When my daddy was still alive, he was my rock. He was the one person on earth (other than my best friend Shawn) who loved me unconditionally no matter what. Since he passed, I needed a new rock to support me. And when I found my Rock to support me, love me and lean on, I realized He should have been my Rock all along. This Rock is Jesus. I was close to the Lord most of my life but still tended to lean on my daddy for support and strength because He was the strongest person I knew. And I realize now that all this time and even now Jesus is way stronger and should have always been my Rock. I mean, He defeated death and that after enduring the worst beating in history and dying for sins we committed. This is the strength and love of our Rock, the Holy Savior who longs to be our Rock. I cannot tell you how much peace and joy come from humbly relying on Jesus Christ for everything I need. You have to discover that for yourself if you have not already. It is never too late.❤
I was able to be a supportive wife with my kids today at my husband’s gig at Old Town. Yet somehow my special kind of talent again allowed me to help set up and tear down as well as do the sound check as the lead female vocalist and pianist were late. So I worked during the gig and supported my husband and the band he was helping out. I always manage to be helping or filling in or something. I arrive and end up being a teacher or roadie or sound checker or boss or janitir, whatever the need is. That seems to be my talent. I guess that is either competent or a humble servant’s heart or just naive. In any case, God knows full well I work for Him and no one else. Those I help I see as helping Him. Someone asks me to help, I assume God just asked me to help. That is how I was brought up and how I am. And I guess my stubbornness and faith kick in and I do it whether or not I ever have, and God always blesses my efforts for Him. For instance, the band appreciated what I did and asked me to sing lead for them in another gig. So… cool. And God always blesses my support of my husband (even if he was really mean that day). It is funny. When I drop my pride and be supportive and do what I know I should do, God blesses and the I am treated better. Most of the time. But even if not, I am not working for a person, I work for God, you see. So this night was very fun and they were great and I am rewarded and happy and exhausted. Going to bed now. Sweet dreams, friend. ❤
Our greatest and sometimes only supportive love has always and will always come from God, our loving Heavenly Father. People are supportive often when it suits them or things are going well or if they are first supported in general. Of course there are exceptions, but enough has happened in my 43 years that I do not expect to be lovingly supported by anyone consistently except God. He made me, knows me inside and out, has been with me since before I was even a consideration, and is my future. Same for you, my friend. Lean on God who loves and supports you. Trust Him and go to Him for all your needs. God will not let you down and even in tests or at the dimented butt of an evil one’s jokes and whims, He gives peace and joy and nd nd justice will follow. Make no mistake. God has your back. ❤
Now, I know they are pawns. But it is still their choice. I will not support and purchase tickets and watch Hollywood movies or mainstream media channels anymore. I won’t support Facebook or Twitter. These companies are run by people evidently against unity in America. They want war, want derision, want chaos, was division, have gotten quite rich selling their bodies and running their minds for profit. They cannot seem to be able to support unity and our duly appointed President. And I refuse to send my children and pay for college at these universities bowing down to these entitled, spoiled, divisive brats. Why are people bowing down to these ingrates? Why are they protected? It is backwards. There is no good reason to promote this negativity. I thought it would die out and go away where it should be but it is not. Do not support these thugs, meaning the billionare owners of these people and companies. Their power is like a little twig God can snap anytime He chooses. Their money is filthy rags next to the glory of God. Our souls are more valuable than one decision to do evil and the Holy Spirit living in us is greater than any evil principalities ordering these puppets around.
When you have no energy, it is very difficult to show love. Love is service, attention, time, action, sometimes financial. Smiling and sitting with someone takes little energy and praying takes mental and spiritual energy, so that is a huge invisible way to show love. But other than these few huge exceptions, most other ways of showing love require energy. Always, love requires intention and purpose. So my point in these words is that we have to love ourselves and allow God to love us and heal us enough to increase our own energy before we can heap love on other people. And this is our goal. For some people, they want a relationship to heal them. But if you have no energy to contribute to the mutual love, you become a drain, a selfish heal me, serve me, love me better person. And it is as toxic situation for both really. God heals. People cannot do what He does without Him doing it. God loves. People cannot truly love purely and morally without God’s involvement. So, we must be sound peraonally and whole and have energy enough to show love to others before entering a mutual love relationship. Otherwise it does not last. So breath in deep of God’s love and grow strong in His love and care first. Then you have the means to do the work of love and thus worship to God that we are called to do. And I can and treat to this. I had no energy left so stopped most things I was doing and spent much time in prayer and the Bible and with family and supportive friends only. And the last two days brought renewed energy and a strong desire to give back love to those loving me and others who need love. And exercising has given me increased energy also and serves to provide additional health and support so that I may serve love. It is and beautiful system when it works as designed!