My Son’s Journey

My son is now a few months from 14 years of age. He is voice is changing. His mood is changing. His confidence is growing, sometimes too quickly. But God be praised, his spiritual maturity is growing. I just dropped him off at 4:15 am this morning to go on a week long Honduras missions trip. They are building a church by day and holding Bible study at night. He is growing closer to God every day. We read the Bible and pray together several times a day and I lead by faith and works. He is a good boy and is unmoved by the several girls who have already noticed and are pursuing him. He wants to be true to who God made him.

I say all these things not to brag, but I want you to know that every step we take closer to God or sadly farther from Him is our own choice. He went through my painful divorce and many turbulence with new step parents on both sides and he has chosen to be God’s son and focus on God. And God rewards and blesses him, as He does so often with all of us who chose to obey. And despite some sins/ mistakes made on the journey, God is only ever a humble prayer away again. There is hope for our kids. Sure, he is homeschooled, but that us a possibility for everyone and we always have that personal choice to make regarding our spiritual maturity/walk and relationship with God.

I am fasting this week while he is gone that God’s will for all involved will be done and I know he is in God’s capable hands, right where he belongs and chooses to be. We all make that choice all the time, some knowingly and some unknowingly. Pleased be encouraged and God bless your choice and journey. Praise God!❤

An Inch

My son grew an inch overnight. Seriously. And don’t get me started on his shoe size. I should have invested in Nike- shoes, cleats, ugh!

I realize my son is becoming a man. He sounds like a frog when he talks. I will only hear the voice I knew as my son’s from recordings I had taken. He pays attention to his appearance. He has girls interested in him. He is growing up.

But I am not sad that I am losing my little boy who I wanted my whole life since high school graduation. I am hopeful that I have a young man who will be and is a good man, a good friend, a good husband, a good father, a good American and most of all a good Christian. This was always my goal, not to keep him forever but to give him to God to become a man God loves and blesses. And after many conversations with my son, we are definitely headed the right direction. I am so thankful!!❤

Officially a Teenager

So my son is officially a Teenager today!!! Woo hoo! So, we already had the party but today he picks the menu and we started the day with bacon and scrambled eggs. And if course, we are roller blading and swimming today… his favorite things. And I am so blessed by God with this amazing boy. He has had so much difficulty with step parents but he has had a lot of good stuff and strong Bible teaching and is developing into a really good, godly man. I am thankful and blessed that God is blessing him with ledership and integrity and strength. I love my boy! God is so good and I am very appreciative!❤

Walking With My Son

This morning, my son started walking with me. At 7am. For 1.4 miles minimum. Awake. And this is a huge deal because he, like me, is a night owl and not a morning person. It took having children to change me and here he is changing now. I attribute a lot to the Naval Sea Cadets he is a part of and most of it to God’s answer to my prayers to help him grow into a godly man. I believe this is a strong step toward responsibility and health and being ready to serve and I am very proud of him. And he kept up with me, who has been walking all this time! And he is bigger than me now, so I want him to be humble in spirit and teachable. Praise God for providing the overcoming of this milestone into manhood, even a tad bit early. I am so thankful!! ❤

New Chapter for Zach

So, my pre-teen son has been struggling lately with normal hormone issues plus his dad’s drama with his psychotic wife and two of her three boys’ meanness and his stepdad’s often acute critical attacks on him. So we thought it best to enroll him in the US Naval Sea Cadets (a Sea Bee battalion for his age group). This allows him to develop leadership skills and train him for many various skills and leadership and service rolls, as well as foster his growth and development in allows positive way. So today, I dropped him off for his first mini boot camp. Not only did I not have to wake him at 6am, but he was ready to go at 6am, having gotten himself up at 5:30am. We left early and were the first ones there. And the sunrise in was spectacular and affirming, with sunset pink colors and a heavy mist on the grassy fields we passed. I am excited for this new phase of his journey toward manhood. I am so proud of him. And the I got back and walked my mile and a half, talking to God the whole way, and am now sitting contentedly on the porch swing looking at this:

And I know God is in control and good and beautiful and I am so very appreciative for all His blessings and opportunities to serve. Oh how I love Him! God is sooooo good! ❤❤❤