, Rest & Continue

Today I missed people. I missed my family I don’t get to see, those I love that are no longer Earth- bound, people I love I haven’t seen in years and miss all of a sudden. How much is hormones and genuine missing, I am unsure, but I have been exhausted with missing all day. So I just prayed. God comforted me. I rested. I forced some shut eye, no sleep but rest. And I kept moving. I cooked meals, did two consults in Sebring, taught school, watered the garden, and am at my daughter’s baseball game keeping score. So, even on bad days where you’d give anything to not feel awful missing people you love, you can just pray, rest, and continue. And that is enough.❤

Moving On & All Healed Up

Today, I saw an old friend about to play basketball this afternoon at Duff park as we passed to get to the batting cages for my kids to practice. This old friend had hurt me deeply, an offense that separated our friendship. And I had required a great deal of healing from God. Today, seeing this old friend reminded me of God’s complete healing and power because I felt nothing but a need to pray for them. And that was it. No rehashing, no bad feelings, all fully forgive and healed. Only God can do that, friend. ❤ 😍

NYE Gig

So, we brought in the New Year with our band family and amazing people who paid a lot of money to see us. And it went great. With a new drummer and lead male vocalist, the whole night had a new, fresh flavor. I really dig thr new drummer. I haven’t wanted to dance like that since Wil left us and it was so much fun again!!! ❤ And our singer did an amazing job covering some pretty difficult standards. So it was fantastic and I am so happy with our band! And our dancing audience had a wonderful time, so many compliments! Praise God! ❤