Just Keep Praying

My physical/emotional self is tired. Tired of selfishness, tired of games people play, tired of drama, tired of caring and not being cared for back, tired of pride unchecked, tired of the weight on my shoulders all the time, tired of stress. So true. So true. But…

The mental self can still be moved, can be tintilated by puzzles, can be engaged in enigmas. Can still co-create and write, can still be energized and awakened and thrilled. But…

My main focus I have decided is on my spiritual self, for that will remain into eternity. Here is where the Holy Spirit (who dwells there) reminds me to keep praying, keep doing what is right, keep worshipping. And here He gives me energy when I humbly ask and finally put the tired physical/emotional down. I am reminded that when I feel tired all over and overwhelmed is when I have not humbled myself to prayer and spirit where renewal generously flows over me and rest is sweet and burdens light. Joy and peace are there. For there I meet with my Savior. Sweet relief.

This post is a reminder to myself and a reminder to whoever needs it to humble up, put the physical down, and just keep praying. And peace and joy flow there. Praise God! πŸ˜„β€

Charlie Woke Me

I have started exercising/walking again. And Charlie woke me up just now. Charlie the horse, that is. He is most unwelcome and has disturbed my sleep and a rather disturbed dream. Not sure which put me at odds more, but Charlie is quite painful. After a bit of liquid to counteract old Charlie, I am headed back to bed. I believe it is all owing to my very busy day tomorrow will be. I have patients to see 45 minutes away, evaluation for my kids’ homeschooling year, more patients to see an hour and a half away then a baseball game. Just thinking about all that exhausts me. And here comes bad old Charlie to kick me in my calves while sleeping poorly. Not good. And then Friday is also busy all day and then so is Saturday.

But you know who is in control of my day and my safety and my ragged car keeping running and my family’s adaptability? Yes, God is. You see, I walk with Him and stay close to Him all the time. So when I am out of strength, I just ask Him to help me more and He does. He has unlimited strength whereas I cannot do all this alone. The Holy Spirit is my super power and not so secret weapon. God is always quite literally with me. I praise Him for this! I praise God for His many blessings!

And now I will go back to sleep and sleep soundly, remembering that God is my strength and song. I need fear no overly-busy schedule. I never fear anyone or anything, for that matter. God is in control! Woo-hoo!!πŸ˜„β€

John 4:6

John 4:6. “Jacob’s well was there, and Jesus, tired as he was from the journey, sat down by the well. It was about noon.”

I find great comfort in the fact that even Jesus got tired from a great journey. We are on this journey of life and occasionally, like today, I get tired. I am in good company. I will sleep now and tomorrow be refreshed.❀

Fighting Tired

All of us who follow Jesus and draw closer to God every day are tired. We are still fighting the fight but the air is thick with spiritual/demonic activity and darkness. There is still nature where it is not but everywhere people are, there are spiritual attacks, illnesses, difficulties, financial issues, lust issues, greed, malicious words, lack of truth, whatever the case may be. It is thick. The spiritual war is hot and heavy and it is exhausting, even when you give everything to God for Him to handle. Families are being hit hard and even when we are right, we have sadness for those who are lost and refuse to listen. We know their fate and it is a burden of great magnitude. So we fight but we are tired. We need to delay rest until heaven (not far off now) and keep fighting, prating, reading our Bibles, loving people, telling only the truth in love, serving. We need to. We have to. Maybe one more will listen and be saved. Maybe we can encourage each other. Fighting tired is the reality but keep in your joy and peace and keep fighting. God bless you and your efforts.❀

