Just Keep Praying

My physical/emotional self is tired. Tired of selfishness, tired of games people play, tired of drama, tired of caring and not being cared for back, tired of pride unchecked, tired of the weight on my shoulders all the time, tired of stress. So true. So true. But…

The mental self can still be moved, can be tintilated by puzzles, can be engaged in enigmas. Can still co-create and write, can still be energized and awakened and thrilled. But…

My main focus I have decided is on my spiritual self, for that will remain into eternity. Here is where the Holy Spirit (who dwells there) reminds me to keep praying, keep doing what is right, keep worshipping. And here He gives me energy when I humbly ask and finally put the tired physical/emotional down. I am reminded that when I feel tired all over and overwhelmed is when I have not humbled myself to prayer and spirit where renewal generously flows over me and rest is sweet and burdens light. Joy and peace are there. For there I meet with my Savior. Sweet relief.

This post is a reminder to myself and a reminder to whoever needs it to humble up, put the physical down, and just keep praying. And peace and joy flow there. Praise God! 😄❤

Charlie Woke Me

I have started exercising/walking again. And Charlie woke me up just now. Charlie the horse, that is. He is most unwelcome and has disturbed my sleep and a rather disturbed dream. Not sure which put me at odds more, but Charlie is quite painful. After a bit of liquid to counteract old Charlie, I am headed back to bed. I believe it is all owing to my very busy day tomorrow will be. I have patients to see 45 minutes away, evaluation for my kids’ homeschooling year, more patients to see an hour and a half away then a baseball game. Just thinking about all that exhausts me. And here comes bad old Charlie to kick me in my calves while sleeping poorly. Not good. And then Friday is also busy all day and then so is Saturday.

But you know who is in control of my day and my safety and my ragged car keeping running and my family’s adaptability? Yes, God is. You see, I walk with Him and stay close to Him all the time. So when I am out of strength, I just ask Him to help me more and He does. He has unlimited strength whereas I cannot do all this alone. The Holy Spirit is my super power and not so secret weapon. God is always quite literally with me. I praise Him for this! I praise God for His many blessings!

And now I will go back to sleep and sleep soundly, remembering that God is my strength and song. I need fear no overly-busy schedule. I never fear anyone or anything, for that matter. God is in control! Woo-hoo!!😄❤

John 4:6

John 4:6. “Jacob’s well was there, and Jesus, tired as he was from the journey, sat down by the well. It was about noon.”

I find great comfort in the fact that even Jesus got tired from a great journey. We are on this journey of life and occasionally, like today, I get tired. I am in good company. I will sleep now and tomorrow be refreshed.❤

Fighting Tired

All of us who follow Jesus and draw closer to God every day are tired. We are still fighting the fight but the air is thick with spiritual/demonic activity and darkness. There is still nature where it is not but everywhere people are, there are spiritual attacks, illnesses, difficulties, financial issues, lust issues, greed, malicious words, lack of truth, whatever the case may be. It is thick. The spiritual war is hot and heavy and it is exhausting, even when you give everything to God for Him to handle. Families are being hit hard and even when we are right, we have sadness for those who are lost and refuse to listen. We know their fate and it is a burden of great magnitude. So we fight but we are tired. We need to delay rest until heaven (not far off now) and keep fighting, prating, reading our Bibles, loving people, telling only the truth in love, serving. We need to. We have to. Maybe one more will listen and be saved. Maybe we can encourage each other. Fighting tired is the reality but keep in your joy and peace and keep fighting. God bless you and your efforts.❤

Tired Sometimes

I have a flaw. Several really. Ok, a lot of flaws. I am too honest and open. The problem is I see that as a good thing but most other people see it as horrible. Truth is, most people hate the truth now because it makes them feel guilty or exposes lies they would much rather believe or their feelings get hurt because so many they have packed around them because they coddled and encouraged them no matter how they acted. No, truth is tough for people to want around them these days. Another flaw is that I know people have flaws too around tend I am very well versed in my own but some I tire of, like unfaithfulness or disloyalty or addictions that come between couples or lies. I have a really hard time coping with these breaches in trust and it is hard for me to take and act like it doesn’t hurt me so much like it does. It is hard, for example, to feel like other naked women are just peachy for your partner or spouse to gawk and get off on on act consistent basis. Like that is good for the relationship. Like everyone should be happy about that. But I have flaws too. So am I expecting perfection when I am not able to deliver perfection and there is the rub. I question myself. Am I judgmental or fair? So, here is my answer. When I don’t know which way is morally right, I should see what the Author of morals says about it in His Book. Is it okay to get off on naked women other than your spouse? Nope. There are a lot of verses on fornication and adultery and not coveting someone else’s wife and stuff. So it is right to be upset about that. Also in there, is it right to judge someone else guilty of sins against you? Nope. Many verses also talk adultery bout not judging and not forgiving. So both are wrong. So, looking at it a different way, what do I do when wronged without becoming wrong myself? The answer is there to forgive and pray. God pays back wrongs and will forgive us the same way we forgive. That is it. It is a practice of letting go. Not trying to control someone else or how little they choose to love you back or understanding their coping mechanism is hurtful to you but makes them feel better for about what fifteen seconds. Obviously I need more work, but it is a start to know that I am flawed and so is everyone else and God is not at all. So when we feel flawed upon or when we have flawed upon someone else, God absolutely needs to be involved. God, I asndollm so sorry for any judgment I have passed onto anyone in my life. Please take this flaw and burden weighing heavily on me and help me be the best person I can be and help this person You and I love in what way they need. Please help me say the right thing at the right time or be quiet when needed and give me comfort and peace and joy. Thank You, mighty, loving and Holy God. And there it is. God bless us all!