Since childhood, I have wondered about everything. It is a wonder I am still alive, to be truthful, as my curiosity has often crossed my fearlessness into daring and wreck less experiments just to see what would happen. I lived searching out truth. I wanted to know everything, how it works, how to fix it, how to make people’s lives better, how to make things easier for people. I have invented a number of things and written many songs (stopped counting after 400). I just want to do something new, is there anything new to do, has everything been thought of, is there no original thought left to be made, how does it all work, why did God makenit m like that, what purpose does that make? All these questions randomly pop into my brain. In childhood, I had more leisure time to wonder. I also had a very big, dangerous park close by which was not safe by any standards in thr late 1970’s to experiment with. (Consequently, serious shout out to my amazing and very strong and fast guardian angel, you rock and thank you!)
I still wonder about things, but I have so many responsibilities and distractions and family to care for that I have lately only had time to n ponder spiritual matters. What is heaven like, how will we recognize each other without bodies, do I pray enough for forgiveness of thoughtless sins, have the seeds I have n planted or watered in people’s souls helped lead them tosalvation, is the world better or worse for my having lived here, have my bad choices made me less effective a Christian? So many questions.
The good news is that God that I love and that loves me knows all these answers and I do not have to. Someday I will be able to ask in person and that is just an incredible thought. The more questions I have, the more I read my Bible and am satisfied. So as I wonder, I do so tongue in cheek, with great faith that the answers will be uncovered sooner than later and I am in God’s capable.hands in the meanwhile. Praise God!😄❤❤❤
Most nights now, I sleep like a baby.
Tonight I am still awake at 2:30am with my thoughts and songs.
And I made peace with my past yet again.
And I realize that without the devastation, I would not know myself so well. I would not be so strong and realize it fully.
So much more importantly, without the horrible, I never would have known the enor ity of the love of God. I would never have known the vast depth of His comfort. I would have never fully comprehended that if all I ever had in this world was Jesus Christ, I would be perfectly complete.
So, having completed that very precious truth in my brain, I will now go to sleep. Peaceful and full of joy.
God is everything. All is well. No worries. Ever.♥
During the day, I am very busy. This is an extremely busy season of our lives. I keep busy, I have no choice. But at night, alone and quiet in my bed, the rest of the house asleep and dreaming sweet or weird dreams as they may. That is when my wondering happens. Right before dreams come to me, I have thoughts. I wonder about all kinds of things. Some are beautiful and good, magnificent and praiseworthy things. Some are dark and mysterious, bordering on temptations. And this is when I have to stop the turn made and double back to good again. I cannot do this on my own. The Holy Spirit in me is powerful enough to tame my rambling mind and kick out what was kicked out hundreds of times before and reverse direction to godly wonder. It is not for me to choose what to think about, it is for me to contritely obey God when He said to think about things that are good and honorable and praiseworthy. That was commanded. So I need to constantly check my thought wondering and especially at night when it is hardest, obey God with the powerful help of the Holy Spirit. He helps every time I really want Him to and convicts me when I don’t. What a gift He is!!❤❤❤
So I found out recently that a long lost friend of mine took up playing piano. And I was curious, so I checked it out and saw him play on a video. For someone who used to play drums in our band, I was super impressed he is shining on my instrument after only a month. He is either a natural or really passionate about playing. Either way will get you there and I am so very happy for him. I am sure he doesn’t even consider me anymore, maybe forgot my name even by now, but I was happily surprised by his accomplishment and hope the Lord uses that to bring joy to his life because he seemed very unhappy.
So a discovery sometimes is a welcome surprise that inspires and is often a mixed bag because it brings to mind remembrances and missing people. So like the kids’ song says, “Be careful, little eyes, what you see. Be careful, little hands, what you do. Be careful, little feet where you go. For the Father up above is looking down in love. Be careful, little mouths, what you say.” It is important to consider some discoveries as “That’s nice” moments and move on. Too much rumination does no good. Might sour things. Food for thought. 😄❤