Tired Sometimes

I have a flaw. Several really. Ok, a lot of flaws. I am too honest and open. The problem is I see that as a good thing but most other people see it as horrible. Truth is, most people hate the truth now because it makes them feel guilty or exposes lies they would much rather believe or their feelings get hurt because so many they have packed around them because they coddled and encouraged them no matter how they acted. No, truth is tough for people to want around them these days. Another flaw is that I know people have flaws too around tend I am very well versed in my own but some I tire of, like unfaithfulness or disloyalty or addictions that come between couples or lies. I have a really hard time coping with these breaches in trust and it is hard for me to take and act like it doesn’t hurt me so much like it does. It is hard, for example, to feel like other naked women are just peachy for your partner or spouse to gawk and get off on on act consistent basis. Like that is good for the relationship. Like everyone should be happy about that. But I have flaws too. So am I expecting perfection when I am not able to deliver perfection and there is the rub. I question myself. Am I judgmental or fair? So, here is my answer. When I don’t know which way is morally right, I should see what the Author of morals says about it in His Book. Is it okay to get off on naked women other than your spouse? Nope. There are a lot of verses on fornication and adultery and not coveting someone else’s wife and stuff. So it is right to be upset about that. Also in there, is it right to judge someone else guilty of sins against you? Nope. Many verses also talk adultery bout not judging and not forgiving. So both are wrong. So, looking at it a different way, what do I do when wronged without becoming wrong myself? The answer is there to forgive and pray. God pays back wrongs and will forgive us the same way we forgive. That is it. It is a practice of letting go. Not trying to control someone else or how little they choose to love you back or understanding their coping mechanism is hurtful to you but makes them feel better for about what fifteen seconds. Obviously I need more work, but it is a start to know that I am flawed and so is everyone else and God is not at all. So when we feel flawed upon or when we have flawed upon someone else, God absolutely needs to be involved. God, I asndollm so sorry for any judgment I have passed onto anyone in my life. Please take this flaw and burden weighing heavily on me and help me be the best person I can be and help this person You and I love in what way they need. Please help me say the right thing at the right time or be quiet when needed and give me comfort and peace and joy. Thank You, mighty, loving and Holy God. And there it is. God bless us all! 

On Being Tired

Sleep is one thing. Rest is another. I have found rest in the Lord and comfort and peace and encouragement from His Word, the Bible. I have found confusion and chaos and emotional imbalance and ugliness and evil and divisiveness everywhere else. God is peace and calm. If there is unrest and confusion, that is not God. His message is simple and clear because He wants everyone saved. He wants us to have rest and peace. God wants us to know peace in any circumstance because we know how big and awesome He is. If our Champion is the Creator of everything we know of, and He is, then there is nothing else to be afraid of. He holds us through the good and the bad and loves us unconditionally throughout it all. Resting in Him is the only true peace. I am a testament to this only because God taught me this lesson after a myriad of botched attempts to find peace myself. Tired of losing at it, I gave up and gave God it all and He has given me the reward of peace and clarity. What a fantastic blessing of a gift! I wish it on everyone, even mean and selfish people. Especially mean and selfish people. πŸ™‚

Standing Tired

I am tired. I am still standing for truth, justice and the American country God’s way, but I am tired. Those of us in the midst of this spiritual war we are in (whether we realize it or not) are tired. We are only human, after all, right? The war rages on relentlessly and each person seems a tug of was between good and evil in their hearts. I fight it in mine also. The battle is actually not easing down but ramping up. We stand for the Lord but we’re getting so beaten up by evil that we are tired. So, what do we do for that? Give up? Well, people who say we come without a manual are mistaken. We have the Bible, which teaches us everything we ever need to know about life and war. We read in there that we are to wear our Spiritual armor every day, which includes reading the Bible and praying, knowing our salvation and having the fruits of the Spirit evidenced in our lives. It also says to meet together with other people of like faith (which assumes they actually have some of that) and encourage each other in the faith (not put on a show, not join with them in dogmatic rituals, not speak our own minds). We need to be very careful of the churches we are attending in these spiritually disturbing times. Many churches are really not serving the Lord anymore but just themselves, being more worldly than the world and teaching traditional opinion of man rather than Biblical opinion of God. There are still some around where the enemy hasn’t found a way to corrupt, so seek them out. Please don’t get me wrong. I am not encouraging church jumping on a whim. I am only saying that if the church you are attending does not worship the Lord and teach the Bible without adding their own opinion as fact, etc., stand up for God and follow the Biblical protocols for addressing the situation. If independent, you are within the Biblical mandate to shake off the dust from your feet from there and seek out a church home that is in accordance with Scripture. We can study the Bible ourselves and pray and we should eagerly and faithfully do that, but we still need to encourage each other in a way that gives us needed strength but also gives all honor to God and not anyone else. I will refresh my soul in this way and will not stand tired but hopeful that I am doing what I should be doing and can rest peacefully in the hope that Christ gives us when evil will pass away forever! I want to go to heaven if for no other reason than the fact that the Spiritual war will be over and there will not be bad guys ever again! Yay!